I slept pretty well and woke up at 8am
it was raining - wonder when it would finally rain
so I was on pet duty as mum was at work and it was indoor play
so it took me til almost 10am by the time they had all had their morning stretch
Oz did really well outside today
he explored everywhere this time I think he was surprised at how
much land he found
he is one lucky bunbun
I actually left him to it twice today
but was watched like a hawk by me and mum inside
i went out a few times cus i could tell he wasn't sure and lost his confidence
I have been working on Oz's blanket today
I got quite a bit done actually I was pleased
and i think it's looking alright
it will take a while to complete it tho as im taking my time
ive got loads of fabric left over XD
I fell asleep around midday cus i suddenly felt sick again
and when I woke up I still felt rough
but I managed yoga anyway :) I did really well actually
considering im nursing my aching muscles!
I ordered a cute skirt last night it was £8.50 and new
its a sailor moon theme I cant wait to see it
I got this today from Korea - etude house eye tear liner
Basically a lovely soft glittery eye line to place just under your eye
I cant wait to have ago with it
may try it out when I see adam on saturday~
I was thinking about him today actually
about how Ive allowed myself to feel
I had chosen to close myself from people and emotions
mum always said i was 'hard' and that i feared getting close to people
she was right
i would never take that risk
i had always wanted to finish my education and sort myself out first
before i dated it was just something i wanted to set right
but then by this time I was and still am carrying my illnesses
so i remained closed off from people and my feelings
thinking no one would want me anyway cus id be too much of a burden
but ive taken that chance with adam
not sure what has made me actually take that leap but im glad i did
i feel more like someone of my age and i enjoy the range of emotions he makes flutter through me
instead of just constantly feeling my illness
its almost like he's here to replace my illnesses
i just hope he doesnt get fed up of me
cus lets face it he has to put up with A LOT
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tomorrow I have school!
a school I have never been to before
but it's local only 10min drive if that
and not bad area so hopefully should be alright :)
it's all day tho so i've made myself a salad and got some stuff
in my bag I can doodle with on my breaks
i hope the staff and students are nice
wish me luck!
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