Evening
I took 175mg of pain relief last night
felt quite good and i only felt a lil drugged up in the morning
still i know i shouldnt be taking these doses but ive gone past the stage of caring
i got up for work
work was long and dullllll
it was so boring
like no practicals for me so nothing to make up or clean up
dead boring
i was doing just odd jobs to pass the time really
i felt nervous in the morning as i didnt know how jack was gonna be with me
he was fine
he said he was sorry about the weekend
but in all honesty i couldnt be arsed with him
yes i could have let him have it right there in the prep room
but i just couldnt be bothered
i just said "its ok" and walked off
but i have been off with him all day
ive felt pretty fed up all day if im honest
ive talked with staff about anything and everything just to pass the time
and behold tomorrow
i have back to back practicals!!!!
why cant it balance out
also tuesday is suppose to be my quiet day, it seems the only lessons i have on are typically practical lessons, also its the first week of science club but im leaving early to go collect a lamb's heart from the butcher. i left early today to go collect maggots which are currently residing in our garage fridge much to my mother's disgust
tomorrow there will be a lambs heart in there instead
the joys of biology
so tomorrow looks full on
gonna be shattered but at least i wont be bored
i did put up a halloween display which looks good and i got praised for too ^^
i came home - early
which was nice i have to say even if it was only by half hour
i complained to mum about my pain and wanting to die as i had enough
i cried a bit
im so low lately i dont know whats up with me
but i could quite easily give up and curl up and not wake up
ive about had enough of my life
we got a txt from Nigel my acupuncturist at the weekend
he's back!!
he went travelling with his wife last year and was suppose to not come back
but hes back! and doing appointments!
so ive booked to see him friday
it will be so good to see him again
and im hoping he can help me with my pain
ive brought these from japan, very expensive £20 each
thermal compression socks
for when it gets colder
i had a pair last year and they were good
lets get tomorrow done with
jack wants me to stay over on wednesday night
but i cant be bothered
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