Guess what woke me this morning? baring in mind it was gone 3am
by the time I nodded off
It was none other than Oz
yup my Oz
who had rather sneakily hopped into the back door, hopped through the kitchen, through the hall, up the stairs and into my room!!
Mum was chasing him round up to my room and shouted to dad that she'd found him
what a way to start the day
I got up and sleepily looked under my bed for him
gone
turns out he didnt hang around and went back downstairs where mum saw to putting him outside again, honestly hes such a total scamp as of late you know!!
I was tired when I got up
but I didnt feel too bad mentally
stomach was another issue like
I didnt have breakfast and was effing starving
i couldnt wait for lunch to come round so I could have salad
My morning was basically me doing a couple of dances - but had to stop due to it being boiling
i showered and then just kept going out to dad who was doing the rockery and setting fire to it once again, I didnt get to spend much time on my laptop
I had lunch and got ready to see adam
I went over around 1:30pm
basically talked and he was very happy to have ME back
and said how lonely and dull it was to have only seen me 1 hour this week
i was like "ive only seen you once this week?"
he said "yeah that hour you came over"
where have i been this week? seriously what world have i been on? i cant even remember half the week he said it was cus id been in my bubble and pushing people away
but i did it i think to protect others from myself in a way
we didnt go out much to my happiness as today every time i have gone outside
have i had a hay fever attack, literally an attack
theres something out there that doesnt agree with me and it makes me sneeze uncontrollably, runny nose and demon eyes. Ive ordered some japanese eye drops to try!
I was on his bed showing off how strong my core muscles were
and it made my calf go into spasm. not cramp, cramp is no pain. this was spasm
i grabbed my calf hard with hand and must have looked like a cat that had it's tail stood one
i think i was spinning in circles round his room not knowing what to do with myself!
its left a pain to walk on, mum has rolled my calf with a rolling pin a couple of times which has helped relieve some tension. serves me for showing off
I came back and cooked out first 2018 BBQ
I handled cooking fine and i managed to eat a bit of meat
no bread or anything else
and i have got awful stomach pains
i dont know what to do with my stomach
i didnt take any medication last night and i dont think im gonna bother tonight
just no point really
but mum said, what if its not the medication hurting my stomach?
i said I will go mental if i have anything else wrong with me!!!!!
see how it goes I guess im hoping now im not taking anything my stomach will heal
fingers crossed
so thats it now im not on anything
see how i do.
I drew a picture today of how I was feeling the other day, the image i had in my head
did that for half hour
showered again and now gonna sit my beasty bunny who is shedding his fur
which goes up my nose and aggravates my hay fever!
Adam gave me a lil rose plant today which was sweet of him
i just have nothing to put it in so im thinking of buying a pot for it tomorrow
if i can be arsed to go out tomorrow
hes working a 13 hour shift so i aint seeing him
and i might draw too!
a lipstick i brought this week suppose to be £15 i got it for £3.99 Loreal Paris
mum likes the colour and says she wants to borrow it ive told her shes welcome to any of my stuff as always, then she never uses anything!
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