I'm a Science Technician :3

Evening~~

Didn't sleep too well but whats new!

I got up and didnt feel too rough today to say I had slept crap
So I did my pets as usual then I did the 30 min zumba routine
i was sweaty~~~~
so I showered
and I missed a call from the school so I rang them back and basically
they said it was fine for me to come and work today
and to be in at 1pm

So I went on my laptop this morning and tried to design
a business card for my dad as he needs a new one
then I got ready for school and had lunch

I left for school
I was a lil nervous but not overly so
maybe its my antidepressants as they work with anxiety and social anxiety 
I had to wait for the head technician to fetch me  - Jack
he took me to get rid of my coat and bag

He gave me a sciencey talk then he got me doing a few things
he took me round the labs collecting in equipment then we got equipment ready
it was good and he was so good with me
i felt totally at ease and could actually be myself in the workplace!
it was just us two and i found out im a year older than he is
so being of a similar age helps too
i joked around a lot and he joked back
it was fun actually
didnt even feel like work!

Jack imparted the news that the guy who got the 6 hours on a friday
has turned the job down...
do I want it?
YEAH!
so i've got all the hours for the posted job
so thats monday afternoon's and all day friday ^^
i was grateful and Jack gave me a polo shirt to wear for friday
i was quite worn out but i think its cus i didnt stop for 3 hours and also the nerves
he said to me "you're suppose to come out with weird stuff after youve signed your contract"
XD yeah i was my usual weird self i guess
he also said "i've given you a key to the chemical cupboard - not sure thats wise" XD
he's learning
so yeah it was good fun actually
got tonnes to learn sheer tonnes!
but its work til easter :D
im happy ive got somewhere good and it feels so much more better than being a teaching assistant and it pays the same!

I came home and had a brew with mum
my brother had designed my dad a business card so I havent got to do that now
i felt kinda bad talking about how much i enjoyed my job in front of my brother
considering he's still trying for a job
i hope he gets something soon

I sat with Ozwald 
then came on my laptop
and about to have a look for inspiration on what to draw next!

tomorrow got no other plans apart from seeing mia in the evening
we should be booking manchester 
we were originally going friday
but looks like i have work now on fridays
or shall i tell school i need that day off?
or shall i just work
probably just work
mia worked last year when we went manchester we had to go on saturday
ill talk to her

But yeah Im a Science Technician I guess
til I sign the paper work anyway XD

Ninetails and Kyubimon

Evening~~

Didnt sleep great I woke up a fair bit
when I woke up at 7:45am I didnt want to get up
my bed was warm and the room was cold
the house was cold
but I knew Ozwald needed letting out for a wee so I got up

I felt flat today
like physically and mentally flat
just couldnt find the strength to do anything
i was originally going for a run but i ached and it was cold out
i just knew it would make my aching much worse so i didnt go
instead i read in bed keeping warm

I got up and did 30mins of yoga

i designed nails i hope to do tonight
heart themed~
and i didnt get out of my pajamas til 2pm!
just could not be arsed with the day

when it did get to 2pm I got up and dressed
and i danced for an hour 
man i was dripping wet
i did 25mins on wii dance then the rest jpop
my speaker wasnt playing loud enough for my liking tho
felt the need to blast music but the speaker is old XD

after i went for a shower
mum came home so i had a brew with her
then i went on my laptop and started doing more of
my ninetail and kyubimon picture
got a bit further then i sat with Ozwald

continuing on with my drawing i finally got it finished!
here it is~

Its not too bad
took longer cus i gave it a background
not sure what i will draw next tho

after dinner i uploaded a load of my doodles onto Redbubble
under my Lunatiquedesign profile
as  i had forgotten to upload stuff on there
not that i expect i will sell anything but at least it has the chance on there
saved to my laptop doesnt do anything
need to share my work

tomorrow not sure what im doing
depends if there school have sorted the paper work and i can go in
i hope i can but if not i know it will be next monday
but fingers crossed i can go in tomorrow
if not i will entertain myself someway 

Buono! dances

CouCou~~

I woke up plenty last night
and didnt want to get up when I woke up at 7:30am
but I knew Ozwald needed letting out so I went out and did that
I did 30mins of yoga
then I went and did pretty much the same routine as last saturday
shops with mum, a walk on the same park a drink in the same cafe
i had white hot chocolate it was alright but i found it tasted
more of hot milk than chocolate
we walked back to the car
it was cold today
sun hasnt been out its been bleak all day ><

I was so cold when I got home
i laid in my bed reading for some time as I was just numb and wasnt warming up
ive looked pale all day which has been pointed out by both my mum and brother
"why you so white?"
i just say "i havent drained any victims lately"

i got up when everyone left the house
and did some dancing for 30mins
i played a few Buono! dances, ones i havent danced to in years really
the dances I first learned and learned with mia
i was so shocked how much i could remember it was like being
on auto-pilot or something it was amazing and i enjoyed it
i was sweating afterwards so went for a shower

afterwards mum and dad came in so i had a brew with mum
then sat with Oz
mum had brought another rabbit garden ornament for Oz
i put it on the sofa for him to sniff
and he was so cautious round it then nudged it loads with his nose
then came to the safety of my lap and didnt return to the bunny XD
after Oz i got the girls in and sat with them
millie always gives me licks :3

My parents popped out again so I went on just dance
i did different dances but didnt like that many
unlocked "bad romance video choreography"
so its the song "bad romance" but the choreography from the music video
IT IS HARD
like solid hard man i have no clue who can dance like that
but because i cant learn it in my traditional method of rewinding like i do on youtube i have no idea how id learn it, im guessing it could even be on youtube but im not fussed about learning a dance that difficult. it is very hard and ive never danced a dance like it
so i think i will leave that one XD it was good to watch tho
i envy people who can dance that well i wish i could
i truly wish i was a great dancer but then id have the pressure to make a career of it
dancing careers are hard to get into which is why ive never pursued it
that and im not that great
what i learn is basic compared to what is out there
bad romance proved that XD 

I went on my laptop for a bit then
got a little bit of drawing done
must say ive been putting my drawing off the past few days as ive gotten to a point i know id find troublesome to complete but ive made a start


then i had to make dinner for my family
i sat and ate it with them watching Early Doors
just doing my diary then its sit with Oz and bed!
looking forward to bed~

next saturday is my mummy's birthday :3

tomorrow I am unsure what to do really
nothing I need and no where I need to go 
tempted to go for a run if it isnt freezing

Went swimming first time 2019

Konbanwa~~

I slept crap
I was tired when I got up
mum took me to school and the head technician spoke to me
he was happy i took the post ^^ 
i told him he has to have patience with me XD
i handed in documents and not sure if i start monday or not
someone will let me know they said
its nice that we're a similar age i feel relaxed round him
and he said he'd train me ^^
i left school with mum and we called in the super market (again) for bits
then got home

we had a quick turn around and headed out to swimming
ahhhh the pool was so warm
i  mean its a 25min drive there and we pick to go to that pool and not
a pool 5 mins away simply because its warm and has a free Jacuzzi!
so i like going there
i found it hard to look at myself in my one piece
i had thoughts about being fat and horrible looking
and we swam for half hour then sat in Jacuzzi then got ready to come home
i had lunch and went bed
i was exhausted for some reason just done in

i got up and sat with Ozwald with a brew
then i went on my laptop briefly 
went on just dance i managed to get 5 stars on another dance ^^
then i helped mum with a dinner we've never cooked before
katsu chicken with rice
cant say i liked it
it was curry basically and yeah wasnt my thing and its given me bad stomach ache
i never cope well with digesting beef and spicy food
theyre 2 things i just cant stomach

its 8 out of 10 cats does countdown tonight
last week i didnt bother watching it
as i was too tired and not in the mood for tv but im hoping
to watch it tonight

its been like 2c past two days
very chilly 

its the weekend tomorrow
and i have no clue what to do!

Science Technician Job

Konbanwa~~

I managed to sleep pretty well last night
only waking once and then waking up at 6am
so ive been awake since 6am
I could not sleep as I knew I would be up at 7am anyway
and didnt want to be late for my interview!

I got ready to go and tried to look as healthy
and mature as possible ><
I was starting to feel nervous
i allowed 45mins for a 20min journey
and its a good job I did as traffic was awful
but I got there with 10mins to spare luckily

I was interviewed with 2 other people
an asian guy who looked about 50 
and then a student who was actually a student at the school
so he was only 17
we were an odd 3

I was spoken to in the group by the head teacher and dept head
that was fine and stuff
then we were taken to labs by the head science technician 
where we had an activity to do
we had to set up an experient
i was totally out my depth as we never had this equipment in my school
my school didnt have a 6th form so we didnt have high end equipment 
and what we did use for experiments was basic to say the least
so  i had never seen stuff like that before
but winged it
then a written task about chemicals which once again i struggled with
but we had an answer booklet 
we did these 2 tasks separately but in the same lab so i could see how the other two were doing

then we had a break
we got a tour of the school which is very nice and modern 
then we sat talking to the head technician and 2 other technicians 
then he left us and we  waited to be called in one by one to be interviewed
i was 2nd to be interviewed 
i was interviewed by 4 members of staff. some head legal woman, dept head, head of science, head technician so it was intense but i tried my best i made them laugh a few times
then i went home
all in all that interview lasted almost  3 hours
biggest interview ever

i was soooooooo drained when i came home
honestly i was dead 
i had a lot of food and sugar to pick me up
i didnt want to go out and miss the phone call from the school
they rang at 3:30pm
basically the position was for part time - 9 hours per week
they had offered it to the asian guy as he had 15 years of being a lab tecnician
but he cant do one of the days so would I like 3 hours per week?
YES! course I would
its guaranteed money and a foot in the door
they said more hours would be made available after easter too
and it would be good experience for me and that they liked me and hoped id take the position. 
yep yep yep
im doing it!
so I will be doing 3 hours on Monday afternoons
its not much but the hourly rate is what I get as teaching assistant 
and it wont stress me out with me starting working so little

they said if i could get some documents over to them tomorrow
then hopefully i could actually start on this monday!!!
that would be amazing
its such an achievement even if it is just 3 hours a week
im cool with that im more than happy theyre giving me a chance 
so im gonna take stuff tomorrow to them

mum was dead pleased for me
brother said well done, dad never looks impressed he looked more interested in his mail than my job but no pleasing him

i had cake after to celebrate XD 
and let Oz lick the crumbs off the plate X3

I went on just dance and managed to get 5 stars ^^
then I had yoga which was good karen didnt work us to the bone luckily

tomorrow im going school to do the documents
then im hopefully going swimming with mummy~
so yeah im pleased
worth the 3 hour interview XD

here are this week's nails~ 

Finished 1Q84!!

Evening~

I couldn't sleep til almost midnight and in the end fell asleep
in my dressing gown as it was more padded for my pain
i woke up at 2:30am with a real runny nose
and I think its cus theres so much rabbit fur on my dressing gown
that it just went up my nose 
not wanting to get my father's wrath i went downstairs to blow my nose
and to wait for my nose to clear 
then came to bed around 3:20am
i slept til 6am

This morning I felt like death
but me and mum said we'd go swimming
I would be driving as mum's car has gone to be fixed
it was a lovely morning and we werent sure whether to bath the guineas, go for a walk or go swimming we chose swimming
so we got already to go 
stuff in the car
car wouldnt start...yup just would not start despite running the day before
so we were out of commission
dad said he'd be home in 30mins to fix it so we waited and then he rang and said he'd be longer so we said we'd go for a walk
got ready to go and it rained
rained all day til about 5pm
so it was very very very very annoying as we could have bathed pigs or gone for an early walk
my brother comes home before my dad
car starts straight away...
SERIOUSLY!!?
makes me look a total fool
i tried it 4 times and it wouldnt start
so both my brother and dad took it for a spin and couldnt find any issues
by this point im reading my book on my bed
given up hope for the day

Mum came to my room and gave me cake mix she had been baking
she had already achieved so much with her day and id done bugger all
so i had that and went on just dance then had a shower

after lunch we went round mundane shops really in the rain
i was trying to keep my cool but i swear everyone was looking at me round shops i was trying not to let it get to me but i was ready to start caving in faces of the next person who looked at me
came home and had a brew with Oz
then did some reading and I finally finished 1Q84 by Murakami!! I have book 3 the final book I got my birthday to read next! So happy i've read all like 800 pages i think it was

Got stuff ready for my interview tomorrow
im really hoping it goes alright
its a catholic school so theyll probably see me as the devil and want to burn me at the stake
be amazing if i got the job really would
so im setting of at 8:15 for my 9am interview

i keep looking like a corpse in the morning due to not sleeping
so tonight at 7:30pm I went for a run and had a shower
in the hopes it will tire me and let me sleep
ive been on just dance twice today and done 15mins of yoga
and a 30min run
so i try damn it
i hope i sleep
i dont want to walk in tomorrow looking like the grim reaper 
im gonna look as mature as i can
i want to look like a young lady not an adolescent girl how i usually look
i will do my best!

Last night I painted nails and I finished Ninetails

wish me luck for tomorrow
im gonna get me some cake now and sit with Oz
and go to bed~

Guinea Pig Card

Evening~

What a way to start my day
honestly it was awful this morning
I hadn't slept too well I was blowing my nose from 6am as it was like a tap
I got up and went downstairs so I had only been awake 5mins
and my dad was having a go at me about me blowing my nose
was keeping him awake and blah blah blah just having ago at me
saying I live in my own little world and all that rubbish
it made me cry a lil as I had only been up 5 mins and the way he speaks
to me with such venom, were talking about a runny nose here not me
stealing from him or anything bad
but he speaks awful to me
so I went straight back to my bedroom to let the tears pass and the mental  onslaught to pass
awful way to start my day, he probably thought nothing of it

I went on Just Dance 2015 for a bit
it was good some dances are so fast and hard, to the point were I struggle to even see what the moves are to copy them! 
then I went for a shower and decided to do some yoga
i was in the living room doing yoga and i saw dad pull up... unfortunately i wasnt quick enough and he found me and had another go at me
so i went to my room and decided to stay there whilst he was home
mum came in and i went to make her a tea and of course dad saw me again and went to have another go at me, i turned to mum and said "have I done something wrong today?"
relentless, its horrible
he is horrible
never speaks to me nicely
he doesnt speak to me anyway 
when he speaks to me its because 
1. he wants something
2. its about work
3. having a go at me
4. about my phone or car
theyre the only times he communicates with me
horrid

I went food shopping with mum as I said I would go with her
when I came in I made a salad and had that for lunch
then I went to bed and had a proper deep sleep
i got up at 3pm and did a bit of jpop dancing and finished off my yoga
so ive exercised plenty today im hoping it helps tonight's aches

agency hasnt phoned this week so its not looking like a lot of work is heading my way
-_____-
i got my brother to test me on the science stuff ive been learning
and i got them right ^^
im so hoping my interview on thursday goes in my favour ><

i wrapped mum's presents up last night
and i also made her a card
got both of those tasks done in an hour i was impressed 
i did her a water colour guinea pig card

simple but cute~

i helped mum with dinner tonight
sat with Ozwald
oh and I have just 40 pages of my Murakami book left!!
then im on the last volume its so weird I cant imagine what the last book is about

tomorrow seeing as me and mum dont have work
we said we might go swimming or something
we shall see~