My Mia got married!

 Evening

I can't remember the last time I had to spend so many hours in my bed. 

Yesterday was a  day!! The recovery has been long, Jack had to the food shop without me

But I am so grateful I got to experience yesterday

Yesterday my friend of 26+ years got married to the love of her life, Rob, who shes been together with for 12 years now, coming 13 I think

So thursday night I drugged myself up massively so I would sleep, and it worked!

jack left for school, i had an easy morning and mum came to keep me company

I had a bath then she dried my hair for me whilst adding the various hair care products to give my hair a shine. I then went to add the band round my chest (part of the dress) and it wasnt staying, I dont know if it was because of the material or because I was wearing nipple pads and not a bra but it was bothering me and I felt like I would be very conscious of it all day. I took the nipple pads off as they felt uncomfortable - i have never used them before, and i wouldnt use them again! I got red nipples and boobs! so after I sorted them out I had to find a suitable bra, mum then had the job of safety pinning the band to my bra...poor mother.

she dropped me off at mia's I was an hour late. Luckily I had already done my base make up

the girls were there

sophie - mias older sister

sammi - mia's cousin

amelia - mias friend there to help for make up purposes.

so we just got chatting and got ready. I thought 5 hours was over kill. no. we were getting ready to last minute. I was last to be done and I was glad I had done some stuff at home! As sammi is a hairdresser she did all our hair and she did a fantastic job! i was so impressed

Mia's dad turned up to go in the wedding car with mia, however, our bridesmaid taxi did not turn up. Nor would the company pick up the damn phone! in the end sammi rang another company and mia and her dad set off before us so they had to wait round the back of the reception hall for us.

we got there tho

me and sophie felt sick. it was anxiety i know, nerves, and excitement

we had to wait for mia to in for her 'interview' to which I was like "what the heck is that about!?" she was being interviewed by 3 people!! 

her dad explained to me it was because they have to make sure the marriage is real and not forced into it, paid into it, that kinda thing. I had never thought of such awful things.

mia came out then it was our time to walk in!!

we all looked stunning, honestly. 

so sammi walked in first, then me, then sophie, then mia and her dad

mias mum and aunty were already in tears bless them

the vowels were said and I couldnt take my eyes off them. i was stunned. I was so happy, proud, amazed.

and was doing my best to not cry and ruin my make up and tire myself out! but I wanted to cry. I was so proud of her and so happy. she looked amazing and did all her vowels right. Rob did so well too bless him.

we then had photos outside, the vintage bus turned up. it was from like 1950s. it was a white knuckle ride, mia loved it. I felt like being sick. It was old and many hill starts. Sophie sat next to me and we were both white knuckling and making jokes. I get along just fine with her as Ive know her as long as Ive know mia.

we got to the reception venue which was Cozy Club, a victorian buliding in the city centre. It had old portraits on the wall, marble staircase - that kinda vibe! very old and fancy

we all sat in a small room for a quick drink and speeches. I offered in front of everyone to give a speech for mia as sophie was too nervous but mia suddenly thought about how much I would have to say and told me to sit back down XD everyone laughed. 

eventually the second room opened and other guests started to arrive

during the day  my mum had kindly spent time at my house keeping my loaf company, gardening with him and doing some cleaning up. I was so grateful. She was still there when Jack got in from work. Jack did his jobs and was late leaving due to fussing that loaf, but to be honest it meant that at no point did i worry about Oz as I knew he had been well looked after that day ^^

Jack turned up and we were mainly with sophie and her partner george as none of knew anyone else there. The second room was so loud. My throat hurt from raising my voice just to speak. I could barel hear people. Mia was up on the dance floor loving life. This is what she excels at - partying and being the centre of attention and taking photos. Shes like the perfect wedding host honestly!

there was a bit of food and I had a bit of cake but that was it, i had carried biscuits in my bag to snack on as i knew id need something but on the whole I didnt eat there. I ate when i got home.

it got to 9:30pm and I was struggling to walk by this point and knew I needed to get home. Mia had a room of 80+ people she wouldnt miss me going. so I told i we were off

I told her how lovely the day had been, how proud and happy i was for her and rob and that i want to keep supporting her. Rob came and said bye

truly a lovely day. it was perfect, well apart from dick taxis but yeah perfect. I am so thrilled for her. it was everything she wanted and she did it her way too.

we walked through the city centre to the bus stop and i was struggling to walk and breath as I was cold even with jack's suit jacket on and i hadnt brought my inhaler. we took the bus home, walked home which felt like miles. I had more drugs when i got home, hot hot hot bath to thaw out, an episode of anime, BED

sweet sweet bed

we both went out like lights and slept for almost 9 hours

it was a brilliant day.

she was staying in the pent house suite in a hotel in the city with rob last night I hope they had a lovely night together just the two of them. I cant wait to see her again

shes a wife!!!!

if i am brutally honest, whilst waiting for Jack to come to the reception, I sent him and my mum a text message saying

"I do not want to get married"

after seeing all the attention on mia, the photos, the social interactions, the everything

i just thought its all too much and i would HATE that

i would hate the attention and the party

it wouldnt be for me

but just has since talked to me and said we wouldnt have to do anything like that

we could just go to a registry office and be done with it. And privately do meet ups with people to 'celebrate' so that made me feel better. I hate my photo being taken but mia is like a model and lapped it up whereas id want to fall through a hole in the floor

id suck as a bride! mia excelled at it!

so yeah anyway

im gonna go now and hope that im not so much of a corpse tomorrow!

i will upload photos soon!

Sod it I'm working from home tomorrow

 Evening

I was so tired last night -______-

I slept well, still tossing in my sleep. But I did sleep.

This morning I once again woke with a headache and stomach ache - due to stress. I know it is. I once again, ate breakfast and ended up in the toilet. 

I am fed up of it all

I am fed up of walking in the prep room and having run round like a blue arse fly. Teacher wanting stuff when I AM CLEARLY DOING IT AS FAST AS I CAN

I do feel like a slave sometimes

also teaching bitching about not having equipment so I pointed to the side and the sheer amount of washing up bowls and said "theyre there. dirty. as I dont have time to clean up." so people grabbed dirty ones and took them to their labs. They might start to realise that  WE ARE STRUGGLING AND SNOWED UNDER. Head of biology was my main thorn in my side. She had the audacity to ask where he practical was - the very practical me and jack were rushing round to get out - jack turned to her and said "you'll get it when you get it" go jack

she also complained about not having any spotting tiles he said "your whole department has used them this week and we've not had time to wash them up" sweet jesus.

I was glad that Jack stood up for us. Between new technician darren and jack, a lot of washing up did happen today but other things suffered like the chemical order that needed to be in on friday and its wednesday.

I was stressed

you could hear my tummy it was screaming in pained knottyness

after the mad hour of getting all those praciticals out on time I sat down for my break, but had an extended break as I felt fainty. I know how I get when Ive been stressed out running around for an hour, so I stayed on the floor, Jack made me sweet tea and I ate my snack and I did get going again but it was time I did not have spare

I was so busy, we had another fire alarm as the kids in PE sprayed too much deodorant and set the fire alarm off. More time I didnt have to spare

it was 40mins before my home time and I hadnt even LOOKED at tomorrow

jack told me to leave and that he will do it

but I hated that

but then I felt how I was feeling, my legs were starting to twinge in pain, I was tired, in pain, headachy and had enough

I said to jack I would take work home to work from home tomorrow in case I am bad and he said "thats a great idea, work from home" I said "no work from home INCASE" he said "No, work from home" and hes right. Im gonna have nothing for mia's wedding at this rate.

so yeah sod em. tomorrow I am looking after myself and working from home

i got home and had lunch with Oz and mum and went bed - my daily routine

got up, hung washing out, did 40mins of yoga, bleached and dyed eyebrows/eyelashes, had a bath and now we're gonna have dinner then Jack has gaming with his brother. He's not had it for a month!

dont know what I will do

tomorrow

im working from home, and the windowsill guy might have a spare minute to do my windowsills or he will do them saturday

but thats it

i am done

MerPer

 Evening

I slept well last night, although I was throwing myself in my sleep a lot. Maybe I was aching in my sleep. Yeah probably.

I didnt want breakfast, ate breakfast, in toilet

same of crap

literally XD

so I am there travelling to school with the hot bag on my tummy and all I wanna do is be in a ball on my bed.

school was hard going. Practicals. so many practicals. Im so over it. I look at them and think "whats the point? this is practical for the sake of doing practical" My washing up pile is growing as I do not have time to give out practicals and wash practicals up. I have warned teachers I am gonna run out of glass wear soon!

I was starving at school. Like mega hungry. Not sure why. I couldnt wait to get home and eat and I have eaten a lot through out the day~ we all get days like that. 

so after I had seen mummy for lunch

I went to bed for 90mins and felt like I could have slept for longer if I am honest but I knew I needed to sleep tonight kinda thing. So I got up, I painted the pole for the 6th time, I am so over it. Also cleaned out the girls cage, also cut up the veg and meat for tomorrow's curry, cooked Jack's sausages for his lunch and that was it. Nothing for myself.

Jack said I had done too much. I didnt feel like I had done much but he said it was a lot and so when he came home and had dinner with me, he did me a list for the next two days. He says I might benefit from being structured so I am not doing shed loads. 

I was gutted that I couldnt watch overlord whilst eating dinner as it turns out we've caught up with the latest episode! I had no idea! So gotta wait for that now >.> we started watching another anime but I found it slow and dull but I will give it another episode then make my decision. If not I wanna watch the rising of the shield hero season 2!

I did a work out after dinner whilst Jack talked to his sister on the phone who moved to uni on saturday. Then I had a bath~ the water was a great temperature but I was too restless to allow myself to soak in it T^T 

Tomorrow

school and stew/curry morning. Should see mummy after school. Gonna dye my eyelashes and eyebrows for the wedding as well. 

dont wanna go school tho >.>

been thinking of doing another painting. I have been really struggling with my digital art. Just really not enjoying it to the point where I am thinking about buying an ipad so I can sit and draw on that to see if that helps my creative chore. But I could do a painting in the meantime whilst I am thinking about buying an ipad. Here is the last painting I did, the MerPer (mermaid wooper)

I think I've always been a spaz and always will be

 Evening

I slept last night, I turned off my switch at 9pm I was DEAD. My alarm went off but I needed more sleep than that so I did feel allllll of today but I have a job to attend to >.>

School, my anxiety was BAD like really bad. I had practicals period 1 to do and jack supported me all the way. At 9pm the new technician showed up so Jack was looking after him. I was managing stuff myself tho somehow. I remembered to take my breaks too. We had our fire drill and whilst waiting outside to have our names called a teacher said to me "what you doing jigging around" I hadnt noticed

back in the day 15 years ago, my form tutor at school would tell me off during fire drill saying "stand in line Joanne! keep still"

I havent changed in 15+ years? ^^; youd think I would know how to behave XD

I blame it on the ADHD

its easier and less tiring on me to just let my body run with the ADHD than to bottle it up and look like a 'normal' person. Im beyond carrying what people must think of me at work now. 

I came home to find mummy already and had let Oz out bless him. He came in for lunch. Mum stayed for lunch then left me to collapse on my bed for a whole 90mins the only reason I woke up was because I thought someone was knocking at my door so I bolted up and ran to the front door - no one there of course. But I was up now

I managed an hour of yoga~ what an achievement 

I wondered where the hell Jack was from warhammer but he had got on the bus home but forgot to txt me he was travelling home.

He got in and I did the dinner and he ran the window guy whos coming again at the weekend, we needed to confirm a few things.

we had dinner, I was glad we ate together. i wanted to eat with him and watch anime. I dont feel like I have spent much time with him lately and I wanted to at least have dinner with him.

I did a 5th coat outside on the pole and it is looking good I think a 6th coat will finish it to be honest then I will paint the wall~

I had a nice hot bath

Not sure if I will do any drawing not really in the mood

I havent been enjoying digital art lately for some reason

tomorrow~

school ugh

school again. Got some hard practicals too. Mummy should be seeing me after for lunch

And here is the birthday card I made for Jack's youngest sister last month - its of her bunnies Skyler and Thumper, she LOVED it 

Saw mia one last time before the wedding!

 Evening

Could I sleep last night? could I bob. Far too much going off in my mind. I had been restless all day physically and now it was time to be restless mentally. Of course. -_____- So I did get up for fruit loaf and drugs and went back to bed. I still couldnt sleep so I got up, I put the pulled on at 1am - as you do - as we were eating cold on salad today anyway so it didnt need to warm. I think what was causing me to not sleep was stressing about how much I had to do today. So I put the pulled pork on, one less thing to do. I wrote a to-do list for each day this week so I would know what to do for mia's wedding. At 1;30am I returned to my bed.

I woke up at 8:20am and I could have easily have slept longer but I wanted to clean the bathroom before Mia came over. So I got up and saw to the pets, and had breakfast, cleaned bathroom, got ready then Mia came over 9:30am. I am so glad to have seen her once last before the day!

So we sat talking about the wedding and stuff. We sat with the girls who were very very well behaved. Mia loves guineas so she was happy with seeing them

I altered her dress a lil bit more. She showed me her shoes too

she left and it was 11:50am I then had to cook mine and Jack's meat for the week and for that lunch. I also made a cake whilst that was cooking. We sat and had lunch. I thought I would be allowed to rest but no my ADHD treadmill life of restlessness would not quit. I went to put a 3rd coat on the pipes

I fixed a bow that had come apart

Mum came over for sows so I sorted all that out 

she left and mia turned up wit her cousins dress that needed making shorter so I sat and did that

then mum came over and dyed my hair ^^ I am fresh~

then I washed all that out and dried my hair

Mia showed up for the dress. I have sorted dresses out. I didnt like keeping such valuable dresses

All of the salad is chopped/cooked/sorted it just needs dishing up. I have told Jack he is doing dinner tonight. He looked panicked XD then realised it was just a case of dishing up, he has a sweat on but I think he can do it XD

I cut his hair for him so hes tidy for the wedding reception hes going to

We will have dinner when hes come of the shower.

and jesus christ please can rest!? I AM EXHAUSTED

I havent exercised today as I cant bare to tire my body out any further

I needed rest this weekend but some reason I am stupidly restless

I have told jack I dont wanna go school tomorrow. I have hard practicals and I dont wanna get runned ragged and get burned out and turn up at mia's wedding on friday a pale tired corpse

I need to be selfish this week at work and really look after myself and do the bare minimum 

we have the new technician starting tomorrow so hopefully things should be a lil easier

dont wanna go tho

it was lovely seeing mia today tho. I felt better about hearing about the day. I can not believe its less than a week shes so excited and happy and I feel I have the same emotions. It honestly feels better than my birthday or christmas! I am so excited and happy for her. I can not wait to share the day with her and make memories for life~

productive saturday, seeing Mia tomorrow for last minute wedding prep

 Evening

I slept really well last night, to say Jack didnt come to bed with me XD 

We got up at 7:30am so we could get our morning shop done out the way. We of course had pets to sort out first. Oz was upset with me because I went to the girls first instead of him. But Jack was seeing to him the same time I saw to girls. He just wants all the attention >.> we got out the house at 8:40am. The girls were happy to go home to their morning salad. They purred. I keep them in their daily routine mum does.

Shopping was fine, except for my behaviour. Im not sure if its because i took my meds too late or because I didnt have breakfast due to stomach aches but my behaviour was bad. Like my ADHD was in overdrive. I couldnt keep still, I moving a lot, impatient, walking off. Yeah I apologised to Jack many times....after shopping we went post office after wards for my missed parcels. 

We got home and unpacked. I made Tara a birthday card then I cleaned Oz out

My brother came to collect my car, he has been cleaning it like 5 hours. He even went as far as to remove the wheels so he could thoroughly clean behind them....sweet jesus.

after lunch I saw Jack off who was going into the city centre and I went to bed. I woke up almost 2 hours later, he txt as  I woke up to say he was on the bus home! so it was like he never left! He hadnt had the most successful of trips but came away with pokemon codes so that was good!

Then we had a cup of tea with half a doughnut each as Jack bought us a doughnut and my brother to say thank you. We then went outside he did some weeding out front and I painted the pipes. I have done 2 coats. I might get a third done tonight, but the pink is very inoffensive and almost blends with the brick work so I am very pleased with it.

my brother delivered my car off as I was making tonights salad with Jack. It looks stunning hes done a banging job, he appreciated his doughnut. That lad has worked hard. I feel I need to get him more than that!

We had our salad and then I did a 2nd coat outside. Now we are gonna go for a lil walk together whilst its nice out, have a bath, sow sit and yeah chill out.

tomorrow

seeing mia at 9:30am and then at some point mum is coming for her babies~ 

mias birthday card this year

Mia's wedding this time next week~

 Evening

annoyingly Jack didnt get a lift home from his mum's yesterday. So I ended up doing the washing up he told me not to do, my drugs, keeping the bath warm and going to bed by myself. He came in, bathed and crawled into bed. I didnt talk much to him as I had already wound down for the night. He was in bed by 9:30pm. I slept ok tho to be honest

I had stressed upset tummy after breakfast as you do~

Work was stressful as I had my routine ruined and I got a lil teary as it was just too much too soon. I hate mad dashing round. Stresses me out. shouldnt have to be this way. Jack supported me but I couldnt wait to finish. I got to talk to lizi and chris so that was something~

I got home, I found piglets in my garage ^^ yeuss~ I love it. I got Oz out, had lunch and slept for 2 hours!!! 2 freaking hours! I sleep for britain here >.>

I got up and I put the girls out for it to rain 7mins later so I sat with them on my knee which was nice. I got guinea licks. Then once it stopped raining after 10 pointless minutes I put them out again. And my god, they have savaged my grass XD

I got dinner ready for when Jack came home

we had food, I just wanted it done out the way to be honest

then I went to go sand stuff down outside as I might do some painting tomorrow if I feel like it. so I am a bit dusty but waiting my turn to go into the shower. I let Jack go first as hes got gaming. 

I dont know if I will exercise today as I am physically and mentally exhausted with a bit of stomach pains thrown in for good measure

this time next week I will be at mia's wedding!!! Here is here wedding card I made

tomorrow

food shop in the morning and then my brother my brother might rob my car for a deep clean. So I have no choice put to be here really so I might paint. I got chores to do and piglets to enjoy~~

Queen died yesterday, mum sent me a txt in the evening. Queen dead.

did not see that happening. Only just got all the notes and coins in circulation, gotta start again huh, Poor queenie~