I once again woke up at 6am
whats with waking up at the crack of dawn lately!?
its really annoying
I woke up feeling shattered, like really drained
I wasnt planning on a run anyway but it confirmed that I
wouldnt be going for one!
I got up at 7am anyway
I got ready to go look round a school today
I was literally there for 10mins but I hope it helps my application
that ive taken time to show interest in the school
be a miracle if i got in, i love village schools
and the class would be on 23 students...that is sodding unheard of
its at least 30 students usually
it would be a dream but something tells me i wont be that lucky
So anyway I came home and I tried to dance
did a run down of the Onepixcel dances Ive been learning for an eternity
and I did some Yosakoi too
but it soon got very very warm
after 20mins i was dripping and decided to stop otherwise id end up
showering 3 times in 1 day
I decided to work on the picture i started for my brother last night
cus he did such an amazing job at uni i thought id do him a lil something
thats the start of it
im gonna play around in photoshop for certain bits
so I was doing that til lunch time which was when - in the space of 3 mins -
adam showed up, followed by dad, followed by my brother from Skegness
peace and quiet shattered
adam asked if i had eaten lunch i said no
just didnt want it today
he made me actually made me get food i made cheese on toast but didnt want it
ate half and chucked the rest, food isnt doing a lot for me lately and today i lost all interest
he asked what should we do
but with 29c outside i was reluctant to a do a lot
in the end he suggested that we go his to play the new Crash bandicoot game
i have wanted to see it as I loved Crash Bandicoot Warped as a kid
so we set off for his house on the way I dropped my prescription in the chemist
At adams we sat winding his dad up or shall i say i wound his dad up XD
then we went to play Crash which was good actually
and then we had a brew and then talked a bit then just as I had 10 mins left
i said "im gonna pick my tablets up on the way home" he said
he actually said "do you need them?"
I said "are you actually serious? i mean this has gone on for weeks now and you havent said a thing and the day i go to start my new medication and your asking me if its a good idea!!!"
i couldnt believe he had said that to me
he said "well your sleeping has been good and i dont want you sick with side effects"
i said "ive come this far, ive even had a sodding blood test for this, i feel if i dont try this i will never know, and i wont take them if theyre not doing anything for me"
i just couldnt believe him
i picked up my medication - Carbamazepine and when I got home I started them
see how I go I guess
cant go on as I was and if they dont suit its anti-depressiants for me
these ive started are anti-psychotic
i cant get my head round that im on anti-psychotic drugs
makes me feel like i should be in a nutter house
from there I went yoga with mum
and of course Karen is still off so we had last week's teacher
and she does things so slowly and its good when its so damn hot and humid
if we had karen during this heat we would die
literally
so its probably come at a good time
tomorrow think im seeing mia in the morning
do i tell her im on anti-psychotic drugs?
then in the afternoon gonna go shops with mum as we're both tearing through socks lately it seems so i said we'd go out and hunt for socks
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