I had a brilliant time with Mia last night
didn't get home til 10:30pm
we laughed, and caught up, talked about my relationship, my mental health
at the end of the evening mia said
"i've beaten everyone at work doing the plank for the longest, we did it in the staff room and i won! i bet i could beat you easily"
i sighed know where this was headed at 10:15pm
so she got fired up over something so simple as doing the plank...
i wasn't arsed
im not competitive, my other half is tho she could only think about challenging mia
mia given the chance wanted to match her not me
so she even put music on...
jesus
so we started holding it
at 2:49 mia gave in, i was very very impressed she held for so long considering she doesnt do any form of exercise i gave in after she did. id had enough and could see no point in putting myself through that strain any longer.
she was annoyed and said she'd rematch me at some point
honestly
this morning i could feel that id held the plank for that long
i wasnt gonna go a run or anything as i had set the day to Ed
praying that he came anyway and didnt let me down!
i got ready ether way
he did eventually text me to say he was leaving at 10am
by 11:20am i heard this engine pulling up my drive way
oh my god his motorbike *0* amazing!!
i was very impressed indeed
i wanted a go so badly but knew i would not have the strength to hold such a monster up
he came in and we had a brew i introduced him to Oz
and he saw my girls
by 12 we were headed into the city centre
we stopped by ice skating first
god it was cold, my hands had lost all feeling - next time bring gloves!
we skated round i was like a brick when i first
but i soon loosened up
we skated for an hour it wasnt too busy even tho its summer break
we left there at 1:45pm to go get food
we walked by a Japanese restaurant and Ed suggested we have Japanese
i do really want to try japanese food, ive only had snippets
and no one else will eat it, Ed has loads and loads of asian food due to him being Chinese born British so im gonna get no better chance or better teacher
so thats what we did
i got to try a few things ive always wanted to try
jasmine tea which i loved
tofu which meh wasnt amazing
proper teriyaki chicken
japanese dumplings
miso soup
it was all really good and better than i had expected
i even gave sushi another go as every sushi ive had hasnt been nice but i actually liked this one so i was happy to know i could stomach japanese food if i ever get the opportunity to go japan
we walked round the city a bit
i picked up 2 pairs of new tights from charity shop along with a bunny jumper
then we came home really
we sat a brew with my Oz who was licking Ed's hands
honestly that rabbit will befriend anyone -____-
ive been doing my best messing around with Ed today
and ive kept that closeness we once shared, to a degree
of course some things arent appropriate anymore but we can still do some things
like i held his hands and linked arms and gave him a couple of hugs
he laid his head on my lap as played with his hair, we tickled one another
but i never saw it as anything dirty or 'wrong' cus i love Ed
i love him as much as any other friend and that love wont go further nor do i wish for it to be taken further we are simply good friends
so when he said "i feel like ive ruined your relationship"
i said "why?"
he said "cus of what ive done today ive been bad and im sorry"
it made me think 'is what ive done bad?'
i told him it isnt cus its not
if we were kissing or anything then sure but we werent
so i was fine with everything
i could tell given the chance he'd do more and he confessed that
he also told me that he didnt see me for a while as he didnt want to come between me and adam he also didnt know if he would be able to 'behave' himself whilst i was in a relationship
i knew he wouldnt be able to not touch me cus its not the relationship we have/had
we've been close and i dont want to totally lose that it would be mean and stuff
so i feel it was kept at a safe level for Ed and for my relationship
i have morals damn it, im no slut or anything XD
he eventually left at 7:30pm
i watched him kit his bike up and i got to sit on it and rev it
my god the power
id love a go i was almost begging for a go
but because i knew i wouldnt be able to hold the bike up i didnt
theyre soooooo big and he said his isnt even the biggest
since then ive just showered and done my diary really
it was a really good day and Ed treated me to everything too ><
after all this time he still takes care of me
i hope he gets home safe
mum said it was good to see me genuinely happy today
she says she can see how good my relationship is with ed and how much i enjoy myself round him and have a laugh. it was good to see
she says im not like that adam XD
speaking of him, hes sent off for his provisional driving license
not sure whats triggered that
he'd left me a txt saying he's sent off for it
i said "really,like really really?"
he said "yeah cost me £14 coming in two weeks"
i said "sorry, just wait a sec"
he said "what?"
i said "i was just lighting the fireworks id saved for such occasion"
he said "cheeky git, were they good fireworks?"
i said "we'll theyd almost gone out of date"
point match me~
tomorrow im seeing adam for the first time since we had that tiff on
friday night
so not sure how it will be but we can see
wont be long anyway as he has work i have yoga
gonna run or dance in the morning
then sew~
i will share photos tomorrow of today when i get the photos from ed off his phone
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