1st Covid Vaccination

 Nya~

I did not sleep well -____- I was restless I think

despite going for an evening walk with Jack and having a nice bath, i was just restless. I wasn't even thinking about my covid jab but maybe that was what was doing it?

Oh yeah i was really annoyed yesterday. I went to wash my hair and when I looked at my sudsy hands from shampooing my hair - the suds were purple!!!! T^T the hair dye is once again leaving my hair >.> it is true then it seems that ginger hair is hard to dye. So weird. So I have given up I think cus yeah it just keeps washing out. My brother said I need to bleach my hair but I do not want to do that. I love my hair too much to damage it like that. It was tough enough to put permanent in my hair!

So this morning we could already tell it was gonna be warm....and yes it reached 32c. It was predicted 27c. We went off to shopping and found a shaded spot which was far from the shops doors but meant the car was in the shade. We left it there and walked over to the other shops as we usually drive but there is no shade where the other shops are. I was anxious going round the shops for some reason. I blame it on lack of sleep.

we got home and had a cup of tea and then did my soup, had lunch then my parents came over and Jack and dad did my craft desk! it is in now!! the glue is drying and I need to stick the sides on to neaten it up. But looks amazing and doesnt look like a kitchen side. It was time for our covid jab at 3:15pm. Of course i was anxious. we got there to find the carpark dead. we walked up to the doors and cleaner said "you should have had a txt from NHS saying that the vaccines had been distributed else where and the next batch were due in a 4pm" we could ether come back later and tell them whats happened and still get a jab or drive across town to an open clinic today.

we came home after that anti-climax. What a waste of life as it then meant we had a pointless half hour to kill. Not to mention it was roasting. it was 32c by this point. 

we went back out and the carpark was busy. there was a que of people and we had got there at 3:50pm to beat the que! so much for that! saw my brother down there as his appointment was at 4:15pm. he was in the line behind us but I went to go talk to him.

we eventually got called through after waiting 25mins....and I can tell you the place didnt have AC....it was rather sweat inducing. So I was getting rather worked up at this point. Like i do if I kept waiting for a blood test, my anxiety spikes. And it had had time to spike. Jack was keeping me going but every member of staff I met was like "are you ok?" I think they could see the fear written all over my face. Our turn came round and we sat at the mini tables they had set up but a nurse came over to me and said "I think she would benefit being in her own booth" so they took me to this very enclosed space like very small, it was sat in another seat. A part of my brain was trying to say

"dont have it sitting up, you will faint!"

it was hot in there and I was feeling sick. So after all the questions the lady got the nurse over again, not sure why, think there was something she wasnt happy with and I said to the nurse - after she had asked me questions - "I am prone to fainting after injections" she was like "right ok"

came back a minute later and I had to moved - again - to a storage room - like bare brick and everything XD its such a pop up clinic so I can't dis but it was just so old and gross. They laid me out and I felt better for being laid out. The lady didnt inject me but the nurse herself just came in and quickly jabbed me!! I was glad it was my right arm too as its the same side as my piercing so at least I have a side I can sleep on tonight! it was sharp but very very fast. She said "I think quick and fast was best for you, you needed to get it done and over with" she was right, I needed it over with about 35mins ago tho -___-

but I had been done. Then I was left to recover. Jack was taken away for his own jab, which started to stress me out a bit as I felt he was taking ages but I was told to stay so yeah, all I wanted to do was find him. He did turn up and we eventually got out the building for fresh air. My brother had waited in the car park for me! He was waiting to see if I was ok. even tho he came alone and I had Jack. So that was nice of him. He did well.

he noticed my "ive had my covid vaccine" sticker

I was like "a lady gave it to me, I told her I didnt need one!" he just shook his head

we came home and it was like 5:10. a flipping jab had taken all sodding afternoon. So I havent been able to get my new lighting up, or draw. But then I have to be grateful of being able to have a jab. Im just annoyed at how long it did take and we had to go down twice! But done now til another 8 weeks.

we had dinner after resting with a sweet cup of tea - mum rang to see how I was and told me my brother HAD to have 2 chocolate bars when he came in XD

Jack is just hoovering as that didnt get done today ether! honestly. I know I wont get any drawing time tonight as I havent done any working out or anything yet. Its 7:45pm. I need to bath and see Ozwald as well yet ><

tomorrow

I am off work and going for a dog walk with mia at 9am after dropping Jack off at work

I am sad I am not going work but I know it is for the best

not sure what else I will do, hey i might just get some drawing done, you never know!

I have been researching ways to help with mental health and anxiety and studies show that doing 10-20mins yoga when you wake up sets you up well for the day with how you react/cope with with stress and to help with anxiety. This means getting up at 6am but I used to get up at 5:50am when i was at home so I know I can do it and I would like to try it. I will start that tomorrow

this is all providing I dont feel like death after my vaccine of course!  

Covid Jab tomorrow!

 Konbanwa~

I enjoyed my hot chocolate last night even if it was a water one

I struggled to get to sleep and was only asleep for a hour, I woke up in pain and got up for pain killers

I did eventually get back to sleep, I didnt need to stay up by myself or anything

I got up at 8am, Jack said around 6:30am I snuggled over to him and slept on his shoulder.....Why do I do this in my sleep!? so needy even in my sleep ><

We got up and opened up all the windows and got Oz up, we had breakfast and mum popped over for her gardening stuff she forgot to take back yesterday, she didnt stay tho as I was eating breakfast and the electrician was coming over at 9am

after he had been over and talked Jack through everything, we also got the bill. Which was so small!! honestly we got such a good deal but he is a friend of dad's, although I had never met him before, he didnt need to do a good deal for us.

when he left we got on with chores, I did the bathroom and cleaned out Oz. Jack mowed the lawn and also jet washed the pathway round the back of the house. I was quite done in after all that so we had a cup of tea and then I went to sort more stuff  out in my craft room. I have sorted out all my stuff I have brought over so far. I literally need to just bring over my fabric, machines and then my draws 

we had lunch and we both fell asleep after lunch, in separate rooms XD 

I went to go and draw and as I sat down to my laptop I saw my brother pull up onto the drive XD he bought my new shoes that had arrived ^^ he stayed and talked to me for a good hour

then I did dinner and I made it best I can as I know its one of Jack's favourites ^^

after dinner we went for a walk which was nice actually. We left Oz out as he was happy outside and we were only gone 40mins

then I had a bath whilst Jack played with Oz inside, i got dressed and booted Oz outside whilst I watered my plants, I need to go put him home and its like 10pm! but he hasnt been able to play most of the day as its too warm for him. Tomorrow its suppose to go up to 27c!

I ordered some lighting for the porch, and lightbulbs so I have a few things that need to go up!

I didnt get round to any drawing but I hope I will tomorrow!

tomorrow!

its weekly shop in the morning then picking up the lighting I ordered then Jack wants cider from a different shop XD then we will come home

at some point my parents are coming over as dad is helping put up my craft desk! and I also have lighting to go up. 

at 3:15pm we have our covid jab,, my brother has his an hour later. Be good to all get done.

Not looking forward to it tho T^T my brother says he doesnt think he will sleep as he will be worrying about it. I think I will be worried about it when I physically there but right now I feel ok about it all, strangely. As when people have been talking about it, it usually spikes my anxiety but i do feel ok right now. Maybe I will stay ok :D

started next pokemon picture

 Evening

I woke up for a wee at 1am and decided to take pain killers whilst I was at it as I was not in the mood to be in pain all night, I slept through the night

This morning, I felt pretty flat. Just like deflated somehow and a bit lonely. Didn't want to be parted from Jack after I had dropped him off for work.

I got home and the electrician showed up 5mins later. He stayed til 1pm

I did a bit more sorting out in my craft room. Filled my welsh dresser anyway! It's got room in a cupboard for more plush and figures but I haven't dusted them off from my old bedroom yet.  I tossed out a load of crap but what I did come across was a folder full of OC's (own characters) me and mia made maybe 15+ years ago!! My god they are sooooo bad! Haha but we were so invested in them at the time XD I txted her to say I had found them and we were laughing. I said I hadn't got all of them and asked if she may have them so I think she might have a look tonight just for a laugh if nothing more!

Mum came round at 11am and we had a cup of tea. I had been snacking all morning, first day I had wanted food for ages! I did an hour worth of weeding outside and mum helped and continued long after me as I had to go and talk to the electrician. He left so me and mum had lunch :) 

We were gonna go for a walk but I was tired and mum had back ache and could see I was tired. She left after we had discussed a few things. I went to bed for 90mins. Finally!! all week I have wanted a sleep during the day and I finally got it today!!!

Jack came home shortly afterwards and we had a tea. He said that his D&D wasn't on tonight. So I used the opportunity to go for a walk with him as it was nice weather. We came in and had leftovers.

Then I sent a few txts and rang doctors requesting another sick note.....yup I am having next week off as well. I feel I would only be pushing myself, undoing all the rest I have done, and just making myself worse for no reason really. Mum, Jack and Mia all agree that is the best decision. Plus I have my covid jab on sunday so if it does make me poorly I can take the time to rest.

I did a bit of drawing this morning~

started drawing umbreon and flareon for Tara's birthday present. But didnt get very far but I might get further tonight maybe.....

Tonight I might add a bit more hair dye over the dye I already have on, yes I did fish my bottles out the bin...but its washing out a bit! 

I also might try my weights even if its just a 10min video

yeah not really planned my evening XD its all mights and maybes XD

tomorrow

the electrician is coming over in the morning at 9am to talk to us about what he has done and what our electricity looks like now kinda thing. Jack will want to know how it all works! and no point in telling me really XD

apart from that no other plans as such.

2 lots of company today

 Evening

I did a bit and I mean A BIT of yoga with Jack last night, I could tell he wasn't feeling it so I didnt push it. We sat with Oz then I had my first milk hot chocolate since my diet. Really enjoyed it. Vastly better to water hot chocolate. Now I have had the lactose blood test and come back fine, I know I am ok to have milk! 

We watched chobits but it was a boring episode I felt.

We got to bed and I felt sicky again cus of my medication. So I struggled to get off to sleep

I slept through the night and got up with Jack this morning

he drove to work and once again on my return home I passed my brother going to work. He drove by, again, with his arm out stretched going by me with his middle finger in the air at me. As he knows it would make me laugh seeing him do such an arse hole thing

I got home and found mum taking the piglets round to my garden ^^ I was so happy I had managed to catch her :3 so I had a quick hug from her

I had the electrician over at this point

and I just could have done without it, I needed sleep I was tired. I kept drifting off and he kept wanting me and ugh it just felt like torture.

I tried to do a bit more of my drawing but couldnt concentrate 

at 11:15am mum came over and had a cup of tea with me then was off home for midday. But the electrician said he was gonna go home too for the day. So mum asked if I wanted to go a walk. I grabbed my lunch to have at her house.

I ate with mum which was nice as I had wanted company all morning, felt tired and lonely

but after I had eaten mia txt me saying she had finished work early did I want to do a dog walk

so I told mum and mum told me to go with mia as I am seeing mum tomorrow anyway. I felt bad but it worked out well. I brought more of my craft stuff over to my house then went for a walk with mia which was nice

then I think I was home for 15 mins when Jack came home :D 

so I wasnt really left on my own too much today

oh and mia really liked my hair ^^ no one says "what did you do!?" anyway XD

we had dinner and I got stomach ache and I laid on the bed, made myself too hot, over heated, felt poorly and tired so i had a bath but could not be bothered to wash myself I just wanted bed.

After my bath I worked on my ninetails picture and I got it finished, so I will upload that on instagram soon. Not sure which one of my pictures to start next. maybe tara's birthday one? its another pokemon one anyway!

I am gonna go sit with Oz now anyway

Jack says we can have an early night as he can see how tired I am

I didnt work out today as I went for a walk and can't manage much else!

its hayfever season for me now and its exhausting me

Jack is bad too but he started about 2 weeks ago, my season started this week. 

Here is Oz modelling my new carpets~

tomorrow

the electrician is coming again T^T

think mum is gonna keep me company so it doesnt feel like such a long day

I was crying last  night as I am unsure I am gonna be well enough for school next week but I dont want to take anymore time off

Attempt 2 with the hair~

 Evening

I exercise last night, I think no matter what I would have chosen to do it would have been an effort. I had been tired all day after all. I managed to do a 25min work out and was tired

we watched Chobits but I felt sick and achy in bed. I did get off eventually 

I had upset stomach this morning and felt pretty rough

Jack drove to school and I came back to find the electrician pulling up so that was good time

I then did a bit of drawing on ninetails

Originally I had draw fire, but it wasnt going right or it just wasnt suiting the image so I have gone without it. I will work on the background next on photoshop I think

It got to 10:15am and I went over to mum's

I hoovered out my car whilst she had a quick cup of tea

we then went to the shops~

I managed to get pyjamas, currently all the pyjamas I own are bunny pyjamas apart from one which has sea pandas on XD So I was hoping to continue the trend of bunny pyjamas. Mum found 1 pair of bunny print pyjamas!!!! I was so happy ^^ I also got some wrist weights, seeing as I am always using weights now I did want some for my wrists next, these are 1kg same as my ankle ones i think? I got some skin care stuff and pair of thinner joggers as all my joggers are thick ><

I picked some clothes up for Jack - he hadnt asked me to but he never buys clothes, looks scruffy, wears the same stuff and his friends make fun of him wearing the same stuff and looking like a 40 year old man. But I feel he has his old age to not care about himself, hes only 27. So I try and help his appearance....

I picked up some hair dye too, to have another attempt. I brought red and purple!!! no off shades for me this time, I went for it!!!

we got to mum's I had my lunch that I had brought over.

I packed up the remaining of my anime figures and my plush and took it home. I was home just before 2pm. I went to check Oz in the garage he was fine ^^

The electrician had his son over as it seemed to be a rather big job doing our lighting....like hardly anything is earthed in this house...I just sat in the bathroom dying my hair XD

I just went for it. and my god the colour....its pretty loud...

I then just stayed quiet really as the guys were all over the house and it was so hot out and I was tired

they left around 4ish and Jack was home soon after

He was shocked by my hair and he likes the clothes I picked out for him too

we had dinner then we both fell asleep after dinner - in separate rooms i left to be comfy on the bed.

think we are gonna do some yoga now

I might put some more hair dye in my hair as I quite like it and have loads of dye left.

might have a hot chocolate tonight

tomorrow

electrician is coming. again. with maybe his son

its not turning into the relaxing week it was suppose to be ><

not sure what I am gonna do. Mum says as she is round the corner as a neighbours she will pop the guinea pigs over to play outside in my garden ^^

The pink hair that isnt so pink

 Pyo~n

Last night I decided to dance!!!!!!! I did so freakin well~~~ Like really well. To say I haven't danced in like months I did so well with technique and remembering everything. I was so impressed with myself that I just kept going. 30mins came up and I was wet through as I was dancing by the patio doors which had the sun beaming through. Nice tho but warm. I decided to stop as I could my body asking for rest.

I showed Jack how sweaty I was XD I went for a much needed bath whilst Jack sat with my bunny

We watched Chobits again last night and I did enjoy it, getting this anime

I was in bed for 10pm, I was out like a light. I moved over to the edge of the bed as the previous night Jack had rolled over and squished me T^T But he said this morning that last night I fell asleep quick and snuggled over to him on his side >< why!? it wasnt like it  was cold so I needed heat. Don't know why I do that in my sleep >.> Jack says its cus I need him even in my sleep >.>

Jack drove this morning and I came back and tidied up the house a bit for the electrician to come over.

He came at 9am and we walked round the house talking about what we want in the house.

I popped out for a few things

I went doctors for my sick note

I went to the shop for french bread for jack's dinner and flowers for mum

I went wilkos for hair dye

bakery for a cake for Jack

I went to mum's and arranged her flowers in a vase and left them with a note

i also picked up my brother's hair dye brush whilst I was there - asked before taking of course

then I came home and had a cup of tea!!

Then I started put permanent hair dye in my hair!

I have NEVER used permanent before. I brought  mauve colour and dye dyed my front hair and the odd strand of my fringe. then tin foiled it up and left it an hour the electrician found it amusing

I washed it out and was a bit disappointed at how little showed :/ like you can only see it in certain lights which I suppose is nice but does feel pointless somewhat. I did repeat the process thinking it would take better 2nd time round but no -____- I should have just gone for it and brought shocking pink! I went with mauve so it wouldnt be drastic 

I painted a couple of ceramic bunnies i picked up the other week, rested a bit, had a cup of tea outside, made loads of drinks for the electrician and was talking with him on and off. Bleach my eyebrows too. 

mum rang to say thank you for the flowers ^^ I said I would go over mid morning tomorrow then we would go shops then I would have lunch at hers and come home for the electrician 

I made dinner which was ok, I got it on the moment Jack walked through the door. I had the same anxiety about him coming home and talking about work. I had the same anxiety in the car on the way to school! Why!? its actually crazy.

Jack is gaming tonight. He appreciates everything I have done today but says I need to do more for myself. 

I am unsure what I will do tonight, tempted to dance again but problem is it soaks my clothes! I have to keep washing them. But I might still do it XD

tomorrow

well monday was ear pierce, today hair dye, tomorrow lets not buy a crap sports car and complete the midlife crisis XD

I am dropping jack off, seeing mum then coming home I guess. Should be an alright day.

I hope I sleep well again tonight ^^

Pierced my own ear

 Evening

I could not sleep last night, I was very unsettled. We watched Chobits and jack did me a piece of fruit loaf which we havent done before at night XD

I got into bed and got a bit tearful. Again with the tears >.>

Of course Jack comforted me but I couldnt sleep and my jaw and ears hurt for some reason

At midnight I got up and stayed up for an hour. I took my painkillers and it was only when they had kicked in did I fall asleep

I woke up at the alarm of 6:20am so I had probably only just managed 5 hours sleep T^T

I did not want to get up and felt stupidly anxious about the day

why?

why? when I wasnt even the one going to school!!!

Stupid!

I got up with Jack and ate breakfast, I realised at midnight I hadnt cooked my chicken breast for breakfast so I would have no breakfast but Jack realised before I could say anything and did me a piece of fruit loaf. He is always taking care of me ^^

I drove him to work and then drove home again, txting him to say I was home like he asked me to

I quickly got to work on the dinner, making the sauce and meatballs all to throw in the slow cooker.

Literally as I finished Mia showed up with the dogs and we went for a walk which was nice ^^ it was good to see her. I told her what I had been through. We had an immature laugh over doing wee and poo samples. She wanted to know how I did them XD She then wanted filling on whats its being tested for and what those things were ^^;

wee - diabetes 

poo - cystic fibrosis

blood - auto immune diseases, vitamin D and other bits

I got home and did a few jobs round the house. I also pierced my own ear :D I did it! I used a cleaning wipe thing and washed my hands and yeah it was painless. Like that pain is literally nothing. I just struggled to get the used piercer off my ear!! But I managed it. Yeah I would do it again its not bad at all. I just need to make sure to keep it clean :) I now have 8 piercings 

at 11am I sat down with a well earned cup of tea and my brother rang XD

he called mostly to rant about dad, so no change there really

I had lunch, once again I wasnt fussed on food but ate it and had a biscuit and an apple

I rang mum and she came over for abit, she helped me clean up

She brought me some more plush over and figures and some boxes, we will slowly bring my stuff over!

We had a cup of tea and a chat and it was nice to have the company as I think I would have just slept all afternoon other wise.

She left and Jack came and we were happy to be with one another. I felt anxious about him coming home from work and talking about work. But mum said I dont have to hear about work if I dont want to which is true, its also my life and I think I wanna know how stuff is going. But I told Jack how I felt and he just gave me a skimmed over version of his day so it was ok actually

I did the dinner and Jack cleared up, he was actually ok about me piercing my own ear. He says he just worries. My brother was impressed I had managed to do it myself and home alone XD

Tonight not sure what I will do tonight, half tempted to do some exercise of some description but I will see. Can't push myself even if I want to ><

tomorrow

day off again

the electrician is coming over and I think I will pop out and collect my doctors note :)

I hope I sleep tonight, so tired ><

on a happy note, I won a plush today :D