I'm pushing myself to blog tonight
i want to gain some normality into my life
This morning was a challenge
i stayed curled up on the sofa til mum told me to go to bed
i didnt fall asleep but i motivated myself at 11am
i went for a walk with mum
my legs were like dead weights
mum tried to talk to me about my depression whilst we were on the walk
but i didnt want to talk whilst walking as it would have led to tears
so i didnt say a great deal
but i think she wants me to try counseling in the new year -___-
i just dont get how telling another person your problems helps
i tell mum but feel no better
mum says they give coping strategies
I got back and had lunch
then went on my laptop for bit
wrote my cards for monday - monday is my last day at school
did a bit of dancing
made a CD for my car as im getting sick of the ones i have in there
i wish i could burn songs from my ipod then id have an awsum CD collection XD
I brought a DVD online today
its Momoiro Clover Z live
I have never brought their dvds before as they fetch for £45+
and that is A LOT to spend on a concert DVD its not like its a big boxset series or anything
but I found this one second hand for £19 and I thought it over til i thought
"ah sod it no one else is gonna buy it me"
so I brought it and pray it arrives safely next year.
I took some photos of my pets today well pinks and tiffin really
tried to do a christmas photo of them
im yet to check how the photos came out
here's my xmas decorations this year
im only allowed to decorate the living room so yeah i tried my best~
before that i was watching Rock n' Buono3 DVD :3
tomorrow I am off to a place called "white post farm"
its a good 30+ min drive away from here
but Seth is playing santa there and I gotta see it with my own eyes
i havent seen Seth since last September when I left Mad Science
we both no longer work for mad science but kept in touch.
im gonna go for a walk round another area first then pull into white post
i am family with white post farm as i used to go as a child also my first bunny - sky - was brought from there :) its easy to get there just a dull drive
hence the CD making XD
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