Wedding tomorrow!

Evening~

Me and mum ache after yoga
can always tell when Karen is teaching -____- shes the devil

Anyway last night I was aching a hell of a lot
I didn't know what to do with myself
my mood had hit a low as well
I found myself falling into a dark place and not caring whether
I came back from it or not. I had some dark thoughts
thoughts I came close to acting out by myself in the middle of the night
but I didn't
Im getting to my wits end with life
no one helps and there is no relief and it goes on and on
day in day out 24 hours a day

Today I got up and I had missed the pig shift
so I fussed Oz as the girls were enjoying their salad
I checked how my ebay crap was progressing and quite a few things have bids on
so hopefully it will be worth the effort of doing it

I started packing stuff for the wedding tomorrow
my brother has gone to Doncaster for 2 nights to begin his drone license 
hes brave doing all that by himself 
he wanted my satnav but i need it for tomorrow
dad gave my car a once over and mum ironed my dress for me ^^

Adam said he'd wear the tie
i told him Id lost interest and ive tried to help, he's old enough to make his
own decisions and that its a show of respect to go smart to a wedding 
he asked if i was gonna finish with him!!
i couldnt believe he'd thought that!
i told him "no i hadnt even thought of that and how lam would it be if we finished
over you being too stubborn to wear a tie, it wouldnt make our relationship look strong"
i hadnt thought of getting rid of him. it was nothing really 
but i could tell that thought had been on his mind all night and im not sure if his dad
had been winding him up about it
adam didnt want the job he trialled for, said he'd get bored and it would be a pain working 6 days a week 5 hours each time. he'd rather work longer hours and have another day off in the week.
whatever he wants to do

i havent left the house today
im so tired mentally and physically 
im just so drained but i know i wont sleep
it makes no odds how tired i am how drained i am i still cant sleep

here is what adam brought me the other week he gave it to me this week when it
arrived from japan

Mimikyu! gotta love mimikyu :D its from Japan's Pokemon Centre 

Anyway tomorrow~
I am picking adam up at 12:15 and we are heading to the hotel in Burton-on-trent
which is over an hour away but looks a straight forward run.
from there we have less than an hour to get dressed into our finery and head down to the church
were we will watch our friend antony marry the woman of his dreams then we have the reception to attend straight after to which we have to take part in a barn dance. Not sure when I will be back at the hotel but I know I will be ready for bed. Its gonna take a lot out of me but I will enjoy it.
I will be home midday on Sunday!