Introducing Food - Milk

Konbanwa~~

I had work yesterday
managed the day surprisingly well all things considered 
i mean i did have 1 moment but that was all
and that was me literally telling jack
"if i hear how fat i am one more time im gonna go mental"
cus yeah Jo's anorexic thoughts are still here to stay for the time being
and id had enough
it was starting to get me on the band wagon but i distracted myself with something else
I mean jack did reassure me that, of course, i am not fat
if anything i should feel better in myself for losing a few pounds
not want to lose more >.>
he asked if id stay over and to be honest i wasnt bothered
i was fine going home
but he seemed pretty set on the idea
saying we could go for a hot chocolate
now considering the chocolate shop shuts at 5:30pm, i needed to go home for my stuff first and I dont get in til 4:30pm and I needed to get to his and walk to the shop
i kinda thought "yeah he hasnt thought this through"
but i was waiting for the penny to drop
turns out it didnt drop til i was actually at his house after school and he said "shall we go out?"
i was like "its shuts in 5 mins" XD 
he looked disappointed and said "i have that instant stuff in my cupboard but you dont like that one" and looked kinda down but i said
"i was waiting for you to realise, but ive come to spend time with you not for a hot chocolate"

so in the end we just had a play fight and made food and watched anime
easy evening
i could feel my thoughts kicking up
so i took an extra codeine yes i know i shouldnt but it does fog up the mind nicely
he was annoyed at me, especially cus it meant by 9:30pm i was no good to anyone
we crawled into bed and i fell asleep on him
it was an early night for jack as hes usually in bed for midnight
but he didnt seem to mind

i got up this morning and felt groggy
but extra pain relief does that
i pay for it come my morning pain relief cus my god do i feel sick
i was walking into school looking like death with jack
he looked at me and was like "you sure youre ok to be here"
i said "its fine jack just a bad bit of morning sickness is all"
he said "dont be too loud saying that! i do not need those kinda rumours" XD

school was alright
i was sure to see chris
i thanked him for his guy talk as i said jack had opened up to me finally
i printed off my grim reaper picture and put it on the freezer everyone loves it X3
i made mischief of myself where ever i could
but got today done
and im doing really well
usually on a monday I AM DEAD for some reason mondays kill me
its my busiest day - biology wise but i did have a lot of running around to do and today as well but i am actually alright
dont know if its cus im actually processing food better
who knows
but i aint complaining

when i got home I saw Ozwald and had a brew with him as per usual
missed him this morning
hes alright tho
we've had molly a year now can you believe!!! mummy mole we call her X3
i did 35mins of yoga before dinner
then i have my physio ones to do yet >.>
got my stuff to take to jack's to get ready as well
as im staying over tomorrow and we are going to the hot chocolate place straight after school 

yesterday i started to introduce foods into my diet
ive chosen to start with milk
as ive been having it in my tea for a week now
but i actually drank a glass of it
i didnt die
but i will keep doing it for another day or so
so im drinking it today
and then tomorrow i am trying 1 egg 
i can actually start having different foods! 
ive had the odd bit of chocolate like chocolate drops in my biscuits so i think im ok with that
jack says we can have a hot chocolate and maybe some chocolate treats tomorrow X3
i just hope it all sits well - mentally - with me

so yeah school tomorrow then jack's
tomorrow lesson wise looks pretty quite again