Evening~~
I went Jack's yesterday
trying to enjoy my freedom before I start work full time ><
we went for a walk round the city as it was still very light out
then we watched an episode of Buffy the vampire slayer
a throw back from Jack's past and something he's been wanting me to see
it was ok i guess a bit cheesy but i guess its cus its american and
a few decades old now
we pretty much went to bed after that to be honest
Could not wake up this morning
i was stuffed up with hayfever and so was jack to be honest
and he was sooooooooooooooo damn hard to motivate to get out of bed
i got up and soon realised that the knee i walked into the door with like 2 weeks ago
and has been out of place since, was severely out of place
it was knocking every step i took, i tried to right it but no luck
i felt sick
as i knew i needed help
there was no way i could walk through woods or walk far for that matter
so i rang mum and said i think i need to go have it put back in place by the chiropractor
so i rang them up and said i was desperate for an appointment
and luckily got the last appointment they had left which was at 2:15 with a guy called Tom
never seen him
i didnt want to go and said to jack its what i need to go do and i can go home and spend the day alone kinda thing but he wanted to come. so i waited. and i waited.
the sodding morning went cus he was fannying around
honestly just waiting and waiting i wanted to get home!
i needed to go get a shower before my appointment and it was 1:15pm and
we hadnt left his house!
i came in dived in the shower whilst he looked at my amazing collection of pokemon cards
then we pretty much left for the chiropractor
i didnt have to wait and the guy was like my age and very good
i said "i know what needs to be done just get it over with"
but he said compared to who i usually see he is less abrasive and more subtle
and that he was
it wasnt that bad at all
i had my back snapped and neck snapped
then 5 needles in my knee
he said its a bit inflamed and cus i has put it out of place ive been using wrong tendons and ligaments and therefor the ones im suppose to be using have gotten tighter and tighter and thats why it isnt going back into place. so he had to stretch and release the area
using a painful tool
he said "its gonna hurt a bit"
i said "i can take it"
he did it and i didnt even flinch he said "yeah you can take it"
im good with pain
it felt a lot better, like straighter some how
but a constant dull ache he said i needed to ice pack it and it should be ok in a couple of days
was so pleased i went
jack waited outside probably for the best as the snapping is gross XD
we went for cake afterwards but i actually didnt eat all mine
soo sickly i didnt enjoy it really
the tea was nice tho
then we went to the car as he could see i was struggling to walk
i came home with him and took a shed load of pain killers
and ice packed my leg
we booked our train tickets to birmingham for friday
then we played pokemon and i took him home
since then ive just sorted a few bits out
i havent really been on my laptop or even exercised today
tomorrow
i hope to exercise in the morning
then im gonna go into work for a couple of hours by myself
then im coming home for pain clinic at 3pm
and i have yoga in the evening
here is a hair clip i ordered from japan with free random kitty
Evening~~
So I slept over at Jack's yesterday
I slept pretty well
dreamed of being a dog running with wild dogs
Jack made himself and Theo pancakes in the morning
i was not only impressed by this but also impressed that he was up in the AM
hours on a bank holiday
I wanted cereal
i ate that and went for a shower
then i ended up falling asleep half on jack on the sofa whilst he played pokemon
i did do some drawing but just ended up falling asleep
was so done in for some reason
we set off to go meet mia and rob who were a lil bit late so
waited and got a table
we met up and i could jack was like nervous as he was so quiet
usually i cant shut him up
it was good to see mia and rob tho
i had thai curry it was good
from there we went to a pub for a drink
well they were all drinking
i was driving and didnt want to risk it
alcohol isnt that enjoyable to me anyway and its not worth it in my books if im driving
rob was driving but still had a couple
we went to another pub and had another drink
i couldnt fit anymore tea and hot chocolate in me!
it was good to talk and jack did ease up
i think he finds my friends quite different to his!
i blend in with his friends tho XD
we parted ways and i went to jacks for a short while
my head was suddenly a mess so i laid on the bed in the quiet
if its noisy in my head i couldnt be doing with jack and theo banging on about pokemon go with some crap on the TV
he came to find me and i said i was fine, not wanting to say i was having a mental moment
but then his insecurities were there and he said he'd only be up all night worrying
so i talked about it
and eventually over an hour or so i got round it
and i went home
saw my little lad who had clearly missed me as he sat beside me all night
mum said he got a plastic plant pot stuck on his face! so sweet im sad i missed it
luckily mum was in the garden with him and was able to give him a hand
i slept ok last night
but woke up at 2am thinking i was gonna be sick
then thinking "have i got food poisoning?"
i went to bed at 4am
i got up at 8:40am
i did 50 mins of dancing this morning
i was sooooo sweaty
then i died on the toilet i dont think that curry agreed with me
had a shower and made a card for my cousin which i forgot to photograph!
its her 21st birthday on 3rd
I went out to buy some fabric for that damn quilt
i also picked up a cute bunny tea cup which im gonna leave at jacks
as he only has two mugs and theyre both like man design mugs >.>
i want a cute mug damn it
i havent told him yet but he has no choice in the matter XD
then i went over to hypnotherapy which went fine really
worked on self confidence
she gave me a listen thing to help me if im struggling
came home and had a brew with Oz and mum
sat with Oz twice today both times he was falling asleep >.> lazy bunbun
had dinner and got stuff ready to go over to jacks
hes home alone tonight so i said id keep him company
then im gonna take us to sherwood pines tomorrow
similar to sherwood forest but without the robin hood tourist crap
jack doesnt know it yet but he has no choice in the matter XD
i got an earring ready for when my ear is less bruised for me to change it
honestly sometimes i sleep on it and i wake feeling like its bleeding its that painful
so its gonna be a while before i can change it but theres no rush
still i like the design i picked
Afternoon~~
Thought I'd do my diary before I go out~
I couldn't sleep last night, I was in too much pain
i ached and ached
so I got up and took one too many pain killers...
i was off my head
god I felt so sick >< shouldnt have done it but I had had enough!
I went to bed at 2am and slept through til 9:20am!!! D:
Jo never wakes up that late ><
but at least I slept I guess so I didnt feel tired when I woke up
i just felt off from the pain killers
so I made sure to have a lot of breakfast
It rained and rained and is still raining
I went on my laptop for a bit did some drawing
drawing myself currently
i havent done a picture of myself for ages
might use it as my avatar picture or something
depends how it turns out
it was gently spitting outside so i decided to go for a walk
i just needed to get out really
i wasnt fussed about getting wet as i needed a shower anyway
i came in and had something to eat then went for a shower
i got my stuff ready to take to jack's
i couldnt be bothered to put make up on
i just tied my hair in pig tails and stuck on some cat ears X3
just waiting for jack to finish up cleaning his place and doing his food shop
then i can go over around 3pm
not sure what we're doing but i might take my 3DS and my laptop
tomorrow~
i'll get ready at jack's and then at 2pm we are meeting up with mia and rob
they will be the first friends to be introduced to my boyfriend
jack is nervous
i just hope he is himself and not best behaviour like he is round my mum >.>
i need mia to see ive found a fellow weirdo to put up with me XD
should be good tho were gonna go for Thai food
then im coming home i guess
Konbanwa~~~
I slept
thank god
i was so worried id somehow reversed my hypnotherapy
it was 7:30am when I woke up and got up
I cleaned out my pets and bathed my girls cus my god did they need it
you dont want to know the colour of their bath water afterwards XD
I danced for half hour then showered
then I went on my laptop for a lil while
until mum was ready to go out for a brew with me
we popped out to a garden centre for tea it was nice as we sat outside
i got back and
laid on my bed for like an hour just resting i felt so done in
I got up and started cutting up fabric for this quilt that im getting a bit fed up of doing
just feel like its never ending!
i sewed for a while then made myself salad for dinner
i laid the quilt on top of the blanket its being backed on to
and realised it had shrunk quite a bit
therefore i need more fabric!!! ahhh its so annoying!
but all it needs is a border and an iron and sewing onto the blanket
then done
i had had enough of sewing
and went an ordered a few bits online
just stuff to try and stuff running out of
then i did 20mins of dancing i learned all of Morning Musume Only You in 15-20 mins
i was quite impressed by that short effort in learning a dance
i need to settle down now so i might do some drawing actually
not done any for a couple of weeks
well ive doodled but not digitally drawn
i didnt txt jack yesterday and hes txt me once today
were both quiet in our worlds i think XD
i dont want to bother him or look needy >.>
besides i should be seeing him tomorrow hopefully
he said i can sleep over too
as its sodding bank holiday on monday
may is cursed it has two bank holidays
bank holiday = dad home sunday AND monday
ugh
the worst
so cus he knows i HATE bank holidays he said i can hide out at his
so i might sleep over tomorrow then monday hes meeting mia and rob!
id like to go for a walk in the morning if i can
ether down by the water or through the woods
i was gonna go tonight but it keeps spitting with rain :/
here is bracelet ive been wearing all week
its Kumihimo
a japanese weeve basically
and its made of a weird type of thread too
got it hand made from ebay as it worked out cheaper than buying all the stuff myself
i like it tho i like how it wraps round twice
Evening~~
I basically ran out of time to do my blog yesterday ><
Yesterday tho I went to Mia's in the morning from 10 til 2pm
I was there a lot longer than I thought I was gonna be
but it was good and her sister turned up with her son which was nice
Mia and I decided that we would go for a meal on monday with our boys
so everyone can meet one another
I came home, it was soooo warm
I did try and dance tho but made myself feel quite unwell so I stopped
after 20mins dripping in sweat
yeah didnt feel good
from there I basically showered and got ready for my first ever work due!
I got to jack's just before 6pm
I got to see Theo again which was nice and he said how much he loved the cushions ^^
so i was happy
and the stuff those two come out with is grim, proper guy talk and they do it in front of me XD
makes me laugh and its nice they treat me so comfortably too
we set off for the meal and found all the teaching staff already there
we were put at the end of the table like the technicians were segregated
i felt sick with anxiety about having to eat food
i ordered mac cheese as it seemed safe but when it came it looked greasy
i ate 3/4 of it but was so full
rebecca finished off my dinner XD
i was sat between head of science and alan, facing jack
i had a very sweet lemonade and some sugar dips of alans as everyone had pudding but me as i couldnt face more food id had enough looking at what others were eating nevermind my own plate. so skipped out on that
the four of us decided we would go out on a night out next month which will be good
alan couldnt hold his alcohol which was funny but jack and rebecca were also laughing at me on a sugar bend they said i looked high i certainly felt it XD
we took a group shot! our science department, minus a couple
i went home with jack luckily no one was around and therefor didnt see us go home together as no one really knows were going out with one another still
i was high as a kite at jacks i couldnt calm down and i ached from having to sit for like 3 hours
i had a shower and we went to bed after having more laughs with theo
i couldnt sleep. 3rd night in a row now that i couldnt sleep
i was fidgeting in jacks arms but i didnt want to wake him
i moved to my end of the bed and he didnt make a grab for me
i fidgeted and he was like "are you ok?" i said "yeah just cant sleep and i ache"
he cuddled me, exactly what i didnt want him to do...
so i said in the end "im going upstairs for a bit"
i sat down listening to my ipod and did some drawing from one of jack's mangas
it relaxed me and distracted me from my pain
i was wrapped in jack's dressing gown and i grabbed a cushion and curled up on the sofa at 2am, like 10mins later i heard jack come up to check on me it was pitch black and i pretended to be asleep as i knew if i talked id wake myself up and id never sleep and i didnt want to go back to his bed i just needed to sort myself out alone. he guessed i was asleep and left me
by 5am i had grabbed some sleep and woke up
freezing so i decided to go grab some heat from jack
i crawled back in his bed but didnt sleep til his alarm went off at 6:30am
i got up and got ready for work
he did after a while
we got to work
and no one saw us come in together luckily XD
it was weird being there at 8am before teachers are in
and basically i did not stop
felt very labour intensive to say the least
i was shattered
we had fun at lunch tho messing around taking photos
me jack alan rebecca liv and alacia
it was good
and i am so gutted it was alan and rebeccas last day
im so sad to see them go
they loved the cards i drew for them tho
and were gonna keep in contact
does mean now that after half term which is next week, i will be by myself standing on my own two feet my training wheels have gone now
gonna be so weird without them :(
jack is gonna miss them for sure
i came home and felt dead on my feet
id been at work almost 8 hours on 3 hours sleep and no lunch cus i didnt want to eat
i ached enough and was full of anxiety i didnt want to add to it with stomach ache
so i ate when i got home
tried to dance but dad came in so that soon stopped and i was doing really well as well >.>
i showered as i had done nothing but sweat all day
rebecca gave me her polo shirts so i have smaller polo shirts for work now
alan gave me keys to stuff at work as well
i havent done much tonight
just looked at art id maybe like to draw
and seen my pets
almost fell asleep
and put my stuff away from sleeping at jacks
tomorrow im unsure what im doing yet :/
havent decided
guess i could do some more of my quilt
Evening~~~
Ah guess who couldnt sleep last night ><
I had fallen asleep before dinner time yesterday which i shouldnt have done
but yeah couldnt sleep and by 1am i felt sick with pain, anxiety and stomach ache
cus im struggling to eat still
so I had to get up and stayed up for an hour and dosed myself on everything going
slept pretty alright after that luckily
this morning me and mum went swimming
swam for 30 mins
it was sooooo hard i felt so unfit i really did!
i came home and had lunch and fell asleep
i was just done in
i think hayfever is tiring me out
I got up and i did some sewing
i got the last 4 blocks done making it up to 24!
i then laid them all out on my living room floor
and decided where i wanted them which i did in probably the quickest time yet
came together so easily
what do you think? they each need to be bordered tho
thats the next job, then sew them together and then to the blanket
ahhhh still so much work to do
i wanted to do some yoga
but my knee cap is still so bruised! its still dark as well
might as well have broke it for how long its taking to heal
i caught up online as i didnt go on my laptop really yesterday
put some songs on my ipod
then had a shower and a good scrub of my body and face now it all feels so smooth
im shattered tho from swimming i have to say
tomorrow im seeing mia at 10am just for a bit of pamper session - more her than me im simply being there whilst she pampers herself XD
then i will come back and dance, shower and then do whatever
i have my first work meal tomorrow too
im anxious about it ><
tempted to learn an easy dance in my room for a lil while then im gonna paint my nails
i want to do patchwork style nails
It's 9:30pm and the first time I've turned my laptop on all day O:
shows I can live with out internet XD
ill catch up with all tomorrow
Anyway i slept
probably slept a lil too well considering how many plushies were on the floor this morning...
dreaming of fighting pirates, it to be expected i guess
This morning I sat outside in the sunshine eating cereal
a true luxury of mine i have to say
then I did 45mins of dancing
dancing i struggled to do actually
could not breathe
the pollen count was high today and i felt i couldnt get my breath
so i had to stop then pick it up again
afterwards I did some sewing
I got the 5 done I wanted to get done
I went food shopping with mum
had a heart attack as i sat in my room and a pigeon flew into my window
theres a full on print where it hit
it went with such a bang i went "WAHHHHH" like a proper girl XD
I laid out the remaining 4 blocks realising i had more fabric to cut....
ill be glad when theyre done!!!
I saw mia after dinner
we had a 3 hour catch up + an episode of fruits basket
seeing her thursday i think
tomorrow think im with mum
took a picture of a pink mascara i ordered but not used yet as my eyelashes are still tinted and therefor very dark, may as well wait til theyre tint-less then use it
