my first night was a success

 Evening

So last night I had dinner with jack then I went over to our bungalow

we got various jobs done;

he washed up and I dried the pots and put them away so we can see the kitchen surface again

I also cleared the kitchen up and I did A LOT of recycling as basically we had been dumping all the packaging to everything into a space/room and not taking it out to the bin, so I did all that. I put a few things away which i brought over and I showed Jack where I wanted some nails knocking in and he put them in. I certainly did more than him last night. But it was good to get a bit of order in the place as it was just a tip. 

I didnt get as much hung up as I had in mind tho as Jack told me some things need hooks to hang on the wall instead of just a nail >.> i had a strop XD

I had a hot chocolate and some white chocolate buttons with him and read in bed then I went to sleep at 10:30pm, I wasnt anxious or anything actually. I felt fine

I slept pretty well, apart from waking up as Jack was trying to reclaim some duvet XD as I know I am prone to stealing it in my sleep >< 

My alarm woke me this morning and the house was cold but i had chose to get up early and the heating hadnt had time to come on. That and the fact it was minus out there, i only just got my car door open due to frost. I was fine showering in the bungalow as its a cubical shower and I dont always like being in cubical ones but I was actually ok. And the morning was fine too.

School was ok

the practical i did yesterday did not work apparently, so i had a play with it and got it to work, i needed more enzyme than what the instructions said to give so i was glad I got it to work ^^ i always try to get them to work. biology is a tricky beast.

I struggled after lunch to be honest. just it was all a slog. glass equipment i could have easily washed i whacked into the dishwasher and grabbed my sketchbook and paint and sat and painted whilst hannah and luke worked.

then we went home and Jack came back with me and we had a brew with Oz and mum

We had a christmas card from my cousin, she had lovingly hand painted us a cute card and congratulated on our house!

then we ordered a freezer which isnt coming til 18th december....

we had dinner and then we walked to the local shop for bread to go with our soup tomorrow then we walked to the bungalow. When we arrived we had a parcel addressed to both of us and we opened it and it was two cookies. One in the shape of a house, one the shape of a door and decorated respectively. They were moving in gift from Karen ^^ it was really sweet. but theyre too good to eat! We decided to take them to work to have with our brew on our break

I walked home and did my diary and now I am gonna get Oz then die in my bed

tomorrow is friday and just school

trying out my new house tonight!

 Konbanwa

I slept once again, which is a blessing. I needed my alarm as well

I went over to the bungalow for Jack, and was knocking at the door but he wasnt answering, i had txt to say i was on my way and i was thinking "jeez how long does it take to put some shoes on" and rang the door bell. in the end i walked back to my car for the bungalow keys and opened the door to find jack running out the bedroom looking panicked

i was like "whats wrong!?"

he said "the door bell woke me"

seriously -______________- this guy is 27!

so i let him brush his teeth and i grabbed some crisps and chocolate bar and told him to do his shoes up in the car. I put the snacks on his lap and told him to eat something and drove us to work and was only 2mins late. I made him a coffee as soon as we got there. He really hadnt adjusted to the day....

Luke had brought in a shed load of baby cactus for me ^^ i was well happy i just need to put them somewhere now! 

My day went ok and I got through it ok too, and dropped jack off at the bungalow so he could apply the second coat the study whilst i sat with Oz with a brew and mum of course. Then I did 45mins of yoga. Oz sat the entire time on the sofa. So he had been sat there 90mins!!! One lazy bunbun X3

Since then I have been looking for bits to take over the bungalow, mainly bits I can put on the walls actually to make it feel more homey as tonight I will be having my first night at the bungalow! I do feel slightly better about it than what I did at the start of the week. I just hope I sleep and not wake up constantly listening to all the different sounds that house makes compared to this one.

just want to sleep and not be stressed with it all. I am sure  I will be ok

I will have a quick sit with Oz and head on over

Then tomorrow is school really

actually bloody slept

 Evening

I slept! thank bloody god. The alarm was actually needed

I felt better for actual SLEEP

School was fine

i felt so much better and able to cope for sleep, instead of just dragging a corpse and trying to get through the day. The sheer difference sleep makes. I forget. I go so many weeks without sleeping through the night that I forget what it feels like to function on a proper night's sleep

We had lunch and I had my pain killers as usual and for some reason I felt terrible

i could barely keep my eyes open i was drowsy, almost like someone has laced my soup with drugs or something, i was dizzy and in and out of sleep/consciousness on the floor

after an hour i decided no more and stumbled to my working area in the prep room but soon had my head on my arm on the desk and i heard julia say my name to jack about something then Jack called me over. Telling me to come back to the floor til i was better. He said I looked terrible and gave me fruit juice and a biscuit in the aid of bringing some life back into me. it took a little longer and i was back on my feet, i found the fruit juice hard to drink  and didnt want the biscuit but i knew i had no choice in the matter XD

I got the rest of my lessons prepped and then sat painting for the last hour of the day, did some more of the star wars display. then we went home

i dropped jack straight off at the bungalow as he was gonna go paint. I went home for my brew with Oz and mum

then we sat with the girls, then went for a walk

I came back and helped with dinner, I went on my laptop and ordered jack a lamp shade for his study he is currently painting.

 ate dinner alone and then rang Jack asking him if i should bring him his dinner as it was 7:30pm and he said it would be great if i had the energy

so i popped over with his dinner 

and when he finished i helped put away stuff. i cleared away a bin bag and 2 carrier bags and a few boxes of stuff ^^ so that helped jack as i am better at clearing up and organising than he is

we changed the curtains in the bedroom as the first lot were too small - my mistake

so theyre up now and they look good, i wanted orange curtains but instead i got Ochre 

then at 8:30pm I said my goodbyes as i needed to get home, i am tired!

gonna get my lad and have a sit with him

tomorrow is school, i have just 1 practical too

but also i SHOULD be having my first night at the bungalow ><

makes me feel sick when i think about it! if i think too hard about it, it makes my heart go out of rhythm 

got my bed back

 To say I got my bed back did not mean I slept

I woke up loads from having odd dreams

so I was quite tired today

I had a lonely morning like the good old days but i got on with it just fine.

Oz was snoring next to me so its all good XD

School was easy really as i had a quiet day

i made a class set of this muscle diagram thing made from card. Took me like almost all day would you believe. but last year we needed them and we only had one to show, this year we couldnt even find that one! so a teacher made one to demonstrate with and I asked to borrow it so i could make a class set, only mine was far better looking XD

came home and had a brew with mum oz and jack

then me and jack walked to the shops for some bits for him like fabric cleaner and then walked to the bungalow and dropped the stuff off and measured up a few things. Also a parcel was waiting for me, it was from Tara, a total surprise! She had sent my christmas present too but i put that away. She had sent me a hand made candle she did, a fox candle holder and some treats for Oz, it was so sweet of her, and she sent us a card addressed to the 3 of us X3

we came back here for dinner then jack left to go home to go sort the bungalow out a bit

i decided to look for stuff online and brought him a new curtain pole and curtains for his study which is the next room we are doing up. he needs lighting next but i have ran out of time and i am shattered and it is 9:15pm

i should be in bed!

doctors phone call appointment went ok, hes upped my pain killers much to his disaproval but hey im dying here.

tomorrow is school

jack's at the bungalow = me getting my bed back :D

 Evening

Last night I did try to sleep, Jack had offered to sleep on the sofa but I said it was fine as it was the last night we would have to share a single bed. As i started to drift off to sleep he blurted something out in his sleep, as he fell asleep before me, it made me jump and i wasnt comfy so i got up and had yet another night on that sofa. To be woken up at 7:50am by my dad's mobile blasting out a video as he doesnt adjust his volume so everything, EVERYTHING, is on full blast. It annoys all of us. i could hear my brother banging in his room as his room is above the kitchen - where dad was watching this video. So it woke him up as well. I went to go wake jack up and spent a bit of time laying on the bed with him.

This morning I wanted to go for a walk but no such luck as my parents had other plans

my dad was dragging my brother and jack to make the bed up and do other bits and pieces round the bungalow and i was to go shopping with mum to go get some bits from B&Q and food shopping just so jack as well could have breakfast round the bungalow T^T

we got back and i went to bed feeling exhausted

just as i began to go to sleep, jack rung me T^T does no one want me to rest, seriously!?

he wanted the stuff we had been out for. I almost cried cus i couldnt take much more. mum could see my distress and stopped making mine and jack's soup for the week and took the stuff over so i could go to bed. i woke up at 2pm to find jack home, waiting to have lunch with me. mum offered to make him lunch but he wanted to wait for me. so i had to make both out lunches which was hot cross buns 

then as the sun was still up i said i wanted to go for a walk

and as we were half way round jack's mum txted to say she was 20mins away with his stuff. we were not 20mins away from the bungalow. so jack started to pick up more of a pace. a pace i was struggling to keep up with as i was tired and achy. i told him that his mum can wait 5mins

we got home and loaded the car with stuff to take round to the bungalow, i dropped it all off with jack, his mum no where to be seen as she'd stopped off for a mcdonalds so we hadnt needed to rush afterall. I went straight home before his mum could show up as i didnt want to stand there getting colder by talking.

got home and had a cup of tea with Oz then went for a shower

took my socks off to see my toes were purple and blue they looked like a corpse's toes

really gross

i was ages in the bathroom as it was the most peace i had had in days. no one to disturb me, no one to want anything. god i should have spent my weekend in there if i knew id left alone!

i felt so much better for a shower and had chilled out a bit 

jack was over at the bungalow til 6:30pm as his mum had gone back home and brought him more stuff and its an hour round trip. so he now has all his stuff just not his furniture. mum says "Bet it will look like a bachelor pad round there until you get your stuff in Jo"

he came round and i sat with him whilst he had dinner as i ate mine with my brother

then we laid on the bed. i cried. letting out everything i had held together this weekend. sheer exhaustion. i have no idea how i will get through school like this. i havent rested at all. cus people always want something. but jack is in now. he is still gonna have meals here until we have a freezer and all the means to prepare food. apart from that hes done. he will wait for me.  i cried earlier thinking about moving out and the big change it will be. but he told me not to rush. and my first sleep over at the bungalow is scheduled for this wednesday. as i used to sleep over at jack's flat on wednesday.

hes gonna work out the shower tonight and make the bedding up and hopefully get his ass sorted for tomorrow morning when i got pick him up for school

so tonight i get my single bed back to myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can not frigging wait

i have kicked all his stuff out my room, put my bed against the wall instead of in the middle of the room and i have so much more room its great ^^

i hope he is ok tonight tho. he has no interent til 5th december tho XD

so school tomorrow, should be a quiet day as i dont have a single practical. 

just shattered

doing my nails tonight, something for ME as ive done nothing for myself for days and days now 

i once again forgot to take photos -____- everything is so full on and  go go go that i dont have chance to sit there and appreciate the house never mind photograph it

next weekend hopefully i can

is it all most done yet?

 Evening

So last night me and jack went over to the bungalow for almost 2 hours and returned just before 9pm, we had applied the first coat to the bedroom. I was so shattered

showered and sat with Oz

I tried to sleep but jack soon went to sleep and was heavy breathing, my dad was snoring in the other room and my brother was on his ipad but sounded as if they were all next to me.

I tried to get comfy and felt my back twisting so decided to get up as my back is only just getting better really so i didnt want to twist it again.

i slept downstairs but couldnt get comfy to be honest and so my sleep quality wasnt great but at least I didnt get a twisted back

I got up at 7:45am and got my breakfast all sorted to eat outside when Jack came downstairs he hugged me and apologised as he felt awful knowing i had slept downstairs and offered to sleep downstairs tonight. I said it was fine and just didnt want a twisted back. I still ate outside in the garden it was chilly but i felt i needed the air. Oz was well happy about me being outside, he came running and kept showing off in front of me X3

I cleaned him out and he came to investigate what I was doing.

By 9:20am we were round the bungalow painting, applying the second coat. Which about did me in and then dad came round and did some jobs and we had finished he went B&Q with jack for some new locks for the house, I had come home and crawled to bed. Whilst I had been in bed Jack and dad had been fitting other things round the house such as new lights and things i had ordered online. I thought they were coming home for lunch! so mum took them lunch round, i ate lunch at home then came over to do all the white wood work in the bedroom which truly killed me off. I had had enough T^T

so much has been done to that house its unreal.

whilst i was painting in the bedroom, jack was outside the door in the hall putting up the new lamp shades which were paper lanterns. I chose one bright pink one bright red. Thinking they would add a tinge of colour to the plain light grey walls. nooooo. it made the place look like a brothel i mean we found it funny. but i has got to change it looks awful. the colour and lighting was much much stronger than i thought it would be but we liked the concept. So since then I have ordered a pale purple and pale pink. when they arrive we will put them up. I chose them cus i they would hide the hideous old wire holding the lightbulb up and add a touch of colour. they hide the wire perfectly but yeah need a lighter colour!

but dad goes at 100mph just one thing after a sodding nother. had enough. i keep leaving him with jack as i cant cope hes making my heart beat erratically. Jack copes with him better than me but then dad aso treats jack better than he does me so yeah :/ 

i came home and showered at 4:30pm 

done in

so much for "take it easy this weekend Jo" as numerous people have said to me

how can i take it easy when people want things from me all the time!? whether thats doing stuff, fetching stuff, making decisions, talking about whats next all the damn time! Leave me alone!!!

ive been slopping off to be by myself when ever i can i just need quiet time. i dont even want Jack. i just want peace and quiet. and he keeps finding me, keeps giving me affection. i just want alone time.

tomorrow i hope i dont have to do a damn thing for that house!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sick of it

think theyre aiming to get jack able to sleep there tomorrow. so i can have my bed back to myself

i have plenty of stuff to order online anyway. so that will eat a lot of my time no doubt

just had enough.

not enjoyed any aspect of moving out so far  

i hope i sleep tonight

i can see myself being on the sofa, despite jack offering to take the sofa i feel bad him doing that.

i must take photos of the house tomorrow!

had the bungalow a week

 Evening

Yesterday I just ran out of everything to give

it was nice to have my bed to myself on wednesday night, I was in bed for 9pm whilst Jack was over wallpapering the bedroom with his mum and step mum, he didnt finish til 10:30pm I didnt even hear him come home I told him to take the sofa so I didnt see him til thursday morning.

School was sooo hard. I had 3 hard practicals and yeah it was just full on really. But I was praised for my hard work. The highlight was head of science bringing in a tray of ringed sprinkled doughnuts *0*

I came home, went to bed, woke up for dinner and said bye to jack who went to paint the ceiling in the bedroom, went to bed, woke up to sit with Oz and stayed up for Jack and we went to bed at 9:30pm I hardly spoke to him. I was so tired, so full of pain killers - mum said my speech was slurred! 

so totally written off day for me, didnt do any exercise, go on my laptop or even use my phone

Didnt want to go school this morning, I was just done with life

I was in a mood all morning just felt tired, in pain and couldnt be bothered with it all

took me 5 hours to start to feel more like myself

i had 2 hard practicals back to back for head of biology and afterwards she actually praised me for my organisation and pracitcals! as I got them right and got them to work ^^

so i felt good that in 1 week I had

head of science praise me

head of biology praise me

a biology teacher tell jack i was doing really well

makes me feel like i can do my job right even if i dont understand the science behind what i am doing

i got home, dosed myself up and sat with Oz and the girls with a brew

and opened up the multiple parcels i received - all house stuff of course

then i have sat for a bit but im about to have dinner then go over to the bungalow to give the bedroom its first coat of paint. i havent seen the living room, kitchen or hall since its been painted so it will be good to see the progress

i cant get over how much has been done to that bungalow in the space of a week as we have had that bungalow exactly 1 week. a lot of hours and efforts has gone into that bungalow.

just tired of it. 

tomorrow probably be painting and putting up stuff in the house

house stuff anyway

but i will have to heal over the weekend otherwise i will be dead for the next week -_____-

we're aiming to get jack in the bungalow on sunday

so i will soon get my bed to myself!