Thursday, 9 August 2018

Sticking to my guns and 12 more to go

Evening~~

I didnt sleep til 1am
just couldnt tune out
I woke up at 7am
groaning as I was tired and could not be arsed to start the day but
i got up any how
mum wasnt gonna go for a run and i really wasnt feeling it
so  i had a slow morning and danced at around 9:15am
I didnt dance for too long as I just didnt have the energy but I made an attempt
showered and watched my brother empty the contents of his
room for his new bed
hes moving from a single to double moaning he hasnt got enough room
i sleep on half a single XD i have a single bed but half is taken up by toys
and i dont move them and they dont move ether 
everyone wonders how i fit on my bed XD

I went and did some digital work as I need to do something
for adams birthday next month /:
i made a start but got bored as I havent been into digital work for a while
I will keep going with it when I can
then i cracked out the sewing
Ive got a total of 12 kimonos done
I laid out all the kimonos and the t-shirt to see where I was at with it all
i believe I need a total of 24 kimonos so I am half way
I only have to cut out another 4 kimonos so at least its not too much more cutting
but a fair bit of sewing yet to do
then ive got borders to do! so much work! but i enjoy it

I made pumpkin soup using hand grown veg from adams dad
so that was nice to have for lunch and mum appreciated coming in from work
and being able to have fresh lunch~
adam had rang me whilst making it but my phone was upstairs so i missed the call
he left me a text saying "gonna go home now" he means from work
and im guessing he was expecting me to cave and say "oh no you come over!"
but fat chance, he can go home and do nothing all day
which is exactly what he has done!
he does nothing
to be honest ive been thinking long and hard about my relationship with him
as im not sure its gonna work if it continues
he does nothing and  his lack of motivation to live his life is holding me back
so i think words have got to be said
thinking of doing it sunday
this isnt me getting rid of him this is me stating that im basically not happy
with watching life pass me by whilst being with someone im finding quite dull lately
too comfortable with life and i sometimes wonder if he is autistic 
so i stuck to my guns and didnt see him
deliberately breaking up his usual thursday routine 
life is too much of a routine for him


I ended up falling asleep in the afternoon
i felt tired and achy from sewing and exercise
plus my head was going through a 1000 scenarios with adam
i needed out, i needed a break so i fell asleep and didnt want to wake up
but i got up and continued on

we had yoga with karen
luckily it wasnt hot today so we didnt sweat too badly but it was still warm
and humid in her room with no windows or doors open
we came back and just in time too as it threw it down so we got the girls and oz in
Oz has been out all day and i think its because its cool hes made the most of it
by sleeping in the shed on an old yoga mat would you believe
life of some bunnies

tomorrow i might get up and do a run
i will see
dont like running the day before park run
but i doubt it will be a good park run anyway as i have the job of picking
adam up from work at 10::30pm so im gonna be tired
i have psychology at 9:30am so if i do do a run i gotta dab in and get it done
i will upload my yosakoi video too at some point
still not shown mum it id like to know her opinion before  i share it with my
friends on facebook
probably just sew and maybe go out with mum maybe tomorrow
id love to learn Onepixcel's "Sparkle" and "Be With You"
both dances and song im really into

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