Evening~
I took a sleeping tablet
yup I certainly did
I went over to Mia's house and had a real good time
I laughed so much my face hurt
She gave me curtains to make smaller
we said we'd try go to a convention this year
and that we'd meet up next week
I came home and knew at 9:30pm I was not gonna sleep considering
i had just walked in from laughing and had Oz to sit with and to wind down
so I dosed myself up
I only woke up once!
mum said this morning I had more colour in my face
simply from sleeping pretty well
Me and mum popped to the shops in the morning
I got 2 nail varnishes and some paint nothing special
then we had lunch
she went out so i danced but my dad came in and so i went for a shower
adam had rung whilst he was I was in the shower so I called him back
he basically didnt have his shift tonight he'd finished work at 2:30pm
instead of 11pm. He had no money. No house keys.
what an idiot!
his parents had taken a day trip to derbyshire which is different for them
as theyre both usually at work on a friday
so I would have certainly took my house keys and money just in case they couldnt
pick me up that night. but it didnt seem to register with adam
he sounded awful he said he was full of cold and had a sore throat
so no wonder he didnt think, his head is full of cotton wool
so I told him give me a few mins i will come get him
i spent 2 mins drying my dripping hair (i called him straight from the shower)
and set off. I picked him up and brought him to my house
so i collected his butt
at 3:30pm his parents said theyre come home (i reckon they came home for him)
so I told him i was going nigels at 4:15 could he wait and he did
but he didnt look so good
he never ever gets friday nights off and the day he does and hes sick!
hes got tomorrow off too which im glad about as it means he can rest
i said id go into the city centre tomorrow
he insists on coming
i might drop him off home instead of spending all day with him
do his mum's nails on sunday
my nails this week
nigel's was alright not too painful
i told him he gave me bruises last week XD
i was honestly quite hyper when i got to his house
no sugar binge was needed it would seem
i was just like on a high
and i said to adam which nigel then said to me later
'do you think you'd always be like that if it wasnt for all the problems with your health you have?'
any honestly, yeah i do
ive always been bouncy bubbly and very active
never one for keeping still and always running around
so maybe if i wasnt sick id just be a woman with ADHD XD
i came home and i ache quite nicely now
so i can say so long to sleep tonight
ugh
dont know what to do with myself as when ive had this treatment
i ache so i move around a lot anyway but also nigel says i have to not sit for long periods of time
so im like a fidget butt but dont know what to do with myself
suck sucks
anyway tomorrow is a city visit
its gonna be a lil chilly and rainy
so im wearing tracksuit and hoodie and cat ears of course X3
Evening
Last night when I just finished my diary I recall I wrote that
I felt quite sick, as soon as I finished my diary I ran to the toilet
where just loads of water came out my mouth it was gross and I shouted for
my brother to get mum and i really thought i was gonna be sick after all these years
she came with water, a fan and cold flannel
good old mum shes a saviour
even tho i was shaking and sweating i didnt vomit
my god i was grateful and it did pass but that whole thing that lasted 10 minutes
drained me for the rest of the night
just what the hell was that all about!? im never that nauseous
so grateful i wasnt sick
my brother asking my mum "has she drank something? is she on new medication? is she pregnant?"
right ok thanks for that
1st I dont drink, 2nd I am on new medication as of 4 weeks ago, thirdly id die if i was pregnant!
I managed to stay in my bed the whole night
woo but was waking up feeling off and cold
i woke up from 6am and i felt sickly but nothing like last night
i went school not wanting to go as its so dull its like watching paint dry
and im in a really uncomfortable seat
i dont get to move round the classroom im just stuck in a seat for hours on end
i came home at lunch and moaned at mum
when i came home from school i was so tired and exhausted that i cried
and said to mum i didnt want to go back to school
she said i was feeling negative cus i was feeling so knackered
but i was stressed with it all
with the decision on whether to go back or not
at 4:40pm i rang the agency and told them i wasnt going back to school
that i felt poorly theyre always a bit arsy about it but i felt like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders dramatically i can always tell when i enjoy school, can just get the day done or simply its not happening and im not going back
i got in contact with adam and mia and im seeing them tomorrow
i felt so crap about myself i felt i needed to go "sod the world" and enjoy myself
I had Oz in my room he was happy bunny as i didnt get to sit with him last night
he kept trying to wee on the sofa and this morning i saw him before work
im gonna see him tonight too i like making him happy hes cute when hes happy
i sat later on doing the 1st anniversary card for adam
here is it semifinished
i have completed it since and i will photograph it
i uploaded a dance too
ive been watching live videos as they boost my spirits up a lot
they truly do
live videos are far better than music videos
todays choice was Yuki Kajiura including Kalafina and FictionJunction
amazing voices id love to be able to have a voice like Yuki-sans
i have no idea what i sound like singing as i dont sing i never do
just never think to do it XD
tomorrow seeing adam then mia~
not gonna go yoga i need some R&R
mum said "youve only worked 2 days" but i cant tell you how crap i feel inside lately
Konbawan~~
I went to bed at 9:30pm
I woke up near midnight with a massive muscle spasm
in my calf i woke up almost screaming i havent known pain
in a muscle spasm like it, yes muscle spasms hurt but this
felt like the muscle had literally twisted inside out
i seemed to conk out and woke up at 3am
i did try to sleep but i ended up getting up at 3:45am
i went to bed 4:30am and just dosed til when i got up at 7am
man i was tired but i knew id get the day finished
I got up and ready for school
i said hello to Ozwald who gave me licks
i set off for school and was shocked at how many sodding road works were around
turns out the sudden snow we had over the weekend has burst a few pipes under the road
great i love more traffic lights to sit at in the morning
school was alright
i was just doing my usual really at the school
so year 4 for me
it was a lil slow at times but its a lot easier on my body than working
in the youngest class and i got 70mins for lunch!
thats bloody unheard of! i came home for lunch which helps break the day up
i finished school with no issues and they were happy with my work as usual
i got home and sat with a tea and my girls to help unwind
i fell asleep which i wasnt best pleased about as its gonna make it
hard to sleep tonight
i have struggled to eat last two days
food seems really hard to get down me
i got all of my dinner ate but i feel like im gonna bring it up
i havent been sick since i was 15 i intend to keep it that way!
think its just working
it takes a massive toll on my body and i think because im not sleeping
and stuff its just made it all the worse
i need to work otherwise i wont have any money or a life
i refuse to be a kept woman which is what mum suggests for my future to be
not sure what to do tonight
i went to round Oz in but hes sat on that bloody paint bucket behind his hutch
and practically rolled his eyes at me
so sod him
i know i will cave and ask mum to round him in >.>
tomorrow i have got school all day again~
Evening~~
I went to bed at midnight
I had tried to wind down and did my nails also
At 1:30am I had to get up for pain killers -____-
just get old doing this all the time
I didnt stay up for long i was too tired
to tired for DS and yoga
so I went to bed and kept waking up
woke up at 7am to the sound of dad getting up and i thought
'i aint getting up yet damn it'
so I got up at 8am
luckily the snow was thawing very quickly even tho it was just 2c
I was tempted to go back to sleep this morning
i was so tired and my eyes stung big style
I did a few jobs round the house that needed to be done
mum came home for lunch and i had lunch with her
when she left i put pinks outside and sat with maisy outside on my knee
she was having a hair cut!
the sheer amount of fur my god! she was really good tho almost like she knew what
i was doing for her
its grown too long and too thick shes struggling to maintain it
guineas dont wash great anyway XD
i put her outside
she needs a bath next
I went into my room and danced
i recorded 4 dances!
which will be uploaded weds fri sat sun this week
i seriously had a lot to catch up on and i didnt even get all the ones ive finished recorded!
i was sweaty sweat sweaty
got a phone call from the agency im needed in a local school i was going to this thursday and friday but all this week full time
yeesh thats gonna take its toll but i will do it!
i went for a shower
i sat and had a brew outside with Oz
it was cold but the fresh air was nice
theres only so much central heating you can take after a while
I then sat at my desk doing the card for adam
i got really quite far with it actually so i was pleased with myself on that
i have 13 days left to finish it which im sure it will get finished in time
wow only 13 more days and we would have been going out a whole year
not one argument or fall out
strange relationship XD i do find it amusing that everyone seems to think adam has his hands full taking me on tho
since then just made myself salad for dinner
not hungry really
ive been like it past few days but still shovel food down me to keep my body going
but could quite easily go without food
so tomorrow it's a full day of school!
i could be anywhere and everywhere in the school they said which is perfect for me
just hope i wont be too shattered
got this skirt in the post i thought it was more orange than that
but i still like it its high quality and only £6!
Konbanwa~
Last night I managed to win a pair of converse for £9!
no one else bidded!
after that I brought a new copy of Zelda on 3DS to pick up from
Argos for £14 which I thought was really good value!
I went to bed and woke up at 3am
by 3:30am I got up for pain killers, cereal and did 30 mins of yoga
read a bit and went on crystal
went to bed at 5am
the whole time i was up the weather didnt let up
snow snow snow
couldnt see where pavement started and road finished
just a white blanket everywhere
I got up at 8am
I knew Id have to have Ozwald in no way could he play out in that
so sadly hes been inside all day no shed or garden for him
this is the garden
this is the shed
and this is Ozwald in the snow not thinking too highly of it all
I went back to bed at 9:30am I felt really unwell and couldnt keep my eyes open
so I had a quick hour
got up and showered and had lunch got ready to go adams house
i needed to pick up my new Zelda game and my brother insisted on driving me
down there to collect it which was nice of him
the guy who served me had more make up on than id ever worn before
jesus
our road had thawed by this point adam said his was a bit icy
that was an understatement seriously
i went into his road another way so it would be easier to come away later
the roads were scary to say the least
i got there but wasnt looking forward to coming away
adam had to walk home last night from work took him an hour in the snow
he said his legs ached which i aint surprised about
up hill in the snow not fun after a night shift
his parents couldnt get the car out the road
so adam was tired today he said he wasnt but i could see he was
he mostly stayed on his bed playing pokemon and on his phone
i played on my DS but i get bored after a while
didnt want to start Zelda ether
i got a lil bored sitting round whilst he zoned out on games
i got up and went to paint his mums nails
i sat and talked with his parents until they asked "whats adam doing?"
i said "he wont play with me, ive tried but he aint having it"
i left him to it for abit then i went up to him and he paid me attention then
dinner was good it was salmon
then i had ice cream and bananas followed by white chocolate
after been so good on my low sugar diet to be given it all on a plate
sent me up the wall a bit ^^"
i seemed to make the 3 of them laugh anyway
mum sent me a photo of a cake she had made
so ive got that late too!!! sugar rush!
and done no exercise today ether
bad bad
upon coming home adams dad made adam go in the car with me to the top
of his road to make sure i did it safely
wasnt necessary but in a way it was nice to have that reassurance that if it went tits up
id have someone with me
but luckily i was fine just floored it really
got home and showered
with Oz now who is being cute
might dance or do something then eat cake woo
not sure when i will sleep tonight
got Zelda to try out anyway
my DS is my midnight saviour!
tomorrow not sure what im doing yet
Evening
Soddin snow
I thought we were done with this kinda weather!
It has snowed on and off all day and has settled a little bit but its wet snow
so its turning into ice if anything
annoying
we were gonna bring the pets out the shed this weekend as well
Last night
i watched an episode of Kara no Kyokai in my room with Oz
very unusual anime to say the least, then i took him home.
no way could I sleep i sat downstairs with my parents
they went to bed and left me there
mum had been trying to help me by putting heat bags on the worst offending pain areas
Dad put a couple of logs on the fire before he headed off to bed for me
so I did yoga in front of the fire
stretching and heat was delicious to say the least
dad has lit the fire tonight and im tempted to have a repeat session
so i went to bed at 1am
i woke up several times but on the whole i was able to stay in my bed all night
this morning i got up at 8am
i noticed i had bruises on my body from nigel
yeesh
i got girls out and i had Oz upstairs as it was snowing badly
he was giddy to say the least i took a couple of snaps
of him getting a crafty moment on my bed
little bugger
i had got porridge for breakfast and he wouldnt leave it alone he was convinced i had cereal
which i do use the same bowl and spoon for but i had porridge damn it
he likes to rob my cereal you see
after id finished i let him sniff the bowl and he tried the porridge he was that desperate it would seem but he wasnt a fan.
i went to bath millie and alice they were smelly
maisy needs a bath next
i cleaned my girls out and i went for a shower and got ready for adams
i got to adams at 11am i took the wolf canvas and the criss cross book both he was grateful for and his parents thought the painting was good i think its crap!
we walked straight to the shops in the snow i hated every minute of it
we came back with food and sat talking to his parents then we ate
i played pokemon then we laid on his bed talking whilst watching the snow
i left early cus i was feeling wiped out
i got home and started more piggie shifts
I sat and watched a couple of water colour technique videos as i wanted to water colour some of adams card but i totally suck at water colouring but i think ive done a semi good job
left it to dry
I tried to dance but my body has reverted back to that slug like state once again
i did try tho
i had a rummage through my DS games
i had 2 i havent played before but im not in the mood for that genre
so i looked online for inspiration
cus i use my DS a lot especially in the middle of the night
its just easy to sit and play
and i have 2 pokemon games to finish but im not in the mood for pokemon as of late
i found a Zelda game which look alright but i havent played zelda before
i found it for £14 on ebay i havent brought it yet
im tempted to look in the city centre round game stores for inspiration first
or am i just being tight with money?
i need something to play -_-
just with Oz in my room who is making a mess everywhere for me to clean up
thanks Oz
i want to put a bid on some converse at 10pm
i dont like wearing the converse i use for work im not happy in em for some reason
think its cus ive got used to the padded pair i use for everyday wear
i brought an orange tartan skirt online for £6 this week its second hand
but hopefully in good condition
so tomorrow i think im staying for dinner at adams house
as i havent done that for a while for one reason or another
but not sure what to do during the day
tempted to go into the city
but its suppose to snow in the morning and be -1c all day
not fun to be walking around in is it...
but what else am i gonna do?
i want to see him as hes working a lot this week so im thinking we might
end up not seeing each other til next weekend
but we'll see
i will figure something out
i always do
Evening~~
I slept pretty well last night
meaning I got to stay in my bed the whole night!
I did wake up several times but my longest sleep was 5 hours i do believe
so i cant complain
still felt like crap tho when waking up
I managed to drag my corpse to school
school was dull to say the least
but i think it was because of the way i was feeling
i got home had a brew and cereal
rushed to nigel's had my 3rd Bowen Massage which killed round my neck
hes getting better at it
I left there and came home for lunch
me and mum popped to the shops but it very hard to move my body round stuff
i couldnt wait to come home
the sun was out which was nice but my eyes were so tired and sore that i was constantly
shielding them from the light
i got home and went to bed
sod it
i know its probably buggers up tonight nicely for me but what can i do
when i cant function or keep my eyes fully open
mum says i was snoring XD i woke up choking so obviously something was blocking my breathing
I got up but I havent done a lot
it took a an effort to even shower
so drained and dead
I took a photo of the wolf painting i did the other day
took me i think 2 hours
i was gonna bin it as i dont paint to keep them just something to do
but adam wants it so i will take it to his house tomorrow when i see him
I brought as a surprise for him a new 'criss cross' book and its got a bunny on the front
that came today so i will give him that as well tomorrow
so just cleaning pets out and seeing adam
usual saturday ahead
