My team came to my rescue

 Evening

I did my exercises again last night but I showed self restraint as i only did 3 out of the 4 videos. I wanted to do the full thing but also didnt want to wipe myself for the week. I finished up and started to kick myself for not doing all the work outs but i had to talk my self round and think "be grateful you were able to work AND do exercise" I have done well. I had a warm bath.

I slept well, Jack got ready on time this morning 

we took Oz to mums

school was hard

I was on key worker rota, but when i got to my classroom I realised that i was in a hard plastic seat and my seat backed against the wall like literally backed on, I couldnt get in it much therefor there wasnt much room to sit in different positions - which is how I cope with sitting in a seat. It got less then an hour in and I went back to the prep room almost in tears. I was in pain, stressing about how I would get through the day, how much pain id be come the end of the day, and that stressing was making my pain worse. I told julia and jack who both came to my rescue and did my shift for me between them. So grateful. I take being busy rushed off my feet any day over sitting in a chair. Sitting in a chair is a challenge and always will be to me.

but it meant that I was sometimes doing the job of 3 technicians so I was rushed off my feet and very tired. i got it all done and I even got my display up for head of science >< not sure how I even managed to whip that up so fast!

So yes I was very very busy!

We came home and picked my lad up who had had a nice day. He lays down straight away when we put him on the sofa after school, as he knows its brew time and to sit down, but he laid there like mr.muck and got jack to fuss him. I have been a sucker and ordered him treats online which came today.

We came home and did dinner then cleared up and got ready for school

I am jsut doing my diary then I will get Oz out, then do my exercises and then have a bath.

Julia txt me to say shes had to go down to oxford with her family tonight as her sister in law probably wont see the morning so yeah...guess she wont be in tomorrow. Must suck. She told me her sister in law wasnt long for the world like she had days to  live but this is quicker than i thought. I said we would totally cover for her.

tomorrow just school

but at 5:20pm I have doctors to review my asthma chart -_____- dont want to have it confirmed, im also due a blood test which im hoping she wont give me.

First day back as a technician

 Evening

So last night I achieved my exercises, then I had a very hot bath which about killed me off XD

I was very warm after that! Luckily Jack finished gaming early so we watched an episode of Inuyasha and went to bed.

We woke up to my alarm at 6:30am and I had slept pretty well actually. I did take another calm sleeping tablet. Maybe it helped.

I got ready for school, my hair looked fine and i put the wavers through it

I got ready on time, Jack however was rushing around, didnt have time to make lunch so grabbed a pop noodle. I personally think 50mins is enough time for him to get dressed, eat breakfast and make a sandwich which is literally all he has to do in the morning....so we ended up leaving a bit late but we only got there a few mins late. His driving was giving me hearters tho I have to say 0.0 cant cope with that adrenaline at 7:30am 

When we got to school Jack pretty much had to go off and do his key worker role. I hardly saw him all day >< I on the other hand was dealing with the sheer amount of demands from the scientists...so many different things! I think I got it all done and remembered to take breaks and even extra breaks if i needed them. Good news for me was hearts were in on thursday and on friday I think the teachers are doing 3 practicals back to back for me so I get a lot of them done and dusted, think there will be only one class left to do the hearts, so they will need to be frozen but hey 3 out of 4 not frozen is good for me ^^ frozen is messier as i cant drain the blood and the smell is far worse.

So yeah my first day was actually ok and I wasnt too dead, achy or hungry

I drove us home and I didnt stay for long at mums as I wanted my tablets and food basically.

We came home and i sorted myself out, let Oz into the garden, he sounded like he had had a nice day with mum, she had spoiled him >.> 

we did dinner which was easy as I put gammon on this morning

honestly I had time to sort Oz out this morning, get dressed, have breakfast, pack my bag, put the gammon on and do my hair all on time >.>

after dinner I sorted out my stuff for school tomorrow, the usual.

I am gonna see Oz now and then do my work out as god my joints feel like they need it

tomorrow is school and it is hopefully my last ever day of dealing with key worker children!!! much rather be doing my technician job. But gives me time to work on a display for head of science

go back to being a technician tomorrow

 Evening

To say i took a herbal sleeping tablet last night it didnt exactly help that much :/

this morning we got up for our weekly shop which was quite big to be honest and ended up costing over £110....ouch

We came back and unloaded the sheer mass of food and then I popped to mum's were I sat with her and the pigs which was nice, and dad even washed my car whilst I sat! I only washed it last week so that was nice of him. I weighed myself and was a bit disappointed as I had only lost 0.5kg and I have been working so damn hard! But all well a loss is a loss and I mustn't be disheartened by this.

I came home at 11am as I needed to make my soup for the week, I decided to make a tomato soup and add chicken and bacon in it as I need something to keep me going.

We had lunch then I had a sort out of the craft room, just chucking stuff out and putting paint cans in the garage and did other house stuff. I had a half hour lay down with jack which was nice as I was running out of energy! I had cleaned out Oz too, he had enjoyed hindering me....

we went for a walk as the sun was really nice ^^ 

we came back and had a sit with Oz whilst having a brew, I cleaned the bathroom

i kept myself busy with one thing and another as I felt when I was still I was starting to worry about school, well not worry, but more thinking about it and i could feel the nerves building >< 

we had dinner and i cooked my breakfast for the week

then I have come up stairs to watch a few videos and do my diary but I need to get Oz out next. As when I have sat with him I will then do my execises for the day then have a much needed bath!

I plan to have a bath late tonight and not shower in the morning as if I want to work out after school it means showering twice and its not good to do that all the time.

So tomorrow

I am back at school and back to being a technician

jack is returning to school as he is better now, but he is on the key worker rota so will be sat in a classroom, I will be covering for him.

Mum is having Oz for me ^^

Started blood bath picture

 Konbanwa~

Couldnt sleep last night, despite being tired. I kept trying to sleep but got up at 12:45 for pain killers, came to bed and still couldnt sleep so I woke jack. I took yet more pain killers and we watched an episode of black cat - my idea as i needed to take my mind off it all

we went to bed at like 2am T^T

so when we woke up at 8:20am and the electrician was suppose to come at 8:30am, safe to say we had a mad rush to get ready! jack let Oz out but literally as the electrician showed up we heard the tell tale sound of chain saw. My dad and his friend had arrived and had started!! So jack grabbed Oz inside as I didnt want him to freak. Then there was drilling inside cus of new power sockets >< quite a noisy morning!

Oz needed toilet so I put him home and stayed with a few mins to make sure he was ok and not stressed with the noise. But he seemed fine. He had been fine inside too. Cant believe how relaxed he had been actually. So then I decided to do my exercises and went into the bath when I had finished. The electrician left whilst I was in the bath. After I got dressed I cut jack's hair for him. then he had a bath.

We had lunch then rested a bit. we had Oz in a few times he was so sweet :)

I declared I wanted to go out despite being tired, just wanted to get out so we picked up bits from the range I had wanted for a while. All was well, we got a good haul and I spent £50! I brought sweet treats for jack and bath salts for me as my treat XD

we walked to the car and then jumped out my skin as next to my car was a sparrow hawk killing a pigeon. There was blood...I froze just totally transfixed. Jack said not to look at it and went to put the heavy bags in the car. I couldnt move I had frozen. The sparrow hawk had long flown off leaving this pigeon bleeding, coughing up blood. It was suffering. It was horrible. Jack pulled me away, took my bags off me and told me to get in the car. I was in shock i think as i was panting and crying. I just wasnt ready for that!!! Jack drove us home as I was too shook up for that. I stopped shedding tears but I was very drained after that. Jack did tell me as he got in the car the pigeon did fly off.

we got home and he made me tea and got Oz in for me and made sure I was ok

i said "how come you didnt freak out?" 

he said "I saw your reaction and just went into 'make sure Jo is ok' mode" he knows me and how rapidly my body can protest and not function. He knows how to look after me ^^

after I recovered - I ate my sweet juicy pomegranate - we did dinner

I did jack such a good dinner he was so happy with it, omelette, thick bacon, hash browns, beans with sausages in. He loved it XD

we cleared up and came on our computers

i ordered a few bits online like new trainers as mine look tired and i ordered hair bows. Wanted new things really as I havent been able to go out and buy anything cus of lock down :/

all cheap stuff anyway~

I did some drawing, continued from the other night, I want to draw a girl in a bath of blood~

tomorrow

we will get up early for our weekly shop

then I might pop see mum for an hour, and do my weekly weigh in!

I have Oz to clean out, soup to make, bathroom to clean, exercises to do, school to get ready for!

Jack is still poorly

 Evening~~

I slept pretty well but I was so damn shattered. Jack cuddled me a bit in bed but I couldnt be bothered to cuddle back XD

I got up for school and I told jack to stay home, we still didnt know what his stomach was like and it just wasnt worth it.

I went to school and had quite a busy day again. Just teachers flapping cus its first week back next week. I ordered my hearts tho~ I finished my star wars display and got praised by head of science, and he has asked if i will do a positivity display for the science staff room ^^

I did feel a bit dizzy and unwell at one point so had to lay down. I was struggling to sit up but Julia asked me to lay down ><

I left school and went to see mum for half hour, quick brew and came home to see jack. He had done jobs round the house and spent 90mins with Oz. He said his stomach is loads better.

I was grouchy as I was tired, in pain and starving!!! so i raided my supplies. Then I said I have my exercises to do but jack wanted me to lay down on the sofa with him. Were we both fell asleep for almost an hour. I drooled a bit on him ><

We had dinner, Jack had a shower and I sat with Oz. I then summoned the strength to do my exercises. Had a shower and sat with Oz again. Now its 9:50pm and doing my diary. So damn tired!

Tomorrow

8:30am our electrician is coming over~

9:00am or earlier my dad and his friend are coming over to lob the trees on the foot path behind our house as it will sprout its leaves and berries which will land in our garden, I do not want Oz eating them! and council do nothing. so dad is doing it.

So yeah busy morning, I am  going to have to keep Oz stress free which might end up with me taking him to mum. We shall see~

Last day of working from home

 Evening

I kept waking up last night, jack was snoring and we were squabbling over the duvet XD

I got up at 7:30am and Jack's stomach was still off :(

I brought Oz inside and he has his morning carrot inside with us ^^ he was so damn cute and happy I love spending time with him. I got lots of licks from him.

I popped him outside, had a look on instagram at people losing weight - which has been motivating me at times! - and then did my exercises. I had a bath afterwards then Jack had the bath. I left him in the bath as mum came to pick me up from the neighbour's house 7 houses down. I went to hers and I had lunch with her and then I cut Truffs's fur. She looks loads better and cuter

I decided to make someone from work a mask so I did that, then went for a short walk with mum. She had really appreciated my company today, I did it for her. As I knew I wouldnt be able to do this again til easter holidays.

I came home and I had accidently woke Jack up. He looked pale and wiped out. I felt sorry for him. I texted mum saying that jack wasnt good.

She told me to go chemist for him, and as my meds were due I decided to go, out in the rain I might add, to the chemist for jack

cost me £11! just got some tablets to help with stomach cramps and pain, and then a thing to mix with water to hydrate him.

I also called in a corner shop for some sugary sweets for him :) anything to cheer him up

I came back to find he still had Oz out from when we had a tea at 3 it was now 4 XD he said Oz wouldnt come and he was pushing his luck - like he did this morning might i add.

He had his meds, I did some house work, got dinner on which was  leftovers and pie out the freezer for jack.

after we cleared up I went on my laptop looking for more popcorn treats for Oz as tara brought me some and theyve been great for Oz and his diet! but my pet shops dont sell it :/

I also ordered a new cardigan for work as mine is old and tatty. I have ordered a very cute one ^^

Now im talking to harvey and theo whilst drawing and jack is gaming.

good way to spend my last day working from home

tomorrow is school

I have asked jack to take the day off and recover.

Jack missed school

 Evening

I slept pretty well, got up and showered and got ready for school. jack was still in pain with his stomach tho so he actually ended up ringing up school to say he wasnt coming in, he asked if i would be ok, but I said "i only see you at lunch for key worker days anyway" id be fine

so i went to school by myself

and it just so happens a few science teachers came in, and as I was the first technician in all week, I had a lot requests and things to see too. I was quite busy all day. Trying to find time to finish my star wars display as well. I didnt actually have to spent any time in the classroom with the covid/key worker children. So that worked out well. I had my meeting with head of science. He wanted to see my time table I had made up. He said "can I have a copy of this please?" i said "erm why?" he said "well it will go on your record that we have put something in place for you but also id like to pull you up on it when you're not sticking to it" >.> people know me too well.

I left school on time and went straight to mum's I was quite exhausted as i hadnt really allowed myself and breaks today T^T i am my own worst enemy. I sat with mum and Oz for an hour then brought Oz home.

Jack hadn't done much today but did the few jobs I had asked of him.

I sat and talked to him about school as I felt he had missed a lot today.

Then did my exercises which went pretty fast to be honest

I had lovely bath afterwards. I havent had baths for a few days and I forgot how good they are

I waited for Jack to have a bath then we had dinner which was stew I put on before school.

Then sat for a bit on my bed, then with Oz now on here.

Quite tired so probably have an early night.

tomorrow

just working from home and do my exercises, nothing special. Last day of working from home!