Managed my first full day in weeks!

 Evening

I slept ok but didnt wanna wake up as I knew it would be school

I did wake up like 2 mins before my alarm so I cuddled Jack who said he had a bad dream and didnt sleep well. He said his dream was that he lived in Harvey's house and there was giant ants there.

I said "you probably dreamed that as you upset me and Harveys is where you would end up without me" XD he was like "yeah probably" XD

I did my yoga before school, Jack went to see Oz and came in saying "he was on the garage floor when I walked in?" huh?

I worked out what had happened. I had put Oz home in the dark and hadnt seen/noticed that his door was locked it was shut to but not locked so he had obviously nudged it open in the night and then it has swung closed on him and hes not been able to get home all night....safe to say he was STARVING my god that rabbit was hungry. And he was off to mum's today! mum's flourishing garden T^T

we took him over to mums and I just hoped I wouldnt get angry txt messages from my mother...

school was hard but not as hard as it has been some days

we gave Julia her bday card and her plant present, we were given chocolates from a trainie teacher and the biscuits from the art technician so it was gifts all round. We had the 'fuddle' and I took my own food in and no one said anything, Jack enjoyed his food. I did my 1 practical for just 2 students. I got in contact with Occupational Health finally as I kept forgetting. But said the woman is out of office til 29th. I got loads of washing up that has been piling up. I have a bit more to do but ran out of room on the drying board which is saying something.

Tomorrow at school we start the day with free bacon/sausage sandwich. I will go down for it but I wont have it. Theres usually tea and coffee so I will have a tea~ Jack says he will eat my sandwich on my behalf >.> he benefits greatly from my diet at times! We finish at 1pm too. We have no lessons~ I just hope the day doesnt go dead slow.

We picked Oz up and went home and a brew and snack

then I wanted my dinner as I was hungry and tired but I had my breakfast meat to cook otherwise it would go out of date TT^TT that was a kick in the teeth as I really thought I had zero cooking to do tonight but i got it done. We had dinner and I fell asleep on my bed for half hour.

Now I am here and I need to do some form of exercise if I want to sleep tonight

so tomorrow is half day at school really and then when we get home I get my plush that Jack hid away in the wardrobe and I will give him a new earring. I can't wait for new plush!

Not sure what else I will do with my day as it depends on how tired I am

picture of the fish cakes I made a few weeks ago and I of course made the chips too

because once again he doesnt communicate

 Evening

I could not be bothered to do my diary last night

so yesterday I was tired and achy, I was disappointed that I wasnt able to do all I wanted but I did get some stuff done

we went to a local town in the morning and I got some new earrings from a jewellers theyre just little hoops as my hoops for my ears were just too large. I got paint for my drawers too. The whole shopping experience was tiring tho as I had bad anxiety everywhere! I felt totally fine all morning but as soon as I was in a shop I was just overwhelmed with it all without even thinking about anxiety! So frustrating

We came home and I went to bed

had lunch and then had a warm bath. I didnt have the energy for exercise so I decided on a warm bath

we set off for one last shop as I wanted a canvas to sit and do during the holidays then from there

 we went over to Jack's mums where we had 5 hours with his family and a BBQ it was alright I dont mind seeing them I just find it exhausting having to look well and happy for that length of time without a break! Its intense! 

I drove us home as Jack wanted a drink with his sisters which is fair enough.

we got back around 8:30pm which I was glad about as I had had enough. I was just aching bad

so I managed 25mins of exercise and then we had Oz in whilst we watched Inuyasha then we went to bed and we both slept pretty well

this morning we got up and went food shopping and I was ok today I wasnt anxious

I was tired tho and achy

we unpacked and I had a tea then crawled up on the bed. I knew I had stuff to do but couldnt face it all. However I did pick myself and went to make my soup with Jack, cleaned Oz out who enjoyed helping and then cleaned the bathroom. Had lunch and went to bed

When I got up I couldnt be bothered but I decided to go a walk, using my strength i drove us to the river for a walk round but Jack hardly spoke it was no fun at all. I was really disappointed that the only thing I had actually had time for myself for was a walk with my boyfriend and I had pushed myself and done the river walk for it to be a total grumpfest. 

We came home and I went on the bed

he wanted my opinion on some tshirts and i ordered a couple for myself then went back on the bed and cried as I ached, my pain killers had done nothing all day. I was tired. Jack was in a mood.

He came and we talked about it and he felt bad for being grumpy but it turns out it was cus we had been talking about his birthday and he doesnt like his birthday and doesnt want any fuss made over him. I knew that but I didnt know he hated his birthday so much. I was looking forward to going out for the day with my boyfriend and he doesnt want to. I said "so once again its me upset because you havent told me how you actually feel!" he always bottles up how he feels about something and then I have no idea why hes not happy, think its me and yeah. He needs to work on that. he was sorry and said he doesnt mind going out for his birthday but said to leave it if it doesnt make him happy. I said "we best actually go places in the holidays tho right?" he said "yeah we can go places" we best >.>

i was also fed up as I had biscuits and food to make but was too tired and drained but i got it done somehow

dont want to go school tomorrow ether

just cant face a full day T^T not done a full day in weeks

its also the department "fuddle" where you bring food in and have a bit of a get together

I am bringing stuff in with Jack but I wont actually be having any of it as I cant face that

I just want to get the day done

Oz will be at bunny day care~

photo of stew dinner

 Evening

thank god the week is done

last night I could not sleep. I had awful awful stomach pains like my insides were rotting and burning. I had no idea what was up. But it was keeping me up! I needed more pain killers but once I took them my stomach felt even worse. So I was just up and awake by myself. It went on and on, til I took some more pain killers at 3am and went back to bed

so when the alarm went off at 6am I was dead.....I was pale with bags under my eyes and my lips had no colour at all. I didnt want to go to school and was half tempted to not go

But I went

I managed everything but left at 11:30am as I just felt like death

I came home after dropping Mia's card off and had my lunch and went to bed

I was a bit disappointed as I had planned to go buy art supplies on my home but didnt feel well enough - mentally and physically to do so. Jack felt better knowing I was going straight home too and not going round a shop by myself

I slept for 2 hour and felt better

I had also been to the toilet multiple times and felt better in that respect too

I finished Jack's sister birthday card off it looks really good and hes really pleased with it

I had tea and fruit loaf, Jack came home

We had dinner which was a simple matter of using a microwave to heat up leftovers! woo!

it been cooler today its been 24c not 30c so thats helped matters!

I might do some exercise now then go and take Oz over to my mum and dads as jack is gaming til 10pm so I will be by myself anyway and my parents have been out for the day. I also said I would help mum with tilly's meds too.

So I will do some exercise and have a bath~

tomorrow

we are popping to the shops in the morning, I will try get some chores done too maybe and then in the afternoon we are going to the shop I was so suppose to get art supplies from today on the way to Jack's parent's house where we have been invited over for a BBQ at 3pm. It could rain tomorrow so not sure how it will go but its his step dad's birthday so there might be cake and if there is I cant eat it T^T

Keep meaning to show one of my stew dinners I make

took tilly vets

 Konbanwa

I slept ok again despite the sheer heat....

I was ok about going school too

I did so much at school! I got the physics booklet cover done and it was well appreciated by head of physics, Hannah and head of KS3 ^^ I was happy my work was appreciated like that :D

They look really good too. I was just doing it for the year 7&8 but everyone has said they want them for 9&10&11 too but I plan to do them separate covers which theyre fine with me doing but they want the year 7&8 ones on the rest of them in mean time as it will take me a long time to do the older year group ones. I am happy they have gone down so well!

We  managed to tidy A LOT of the prep room too, I am no longer so stressed about the state of the prep room. I was exhausted tho. Doing so much manual work in that heat and humidity is awful. Half the kids arent even in due to covid or people keeping their kids at home so they wont have to self isolate or get covid even before their pre-booked holidays during summer. cant blame them. but literally cant see the point in being in. As no one can teach as they sometimes have 5 student in their class so they just stick a video on. A video they could watch from home!!

I came home for lunch, my last lunch with mummy as she wont be coming over tomorrow. 

I showed her the stuff I got from TK MAXX last night, she likes my frying pan of all things XD

typical mother

I went to bed for an hour and woke up hungry as I didnt have much soup left over

so I had tea and tea cake, did some designing of my drawers and then Jack came home

I saw him for a short time as mum came to collect me to go to the vets with her, she thinks Tilly has got a UTI as of last night so mum wanted to get her sorted ASAP. As it goes I couldnt wait in the vets with mum so I was stuck in the car for half an hour with no phone or ipod T^T then mum came out without tilly, mum couldnt go into the vet's room with Tilly! She said if she knew this then she wouldnt have dragged me out like this but I didnt mind supporting mum and tilly

the vet couldnt actually find anything wrong with tilly

but covered all grounds with antibiotics and pain killers just for a week

I hope shes ok

I came back and did dinner which didnt make us sweat too badly

after I did some more Jack's sister's birthday card its looking good ^^

worked out for 30mins I was dripping despite it just being weights, then I remembered I had done 15mins of yoga as well this morning. >< didnt need to have made myself so hot and sweaty

I had cold bath and Jack had it afterwards

now were gonna sit out with my lad

Tomorrow its friday

and thank bloody god that it is

just no more school please. Too hot there

making cards, more pumpkins and fibromylgia videos

 evening

Could not be bothered to do my blog last night

but my day was ok, busy but ok I guess. Hot of course as this week its just 30c all the time

and no where has AC T^T 

I had mum over for lunch and I started doing mia and engagement card as well

I tried doing a yin yoga video for fibromylgia and I found it too easy. I would say it would suit those who are really poorly but I have progressed.

Today

I slept well, dreaming of vampires and demons wanting to recruit me to their clans. I mean just take me now and give me an interesting life! Damn that alarm for waking me!!! ><

didnt want to go school as I finally had those praticals to do from the other week >> and i did them and I did them bloody well. I was sweating making up those chemicals. Luke thanked me and appreciated what I did. Cant be said for other people who literally talk to me like crap. I bit her head off back earlier. I was hot and bothered, in pain, and did not deserve to be spoken to like that. She looked quite shocked but I dont want to be someone who gets walked all over.

I didnt get the physics books done as I have had other work to do :/ but maybe tomorrow

After I had mum over for lunch I went to bed but didnt sleep for long as my body was getting warm >< just too hot to even sleep!

I got up and finished Mia's engagement card and sent Jacks mum some ideas for Jack's birthday which she was grateful for :) 

Dinner was good as I did pulled pork and totally winged the recipe but it was so good. As we didnt have to cook I suggested going to TK MAXX tonight for Jack's step dad's birthday present. His birthday is this weekend. Jack being Jack hasnt brought anything or thought of anything so I suggested a tshirt for him. So Jack said we would go shopping saturday morning

but its more busy then and also we are seeing them that day and I will need all the energy I can get I dont want to be wasting it round a busy shop.

So we went tonight

we got a new frying pan as ours is knackered from Jack's uni days

we got a thermos for soup and a cool bag so we can go on picnics in the holidays

Jack got a tshirt for £4.99 - always determined to buy that guy clothes.

we were unsuccessful in getting James a birthday present as I didnt realise they didnt sell up to his size.....

however we did get something bloody amazing!!!! We got 2 glass pumpkins. Yes I did jump up and down with happiness and excitement in the shop =>.<= Jack said I could have whatever. So I picked a matching one for the one I picked up last year for the kitchen windowsill and I picked a dark glitter green with a goldish stem for the fire place. I was so damn happy. Jack was happy seeing me being happy.

we got home and I I tried to 10min fibromylgia video but that was too dull and slow for me too. then I had a cold bath whilst Jack brought James something online. So he is sorted now. Jack's sister's birthday is in August. It's her 16th so I have started drawing her a card not told Jack yet as I have never made a card for any family members before of his. Im sure it will be ok. I suggested ideas for her birthday too. Honestly its just me organising everything here T^T

I need to do Julia a bday card too as its hers on 1st August. Whats with all these birthdays lately ><

I will do more work on the card tomorrow.

We will go sit out with Oz again tonight as too warm to have him inside

he is enjoying playing out in the evenings

tomorrow is school   

gonna be hot again T^T but might be able to have some actual drawing time who knows

The proposal at 10pm

 Evening

We sat out with Ozwald last night as I think it remained close to 30c TT^TT

so hot, but Oz enjoyed his little self

We just packed up and I went to water my plants when Jack came outside with my phone, it said Rob was calling. So I picked up thinking "whats up at 10pm?"

it was Mia

"Jo Im getting married!!"

I said "yeah....I know?" - as she had said several weeks ago that she and Rob had agreed to get married so she was kinda engaged and going to hunt for a ring

she said "No I'm getting married!"

I was thinking 'like tomorrow!?' I said "Yeah you told me a few weeks ago?"

she said "No no, Rob, he actually just proposed to me!!!"

and yeah I was stunned. Really happy of course but at 10pm and such a big statement, my brain froze a bit! I was so pleased for her tho

he had given her the simple, surprised proposal she wanted

her parents were in the awning of the caravan and Rob went outside and called Mia out and there he was on one knee, in front of her parents (who knew he was gonna do it) and she burst into tears, Mia's mum burst into tears. Yeah dead pleased for her. As we werent sure if Rob was gonna give her an actual proposal or not after agreeing they were gonna get married

he had even been sweet enough to buy her a ring, but said to her if she still wants to chose her own then she can do. But I said it was a lovely effort and she would keep the ring forever regardless. I mean I am not sure why she still needs to chose a ring! Id be happy with anything Jack gets me

so with that she left me to my bedtime. 

I got into bed and filled Jack in. Who jokingly said "I cant use Rob as an excuse not to propose to you now" as his joke was he couldnt propose to me til Rob had finally asked mia to marry him. But here we are! XD

I slept ok given the heat. But still felt tired this morning >< so did everyone as work actually. Everyone was yawning.

The school was sooo humid like you could feel the moisture in the air. It was horrid. Cus its been shut up all weekend and only about 6 rooms in the whole building have AC

our room is not one of them......

I went straight to see Chris before I even went to the prep room. I wanted to know if he was ok. So I sat chatting with him for a good half hour. He seemed so hurt it is awful seeing someone like that

I came to the prep room and Julia was like "morning, where you been?" I said "went to see chris" she said "oh ok, just everyone is asking for you"

thought 'odd, normally no one knows or cares where I am!'

turns out it was mainly Luke who was asking where I was as I had forgotten I had got his practical first thing! I had chemicals to make >< but luckily I had prepped the actual equipment on friday so I literally just had chemicals to whip up which I did~

I managed all my lessons like a pro. Luke didnt eat all the chemicals so I have enough left over for tomorrow's practical ^^

it gave me the rest of the day to draw~

I got the biology front covers done and everyone loved them!

I cant upload them due to them having so much school info on them

It felt like a good achievement. I just need to crack out the physics ones~

Julia's daughter made it in but I was drawing today so I didnt work with her

I came home for my lunch and I was ready for a rest and food!

Mum came to see me for almost 2 hours. I hadnt seen her since friday so we had a lot to catch up on.

I managed to tidy my painting up from painting the porch door and I did a load of washing, had 40mins on my bed.

Tried looking for ideas on how to paint my  drawers. 

Jack came home and I had a cup of tea and fruit loaf and he had an ice cream. 

We did dinner which was good~

Then I felt depressed over my art as I didnt know what to do on my drawers without it looking crap. My picture for Tara is becoming difficult as I have got to do a background and I am no good at backgrounds T^T 

Jack came and picked my spirits up and said to me to just try things out and to not worry about getting it right first time. And he is right. I expect perfection on the first go.

So I had a go on photoshop then clipart studio

I think I have a bit more of an idea what to do now but its gonna take time and attempts....

I did 25mins of weights, I had done 15mins of yoga this morning so I feel I have done some exercise today :) It is still very hot and humid so I sweated to death doing simple movements

Then I had a cold bath with was blood fantastic. Jack had it after me and announced he was sleeping there tonight XD

We are gonna sit outside with Oz again tonight as there is still ant poison down and its too warm for him inside.

tomorrow is school and another hot day T^T

I wonder if Mia got any sleep last night or if she was just up thinking about her wedding

and yes I am bridesmaid

and yes that involves bridesmaidly duties.......

so damn hot, last full week of work!

 Evening

Last night we sat outside with Oz, drinking hot chocolate, well I was - Jack had ice cream

Oz loved every bit of it XD he did not want to go home tho. Right gave me the run around and then he made himself hot and out of breath, whats the point!?

I did not sleep well. It was 29c last night....the temperature didnt seem to drop and the humidity was awful. No breeze. It was like we were being punished!

We had the fan on all night for the first time. So I think that contributed to my lack of sleep as I just kept waking up. Jack was thrashing in his sleep as he was hot and bothered. He also elbowed me in the forehead in his sleep which woke me. Didnt wake him tho >.> I was sure to report this when I got up at 8am. I did wake up with a headache but realised it wasnt a headache it was scalp pain from having my hair in a pig tail for a lot of the day yesterday T^T

we set off and at 9:20am it was already 27c....thats just not possible

We got up and went shopping we were unpacked and done for 10:30am

we sat and the Jack helped me with my soup ^^

I had my soup and then I was just so tired, I was frustrated tho as I wanted to start my painting. But Jack said he would wake me up after an hour. I still felt like it was an hour I was losing.

Hes been gaming with Harvey and Theo most of the day. I dont mind as he has done his chores. And we said we would have a hobby weekend as its so damn hot.

I have been painting for several hours. The door is almost finished. I will get it done tonight. Its not as good as I wanted it to be but its still better than the eye sore that it used to be. Jack is impressed with it. I will get it finished tonight. Glad I didnt paint my nails last night as my hands were just full of paint. I wrecked my socks with paint too!

I am gonna do some weight videos then have a cold bath. Think that is my plan~

Tomorrow is school

and I found another calf length skirt in my wardrobe I havent worn before so I can wear that without tights tomorrow and be 'cool' I know I will be hot no matter what. I can wear my hair in plates and it doesnt seem to hurt my scalp too much. So at least I can get my hair off my neck but I dont like wearing it in that style >.> 

I finish at midday again and I hope mummy will come and see me for lunch~

I did more on my pokemon picture~