I asked my self today - Why do I keep doing dance uploads?
I'm not sure why I still do it
I guess it makes me do the dancing which is good exercise and good for my memory
but why do I bother to upload it? my videos arent popular but then I never wanted them to be
but why do I bother still? What do I get out of it?
Not sure what I do get out of it really
and when is the time to stop?
Heck Adam has no idea I upload my dances
am I embarrassed? Do I want him seeing them? Probably not
feels like a side of me I keep private yet I put myself online for all to see
strange girl I am
Anyway today
I have the internet!!! Woohoo!
My brother came back around 11pm last night
my parents picked him up and took him mcdonalds XD!!
Lucky boy
I saw him this morning, I didn't wait to stay up for him
He seems to have had a nice time anyway he showed me his photos while we ate our cereals which was nice really. Makes a change to have him chatty first thing in the morning XD
I went and cleaned out the pets, I put my Ipod in listening to C-ute which was different
Oz didnt pester too much
I got ready to go to adams house
I was quite looking forward to seeing him
I feel more myself today, im fragile dont get me wrong, but if I dont stop to focus on things to hard I can hopefully avoid falling into that pit of hollowness
mum came back from her park run, shes done two personal bests for the last 2 weeks!
shes doing well to say its winter!
Then I left for adam's house
I arrived and talked with him and his parents
they had been doing their park run in the snow this morning! snow!
cant believe somewhere near here had snow already
I told them that dad was planning on buying me a Daihatsu Terrius 2005 in turquoise...
dad did show me and I laughed and said Id have ago in it
dad likes it as its rare. its rare for that make of car to be an auto-matic
just like my car my Renault Megane is rare for being an auto-matic
he likes cars that are hard to acquire
so I told them I could see me having that XD no Suzuki Swift for me!
around 11:30am we went to get lunch as usual
but this week I got a turkey, sausage meat stuffing, apple sauce cob
oh my god it was AMAZING and the first time I have enjoyed food in a while
tasted like christmas actually
We sat in his living room
and teased and tormented each other, he always takes his dad's side
hes supposed to take mine damn it! so I always lost the battle >.>
and even got kicked off the sofa!
damn him
I went and did his mum's nails after a while
Then at 3:30pm I left for home
Got my girlies in and Oz seeing as he was rattling his cage door with his paws...
he's only been locked up 2 hours! anyone would think he'd been locked up 2 weeks!
he was all happy and giddy to be in my room
I turned my laptop and went online to catch up basically
My family went out for drinks at the pub
I danced had a shower and my dinner
my family came back with pizza but I dont enjoy or digest greasy food well
so i always opt out
I have't done much tonight
last night I painted my nails and did that drawing
dont know what to draw next
might take my colouring book to adams tomorrow for something to do
Not sure what im doing tomorrow
we wont be going to AvailableCar seeing as dad actually won the auction on the Daihatsu
its in Doncaster tho and I dont want to go fetch it, doesnt even run -____-
yep my 'new' car is a non-runner XD I never get anything fancy
£200 something pound he got it for -____-;
So Im not sure what to do tomorrow
I dont want to go round any shops that is for bloody sure! everywhere is chaos
stupid christmas
see what adam wants to do
his family have invited me over for dinner
their sunday evenings are never quiet anymore XD
Speaking of adam his phone case came in the post the one I got done for him
here it is
the quality is really good and its the same transparent colour he already has
but ive just done a design on the back
he should like it I hope
my brother and mum think its good anyway :)
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