what dull day

Evening~

I didn't sleep again
its really annoying i was tired too
dont know why im not sleeping :/

I woke up feeling like id been ran over in my sleep
i hurt and ache everywhere and just feel exhausted
i hate days like this, days when my illness is on top form
it sucks and is boring like hell

so i dont feel like i have achieved much today
I did get a few jobs done tho
I chose what outfits i'm gonna wear whilst i am away
which took a good hour, as i was choosing down to what accessories to take with me
I wrote down a list of things to take with me which i keep adding to XD
I prepared my make-up bag as i can never zip the bugger up
so i emptied it off things i know im not gonna need so i can shut it now
and chose which fake eye lashes to take ;)

I got an email through with what work i have when i come back
i just hope i will be well enough to do the work
i can feel a lot anxiety building up but ive just gotta take one day at a time~

I slept for 4 hours today would you believe?
2  hours i fell asleep then i woke up and couldnt be bothered to get up
i was comfy and didnt want to move so i just drifted in and out of sleep
til 4 hours had passed and i thought "i better get up" didnt do much tho

tomorrow I have doctors appointment at 8:50am
i dont want to go =.= its about my mental state
ive gotta talk about whats in my head and i dont know how i feel about doing that
i guess i'll just get on with it i just hope the doc takes me seriously
but not too seriously that he locks me into a looney bin XD

tiffin's eye is red :( just this last hour his eye is red
i think he's been scratching it so much its been bleeding
im so sad my heart feels crushed i hope hes ok
ive tried to clean his eye, i thought i saw something in it
but he was getting that stressed and hot we had to let him go outside
i'm gonna have another look later 
if its the same in the morning he will be going vets i pray it doesnt come to that tho

yeah so a cruddy day for me :/ 
i hope tomorrow will be a better day~
i uploaded a dance i did last week
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m1qC-qsozwA