Im currently off the rails some what
I can't remember the last time when things got this bad
I've cried a lot
I've made others upset by watching me
seeing who I truly am upset Adam
when Im bad my own mother struggles to look at me
and I scare her.
Stuff has come to light
stuff I dont know how to deal with and could be waiting
up to 6 months for the correct mental help.
Im not suicidal or self harming
Im just struggling that's all
I am alive
but doing my diary hasnt interested me in the slightest
when I am more myself I will update about manchester
13th August I have festival of quilts with Lynn too
something Ive waited for for a long time
yet im struggling to find enjoyment in it
im sure I can plaster on a fake self
I believe this is the year I am suppose to get better
after living with something for 13 years
this is the year it will change
I am confident of that much
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