Konbanwa
I got to sleep really quick but was thrashing in my sleep which eventually woke me
it was because i was aching in my sleep and was trying to get comfy
i dont get any relief from my pain even in my sleep!
so I got up for an hour at 1am and dosed myself up with a hot chocolate
i managed to get back to sleep and woke up at 7:30am
went straight to Ozwald who was fine ^^
he seems totally fine today
so i am glad
i think it must be this new treat i brought him as that is the only 'new' thing in his diet as of late so im not gonna give him anymore as i think thats what is upsetting him
i hope anyway as that is a quick fix
i was suppose to see mia for a walk this morning
but she txted to say she had drunk too much yesterday and was feeling rough XD
so i told her we would walk tomorrow morning instead
i went for a good walk followed by 35mins of dancing
and had a shower then sat with mum with a brew as she came home
had lunch and started making Julia's daughter's face masks she had asked me to make
then i conked out on my bed for a good hour as i had dosed myself up
i was tired and felt like escapism
i got the masks finished tho they look alright
i was left home alone so i made myself a cob and sat and ate it in the quiet
then i went outside with the picnic blanket in the garden and did 30mins of yoga in the sun
it was such a lovely evening, Oz was everywhere XD it was nice to interact with him like that, he had a stretch and a yawn on the blanket X3
i came in and took my nail varnish off as i think im gonna do them tonight just simple dots i think im not in the mood to do much else XD
tomorrow hopefully i will go for a walk with mia
and get my table!
then im not sure what i will do after that to be honest
not really thought about it
photo of Oz with Cherry the Melon plushie (I named her)
Evening
So yesterday I had slept really well
Sad thing was that when I got up I discovered that O had majorly had the runs
he was in a state like jesus it was bad
so i had to wash his bum with mum and syringe feed him
bless him I think it was one too many treats
he sat in a ball looking unhappy....
I got ready, put a skirt on and make up and went to collect jack
we went to sherwood pines and had a walk round there which was nice
a bit cold
and incredibly busy i dont think ive ever seen it that busy and ive been going my whole life
good to see people out tho i guess
after the walk we had our picnic which was nice
i was getting cold tho and we decided to come away
the line for a cup of tea or any food/drink was huge so i couldnt even warm up round a brew!
as soon as we got in the car it hammered it down it was such good timing!
we got back to my house and i went to see how Oz was doing
once again he was in a mess...so i had to clean him with mum
jack watched which i didnt expect him to but i guess it gives him an idea of what he would have to help me with if such a thing happens when the 3 of us live under one roof
but Oz seemed alright and he had eaten so i didnt feel the need to syringe feed him again
i just felt sad that he had got off stomach again...
i showed jack all the bits and pieces i had been buying for the house
he loved it all ^^
we rested a bit as i was dead, i was so done in
i left jack with my parents outside whilst i grabbed a quick shower to wake myself up
and we had a bbq
me and jack sat outside on the grass with Oz and ate
Oz seemed alright just a bit quiet
jack said I didnt need to stay over at his if i would rather be with Oz
but there wasnt anymore i could do for him and said i would wait for a message from mum at 8am and then i could leave then and there if i needed to
I took this picture of him today
such a glutton!
we left for jack's around 8pm after i had put Oz to bed
we had a hot chocolate and biscuits but didnt stay up long i was so tired
we did howver play on switchs! i havent been on mine in over 2 weeks!
it was good to go back on them
we were in bed for 10:30pm tho
i managed to doze off a bit as it took a while cus of selfish humans outside jack's flat
but luckily it rained so people did sod off
i woke up at 2:30am and realised there was a light
i looked and jack was reading on his phone - dimmed
i said "have you been asleep yet?"
he said "no i just cant sleep"
considering we had been in bed 4 hours i thought 'get up'
so i said "lets get up jack it does you good to get up and come back to bed"
he said "you dont need to get up you dont sleep as it is, you stay here"
but i got us up, we had a brew and biscuits and came to bed an hour later
but there was noisy people back outside.....
i fell asleep cuddling jack
i woke up on the other side of the bed cuddling Hammington XD
it was 7:30am when i woke up, i went to get comfy again and a massive noise happened outside
i about jumped out the bed
jack in his sleep stroked me and said "its just the bin men jo"
i said "i dont think that was the bin men"
i got up to look out the window and couldnt see anything so got back to bed
couldnt sleep - needed pain killers, went to leave Jack in bed
i went to the patio doors and opened them
thats when I saw this
so a BMW driver had come hurtling round the corner at 7:30am, lost control going over the speed bump and hit the bin and a lamp post. his air bag had gone off, windscreen cracked, wheel off, suspension off, the damage went on and on
i saw the driver just casually waiting there for it to be cleared away he looked 30ish
and was like fine
ID BE A BLOODY WRECK!!
god id be panicking about needing a new car, the expense, charges, MY PARENTS....
he didnt look arsed!
so i went downstairs to jack and said "jack come see the destruction!"
he got up and was impressed. this was 10metres from jacks bedroom window! no wonder it made such a noise. so we watched the scene eating breakfast - the police showing up, the car recovery, the council took the bin, power guys came to sort the lamp post
i said "i hope he gets charged for the bin and lamp post repairs, the arsehole"
the corner he came speeding round is a T-junction so you HAVE to stop - he clearly didnt if he could achieve that much damage. good job no one was around they would probably be dead
we were both shattered and decided to go for a walk to wake ourselves up
whilst we were out we had to go pick up jack's step dad a birthday present up
and jack is taking it over tomorrow
i came back to the flat and had lunch with jack and a rest and came home at 2pm
i had received a text message from mum at 8am along with footage of Oz so i could see how much food he had eaten and if he was ok, she told me he was doing well and had firmed up XD
i came home and sat with Oz who wasnt in a mess, had eaten and done normal poos
so all is well
i rested all afternoon as i was dead to be honest
before dinner i went for an hours walk
had food and a shower and then did 15mins of dance practice
tomorrow seeing mia in the morning and hopefully getting my table to recover!
Evening all
I slept sooo well ^^ finally
my god i was shattered last night
I got up at 8:30am and went to Oz who seems totally fine and back to his usual self
so glad i really am
Mum went for a walk with her friend
i did 40 mins of dancing i was wet through but enjoyed it
went for a shower and then they came back
we sat in the garden having a cup of tea in the sun
Oz was patrolling and showing off bless him
mum likes it when I talk to her friends, none of them had daughters only sons
so it makes a change for them too i think
mum is always so happy she got a daughter ^^
I was brought up with boys as everyone had sons i was the only girl
didnt bother me, boys play rougher and i liked it XD
I had lunch with mum after her friend left
then we popped out to go buy flowers for karen
who had amazing news that she is officially cancer free
we popped over as a surprise and she looked soooo healthy!!
i couldnt believe how good she looked
we only talked on her door step we have to be careful round her and her weak ammune system
she said we can meet on 29th and do something in the open
so i cant wait for that!
we came back and i started making cards for julia and jack
i got them finished and they look good :D
then i rested for a bit and had dinner
went for a walk by myself and now gonna shower and sit with Oz and go bed
tomorrow i am picking jack up at 11am
we are going to a forest about 30min drive away
and having a walk and a picnic as i think he needs to get out
and then were coming back home and my parents are having a bbq so we can have that for dinner and then go to his to sleep
should be a nice day
im gonna wear a skirt and i havent worn one in months!
Evening
Jo did an all-nighter
yup did not sleep a wink last night
I went over to jack's and we had a hot chocolate and biscuits and talked with theo
and harvey was online so we talked with him too but i was shattered so didnt want to stay up
but i could tell jack wasnt right some how
like he was just off and despite me asking numerous times "you ok?" "whats up"
he wouldnt come out with it but could tell he wanted to
we went to bed and in the end i said "what ever is troubling you is troubling me. you tell me not to bottle stuff up so out with it"
and thats when it all kicked off at 11:15pm
he cried and everything
his worries are the corona virus starting up again basically
i said "what is the actual main worry here tho?"
he said "i dont want you getting sick"
so i was the concern
then he was also upset about driving - i guess that one coming
i said "and whats troubling you most about that?"
he said "having an accident with you in the car and you being hurt"
so me again
*sigh* im a big girl i can look after myself
he worries far far too much
so we talked it out
and i said to him he didnt contact me the whole of tuesday and he said "cus i was hoping to txt and to be able say 'jo i rang the driving school up' but i didnt"
so i said "so instead of asking for help, you buried your head in the sand about driving school and giving me a text"
so it churned me up a bit cus i love jack and its not nice seeing anyone you love, in tears
so he fell asleep after all that
i on the other hand couldnt
i was in a lot of pain anyway so i was extra sensitive on his bed
tried to get to get to sleep and tried to get comfy
then a couple outside literally yelling their guts off at each other, if youre gonna have domestic at least have it in the house not on a main street at midnight.
i got up at 1am as they wouldnt shut up
then drunks wondered up and down shouting, people getting out of taxis at all hours
i sat upstairs having a brew and biscuits and did some japanese
i tried to sleep but yeah wasnt happening
at 5am i crawled back to bed but still felt really uncomfortable but tried to stay
then around 6am i could feel myself drifting off and then the council service bin men came and sounded like they were riding the bins down the street
it woke jack up and he looked at me
i said "i havent actually been asleep"
he cuddled me and i tried to get comfy but couldnt
he said "lets get up"
i said "its only 6:30 you dont need to get up ill get up by myself"
but no, despite not doing mornings, he did get up
i said as we at a really early breakfast "did you not notice me gone?"
he said "i did but thought you were in the toilet and fell asleep after that thought"
didnt hear any of the noises outside he sleeps really well
so i was shattered and looked like death
school was alright tho i just painted
saw hannah and luke again
we came back to jacks and had soup he had made then i poured a bath with those salts
it was so nice
i got dressed and was prepared to keep going but jack said he didnt want me driving like that, i guess i must have looked back so he made me have a nap
we got up and had a brew then i came home
went straight to the garden to find my lad
we fussed each other
he has been such a good boy, hes been eating ^^ normal poos and seems happy again
im soooooooooooooooooooooo happy, grateful and relieved
nice to have my lad back on form
im about to go sit with him actually
i did a walk with mum after helping her with the dinner
tomorrow mum is seeing her friend so i will probably just exercise by myself
and not sure after that
im ringing up the driving school for jack as he cant bring himself to do it
which slightly annoyed me as i could have rang on monday!
honestly
ive got my magazine for the decopauge just no table
but no rush there
Evening
Never heard from Jack yesterday...nor did i text him
I couldnt sleep
I had a lot on my mind - mainly Oz
and I had awful stomach pains for some reason
I was getting stressed and started scratching so at that point I decided to get up
and I had a hot chocolate and stayed up til 1am
slept til 7:30am
I went straight to Oz
who had eaten some of his food during the night!! and a treat! and some carrot!!
I was sooooo relieved
he even looked better, like more bright eyed some how
so i gave him fuss
I did syringe feed him this morning and added probiotic, just to get his stomach going for the day. I havent seen him eat a lot during the day but mum says to see how he goes by himself now instead of syringe feeding him.
He has been more himself as well today
I did 40 mins of dancing
my hair was dripping but i wasnt really tired strangely
but i stopped anyway as i didnt want to do myself in
i had a shower then i started cutting up the netting for the hammock
at lunch time i went with mum to go meet her friend on the park
it was quite cold to be honest and i was getting cold
but it was nice to see her
we had different cakes and mum made us sandwiches
it was nice we had a couple of hours
i came back and thawed out as i was cold it made me ache
after i had thawed out i went for a walk with mum
then i finished the hammock
it is cute X3
simple but cute
got my stuff ready to take to jacks
he did txt me about midday today i txted him when i got back from the picnic
he just says he had an off day yesterday which is odd and im gonna talk to him later about that
he still hasnt had the guts to ring up driving and asked if i would sit with him whilst he did it....i said "if you had said, i would have rang up for you" he said "i know you would have but i want to ring up myself" fair enough, at least hes asked for help i guess :/
he has also arranged a viewing for that house but its not til weds at 12:30pm so a whole week away
im gonna have a shower and sit with Oz then go jack's
we have work tomorrow
Evening
I actually slept pretty well
despite receiving a txt from jack at 9pm stating he had chickened out of ringing the driving school up. i even said to his face on sunday "if you cant ring up say now as i will do it"
he was like "no i can do it im getting used to it what with ringing up estate agents"
but he confessed to chickening out
which annoyed me
not that he couldnt do that, we all know how crippling anxiety can be
its the fact he didnt ask for help
we've been through this that we are team and we help each other. so why wont he come to me for help? it annoyed me and rather than send him an angry text message i just left it
it is now 8pm and i havent text him today or even heard a whisper from him
so god knows whats up with him today
i saw mia today
i was suppose to go get my table from her today so i txted her saying i was on my way to HER house
got there to find her car gone
so i rang her and she had gone to her mums....whats she like
so we just did a normal walk
i can get my table another time i havent got the stuff yet for it anyway
it was good to see her and have a brew with her
i felt knackered afterwards tho
i fell asleep for an hour
then had lunch then i went out to a garden centre with mum
followed by another garden centre -____-
it was alright i guess i didnt mind i was just really really tired
i got back and just flopped on the sofa with Oz
Ozwald update
he has eaten some pellets through the night
not many but he has had some and some carrot and a treat
i still syringe fed him and breakfast and lunch
he so well behaved he really is
im gonna feed him again tonight and hope he eats during the night again
but i have sat with him and he seemed to be doing alright he didnt seem in pain
and he has been out with the girls hopping round and eating grass
im trying with him
oh also tonight when i got him in, he had been in the girls run (whilst it was empty) for agesssss and i went out to see if he was actually alright, he had done loads of poos like loads and they were normal as well so im happy about that. and when i brought him in he begged for a treat which he hasnt done in days and he about swallowed the treat too. so all good signs
i ate dinner and got crippling stomach pains
it wont go away and i ate almost 2 hours ago
i was planning on dance practice but thats not gonna happen
hurts to stand up right
so im annoyed as i havent done yoga or dance today just a walk
but i suppose we all get off days
i shouldnt beat myself up for not doing my usual amount of exercise
tomorrow
probably dance and stuff in the morning and then at around lunch time, mum is meeting her friend in the park for a picnic as it was her friends 50th last weekend
theyre having cakes and stuff and wondered if i wanted to join them
i said i dont mind but i cant sit on the grass as long as they can (makes me ache)
so as long as they dont mind me leaving after a while then thats fine
they said it was fine and mum's friend has known me since i was child so she knows my illnesses and understands.
so i will do that and come back then i should be staying over at jack's
as its wednesday and i usually stay over for school
but i havent heard from him
also i sent him a house last night and he was gonna ring that up today but dont know if he has actually done that ether.
I got more bed sheets in the post today
and i got the netting finally for the hammock so i can start that when ever really
anyway see what tomorrow brings
Evening
I got to sleep at midnight and mum woke me at 8am knowing i needed to check Ozwald and i was seeing mia for a walk
Oz hasn't eaten anything
I was not impressed and quite distressed
So I said I would syringe feed him
mum held him whilst I did that and to say he hasnt been syringe fed before he was quite good
i just literally added water and probiotic to his pellet food - wait for it to mush down and spooned it into the syringe, which is what we did for tillie last month
I have since fed him again at midday and im now gonna go give him his last feed
he has eaten about an inch of carrot, a treat, and some grass
so he is trying, he isnt drooling and poos are coming out so im very unsure what his problem is and im giving it a few more days until i see the vet
id like to sort this out myself without stressing him out taking him there
I went to meet mia at 9:15am
we walked her dogs and i played with them throwing the ball and cuddling them
i love her dogs and love being round animals so it suits me
and theyre pretty well behaved just a bit hyper
we came back to her mums and had a brew then i came home at 11:30am
i sat and with Oz and did his feed and then had lunch myself
my weird table arrived today and my coasters!! i was so happy to see them i love them
well happy it was worth the effort it really was
i want to do more art work for the house!
I did some dancing and got hot and sweaty
then i looked online at houses and sent one to jack which doesnt look too bad actually
so i think we might ring for a viewing
its not our style but has potential and i like the area
I sat with Oz for an hour bless him
i could hear his tummy and he was holding himself like he was in pain or discomfort
i am loath to take him to the vets for pain relief tho as it usually upsets their tummies and he has only just got rid of the runs so i dont want to upset it again
im hoping he will recover especially if im syringe feeding him to get his stomach stimulated
i did that cat drawing for Luke and sent it him this morning
he loved it and said he was going to get it printed so i said if that was the case, would he like anything changing. he asked for an eye patch (the poor thing before it died had an eye removed at only 4months old) so i drew that for him and sent it
he loved it X3
so i was happy i did that for him
tonight i want to try get back on my switch
its been over a week since ive picked it up
just havent been in the mood and have gotten out of playing and i want to finish pokemon
i only have 5 badges!
tomorrow i am seeing mia
i am going over to her house
we will do a walk with the dogs
then i am gonna bring home the table she took for rob's grandads so i can take it apart and decopauge when the magazines arrive - woo!
