Did I do my best today or what~

Evening~~

What an eventful day~

I didn't sleep that well
wasnt feeling tired for some reason
I was waking from 6am

So I had blood test this morning 
ugh i hate them and was quite nervous all morning
and especially in the doctors waiting room
the nurse called me in pretty quickly so i didnt have too much time to stew
The whole thing was over and done with quickly shes so amazing!
and i didnt pass out
whats more is that my annual thyroid test was done at the same time
so two birds one stone!

i recovered at home
then showered, did hair and make-up my war paint
and practised a bit of maths and got stuff ready for my interview
and somehow managed to eat lunch
then it was off to school

the group of children i had were lovely and truly had fun
i enjoyed it and got into it
then i had the grilling which i guess went ok
then i had the maths and english activity which i did find difficult i have to say
and by 2:30 i was done and left
i felt it went ok and i didnt screw up too much
i knew from this morning i wouldnt get the job
that gut feeling but pushed myself to get the experience

i got home and sat with mum
then went on my laptop for a lil bit
i then decided i was gonna go record a dance outside
down the road there wasnt really any people about but it was hot
my body felt sluggish in the heat
i watched the video back and all i could think was how fat i looked
so i gave up and came back inside
but felt i had done well to even dance outside
i enjoyed it and would like to try it again

i got the phone call from the head teacher confirming that gut feeling of not getting the job
i was 100% fine with it, and didnt beat myself up
think id gone past the stage of caring so i was fine and still am
he said i did really well and had the job grade been lower he would have had me but had to go with someone with much more years experience
and thats fine
no point me going into a job im gonna get stressed at because im experienced enough
so that was that. dont want to bang on about it and want to move on with the experience

tonight feels like its gonna be  boring
its hot and i dont know what i want to do with myself

tomorrow ive got the whole day to do as i please
think i ve got to see adam cus yeah i havent seen him in quite a while

thought id show off my hoodie~