No luck with pumpkins

 Evening

I was slowly drifting off to sleep last night when at 10:30pm my body decided it needed a wee -____- man it picks it's moments and after that I struggled to get to sleep as I was aching. I got up til 12:30 and when I got back to bed i set my oil defuser for 2 hours so that softly went whilst lighting my room up different colours, it is amazing i love it ^^

I woke up at 7:30am but managed to grab another half hour ^^

So this morning mum went food shopping I did my 30mins of dance practice then had a shower

i got the shower, and yesterday I felt like playing with make up but didnt, but today I did

i put the full make up on as I havent done in such a long time - not even for work

i havent worn any make up at all, some people apply foundation or mascara or lip stick - something. Jo - zilch. I go bare faced. I just cant see the point when half your face is covered with a mask. 

but today I did it. and my god how healthy and awake i looked! it was shocking to see the reflection in the mirror actually. didnt feel like  me. im so used to seeing pale zombie

Mum said we would go pick your own pumpkin today

so she drove us about 15 or so minutes away so a farm

a farm that was shut, just the remnants of pumpkins left in the field D:

so that was a bit disappointing but I wasnt too disheartened by it all

we went for a walk round there which was very nice, totally in the woods which is what i like

I was tired and hungry - like a child - so we went home

after lunch mum offered to go try some shops

we tried 3 shops and none, not one pumpkin D: whats with the shortage of pumpkins this year!?

so strange as usually you can get hold of them right up to halloween

I wasnt too disappointed which surprised me to be honest cus i love pumpkins. 

mum said she will try a farm shop tomorrow - expensive pumpkins XD i told her not to worry i was ok but she said "i dont want you to go without a pumpkin! its 1 day in the year you like"

sweet of her :3

i texted jack to say i had no luck, he said he was gonna check two stores tomorrow on the way to work i told him it was fine that pumpkins are heavy and he would then need to get it to work. he said he was gonna be fine with all that :/ 

this afternoon i havent done an awful lot, been pretty exhausted from being on the go all day

so i worked on my drawing and spent time with the pets, Oz snoring beside me the usual

mum also asked me to look into some eye cream for her, as she buys UK skin care and I buy korean and I keep telling her  the ingredients in her products are poor. So she wanted to try a better eye cream as she worries she will end up with old saggy baggy eyes like her dad had when he was old

I found one for her and ordered it :) If its something I can do - its skin care XD

tomorrow I am going to work ugh, to do more hours

i dont want to go in if i am honest. but i have a practical to test to see if the amino acids are still alive and kicking, probably update some stuff or do some display work. and talk to jack about a few things. the main one being "wanna live with me and my family til we have the bungalow?" ><

thats it really :/