Went swimming first time 2019

Konbanwa~~

I slept crap
I was tired when I got up
mum took me to school and the head technician spoke to me
he was happy i took the post ^^ 
i told him he has to have patience with me XD
i handed in documents and not sure if i start monday or not
someone will let me know they said
its nice that we're a similar age i feel relaxed round him
and he said he'd train me ^^
i left school with mum and we called in the super market (again) for bits
then got home

we had a quick turn around and headed out to swimming
ahhhh the pool was so warm
i  mean its a 25min drive there and we pick to go to that pool and not
a pool 5 mins away simply because its warm and has a free Jacuzzi!
so i like going there
i found it hard to look at myself in my one piece
i had thoughts about being fat and horrible looking
and we swam for half hour then sat in Jacuzzi then got ready to come home
i had lunch and went bed
i was exhausted for some reason just done in

i got up and sat with Ozwald with a brew
then i went on my laptop briefly 
went on just dance i managed to get 5 stars on another dance ^^
then i helped mum with a dinner we've never cooked before
katsu chicken with rice
cant say i liked it
it was curry basically and yeah wasnt my thing and its given me bad stomach ache
i never cope well with digesting beef and spicy food
theyre 2 things i just cant stomach

its 8 out of 10 cats does countdown tonight
last week i didnt bother watching it
as i was too tired and not in the mood for tv but im hoping
to watch it tonight

its been like 2c past two days
very chilly 

its the weekend tomorrow
and i have no clue what to do!

Science Technician Job

Konbanwa~~

I managed to sleep pretty well last night
only waking once and then waking up at 6am
so ive been awake since 6am
I could not sleep as I knew I would be up at 7am anyway
and didnt want to be late for my interview!

I got ready to go and tried to look as healthy
and mature as possible ><
I was starting to feel nervous
i allowed 45mins for a 20min journey
and its a good job I did as traffic was awful
but I got there with 10mins to spare luckily

I was interviewed with 2 other people
an asian guy who looked about 50 
and then a student who was actually a student at the school
so he was only 17
we were an odd 3

I was spoken to in the group by the head teacher and dept head
that was fine and stuff
then we were taken to labs by the head science technician 
where we had an activity to do
we had to set up an experient
i was totally out my depth as we never had this equipment in my school
my school didnt have a 6th form so we didnt have high end equipment 
and what we did use for experiments was basic to say the least
so  i had never seen stuff like that before
but winged it
then a written task about chemicals which once again i struggled with
but we had an answer booklet 
we did these 2 tasks separately but in the same lab so i could see how the other two were doing

then we had a break
we got a tour of the school which is very nice and modern 
then we sat talking to the head technician and 2 other technicians 
then he left us and we  waited to be called in one by one to be interviewed
i was 2nd to be interviewed 
i was interviewed by 4 members of staff. some head legal woman, dept head, head of science, head technician so it was intense but i tried my best i made them laugh a few times
then i went home
all in all that interview lasted almost  3 hours
biggest interview ever

i was soooooooo drained when i came home
honestly i was dead 
i had a lot of food and sugar to pick me up
i didnt want to go out and miss the phone call from the school
they rang at 3:30pm
basically the position was for part time - 9 hours per week
they had offered it to the asian guy as he had 15 years of being a lab tecnician
but he cant do one of the days so would I like 3 hours per week?
YES! course I would
its guaranteed money and a foot in the door
they said more hours would be made available after easter too
and it would be good experience for me and that they liked me and hoped id take the position. 
yep yep yep
im doing it!
so I will be doing 3 hours on Monday afternoons
its not much but the hourly rate is what I get as teaching assistant 
and it wont stress me out with me starting working so little

they said if i could get some documents over to them tomorrow
then hopefully i could actually start on this monday!!!
that would be amazing
its such an achievement even if it is just 3 hours a week
im cool with that im more than happy theyre giving me a chance 
so im gonna take stuff tomorrow to them

mum was dead pleased for me
brother said well done, dad never looks impressed he looked more interested in his mail than my job but no pleasing him

i had cake after to celebrate XD 
and let Oz lick the crumbs off the plate X3

I went on just dance and managed to get 5 stars ^^
then I had yoga which was good karen didnt work us to the bone luckily

tomorrow im going school to do the documents
then im hopefully going swimming with mummy~
so yeah im pleased
worth the 3 hour interview XD

here are this week's nails~ 

Finished 1Q84!!

Evening~

I couldn't sleep til almost midnight and in the end fell asleep
in my dressing gown as it was more padded for my pain
i woke up at 2:30am with a real runny nose
and I think its cus theres so much rabbit fur on my dressing gown
that it just went up my nose 
not wanting to get my father's wrath i went downstairs to blow my nose
and to wait for my nose to clear 
then came to bed around 3:20am
i slept til 6am

This morning I felt like death
but me and mum said we'd go swimming
I would be driving as mum's car has gone to be fixed
it was a lovely morning and we werent sure whether to bath the guineas, go for a walk or go swimming we chose swimming
so we got already to go 
stuff in the car
car wouldnt start...yup just would not start despite running the day before
so we were out of commission
dad said he'd be home in 30mins to fix it so we waited and then he rang and said he'd be longer so we said we'd go for a walk
got ready to go and it rained
rained all day til about 5pm
so it was very very very very annoying as we could have bathed pigs or gone for an early walk
my brother comes home before my dad
car starts straight away...
SERIOUSLY!!?
makes me look a total fool
i tried it 4 times and it wouldnt start
so both my brother and dad took it for a spin and couldnt find any issues
by this point im reading my book on my bed
given up hope for the day

Mum came to my room and gave me cake mix she had been baking
she had already achieved so much with her day and id done bugger all
so i had that and went on just dance then had a shower

after lunch we went round mundane shops really in the rain
i was trying to keep my cool but i swear everyone was looking at me round shops i was trying not to let it get to me but i was ready to start caving in faces of the next person who looked at me
came home and had a brew with Oz
then did some reading and I finally finished 1Q84 by Murakami!! I have book 3 the final book I got my birthday to read next! So happy i've read all like 800 pages i think it was

Got stuff ready for my interview tomorrow
im really hoping it goes alright
its a catholic school so theyll probably see me as the devil and want to burn me at the stake
be amazing if i got the job really would
so im setting of at 8:15 for my 9am interview

i keep looking like a corpse in the morning due to not sleeping
so tonight at 7:30pm I went for a run and had a shower
in the hopes it will tire me and let me sleep
ive been on just dance twice today and done 15mins of yoga
and a 30min run
so i try damn it
i hope i sleep
i dont want to walk in tomorrow looking like the grim reaper 
im gonna look as mature as i can
i want to look like a young lady not an adolescent girl how i usually look
i will do my best!

Last night I painted nails and I finished Ninetails

wish me luck for tomorrow
im gonna get me some cake now and sit with Oz
and go to bed~

Guinea Pig Card

Evening~

What a way to start my day
honestly it was awful this morning
I hadn't slept too well I was blowing my nose from 6am as it was like a tap
I got up and went downstairs so I had only been awake 5mins
and my dad was having a go at me about me blowing my nose
was keeping him awake and blah blah blah just having ago at me
saying I live in my own little world and all that rubbish
it made me cry a lil as I had only been up 5 mins and the way he speaks
to me with such venom, were talking about a runny nose here not me
stealing from him or anything bad
but he speaks awful to me
so I went straight back to my bedroom to let the tears pass and the mental  onslaught to pass
awful way to start my day, he probably thought nothing of it

I went on Just Dance 2015 for a bit
it was good some dances are so fast and hard, to the point were I struggle to even see what the moves are to copy them! 
then I went for a shower and decided to do some yoga
i was in the living room doing yoga and i saw dad pull up... unfortunately i wasnt quick enough and he found me and had another go at me
so i went to my room and decided to stay there whilst he was home
mum came in and i went to make her a tea and of course dad saw me again and went to have another go at me, i turned to mum and said "have I done something wrong today?"
relentless, its horrible
he is horrible
never speaks to me nicely
he doesnt speak to me anyway 
when he speaks to me its because 
1. he wants something
2. its about work
3. having a go at me
4. about my phone or car
theyre the only times he communicates with me
horrid

I went food shopping with mum as I said I would go with her
when I came in I made a salad and had that for lunch
then I went to bed and had a proper deep sleep
i got up at 3pm and did a bit of jpop dancing and finished off my yoga
so ive exercised plenty today im hoping it helps tonight's aches

agency hasnt phoned this week so its not looking like a lot of work is heading my way
-_____-
i got my brother to test me on the science stuff ive been learning
and i got them right ^^
im so hoping my interview on thursday goes in my favour ><

i wrapped mum's presents up last night
and i also made her a card
got both of those tasks done in an hour i was impressed 
i did her a water colour guinea pig card

simple but cute~

i helped mum with dinner tonight
sat with Ozwald
oh and I have just 40 pages of my Murakami book left!!
then im on the last volume its so weird I cant imagine what the last book is about

tomorrow seeing as me and mum dont have work
we said we might go swimming or something
we shall see~

Just another dayyyy

Evening

I hardly slept
I didnt get to sleep til after 11pm then woke up at midnight
to the sound of my brother coming home
then woke up at 3:30am and tossed and turned in pain til
i got up at 5:30am and stayed up til 6:30 and went to bed
woke up at 8am
so yeah real crappy night in pain
dont know why i ached so badly

So this morning I was rough and would have loved more sleep
but I didn't
the sun was actually out today and I didnt want to waste it
so I went for a run at 10:30am and did really well actually
then I showered
I went out in the afternoon round charity shops
but didnt get anything
on my way home me and adam saw each other but i was driving by him
it was weird cus only 2 mins previous i thought "wonder if i will see him"
and he was there
dead weird
not heard from him tho and I dont think i will txt him ether
i smiled at him but i was too delayed to wave 
he was on the phone and kinda just looked shocked at me XD
dont miss him really 
the company was nice at times but i did find it dull a lot of the time and samey 
but yeah first time ive seen him since october 

i got in and laid on my bed i was tired and wanted to drift off to sleep
but mum found me and made me a brew
so i sat with Oz and a brew
then i went and did some drawing and looked over my science notes
it would be brilliant if i got that job on thursday im really hoping i shine enough

i might wrap mums presents tonights 
as i picked up some polka dot wrapping paper
dnt want to draw all evening it gets boring after a while and shes going out
so she wont know what im up to~

tomorrow looks like i have the day to myself
not sure how i will spend it yet
need to get a plan together i guess

Guinea Pig Picture Framed

Konbanwa

I didn't sleep too bad last night
but my god was I rough this morning
I almost felt like I had a virus coming or something
so I just laid around in the morning
then it came to 11:30am and I motivated myself
I did 30 mins of yoga then played wii dance for 25mins
then hit a shower

Made my parents lunch as they didnt get home til
almost 2pm and i knew theyd be hungry
then i sorted out the guinea pig picture for mum's birthday

its now officially framed ready for the big day~
looks alright
took me ages to find a frame I was happy with tho

I was left home alone
and not that I could be bothered but I got up and danced
I managed to record my first dance of the year 
so that was a good job done

then I sat and had a brew with Ozwald


since then ive helped mum with dinner
revised a bit of science and looked where the school is
not too far actually
and is near were one of my old college friends used to live
so i know the area 
my interview is on thursday ><

not sure what i will do tomorrow
i havent decided
today was so dull and crappy i will see how i feel tomorrow
as today i kinda wrote off
dont know why i felt so drained of life
i hope im ok tomorrow
i will do something with my day tho

i will do more of kyubimon tonight hopefully

Over an hour's exercise

Evening~~

Man I did not sleep well
woke up loads and ached and struggled to get off to sleep
woke up to the sound of my brother coming in a 3am
I woke up at 6am and laid there til dad got up at 7am
then got straight out of bed not being able to take another minute in bed
god i felt like id been run over -_____-

This morning I was a corpse 
but mum dragged me out for a walk and we went into a cafe for a cup of tea
so that was nice
i came back and laid on my bed
had a bit of lunch i had bread with baked beans ^^

Later on I decided I had got to do some form of exercise
even tho I had been for a walk I ached and knew I had to do something to help myself
so i did that 30 minute dance zumba video
got 10 mins in an doubted that I could finish the whole video
but I did. somehow
then i went and did 3 dances from the dance wii game they were really good
the choreography is much harder but makes it fun to learn
makes it feel like a proper dance somehow 
then i went for a much needed shower as i was wet through
after shower I sat with Oz for a brew
then I did 30 mins of yoga
so you cant say ive done nothing today
hopefully it will help
wont make me any worse anyway

made myself some dinner
i did a salad
then i  came upstairs and coloured in Kyubimon

next is shading

im gonna write down some of the periodic table now
then sit with Oz and then bed as im shattered 

tomorrow I might go for a run
i didnt want to go for one today
dont know what else i will do tho