first covid test, and testing for asthma

 Evening

Typically I had bad night sweats. Like woke up TWICE dripping with sweat, my pyjamas were damp for gods sake. Typical on the morning I can't use the bath!!!!!!

So when I got up I had to mop my body with a cloth which made me feel marginally better

Jack drove us to school

School was DULL

all the teachers I had bumped into said the same quote

"its baby sitting"

"it's easy"

"youll be fine"

"its boring"

all of the above were correct

I have literally sat in a computer room with about 8 children whilst they did their online learning, I sat and painted stuff for displays. Dull really theres only so long painting grabs my interest

I did however have my first covid test! Jack totally wussed out, he said 'he didnt have time' time out from babysitting? wuss

so yeah it actually wasnt that bad, it made my eyes water but that was all. The set up was more weird. It was the reception staff in the p.e. changing rooms all on their own sector doing different things, then we had to wait in the shower cubicles to keep us separate whilst we waited for the results. Luckily mine was straight up negative :) 

I had lunch with jack and returned to lesson

jack drove us home at the end of the day. We saw matt who said he had not been having a good day. the bathroom had really tested him....still not finished but we all get crap days. 

he stayed til like 7pm tho.....

we left at 4pm to see mum, have a brew with her and Oz

jack waited in my car for me whilst I went doctors

the nurse says it sounds like asthma but to get the correct diagnosis i have to chart my results for a month using a peak flow metre. so yeah. She also took my blood pressure and weight

blood pressure 106/70

weight 68.8kg

thats low bloody pressure even by my standards, and my god i cant remember the last time i weighed that!!!!!!!!!!! glad im going on this diet i fricking need it. bloody chunky beast.

we popped by mums for oz, did dinner but didnt eat til matt left. then I had a very hot bath as I ached like mad from sitting so long in my seat today >< 

then just sat with Oz, painted my draws and did chores. its 10pm i have washing to hang out then im gonna watch inuyasha with Jack

tomorrow just working from home really

Mummy's birthday

 Evening

Didn't sleep to great, kept waking up so I was quite tired when I woke this morning

the snow was still on my car ><

I had breakfast, didnt bother getting changed out my pyjamas, grabbed Oz and went to mum's

She was surprised to see m at 8:25am X3 I managed to see her for half hour before work anyway

whilst she was out I did 20mins of dancing but soo became shaky so I stopped and showered

I got all mum's presents together and cards, made her a cup of tea as she came in and had the girls on the sofa waiting for her. They were all after my banana so I had no choice but to share that with them....

Mum loved her presents from me ^^ I was pleased. I was just sad that i couldnt do much with her. It was raining, freezing and in lockdown.

But we sat and talked and then I said to her that I must do some work. She made cakes and I helped decorate them. Her friends came to the door to drop gifts off. One brought their 2 year old grandson, the first time I have seen him! He is the son of someone I was in class with in primary and secondary school, so seeing his child is an odd experience. But he was very sweet, surprised to say how mischievous his dad is XD I was dreading mum coming away from that and talking about grandchildren but luckily she didnt as children would be in the end of me.

Jack rang before he came over and said that matt had sealed the bath so it was unusable tonight AND tomorrow morning T^T so it meant we both had to shower at mums tonight as we have school in the morning. So he came over, ate cake with mum and had a shower. I sadly had to miss out on cake due to my diet >.> 

We decided to leave Oz there as we would only be bringing him home to take him back in the morning, didnt seem worth it. So I have left him at mum's which always feels wrong to me.

we made dinner when we got in, good job as I was so hungry. This diet is hard. and its only day 2!

then I was painting my dressing table, only painted 2 draws so nothing major.

Jack isnt gaming with anyone tonight so it will hopefully be an early night with inuyasha :D

I miss having hot chocolate whilst watching it tho 

day 2 and already missing things XD

tomorrow

I am going to school to supervise children. I am to be sat with year 7 (11-12year olds) in the computer room and find some work to do. I feel it will be a boring experience for all involved.

I am offered a covid test as well but I will see how i feel about having that done 0.0

then after school at 5:10pm I have an appointment with the nurse to see if I am asthmatic or not. Fingers crossed I am not asthmatic! 

next birthday in the family is me!! less than 2 weeks i will be 29 ><

walking at night, alone in -6c + Diet starts today!

 Evening

So last night....

after being with Oz and then clearing out the craft room, I was set to do exercise

but every time I had been out to Oz I noticed how lovely and peaceful it was everywhere with the several inches of snow.

So it was 9pm and I decided to go for a walk, Jack would be gaming for a while yet and my phone was charging. Couldnt see the harm in popping out for a bit. Didnt think my absence would be noticed.

I walked the streets, my feet slowly going numb along with the rest of me. But I enjoyed it. All the main roads were dead it was silent everywhere. It was so strange but peaceful I loved it. But I noticed my joints were starting to hurt and I was getting rather cold due to it being -6c

I got back and opened the door to find Jack on the other side of it....it was also 10pm....

Jo was gonna get it

So yeah Jack was not pleased ^^; he quietly seethed. He was just worried and said he had no idea where I was and that he'd contacted my mother as he was worried where I was. To take my phone next time. to tell him next time. To not go off into the night by myself...yeah...Jo was not in good books. But he didnt shout at me and soon relaxed. His breathing/asthma wasnt right tho as he had been out to look for me and I thin he had been a bit anxious/panicked.

I ran a bath which caused my body to sting, then have pins and needles, then felt swollen. Was quite odd to feel all that in a bath but jack said it was cus i had been in the cold for an hour and then in a flesh scolding bath. We watched Inuyasha together and I had a milk hot chocolate. My last treat for weeks/months. we went to bed at like 11:30pm

I slept pretty well and when i woke up at 7:45am, the snow was still there.  I txted matt to say we both live in hilly areas and we understand if he doesnt come today. He said his road was bad but he did come at 10am when the sun had been out a few hours which did help with the snow.

He continued working on our bathroom it feels very warm and cozy in there ^^

I was not having a good day, aftermath of walking in the cold at night -_____-

my joints ached and i felt rough so I had a slow start to my day. Not to mention the lack of sugar due to my diet!!! I did 40mins of yoga to try help loosen things along. Jack helped me make my soup for the week. Then once I had eaten my soup my mum came round to talk to matt what she wants ordering for their downstairs bathroom as matt is doing it on monday. Then we both went for a walk it was a short walk as mum finds walking on snow/ice hard as shes very tense, she worries massively about slipping. But I was glad to get out.

When I came back I worked on my picture, made a good dent in the outline

Had Oz in a few times as usual. He is on his diet too and dont i know. He is so food aggressive and throws paddies XD i cleaned him out this afternoon and hes wrecked his cage!! my god. the attitude. 

I had a look at my manga and pulled some pages out to decopauge onto my dressing table. But I realised I need my paintbrushes >< So I need to grab them from mum's so I can start putting colour onto the wood. Jack keeps encouraging me to work on it he says i need to do something for myself. He worries about me as I have been so low and not my self for a few days now....

Tomorrow

IT'S MUMMY'S BIRTHDAY!

I have said I will work from her house tomorrow so that she has company :) I am taking Oz over as well. She doesnt know that am I coming over as early at 8:15am tho! she thinks I will come over after 11am. So yeah I will see her and the sows in the morning :) 

It means whilst she is out I can dance and shower. Matt is ripping out our toilet tomorrow so that will be out of use for a few hours anyway so I am kinda glad I will be over at mum's! Jack said he will come over around 4pm to see mum for a cup of tea and come home with me and Oz. I cant eat mum's birthday cake but I am fine with that. Sick of eating food that hurts anyway. never thought id say id be fine with missing out on cake! But yeah thats tomorrow

my god I have missed biscuits and chocolate today T^T

Start my diet tomorrow...

 Konbanwa 

I slept pretty well last night despite the fact that I bit into my pillow as I dreamed of biting into my dad's hand, Jack told me to "calm down" in his sleep XD

I got up at 8am for my Ozwald

I wanted to get the shopping trip done out the way today so set off at like 9am for the shops, the car park was pretty empty and we got there and the store doors didnt open....yeah what time does the store open? ^^; a security guard saw us and we asked him what time the store opens and he asked if we were teachers or NHS so jack showed his school card the guy let us in! Said the store opens early for school and nhs workers! how lucky was that. But it was dead strange there could have only been like 5 other customers in the whole supermarket! dead weird. the lights were dimmed as well and only one check out open. Weird. but really quiet, we got all we needed dead fast and its less covid chances too.

The shop was a bit more expensive than usual simply because i needed stuff for my delightful Auto Immune Paleo Diet I am starting tomorrow -__________- 

we got back and unpacked and then I had a  bath, proudly announcing to jack that i had been to the shop in pyjama top under my coat XD

Then we did a few jobs really, supported jack with putting up a curtain pole in the spare room so the spare room is pretty much done really. We sorted out a bit of crap in the craft room. Had lunch and stuff

I fell asleep for a bit as I was just fed up with life and had no energy despite there sheer amount of sugar and calories i have consumed today. Making up for the fact i wont see sugar for weeks maybe months!

When i woke up I could hear jack gaming, i looked out my window to see several inches of snow and decided not to go see my mum but to ring her instead and had Oz with me as well

cooked the dinner and cooked all my meat for this week. I also made a tomato sauce just off the top of my head with stuff in it i can eat on my diet so i have something to dip my sweet potato wedges in. tastes ok. and with this diet YOU NEED TASTE as everything is just fruit and veg.

I cleared away then walked into the craft room, i can work better without jack the horder round my heels so i threw out a load of crap and I can actually see floor! he's just gaming so I am just leaving him to it. I sat with Oz for 45 mins the whole time we laid on the floor, forehead to forehead and he just slept whilst i felt his warm breath on my skin. Love my Ozwald. he was happy to be warm I think.

Now I need to do some exercise. Very tempted to go for a walk in the several inches of snow then come in for a bath. Just seems to peaceful and still out there and snow is such a rarity. 

Tomorrow

I start my diet -____- the same diet, the same time as last year. But hey I am looking forward to not having stomach pains after every meal. But good bye to all my beloved treats

I will be working from home, promised jack id ring the doctors to talk about if i have developed asthma. Something I should have got checked out about 14months ago but was being too stubborn about not wanting another condition/label. But sometimes i sound exactly like weezy from toy story 2 and jack wont stop banging on about it >.>

JUst can't be bothered right now

 Evening

I dropped off to sleep around midnight and slept really well ^^

But this morning when I woke up at 8am

I just didnt feel right, I almost felt like I was coming down with something, Just felt off and exhausted and tired despite sleeping well. So all I did this morning was see to Oz, eat a load of biscuits with cup of tea and went back to bed. When I got up again at 10:30am I had a bath and I did feel a bit better. Whilst I was in the bath it had started snowing, it really really came down for a few hours but it was warm out so it wasnt able to settle luckily.

Can't say I did a lot this morning, it soon became lunch time and it stopped snowing so I asked Jack if we could go for a walk. He came with me but his breathing was bad cus of his asthma so we had a quick walk which was probably for the best as my breathing hurt and my legs hurt to walk. I got back home and crawled into bed with Hammington, I just couldn't be bothered to do anything I just wanted to be left alone to be honest. Jack looked concerned but left me to it

I was woken by my mother ringing, saying they were on their way back and could they call in for a brew i said it was fine. So my parents came in for a brew for a good hour. 

Once they left I decided to try and make something with my day and worked a bit more on my Hammington picture

just not in the mood to do anything tho I have to say. Not sure why. Just want to be quiet and sleep.

In about an hour's time we are going over to mum and dad's as we are having take away pizza

its mum's birthday on tuesday so she said we would have takeaway. Cant say I am looking forward to any of it as I wont be able to eat the pizza anyway! It will cripple me without a doubt so I am unsure what I will eat yet...

Tomorrow

going food shopping as usual and we have got to buy in stuff for me to start my diet on monday....cant tell you how much bad foods ive been eating today just cus i am making the most of sugar....ah sugar how i will miss thee. So yeah shopping tomorrow and a bit of housework and admin i think.

cant be bothered with it all to be honest

almost accident with acid

 Evening

Thanks to my selfish nerd, my slumber was disturbed when he selfishly came to bed after he'd finished gaming, honestly. So I ended up getting up with him at 11pm and had to take some pain killers >.>

It made things easier this morning not having to drop Oz off but it did feel weird not having him here, i prefer having him here to drop off certainly.

We got to school and we met Julia in the hall talking to the dept head, stood round was around 15 members of staff. Jack pointed out to the dept head that for the last 10mins a student in the room hasnt had his mask on....bodes well doesnt it when over 15 members of staff are in a room with 10 children and no one can spot the one child not wearing a mask for 10 mins. I couldnt see them from where I was stood.

But yeah Jack is still not happy about it all and thinks the school are operating illegally by forcing us to come into school to ether supervise children or test them for covid. He has asked for it to be in writing and then he will take the letter to his union....julia understands where jack is coming from but feels resigned to her fate as it were. Me, well I think for the sake of a few weeks and 2 days per week, im just gonna get on with it. There's like 10 kids in a classroom all sat away from you, i feel like i have just as much chance from catching covid from my weekly shop :/ besides when we come into school we can have covid tests if we like and the kids are tested every week without fail so theyre probably a lot more safer to be around than the people at our weekly shop! I just hope I have something to be getting on with as a lot my job doesnt really revolve around computer work or class room work so i really hope i can be getting on with something! just take my sketch book and paints in and pray to some god i have something to do! something creative!!!

So today we continued with chemical stock take and chemical make up

i was continuing with the acids, 2 of which i had worked with on wednesday

but a 3rd - Nitric Acid was new to today

Jack got it out the acids cupboard for me and placed it in a tray

later on in the afternoon when I got round to Nitric Acid I picked it up by the neck of the plastic bottle and placed it into the fume cupboard. I unscrewed the top then gripped the bottle to pick it up thats when I noticed that the usual hard plastic bottle containing the concentrated acid had perished. It felt soft whereas the plastic is usually hard it also then cracked...leaking acid all down my fingers. My god I was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo glad I had gloves on otherwise i would be down the emergency room right now. I just turned to Jack in shock who was several tables behind me

"Jack quick, something is wrong! it's not right!"

he came running over

"what? what?" saw the liquid oozing out the bottle over my hand "shit"

we threw a lot of cat litter down which is great at absorbing liquid chemical and i threw my gloves away. The chemical had even gone a yellow colour whereas i only know it to be colourless. 

What surprised me most was that it was a brand new, never opened bottle. And it had gone like that. We transferred the acid into a glass bottle. Jack told me to leave acids for the day it was 2:30pm and after that shock and drama i was happy to leave it there. So i went to go talk to hannah and luke for half hour til jack finished his stock take for the day.

I dropped jack off home and went to mummy's for a cup of tea, a homemade cookie or two, a sit with the sows who had been bathed so were nice fluffy and soft, and to pick up my lad.

I got back home and did some chores whilst matt was finishing up for the day and then had a bath as i stunk of chemical and acid :/ also I hadnt bathed since last night so felt ready for a scrub

jack had a bath, we did dinner which of course gave me stomach ache. I did 25mins of yoga after we had sat with Oz in the living room. He just wanted us for food, that damn rabbit, hes so over weight >.> 

its 10pm! i had no idea of the time, probably have hot chocolate and watch inuyasha and go to bed

tomorrow no real plans

might dance, might start my dressing table, yeah just see how the day goes really~ 

Whether it like it or not

 Evening

I actually slept really well last night, Jack even got up for a wee in the night and it never even woke me! I was having very vivid dreams tho 

I got up and left for mum's at 8:15 as she was going out at 9am and I was gonna house sit in case the tiles were delivered. I sat with her before she went out tho :) she went out and I took my laptop up to my bedroom and continued to work on Dorothy Hodgekin, which I can say I got finished!!

She looks alright I think, just got 1 more person to draw then I can work on more of the display

at 10:35 I did half hour of dancing which i enjoyed and did quite well, I then did 10mins of stretching afterwards whilst i waited for mum to come home, when she arrived I went for a much needed shower

I had a cup of tea with her then went home at 12:30

I needed to get back

basically yesterday we support staff in the school which is about 10 members of staff, received a snotty email stating the school were after support staff to help supervise children in the school. So Jack replied with "me and my team are classed as vulnerable so I would prefer it if we didnt help out" besides we helped out last year 'shepparding' the children to different classes so its not like we dont want to help. But being asked to sit with children during these covid times isnt great i guess. To be honest I am actually fine with helping out, my 'concern' was being in a classroom all day - 6 hours - at a desk. As I can not sit there that long.

We received a reply today stating the head teacher had been informed and that we were to have our risk assessments updated today by having a teams meeting with the dept head! what a bitch! So instantly my stomach twisted with anxiety as I felt like I was being persecuted for having something wrong with me. Like I was in trouble or something.

Julia's meeting was at 12:30

Jack's meeting 1pm

mine 1:30pm

so I wanted to get back in time to over hear Jack's meeting XD

I sat next to him whilst the dept head video called him on teams, I said hello so she knew I was there. She said - that they need us to ether supervise children in the classrooms OR test the children for covid!! so its gone from yesterday's ASKING for help to TELLING us to help. And Jack pointed this out and said he wasnt happy about it. It isn't in his job description and he doesnt want to be near children, he doesnt want to supervise children, the situation hasnt been handled well, and he was taking it to his union leader.....

I could tell he was angry.....

She then asked to speak to me, so Jack passed me the tablet over and I had my meeting

she asked how I felt on the matter and how I feel about supervising children. I said that I was fine as I used to be a teaching assistant anyway, my concern was sitting all day. But she told I can move around and leave the room and such so I felt better about that and said I would help. She said that Julia was coming in tomorrow morning to see how everything was ran I said I would come in also (i knew it would help with my anxiety) she said I would be put on the rota for next week

we said our goodbyes. Jack looked like he could breathe fire. I left him for a while....then went to go check up on him. He had been emailing his union leader. He doesnt want to do this and cant understand why we cant just keep working the way we have to. That its gone from asking for help, to telling us. And the choice is supervision or testing. He just feels its wrong and they went about it poorly.

I rang my mum and let her know how we got on she said it wasnt good the way the school have handled that. 

I managed to get Jack out for a half hour walk thinking the fresh air would help him as he was very much stewing on it all. 

I had a bit of a rest on the bed in the afternoon and then did dinner which was just reheating leftovers. We do this on a thursday as jack has his nerdery online at 6ish so hes doing that right now. I usually get left for several hours by myself but the bathroom is a bit out of commission so I have asked mum if i can shower at hers, again, tonight then i will plate my hair so it takes the night to dry and hopefully it wont look too crap come the morning!

So I am off too mum's shortly and I am gonna take my Ozwald with me and he can have some fuss and things. Then I will bring him home and I will probably go to bed or something.

Tomorrow

we are getting up for school

jack has said that whilst we are at school we might as well do a full day >.> 

so depending on if julia stays we will ether continue with yesterdays work or i have other things i can be getting on with. Ether way I am stuck at school :/

we are of course dropping Oz off for daycare in the morning and picking him up after school :)