A Naruko

Evening~~

I didn't sleep too bad last night
but I was tired and aching
I woke up aching + extra aches from yoga
but got ready for school~

School was a bit different today
I about thought id walked into the wrong classroom
when she said "were doing P.E. today"
wow P.E. something fun and non-writing!
I thought I was gonna be lucky enough to join them in playing rounders
just so i could beat a load of 9 year olds XD but sadly she gave me TA jobs to do
wasnt so bad just very repetitive but I got to speak to other TAs
and talked about interviews and such 

I came home for lunch then went back to school
where she had me doing TA jobs all afternoon so I wasnt in class much
but i cant complain at that really
Im in a mood that im not sure what i truly want to be doing
so everything feels slightly off and like a chore

The head teacher asked me to come into school
next Monday Tuesday and Friday
and whilst im grateful to have work and money i just know
im gonna be bored and it isnt what I want to do
but I know I will get through it

I came home and ate
feel like ive eaten loads this week
maybe its my cold? ether way its making me go a bit mental with anorexic thoughts
want to have a week of starving myself
feel fat
look fat
ugh nothing seems good right now and i want it to change!

Having work next week means ive got to miss
my massage with Karen and my psychotherapy appointment with bob
which may seem bad especially as knowing how "busy and important" he is he wont be able to fit me in for another 2 weeks (usually happens) but I said to mum that he isnt doing anything for me anyway so im not missing out really even tho it will end up being 6 weeks from my last session
id rather see a hypnotherapist which mum rang today and we're waiting to hear back from

My brother has his presentation exhibition tonight in the city centre for his Uni course
my parents are attending, im not
dont think i could go through with that with the way im feeling
throats might get ripped out
so im staying home alone for a couple of hours
and i had the most ingenious that id blast out some music and do some dancing
yup thats what im doing in less than an hour's time
which works out well as its very hot today so running might not be pleasant 

speaking of running
its park run tomorrow
woo yeah!!! I am pumped for that!
i wanna go! i wanna run!
well looking forward to it
not bothered about my time, place or anything
just want to run and take over at least 1 person XD makes me feel better
and usually i over take A LOT of people
so thats tomorrow
after park run Im not sure what im doing but i might do some sewing

Thought i'd take a photo of the sole Naruko I got in the post yesterday
and what I have been refunded for as well
might have a go with it tonight

I have since ordered another pair, identical to this one