a whole saturday wasted recovering

 Evening

I was in bed for 8:40pm

just dead -______-

I slept really well apart from waking up at 4am for a massive wee XD but fell back to sleep til 8am, cant say I felt much better for sleeping but it was nice not having to wake to an alarm and not wake up at 6am.

This morning I sat with my Ozwald X3

went for a good walk with mum, then did 20mins of dancing but it was very half hearted. I just hadnt got the energy at all so I showered and went to bed for like 2 hours

woke up and had my lunch and checked stuff on my laptop and went to bed for a further hour

i swear i have done nothing with my day which isnt like me

its not fair i have to work then use my weekends to literally recover from bloody working >.>

some life

i did pop to tk maxx just to get out of my dads way today as hes like a bloody mentalist 

i didnt find anything worth buying, brought jack some more of this berry tea he is really right now, he brought some and took it to work with him and is well happy with it and says he needs to buy more, i will revile it to him on monday as a lil surprise. 

i was gonna do another walk but one by the river, but to be honest i felt so exhausted i couldnt face it. its very frustrating feeling this tired.

so yeah i have done bugger all really!

i came home and made myself a cob for dinner, having to eat soft foods again as i snapped my jaw yesterday again, eating an apple at work. all those weeks recovery gone out the window :/ 

so it hurts to eat on it again T^T

i did so a deep facial massage using my gua sha thing to try and ease the tension and pain in my jaw this evening, it did help a bit and gave me something to do

jack has been packing his stuff up and cleaning his flat

he asked me this morning if i would drop some stuff off at harveys today but i turned him down as i just felt too dead and yeah i couldnt face it. but i said if his mum cant help him do it tomorrow i would help him next weekend with it. 

he is going to brandon's for a bbq tomorrow and i was invited but told jack i needed to rest really, that i couldnt face entertaining 5 other people. but he text me today saying brandon would like it if i came over but its okay if i dont want to. so now i am unsure what to do. if i have another day like today then forget it. but if i feel good tomorrow then yeah i might show my face but i see. cant say im that fussed but thats probably cus i am feeling anti social XD im seeing jack in the evening ether way tho as we are going school together

tonight i might give my nails a paint, the lady bugs i painted on them really stained my skin for a couple of days XD im gonna do simple spots tonight as yeah i cant think of anything good to do on em

so tomorrow i will see how the day takes me