took tilly vets

 Konbanwa

I slept ok again despite the sheer heat....

I was ok about going school too

I did so much at school! I got the physics booklet cover done and it was well appreciated by head of physics, Hannah and head of KS3 ^^ I was happy my work was appreciated like that :D

They look really good too. I was just doing it for the year 7&8 but everyone has said they want them for 9&10&11 too but I plan to do them separate covers which theyre fine with me doing but they want the year 7&8 ones on the rest of them in mean time as it will take me a long time to do the older year group ones. I am happy they have gone down so well!

We  managed to tidy A LOT of the prep room too, I am no longer so stressed about the state of the prep room. I was exhausted tho. Doing so much manual work in that heat and humidity is awful. Half the kids arent even in due to covid or people keeping their kids at home so they wont have to self isolate or get covid even before their pre-booked holidays during summer. cant blame them. but literally cant see the point in being in. As no one can teach as they sometimes have 5 student in their class so they just stick a video on. A video they could watch from home!!

I came home for lunch, my last lunch with mummy as she wont be coming over tomorrow. 

I showed her the stuff I got from TK MAXX last night, she likes my frying pan of all things XD

typical mother

I went to bed for an hour and woke up hungry as I didnt have much soup left over

so I had tea and tea cake, did some designing of my drawers and then Jack came home

I saw him for a short time as mum came to collect me to go to the vets with her, she thinks Tilly has got a UTI as of last night so mum wanted to get her sorted ASAP. As it goes I couldnt wait in the vets with mum so I was stuck in the car for half an hour with no phone or ipod T^T then mum came out without tilly, mum couldnt go into the vet's room with Tilly! She said if she knew this then she wouldnt have dragged me out like this but I didnt mind supporting mum and tilly

the vet couldnt actually find anything wrong with tilly

but covered all grounds with antibiotics and pain killers just for a week

I hope shes ok

I came back and did dinner which didnt make us sweat too badly

after I did some more Jack's sister's birthday card its looking good ^^

worked out for 30mins I was dripping despite it just being weights, then I remembered I had done 15mins of yoga as well this morning. >< didnt need to have made myself so hot and sweaty

I had cold bath and Jack had it afterwards

now were gonna sit out with my lad

Tomorrow its friday

and thank bloody god that it is

just no more school please. Too hot there

making cards, more pumpkins and fibromylgia videos

 evening

Could not be bothered to do my blog last night

but my day was ok, busy but ok I guess. Hot of course as this week its just 30c all the time

and no where has AC T^T 

I had mum over for lunch and I started doing mia and engagement card as well

I tried doing a yin yoga video for fibromylgia and I found it too easy. I would say it would suit those who are really poorly but I have progressed.

Today

I slept well, dreaming of vampires and demons wanting to recruit me to their clans. I mean just take me now and give me an interesting life! Damn that alarm for waking me!!! ><

didnt want to go school as I finally had those praticals to do from the other week >> and i did them and I did them bloody well. I was sweating making up those chemicals. Luke thanked me and appreciated what I did. Cant be said for other people who literally talk to me like crap. I bit her head off back earlier. I was hot and bothered, in pain, and did not deserve to be spoken to like that. She looked quite shocked but I dont want to be someone who gets walked all over.

I didnt get the physics books done as I have had other work to do :/ but maybe tomorrow

After I had mum over for lunch I went to bed but didnt sleep for long as my body was getting warm >< just too hot to even sleep!

I got up and finished Mia's engagement card and sent Jacks mum some ideas for Jack's birthday which she was grateful for :) 

Dinner was good as I did pulled pork and totally winged the recipe but it was so good. As we didnt have to cook I suggested going to TK MAXX tonight for Jack's step dad's birthday present. His birthday is this weekend. Jack being Jack hasnt brought anything or thought of anything so I suggested a tshirt for him. So Jack said we would go shopping saturday morning

but its more busy then and also we are seeing them that day and I will need all the energy I can get I dont want to be wasting it round a busy shop.

So we went tonight

we got a new frying pan as ours is knackered from Jack's uni days

we got a thermos for soup and a cool bag so we can go on picnics in the holidays

Jack got a tshirt for £4.99 - always determined to buy that guy clothes.

we were unsuccessful in getting James a birthday present as I didnt realise they didnt sell up to his size.....

however we did get something bloody amazing!!!! We got 2 glass pumpkins. Yes I did jump up and down with happiness and excitement in the shop =>.<= Jack said I could have whatever. So I picked a matching one for the one I picked up last year for the kitchen windowsill and I picked a dark glitter green with a goldish stem for the fire place. I was so damn happy. Jack was happy seeing me being happy.

we got home and I I tried to 10min fibromylgia video but that was too dull and slow for me too. then I had a cold bath whilst Jack brought James something online. So he is sorted now. Jack's sister's birthday is in August. It's her 16th so I have started drawing her a card not told Jack yet as I have never made a card for any family members before of his. Im sure it will be ok. I suggested ideas for her birthday too. Honestly its just me organising everything here T^T

I need to do Julia a bday card too as its hers on 1st August. Whats with all these birthdays lately ><

I will do more work on the card tomorrow.

We will go sit out with Oz again tonight as too warm to have him inside

he is enjoying playing out in the evenings

tomorrow is school   

gonna be hot again T^T but might be able to have some actual drawing time who knows

The proposal at 10pm

 Evening

We sat out with Ozwald last night as I think it remained close to 30c TT^TT

so hot, but Oz enjoyed his little self

We just packed up and I went to water my plants when Jack came outside with my phone, it said Rob was calling. So I picked up thinking "whats up at 10pm?"

it was Mia

"Jo Im getting married!!"

I said "yeah....I know?" - as she had said several weeks ago that she and Rob had agreed to get married so she was kinda engaged and going to hunt for a ring

she said "No I'm getting married!"

I was thinking 'like tomorrow!?' I said "Yeah you told me a few weeks ago?"

she said "No no, Rob, he actually just proposed to me!!!"

and yeah I was stunned. Really happy of course but at 10pm and such a big statement, my brain froze a bit! I was so pleased for her tho

he had given her the simple, surprised proposal she wanted

her parents were in the awning of the caravan and Rob went outside and called Mia out and there he was on one knee, in front of her parents (who knew he was gonna do it) and she burst into tears, Mia's mum burst into tears. Yeah dead pleased for her. As we werent sure if Rob was gonna give her an actual proposal or not after agreeing they were gonna get married

he had even been sweet enough to buy her a ring, but said to her if she still wants to chose her own then she can do. But I said it was a lovely effort and she would keep the ring forever regardless. I mean I am not sure why she still needs to chose a ring! Id be happy with anything Jack gets me

so with that she left me to my bedtime. 

I got into bed and filled Jack in. Who jokingly said "I cant use Rob as an excuse not to propose to you now" as his joke was he couldnt propose to me til Rob had finally asked mia to marry him. But here we are! XD

I slept ok given the heat. But still felt tired this morning >< so did everyone as work actually. Everyone was yawning.

The school was sooo humid like you could feel the moisture in the air. It was horrid. Cus its been shut up all weekend and only about 6 rooms in the whole building have AC

our room is not one of them......

I went straight to see Chris before I even went to the prep room. I wanted to know if he was ok. So I sat chatting with him for a good half hour. He seemed so hurt it is awful seeing someone like that

I came to the prep room and Julia was like "morning, where you been?" I said "went to see chris" she said "oh ok, just everyone is asking for you"

thought 'odd, normally no one knows or cares where I am!'

turns out it was mainly Luke who was asking where I was as I had forgotten I had got his practical first thing! I had chemicals to make >< but luckily I had prepped the actual equipment on friday so I literally just had chemicals to whip up which I did~

I managed all my lessons like a pro. Luke didnt eat all the chemicals so I have enough left over for tomorrow's practical ^^

it gave me the rest of the day to draw~

I got the biology front covers done and everyone loved them!

I cant upload them due to them having so much school info on them

It felt like a good achievement. I just need to crack out the physics ones~

Julia's daughter made it in but I was drawing today so I didnt work with her

I came home for my lunch and I was ready for a rest and food!

Mum came to see me for almost 2 hours. I hadnt seen her since friday so we had a lot to catch up on.

I managed to tidy my painting up from painting the porch door and I did a load of washing, had 40mins on my bed.

Tried looking for ideas on how to paint my  drawers. 

Jack came home and I had a cup of tea and fruit loaf and he had an ice cream. 

We did dinner which was good~

Then I felt depressed over my art as I didnt know what to do on my drawers without it looking crap. My picture for Tara is becoming difficult as I have got to do a background and I am no good at backgrounds T^T 

Jack came and picked my spirits up and said to me to just try things out and to not worry about getting it right first time. And he is right. I expect perfection on the first go.

So I had a go on photoshop then clipart studio

I think I have a bit more of an idea what to do now but its gonna take time and attempts....

I did 25mins of weights, I had done 15mins of yoga this morning so I feel I have done some exercise today :) It is still very hot and humid so I sweated to death doing simple movements

Then I had a cold bath with was blood fantastic. Jack had it after me and announced he was sleeping there tonight XD

We are gonna sit outside with Oz again tonight as there is still ant poison down and its too warm for him inside.

tomorrow is school and another hot day T^T

I wonder if Mia got any sleep last night or if she was just up thinking about her wedding

and yes I am bridesmaid

and yes that involves bridesmaidly duties.......

so damn hot, last full week of work!

 Evening

Last night we sat outside with Oz, drinking hot chocolate, well I was - Jack had ice cream

Oz loved every bit of it XD he did not want to go home tho. Right gave me the run around and then he made himself hot and out of breath, whats the point!?

I did not sleep well. It was 29c last night....the temperature didnt seem to drop and the humidity was awful. No breeze. It was like we were being punished!

We had the fan on all night for the first time. So I think that contributed to my lack of sleep as I just kept waking up. Jack was thrashing in his sleep as he was hot and bothered. He also elbowed me in the forehead in his sleep which woke me. Didnt wake him tho >.> I was sure to report this when I got up at 8am. I did wake up with a headache but realised it wasnt a headache it was scalp pain from having my hair in a pig tail for a lot of the day yesterday T^T

we set off and at 9:20am it was already 27c....thats just not possible

We got up and went shopping we were unpacked and done for 10:30am

we sat and the Jack helped me with my soup ^^

I had my soup and then I was just so tired, I was frustrated tho as I wanted to start my painting. But Jack said he would wake me up after an hour. I still felt like it was an hour I was losing.

Hes been gaming with Harvey and Theo most of the day. I dont mind as he has done his chores. And we said we would have a hobby weekend as its so damn hot.

I have been painting for several hours. The door is almost finished. I will get it done tonight. Its not as good as I wanted it to be but its still better than the eye sore that it used to be. Jack is impressed with it. I will get it finished tonight. Glad I didnt paint my nails last night as my hands were just full of paint. I wrecked my socks with paint too!

I am gonna do some weight videos then have a cold bath. Think that is my plan~

Tomorrow is school

and I found another calf length skirt in my wardrobe I havent worn before so I can wear that without tights tomorrow and be 'cool' I know I will be hot no matter what. I can wear my hair in plates and it doesnt seem to hurt my scalp too much. So at least I can get my hair off my neck but I dont like wearing it in that style >.> 

I finish at midday again and I hope mummy will come and see me for lunch~

I did more on my pokemon picture~

No more insects.....please

 Evening

man it is hot -_______-

So last night when we went to bed I said to Jack "don't wake me up for nothing"

at 6:30am "Jo!!" "yeah?...." "nevermind, thought it was school"

I was raging XD I needed a wee now I had been rudely woken cus Jack was in a panic thinking we had over slept on a school morning. I climbed back into bed after I went for a wee and said

"I swear to god Jack if I dont get back to sleep now I will literally castrate you"

Luckily we both fell asleep til around 8am! So he got to keep his balls......for now.....

We got up as we was already warm!

As I went to see Oz I noticed ants crawling around the cracks in the brickwork underneath the living room window about 50cm from the window on the outside. I decided to show Jack, he was not impressed but we were planning on filling in those gaps in the holidays anyway. Its just over the years houses move and mortar and brick separate sometimes.

We got ready to go out and then went out around 9:15am

We had a walk through a park which had plenty of shade.

We did a few charity shops which were naff to be honest. Then we did Wilkos where Jack brought them out of ant poison, I just let him get on with it XD

We then walked down to Pudding Pantry and got Ice cream!!!! I had 2 scoops of oreo and Jack had melon sorbet. Mine was soooooooooooo good I could have had hooked to my veins 

We ate them in the shade and then walked through the shade back to the car.

We got home and rested. I rested on the bed then had lunch, then did my chores which was cleaning Oz out and cleaning the bathroom. Jack went straight out to gas the ants with poison

I want to say that from waking up til 4pm we kept finding spiders. In total today Jack has hovered up 11 spiders....we get 2 a day which is normal every day for us here but 11 is taking the pee. 8 of them were huge buggers.

Jack had been gaming and resting most of the afternoon. To be honest there wasnt an awful lot else you could do as it was so damn hot. I watched some youtube videos then did a bit of drawing but it was so hot. I had a shower to cool myself off

I decided to bake biscuits as the oven needed to be on for dinner anyway >< 

I was making dinner and just as I was about to serve it up did we realise we had 15+ flying ants on the INSIDE of our patio door....sweet mother of god what was going off!? Jack discovered that the hole on the outside of the house connects with a hole behind the radiator in the living room.  So we never knew it was there....As Jack had earlier gased the outside of the ants hole they had decided to evacuate through the inside hole of the house!!!

we had ants all over the carpet, wall, radiator, sofa...it was like an actual nightmare. There was flying ants everywhere. So he hovered up everything and I went round killing flying ants. Mayhem. My dinner was over cooking and burning at the point T^T

Jack laid poison out and gased them as well. Thank god he had brought what he did. life saver.

He said "Oz can't come in here tonight tho" but I dont think i will bring him anyway as its far to warm in that living room for him

I didnt fancy eating in the living room as I felt too on edge and itchy over the whole thing so we took the picnic blanket outside and ate outside with Ozwald who loved the company ^^

Jack went inside after dinner to assess the ant situation. He said "cant see any thats actually alive"

I came inside just on my laptop as I can not face going in that living room right now!

since then I have killed a a big fly and a wasp

Jack kindly sanded down the porch door for me so I can start painting that tomorrow :D

Dont think we are sitting in the lounge tonight, leaving the poison over night and see what its like in the morning. Tomorrow Jack is sealing the hole up. It was awful

truly insect genocide happened in this house today

1 fly

1 wasp

11 spiders

30+ flying ants

100s ants

I have had enough of insects today. No more please.

I am tired and hot. We will sit outside with Oz tonight then go to bed

my morning with Jack was nice tho, we both enjoyed that and needed it

tomorrow

just got food shop and soup to make I can spend the rest of the day painting my door!

finished the week and counselling

 Evening

I slept well ^^

I felt ok about school, just tired but I managed 15mins of yoga before school~

School I was on better form than yesterday~

I almost got too carried away with my work and missed my council meeting which I felt was a total waste of time. She didnt really give me anything. Other than saying "im not a professional but sounds like you have an eating disorder" "you need to see more value in what you do each day, you do a lot more than other people who dont have your issues or anxiety" tis true. I thought I need to make note of what I do achieve in my days, no matter how small. I set myself goals but I dont look at any extra stuff or stuff I do instead.

However I am not returning to counselling as I dont feel like I am getting anything from it

I got a lot done at work today, I mean there was a lot of practicals none of them big but just loads of little ones which ate up my day and I wasnt able to do any drawing!

I came home and had lunch with mum and Oz but Oz was playing up, almost showing off in front of mum so I booted him outside >.> 

we went to TK MAXX and we literally went there and home

I got a pair of joggers, sun glasses for me and Jack, candle and some soap so nothing much or special.

Mum came home with me and we opened up my Boohoo order and she liked all my stuff and I was pleased with them, just none I can wear right now as theyre thick joggers and jumpers!

she stayed for a cup or tea and I had fruit loaf too~

I couldnt wait for her to go tho as I was so damn tired

as soon as she left I went to bed but then Jack came through the door he said he saw mum, I dont get a break. I wasnt gonna grace him with my presence and conked out whilst he showered 

I had a bath when I got up, which was when Jack finished showering

we had dinner

it was just so hot today it reached 29c its gonna go past 30c at the weekend T^T god help us

Jack went to clear up and Mia randomly rang me for 10mins then Jack was already gaming by this point. I sat on my laptop with the means to draw but I wasnt in the mood and it was a nice evening. I had sacked off exercise as my body feels heavy and achy like its full of fibromylgia-if thats possible. So I decided to scoop my bunny, get in my car (which was luckily in the shade by this point!) and drive to mums. I usually put Oz in his carrying case but it stresses him out so much even tho hes in it less than 5mins! So I thought I would sit him on my knee, no main roads and a dead time of day. He was such a good boy and clung to me. I drove like an old woman XD

We got to mums and I sat out with her and dad we watched Oz love life and run round the garden and the girls eat the grass, I had to cut truffs claws which she was not having. But Oz was so damn happy. Its so warm for him to come inside at night so I thought this would make his friday night ^^ 

I put him on my lap and we came home, Jack still doesnt know we had even gone out!

Now its 9:40pm and Jack should hopefully be finished around 10pm as I am shattered!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tomorrow is saturday!

and thank god that we dont need to get up at 6am ^^

we said we would have a bit of a 'date' as we dont go anywhere - thanks to corona but I need to go places as its not helping my anxiety for when i do need to go places and I dont want to fear getting anxiety, I wont let myself get that bad otherwise thats when you become a recluse! Also I want to do something fun with my Jack ^^ so we are going into a local town, where Harvey lives, and we are going for a walk in the park, charity shops maybe (if theyre not busy) and going for ICE CREAM!!! can not bloody wait. it has literally kept me going all week!!!!!

then we will come home for lunch and chores then die as it will be like 30c......

so hobbies after that!

heres how far I am with my picture, almost done the shading I guess

had a rest day cus it was a stressful day

 Evening

We had Oz in whilst we watched Inuyasha last night and of those 20 something minutes we watched the anime I think Oz must have spent 17 of those minutes on his toilet. Actually obsessed. He ran straight to it whilst I was setting it up as I had cleaned his towel he does toilet on and im sure he KNEW it was clean too

I slept well ^^

I felt ok about school as well, just tired and every time my meds kick in I become tired. thats both my pain killers and antidepressants. Life is hard and tiring....

At school we had a department meeting to which my booklet front cover was projected on the board for all to see! And I was praised by head of department for my good work and he announced that I was completing the biology one next ^^ everyone loves Jo's art work :D

I had a very stressful morning

I had head of biology barking a 1000 things at me

I had an Ox heart on the side defrosted sitting in it's own blood that literally flipped my stomach over

changes of lesson plans

sudden shopping trip sprung on me

had to go to a big supermarket with Jack to which I felt like crying whilst I was going round it as it was just too much, that why we go shopping on a sunday morning when the shop doors open - its quiet. this was awful. I was stressed. I had a practical to prep that ive done loads of times but  i couldnt get my head round it due to stress

in the end I literally sat on my computer and drew

I came home and mum wasnt seeing me today as she had got an appointment but it did mean she was in for my boohoo parcel! woo! she offered to bring it over but I am seeing her tomorrow and I can wait. I was very pleased with what came this week tho, my hand made bunny earrings! so cute! I am so pleased with them ^^

I went to bed after I had had my lunch with my Ozwald

then when I got up I finished Jack's card by adding some sparkles on it and writing. I also wrapped his present. Its not til next month but its easier to do these things when hes not home.

When Jack came home I had a lump of fruit loaf and sweet tea

then I made biscuits and then my brother came over to give his opinion on my chest of drawers as to what I can actually do with them. Hes hopefully going to sort me out a sander~

we had dinner, and it was same food that gave me stomach ache on tuesday and it gave me tummy ache again. I laid on my bed, my body exhausted

Jack laid beside me and we fell asleep, when I looked out the bedroom window I could see Oz asleep next to the garage door -____- we were tired and warm

I havent done any exercise today as I am exhausted physically and mentally

I have to allow myself days off otherwise I am pushing myself and will make myself worse. I know this. However it is difficult. I feel bad not exercising and I get the fat talk how I will become fat. But I can't just so tired. I went for a shower and felt better for a shower but it was an effort to wash myself

so we are with Oz now going to watch anime, Oz is happy bunny and I love it~

tomorrow is friday thank god

first thing in the morning I have that counselling session which I dont want to go to.

practicals to prep too. and somehow got to find energy for it all and to go TK MAXX with mum after lunch! ><