New phone and new stool!

Evening

I slept 
thank god cus I was tired
I sat with Oz again before work which is always nice
he doesnt understand the concept of me only having 2 hands
how im suppose to hold my cereal bowl, my spoon AND stroke him is beyond me XD
he expects fuss constantly
so i put a spoonful in my mouth, stroke and repeat 
bless him

School was alright
i had to go fetch liver before school...grim
looked like a right psycho walking into the store - which had more staff than customers at 7:50am and asking "where is the liver?" 
the practicals seem to be going well
so it means im doing something right
I was talking to the science teachers about yoga
some say i should teach it after school to staff!
i had the science staff trying to touch their toes during lunch
course I did
who else gets up to such antics XD

the liver was given out first lesson this morning
luke was doing it and requested a blender
i said "you're seriously not blending a liver?"
he said "yeah its 50% liver 50% water"
dear god
he came in later and was cover in liver!
he didnt realise the blender was on when he hit the plug switch so it went on with out the blender lid being on. he said it was like a cartoon moment and in slow motion. it went up the windows, all on him, kids work books
and it stinks
whats more is i had to clean the blender and equipment, luke did his room
the blender was the most disgusting thing i have ever cleaned up in a school
i could have been sick
it was the colour, the smell, the consistency, and the sound of it slopping into the bin. so so vile. whats more is a lot of got caught round the blender blades...
yeah i could have actually have been sick this morning
and i have that 3 more times!
3 more liver lessons....shoot me now 

I acquired a stool today...
jack mentioned to the nurse today that i need a perching stool
she said she had A stool i could use
what was wheeled through was amazing
its a tiny stool like a foot stool but its padded and soft and on wheels!
so i can sit and wheel myself round the prep room!
its brilliant i really do like it
jack said it was the first time i had smiled all day
i said "its made my week, how sad is that?"
hes still gonna try for a real perching stool as well tho
but my god that stool made a such a difference to me today
well happy
its for an ex-student so it could be taken from me but im hoping not!

i got home and found my new phone had been delivered 
cant say it excited me
i picked it up held it in my hand and left it
my brother was seeing to it which is very kind of him
he has actually fully sorted it
he did it whilst i was at yoga
so hes put all my apps and preferences on
brilliant
so lucky i have him at times

i went yoga
i was well behaved i didnt mouth off XD
i did really well
but it was 45mins of hip work
fingers crossed i can walk tomorrow...

a plush came in the post today
its for jack for christmas
its patamon
my god its so cute i cant wait to give to him
i will photograph it

tomorrow is friday
thank bloody god
ive almost done the first week back!

tired and its half way through the week

Evening

I couldnt sleep again
so I had to get up for a hot chocolate
Im so tired

School was fine
fetched my delightful maggots
got other lessons ready
was a steady day anyway
just another day really

I told jack I wouldnt be sleeping at his friday and saturday night
this week due to it being like bonfire night weekend 
therefor a ton of fireworks no doubt
and my pets come first

he told me he was home alone tonight
and we both said we had nothing to do tonight
i thought seeing as both enjoy breaking the week up with a sleep over that we'd spend tonight together but he later on got a message from his gaming buddies asking if he'd like to join tonight baring in mind he's been playing every night from saturday
so he chose to do that
so im home
im cool with it cus when it comes to the weekend i might not see him
i have stuff to do make and i cant do it after school like he can
its too dark and im too tired and i do need to crack on
so sod him this weekend
im not mad cus we never agreed to meet up tonight it was just something we COULD have done but gaming seems to take pride of place at times

ive been tired since i got in
i managed 20 mins of dancing and my god my joints cracked
im now trying to chill out to drawing cus im quite wound up
i think im just tired
but my mind races at night stopping me from sleeping so im trying to wind down tonight

tomorrow is school
and on the way to school i have got to buy fresh liver...ew
and its yoga after school

Wolf Picture

Bonfire Night!

I didn't sleep well
I couldnt get off to sleep therefor i felt sick and had to get up for a drink
so it was gone midnight by the time i had gone to bed even -___-
got up at 6am
my lonely start to the day in total darkness

i got to work fine and stuff
the day went alright really
i managed everything
there was a fire started by the science department 
all it was was something was new and got a little too smokey over a Bunsen burner
so of course the fire alarm went off
and of course it was cold and raining
i had just finished my last mouthful of food, not had a break from 7:25am leaving the house til 1:15pm and was expected to line up outside in the cold
i was not happy and i was shivering 
head of science was like "you cold jo?"
i said "yeah its really not nice out here"
he said "you need a coat, where's jack?"
i thought 'is he wondering about jack or was he gonna get jack to sacrifice his coat for me' XD
as it was jack gave me his umbrella even tho i was the one with a hood
but it was too windy for the umbrella and i didnt want it to break on me
i got to take part in science club! finally and Luke was hosting it this week - even better ^^
we were doing 'fireworks' in the spirit of bonfire night
it was different chemicals under fire and watch the flame change colour
it was nice to do and be part of a class again

i showed the art crew my picture
got some constructive feedback from the D.T. teacher
and the other teacher held it up in class and the kids went mad
i know what i have to work on
this is it so far
but the scan doesnt do it any favours...

i came home and had a brew with Oz and mum
mum hadnt had the injection in her foot so she could walk bless her
i had txt from the phone compant saying my contract was up by the end of the month
so me and dad spent an hour sorting my phone out
so on thursday i believe i will have a new phone
cheapest they had as Jo aint bothered about phones
ive ordered a screen protector and case from ebay as i want it protected

i didnt get on with anything i wanted to do tonight
as its bonfire night and a lot of fireworks have kicked off
ive had no choice but to have bunny in my room as he wasnt happy
and he can only stay on the sofa so long
so yeah hes been hopping around enjoying himself but he needs monitoring 
i dont mind tho as long as he is happy

tomorrow is work again
fetching stupid maggots
ugh

First day back, countdown to christmas starts

Evening~~

Yesterday Jack came over to see me
it motivated me actually as my god i was rough in the morning
but i did some yoga a lil dancing before he came over

we went for a walk which was nice
then picked up some food from pets at home for ozwald

i came home and my parents had come back
and i dont know but i just felt i had to get away
the night before they'd had an argument and my parents rarely argue
i was alone with them as my brother was at a halloween party
so i had to sit quietly whilst that went off
bottom line is, my dad is an awful venomous person 
listening to the way he spoke to my mum was awful
and it made me upset
upset for her but also felt upset with thoughts
thoughts such as "what if jack ever spoke to me like that?"
yeah i wasnt good, i couldnt sleep and when i did it was full of nightmares
i tend to have nightmares when im stressed 
so im not surprised i was rough when i got up at 8:40am

i asked jack if i could break out and make a run for it over to his house
he said it was fine, even if it was his gaming night
so i got my stuff and left ASAP
i felt bad for Oz as id only seen him once but i needed out
and i felt sick with anxiety for a few hours
simply cus i knew it was school the next day

i got to his and met the new plushie!!!!!
he chose the mini pumpkin :3
its very sweet and i will show a picture
ive named her Luna 

we watched 5/6 of digimon
my god its a dark series
wonder how it will end :3
then we made dinner we made a pasta dinner
then it was about time for him to start gaming with his team
so that left me to just sit by myself working on my wolf
it was nice to just do that
i came downstairs to jack when id finished for the night at 9:30pm
he was gaming still and would be til 10pm
i got ready for bed
i was drugged up and warm, i wasnt going anywhere
he said he knows when im asleep as i twitch so he decided to finish at 10:30pm

watching him play my god it looks complicated but also boring
but he says he couldnt spend hours working on a piece of art
its good i think we have such different hobbies as  it gives us space
and theres no competition with it

it was nice to have him to wake up to on the first day back
as i didnt feel too bad having him there
he made it bearable actually and he said the same about me

work was alright i managed 
i felt a bit weak and wobbly at times but i kept trying to change what task i was doing
like what the specialist said
we came across a few mouldy things that were so grim
i didnt mess up
tomorrow will be full on tho and i hope i get it right
i have a lot of chemicals to make up and stuff to get right

i rested when i got in cus it was all i could do
then i finished my wolf!! its done!!! im gonna take it into school tomorrow
to show art teachers and to maybe scan it and get the JPEG
think im pleased with it
it challenegd me to new technique anyway

tonight i might do some stretches and then my nails
im so god damn tired tho
and its the first day back...
first day back of a 7 week term then i think its christmas.... 

Just more craft work before school starts!

Evening

I sat last night doing more of my wolf picture
it is coming along well actually
the more i do the better it looks
its just very time consuming

This morning I cleaned Oz out
he was around thinking he was helping XD
i did some yoga and did some dancing

then I sat choosing fabrics for the baby blanket
and began to cut and sew
and thats what I did for a while

in the afternoon i went to the shops
i did the food shop for school
and i brought the base for the baby blanket
then i came home 
saw my girls
did a bit more cutting out

there is a lot of fireworks tonight
its getting closer to bonfire night i guess 
i hate it as it scares animals
so im gonna see ozwald now for a bit
then i will continue with the wolf

tomorrow probably just work a bit more on craft projects
its my last day of freedom anyway!

here is new lip tint i brought to try
i quite like it actually as its red but has tiny blue glitter in it

Halloween Night

Evening~~~

Last night I went over to jack's 
after I had been yoga and sat with my  lad

We set up the pumpkins in the living room
so they were all lit up and we turned off the lights
and watched Sleepy Hollow
jack hadnt seen before and I hadnt seen it years
i cuddled flump whilst watching it
it was a nice halloweeny night
the film didnt finish til 11:30pm
so then we got ready for bed

but upon going to bed
my god the students outside
jack lives near a university 
and jesus christ the noise last night
we just laid there til like 1am 
cus you could not sleep with that going off
safe to say i did not sleep great

it was no shock the time we woke it was gone 10am...
i felt a bit rough this morning and a bit achy
we had breakfast and lazed round
i couldnt be bothered to shower and jack was meeting his sister at 1pm
so id have lunch when i got in
i was invited to join but i kinda wanted to opt out and give him time with his family

i got home
showered and ate and saw ozwald
then i read in bed a bit until mum dragged me out for a walk
i couldnt be bothered but then i knew i had to do some form of exercise
i got in and i cant say i did a lot really
just felt tired physically and mentally
so i caught up online what id missed over the last few days

after dinner
i started working on a slower dance
as the specialist said i need slow movements
so i thought id start with a slow dance but still think its a bit quick for it to be ideal
but i started with mano erina's haru no arashi
about learned it all in 10 mins XD

think i will do some more of my wolf tonight

tomorrow not sure what is happening yet
i know im seeing jack over the weekend at some point
but we havent got anything in mind yet

here is a wall display i finished yesterday at school

Halloween 2019

Evening~~

Yesterday I had a doctors appt in the morning
I got my pain killers on repeat prescription but sadly
due to the system being down for 4 days last week
my X-ray results we're done :/

I got back and showered and then I went to see karen with mum
it was really lovely to see her
shes got hair growing back! she looked so well
she said I looked well also
we sat and chatted for 2 hours
we met her new dog - Hector hes very cute
but as normal for puppies he gets up to no good
it looks tiring looking after puppies

from there me and mum went to a cafe
i had cheese and beans on toast it was so good
then i shared a piece of cake with mum ^^

i didnt do much in the afternoon 
went over to jack's and saw him for an hour and then i walked to life drawing
i got there and looked round the room instantly spotting the model
a man....
course it was
Nigel said there hasnt been a male model yet but when i turn up its a guy
Nigel wasnt at the session - maybe he knew XD
ether way this model did slightly make me feel sick
he was bold, over weight, covered it tacky tattoos, and piercings
he 'area' was pierced twice.....
now i knew men can get the 'tip' pierced but i had no idea you can go through it horizontally with a bar. it looked painful and grotesque if im honest
of course he matched it by having his nipples pierced
he was like 60 and looked like this....
and i had to draw him for 90mins
to be honest i enjoyed myself
it was bloody freezing due to the heating not working 
but time went quick and i feel id go again
kinda when i feel like it
yeah i was a good experience

i got out on time and jack was waiting for me
we walked to Wagamama's laughing the whole time about my experience XD
i had Pad Thai it was good
we saw loads of halloween people
females dressed in what would consider tarty themed underwear
and some males in pants and painted their skin red to look like devils
you could tell they were all freezing
idiots

we got back and theo was there
and as he's not there tonight we decided to carve our pumpkins together
so we put a halloween playlist on and carved away
so here's mine

Jack's

Theo's

group pic!

and of course Flump got in on the action

then we headed for bed
i slept pretty well but woke up cold but soon robbed heat from jack

this morning i got up 
and it was halloween
i got ready and jack came with me to my appointment at the pain clinic

i ended up seeing a hyper mobility specialist who i saw as a physiotherapist many years ago when my illnesses first started, she could not believe the progress i had made
and she taught me so much about my hypermobility
it was really worth going
also its good for jack to learn about me and my weirdness XD

from there we went to work for 3 hours
i got what i wanted to get done

then i came home
rested for a bit and went to yoga later
we came in and had pumpkin soup!
i washed myself with pumpkin body wash afterwards
now im gonna sit with oz then im going to jack's
we're gonna watch sleepy hollow and have the candles in the pumpkins going
then sleep

unsure what im doing tomorrow yet
but thats been a nice little halloween thing to do over the last few days