Wednesday, 27 March 2019

1/4 guineas done

Evening~~

Got 4 hours sleep woo

This morning Id cleaned out my pets before even 9am!
i did some dancing and showered
then i washed my car
i sat and read and had lunch then went out with mum just to a couple of home stores
then i came back and watched a documentary mum and dad had watched to do with japan
it was good to see and made me sit down and watch something instead of constantly doing something

i pulled a muscle in my shoulder on the first dance this morning
i actually felt the bugger tear it really hurts -____-

i did some more work on the water colour
got a guinea pig done out of the 4 ive got to do 
its slow but im taking my time with it
just not confident with water colours some how

i ache
i ache a lot
im struggling to eat cus my anxiety is making my stomach feel so churned that food is giving me stomach ache, im anxious because im worrying about being alone all night in pain and left with my thoughts
its really getting to me lately
and i know i will feel it more come the weekend as mum and dad are going away so ill be left alone during the day then ill be alone at night
its not healthy for someone like me

jack txt me to say ive got to sign something at work to say i want to stay til may and that i want more hours too. its his last night at home as he moves out tomorrow

i didnt go running club
as ive danced, got a pulled muscle and on 4 hours sleep i would only be pushing myself for no real point also mum pointed out to me today that i have time during the day to run its not like i have to run at night so i might as well make the most of that and then if i do have more hours at work i might only be able to run at night

tomorrow not sure what i will do yet 

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