I woke up at 5am
having a dream that I could tell was gonna twist into a nightmare
and some part of me woke up, i woke up groaning in my sleep
my dream was my other personality sitting beside me
holding the same clock contract from Chrono Crusade
and as soon as she held that up I had feeling stuff was gonna kick off
as I know the bit from Chrono Crusade
'my blood mixed with yours, we'll walk the same time'
i knew something twisted was gonna happen and luckily I was able to wake up
waking up didnt truly save me tho as I had her present quite strongly
I laid there til 5:30am
til eventually I got up, I knew I couldnt sleep with that amount of mentalness
and my aches too well it was my joints that needed clicking really
so I got up and went for a walk at 5:50am for 40 mins
I came home and sat watching stuff on my ipod til 7am
had breakfast and was back in bed at 8am were i managed to sleep for an hour
I got up and danced for a bit, i was so sweaty
showered and then sat making a birthday card for adam
cute huh~ me and Ozwald
and on the inside im sticking this
my very crudely drawn Spyro the Dragon
as I wish to buy that for him as a belated birthday present
i changed my bed and had some lunch which mum kindly made for me
later on we went out just to TK MAXX i didnt buy anything as i didnt need anything
but mum was happy with what she brought which was holiday stuff really
we went round a couple more shops then went for a walk
got quite hot actually today
I came back and did some design work for my brother
which he has yet to see so im not sure if it was what he had in mind
he was struggling to draw basically
so i sat and did that for 90mins
we had a squirrel in the garden
we've not had one for a long time, they pass by on the fence panel but
dont come in the garden, not since my brother shot the last one
it eyed up Oz and Oz had his ears on it
it got closer and closer to Oz til i went out as i didnt like what was happening
no way was that thing touching my boy
i fussed Oz who was a little stressed but soon chilled out once he knew i was on scene
he knows i protect
got to do some japanese tonight
running out of brain power XD
so done 2 walks today and dancing
i felt alone last night
like unhappy alone
i wanted someone there but didnt want to make conversation
its like i just want someone in the room with me
i start by being irritated like i cant rest or sit still
then after thats passed im lonely
its every night lately and ive had enough!
im dreading tonight and its only 6:45pm
tomorrow im cleaning my room
as i can see dust
adam was on about seeing me and then i have yoga
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