didnt manage to go to school but legs feel much better today

 Evening

Last night I did achieve a bit of digital art for myself. I also sat with the heat lamp during anime which was ok its just very bright! I had Jack hissing at it XD

I slept much better last night and the alarm was needed. God knows what time I would have woken up!

I got up and my legs felt so much better! Like the best theyve felt in a week or so! was it the heat lamp? I felt I could have gone school, but I knew id be pushing myself just because I felt better. One of my resolutions this year is to be kinder to myself. I told Jack all this and he said I should take the extra day off to recover and not push myself just because things seemed better today.

I was to stay home and work. again.

Jack went off to work leaving me.

So I got on with information for my display. I wrote 5 pages! I was impressed with myself. I did take breaks and had a nap too. Saw mum for lunch which was nice, she gave Oz banana on his plush pad. We all go to him and feed him he doesnt even have to get up for treats XD so spoiled. oh I also did 18mins of weights on the floor so not to stress my legs out.

at 3:50pm I went on my bed and started playing pokemon then Jack came in at 4:15pm we had a cup of tea and a catch up and then we did dinner which was good. 

I will go for a bath soon and maybe work on my drawing some more. I am gonna sit with the heat lamp again on my legs tonight

Tomorrow

I will hopefully be attending school, I would like to go get the day done. Working at home is easier for me as I can space my 4 hours of work out to make life easier on me and my body but it does mean I lose a lot of my afternoon. But then I tend to come home and fall asleep from work and lose some of my afternoon that way :/ hmmm

at 2pm I also have someone coming over to assess the lamp post out side our house (fun!) as we would like it moving. Its really in a bad position and my dad has been on at me since we got the keys for the house to get the lamp post moved -_____- Someone has already been over to look at it so Im not sure why someone else is now coming? its weird. Only want it moving 2 metres for christ sake. Feel it will be a short waste of time but mum says she will be here to support me

missed my first day back but got pictures done

 Evening

I struggled to sleep last night and even when I got off I knew I was tossing in my sleep, my hair was a big knot in the morning! But I woke up sadly at 3:30am...I did try to get back to sleep and at 4am I couldnt bare the pain any longer so I went to wake jack up as he asked me to wake him. He said "come here you" and cuddled me. Not helping. So I left his arms and got up for pain killers, as time went on I knew I wouldnt be able to sleep so at 6am I woke Jack up. he has no memory of cuddling me in the night....he was hard to wake too. If someone pokes me I am awake. I have to almost shake Jack

So I got up and yes of course I was tired but I still wanted to go to school, but I could barely stand. Doing my teeth I was hopping from leg to the other and I went to itch my leg which hurt!!! You know when you have a bruise and you poke it and it hurts - well thats how my whole leg felt. They also had their own heartbeat - they throbbed so much, this was also new

I have never experience leg pain quite like it

Last night I had sat the massager on them for 15mins and I felt a bit better for doing so, I am wondering now if that was all a bit much for them.

Unfortunately I had to stay home today. I cried to Jack a bit as I was so fed up and tired. I worked from home, he went to school.

I did some work and I actually went to bed for an hour I fell asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow, how come I cant do that at night!? I decided that I had the whole day to do my 4 hours of work, why slog myself and make myself suffer. So i got up, did some work, saw mum for lunch for 90mins, worked, laid down a bit more. Sorted some stuff for charity bag and then at 3:50pm I finished! I got all 7 pictures drawn! I am pleased with how much I got done today.

They look cute right, theyre for a display for school about pets.

Jack came home at 4:10pm we sat and had a cup of tea and caught up about the day

we did dinner which I was looking forward to - it was noodles. But I didnt realise the noodles I had bought we're rice they were made from bean (glass noodles) and I didnt like the taste or texture so I did try to eat my dinner but I couldnt after a bit the taste was making me feel sick.

Oz has played out for hours today hes been so sweet. Enjoying the garden bless him.

I had to boot him out at 8:30am as he wanted attention constantly and I needed to work!

I might try doing some arm exercises tonight as I feel guilty not moving much today and i dont wanna hurt from not doing much. But nothing standing or leg work. no way.

tomorrow

its school and I am hoping I can attend. I have work to do if I can not attend but I would like to be able to go. Working from home is so dull. I am lucky to have this option as it means my sick days dont rack up but the days are long and lonely. Could no way do this mon-fri 9-5 like some people do!

Fingers crossed I do not have a repeat of last night 

going back to school tomorrow, I still cant walk

 Evening

I couldnt sleep last night, and Jack came to bed around 11:30pm so that disturbed me a bit to be honest. We ended up getting up til midnight, Jack suggested I do some yoga so I started stretching for a few minutes but my body afterwards was so aggravated by those stretches it hurt so much. I didnt think I would sleep at all to be honest last night. But I thought I would try so we played on our switchs in bed til half past. I slept through from there. I woke up at 9am....9am!!! When was the last time I woke so late!? clearly needed sleep. jack didnt wake til 10am.

I bought Oz in straight away as I thought he was probably wondering where I was! Hes my first thought every morning. and that loaf has been in 10 hours today. bloody house bun!!!

He has had loads of fuss, hes had treats, he did bunny yoga with me. but yeah I spent loads of time on the floor with him today just admiring his very being. i love him so much.

We didnt go anywhere today or even get dressed! Yup we had a pyjama day. I feel a bit slobbish doing it. But I would only be in joggers and tshirt so its the same clothes really!

I did some drawing but god today I ached and had the headache Ive had all this week. I did 45mins of yoga, I attempted some weights but it made my body scream so i decided not to push things

Jack has been  on his switch id say about 6 hours today on the same game - Sunless Sea. Which plays the same 3 BGM, my god it gets on my nerves! I try not to tune into it but how he plays that game for 6 hours I have no clue. I sat drawing behind him and Oz was just in the living room with us. i made dinner and some biscuits and just ached throughout the day

Oh we also did some loaf maintenance, by which I mean we cut Oz's claws and we trimmed his tummy fur back too. He was good boy 

I put Oz home at 7pm once he had been in 10 hours >.> loaf

then i sat and did a bit of pamper I bleached my eyebrows, dyed eyelashes, face scrub, hair pack, face sheet, hot bath. Yup Jo is fresh~

Think it will be anime and switchs in bed.  I havent had Jack to play by my side since weds night! 

tomorrow

ugh school. ughhhh. Going back. Whats worse is, I still cant walk very well. Doing the dinner about killed me off too. I dont know whats gone wrong really. So I am not looking forward to going and slogging myself.

gardening is done for this holiday

 Evening

its 8:40pm! 

I slept pretty well last night I even didnt wake to Jack getting in the bed! I was long gone I was dead!

I got up at 8am tho and once again my legs hurt to walk I had a banging headache like my brain was trying to force its way out my skull. Yup another day in my holiday of feeling like death!

I went to clean Oz out and he helped then I came in and got dressed. Jack went out again into the garden this morning, I went and kept him company as I know hes tiring of it all! 

we had lunch and after lunch my parents came over to help Jack with the garden once more, I wanted nothing more than the sweet numbness of sleep. I tried so hard to sleep on my bed but I was struggling as it felt like I was on concrete. Then just as I was drifting off finally, my brother rang -_____- great timing. So I never did get any rest.

I went on my laptop to draw and I had Oz in with me. 

Everyone was gardening til almost 4pm again!! My poor Jack looks exhausted. His hayfever is so bad too. But the garden is truly looking better! he finished the corner now. We just need some nice pots for it ^^ 

We had showers and dinner, then after dinner we went to the shops and did our weekly shop. I struggled to walk round the shop to be honest. I was feeling a bit like an old person haha but we got it done and got fuel (so expensive) and came home at 8pm. I bought Oz in for a late night fuss. Hes usually in bed for 7pm bless him. i will go take him home in a minute.

I was gonna clean the bathroom tonight but im tired and time is getting on. Instead I will sit back with a hot chocolate then paint my nails as Jack is gaming with Harvey and Theo anyway. Another night alone but thats fine as I have jack almost every night. Hes earned to play with his friends! jeez. He needs time for himself considering how hard hes worked this holiday bless him.

tomorrow

think Jack wants a pyjama day XD we dont need to go out anywhere now so yeah he wants a pyjama day. he is forbidden from doing any gardening, I want him to rest before school on monday and also it might rain tomorrow anyway. but he needs rest! I hope to be able to do some exercise tomorrow as its been 3 days without any and ive eaten loads T^T im fat blob

everyone has worked so hard on the garden tho. It looks so different this holiday. I am so impressed with jack. He hates gardening but has stuck with it and kept going despite his hayfever killing him off. Mum and dad have been good support too. Its becoming the more simple and easy to manage garden we need

Garden is taking shape

 Evening

I struggled to get off to sleep last night so we got up til 11pm, I kept waking up during the night as I was aching. I got up at 7:30am as we were having soil delivered sometime in the morning.

I felt like total death. My head was pounding and my ears were sensitive to sound. I hurt all over and my legs hurt to stand and walk. So all in all, I just wanted to crawl into bed and forget the day.

Jack went out to garden almost straight away this morning. Dad dropped over our fixed wheelbarrow and also dropped off mums head tens machine, a tens machine for headaches! it seems to help her but I havent had a go yet but I gave it a go and it didnt help my pounding head much but did take the sensitivity from ears so I guess it did help a bit

I kept sitting outside with jack to keep him company

We had lunch and then I so desperately wanted to escape my pain and discomfort in sleep but the bed was making me ache so I got up. Literally zero relief for me. I have to suffer. Mum and dad both came over to help Jack garden. Jack had caught the sun hes been out in it for that long today! hes done so well. Mum helped him with the rockery and my dad weeded the front. I stayed inside. My brother came over and kept me company for an hour then they all went home

We had showers then I made biscuits then we had dinner

Oz is shattered. He has been so busy today. Hes had a lot of supervising to do today XD hes been there all the time watching over and hopping round. Hes so tired bless him. He loves gardening

Jack has got his friday night gaming, so I will be by myself tonight which is no problem he has more than deserved this time for himself. I will do some drawing with Oz then he can come out and help me water plants then I will see what I will do from there. I am so tired but feel I have no right to say I am tired as I have done nothing today.

tomorrow think Jack wants to do a bit more gardening and mum says she will come help him again. We said we would do the food shop and Jack has gaming with Harvey and Theo at 8:30pm. Me, I have zero things to do. and zero life. I have wasted this week's holiday. My health has been so bad I have been unable to do any of things I thought I was gonna do T^T

My life just hasnt been easy lately, its my cousins 24th birthday today and I usually send her something but I didnt even send her a card this year T^T

I slept but feel like death, wrote the day off

 Evening

I did in fact sleep quite well last night! I was so exhausted.

Jack put Oz outside but he soon came to sit on the patio step looking in the patio window at us...I cant bare it when he does that so I went out to him and he came running to me - he wanted to come in. So he did toilet on the comfort of his blanket and had breakfast with us. He always gets his own way -___-

I honestly felt so dead today. Like I had been ran over in the night. I wanted nothing more than to sleep.

Jack went straight outside to garden. I went to keep him company for a bit then did a bit of painting. I kept bringing him for drinks. Mum popped over at 11:20am and I bought Jack in then as I could see he was going a bit pink. It was hot this morning!! Jack burns easily. 

We had lunch and then I flopped on the bed. I could not wait. But I couldnt sleep really as from 1pm til now as its still going on at 6pm the dogs behind us have been barking non stop. Like non stop. How do they continue to bark? theyre growling and howling. Theyre not happy and the owners will come home and yell at them. Why do people have dogs? when they have no clue how to look after them? I cant look after 1 dog I know I will have 3! thats the mentality of the people who live behind us. So So sick of listening to them dogs. it takes the pee. 5+ hours of barking.

I got up and sat round a bit, im literally up for nothing today. I hurt, it hurts to walk, I have a banging headache and just feel like death. So Jack was playing his switch on the TV, I did some painting behind him and Oz lazed on the blanket, we just all sat together really.

We had a shower and then Jack set off for Harvey's as I am really not up to that. I couldnt face going but didnt want Jack to not go. So he set off by himself. The 3rd place he has driven to by himself! He txt me to say he got there ok. So when he left my brother rang and when I put down the phone I did my dinner which was korean noodles. It was good ^^ Oz had carrot with me.

Now I will probably do some digital drawing, Oz is welcome to stay with me and then he can come out and water the garden with me tonight. 

I dont know what time Jack is coming home but I told him not to worry about getting back and just to enjoy himself.

Tomorrow

another bank holiday. Speaking of which I managed to avoid all videos, sounds and photos of the jubliee today woohoo. Im sure I will probably hear pieces of it from work but on the whole I have managed to escape it! cant stand all the royal family crap. doesnt make me proud to be british or anything. Not into that crap. But my dad says hes off work tomorrow so him and mum may come help with the garden, not 100% sure yet. Some gardening will happen at some point tomorrow!

I havent got much else on really. The soil is being delivered tomorrow for the corner of the garden mum and Jack worked on yesterday.

at 6:15pm someone has come back to shut the dogs up. thank god. 

fully sheered Oz and new pokemon video

 Evening

I sheered the rest of Oz last night, he just stood and let me and trim him I even managed to trim his chest! he doesnt even like anyone stroking him there. We then went outside together, I planted a plant which made me ache but I was aching anyway and I was worried about the plant, its leaves had started to go dark. But today it looks happier. Oz was happy outside it was very cute watching him. I put him to bed and watch Rwby with Jack and played Pokemon I did the 4th badge

I once again couldnt sleep. Felt like I was laying on concrete so I was up til midnight on pain killers. I woke up at 8:30am. Poor Oz, I was late for him! We got the stew on anyway as soon as we woke up.

I thought I had got away with feeling like death today but it slowly crept on as the morning went on.

I didnt do a lot this morning. 

After lunch mum came round to help Jack with the gardening. He had already done 2 hours in the morning but with mums help he wanted to get further. So they were outside working hard and I was just inside painting like lady muck. I honestly felt so guilty and bad for not helping and even going to lay on my bed. But mum said I did look pasty and they know im not much use. I hate this body. Its so annoying. I want to help

We all had a cup of tea together then mum left. We had showers and then had dinner. I had stomach ache during dinner but I was determined to finish damn it. I finished and still felt hungry, I have eaten a cookie since then and still feel empty. Lately I am just hungry all the time.

Now its 7pm and Jack is on his switch on the tv behind me, I am ether gonna paint or do digital drawing whilst watching Oz play outside

then it will be anime and pokemon. Oh there was new pokemon video out today I am a lil disappointed by some things. Such as the legendaries look naff, one is like mechanical looking, the other looks like it has a motorbike wheel lodged in it's throat. I also dont like how the playable characters look like 7 year olds. Surely GameFreak must know that a lot of people who play pokemon are ADULTS and dont want to look like a child. I dont like on sword and sheild how skinny the girl character player is as I aint that skinny! Its good you can change your hair an eye colour but i feel some other parts need to change. But apart from that it looked alright, I will certainly preorder!

tomorrow

think it will be another afternoon of gardening for Jack and think we going harvey's for takeaway in the evening. It will be the start of a 4 day bank holiday tho...