acquired my dressing table

 Konbanwa~

Last night did not go well for me

I was alone as Jack was gaming online with harvey and theo which is fair enough, I had my normal night routine and went to bed reading in the cold bedroom. I couldnt sleep tho as I had such awful stomach ache. I mean I had stomach ache from eating my dinner but it just got progressively worse I was just tossing and turning in bed trying to find a comfy position to lay on. It got to 11pm and Jack came down and saw me, said he was having a quick break. I said I was cold and he put the heating on which helped then he went to game again. I got up in the end and took pain killers that rotted my stomach and I just felt like death, laying for an hour on the living room floor. Thinking quite dark thoughts...by 1:30am I got up and then jack appeared. I just walked past him and went to bed. I slept then but it was because I had pain killers and a sleeping tablet. I woke up at 9am so  I was late for Oz

All the morning I had lost the will to live. Lost the ability to care. I just wanted to curl up and forget the day, the world. But I knew I couldnt. So I got dressed and me and jack went food shopping which was nice and quiet. We got back and I let Jack unpack I just crawled up on the bed, i was cold and low.

He came and read next to me, he knows when not to pester me and just let me be as I work my way through it eventually.

We had lunch then went over to mum's for a shower

Mum came back with dad and I told jack he could go home as I would go collect my dressing table with my parents. So he went and i went to lay on the sofa, mum came to sit next to me and I just started crying. Well not crying as such, just tears were flowing. Mum said "is that how you feel?" she hugged me and said "I could tell you weren't right" we just sat talking about houses, relationships, life. You know - the usual XD I just let the tears flow. I felt a bit better.

Then at 3:45pm we set off in dad's van to go collect the dressing table

we found it really easily and the guy was really nice ^^ he helped us get it in dad's van

I was well impressed with it. I havent had a proper look as we came and dropped it off into the garage and it is rather cold in there >< however I plan on working on it in there for the start as I have got to sand it down a bit. I should take before and after photos huh

I stayed home then and talked to jack a bit, he had been working on admin for the house whilst I had been out. We sat with Oz in the living room with a brew. 

Then I made us noodles and we sat watching Shakugan no shana, so I feel a bit more in a routine. Now I am doing my diary whilst jack is gaming behind me. He will be gaming for a while

My evening is going to consist of me doing some yoga with Ozwald and fussing him, then I will do my nails and maybe do some drawing? Not entirely sure about the drawing bit I will see how I feel.

but I certainly need to do stretching as I havent done any exercise. I wasnt feeling it and wasnt in the mood ether to get cold.

so yeah I guess I will pass the evening somehow!

Tomorrow I am hoping to go on a dog walk with mia, I was able to go on a walk with her last monday and it really did me some good actually so i am hoping we can do the same again. Then I will go to mum's for a shower and then I guess do some actual work! I have scientists to draw you know.

I have asked jack if he will make the soup for lunch whilst I am out.

we should have both matt and the electrician over tomorrow. So depending on the noise level i might work at mum's, not sure yet. I cant always leave jack here it doesnt feel fair but depends what I can cope with. After the working hours are up I hope to make a bit of a start on my dressing table :D be nice to do something creative that isnt digital drawing

I hope i sleep tonight, everything is much worse and harder to handle when youre shattered and in pain -_____-