met the school councillor

 Evening

I slept really deep last night, like proper deep sleep for whatever reason

cant say I felt any more refreshed after it >.>

still didnt want to go to school

we had Oz inside this morning as we let him out and 3 mins later a cat came into the garden and it obviously scared the crap out of him so I had to get him and calm him down. He soon forgot about it all when he realised he was playing inside in the morning and didnt want to go home ether!

School

I had my first session with the councillor at 8:15am

didnt get out til 9am

it was ok I guess, I dont feel I got anything out of it as I literally just told her my life 

she was very nice but dont feel like she had a lot to give somehow

she said 

"you need to be kinder to yourself"

"youre too hard on yourself"

"its no wonder you feel crap you have so much going off"

yeah I came away needing caffeine 

I somehow and I mean SOMEHOW got my lessons prepped then left 

head of science was teaching as I walked out but he shouted me and left his class to ask how I had got on and cheered me on for doing another week. And could tell I was struggling as I looked like death and I felt it! I wanted nothing more than to sleep for 5 hours

i came home and mum turned up as I did~

we had lunch and a quick sit then it was just all go this afternoon ><

we went to two small shops for a few bits, I got my paint for my porch door

then we came back and I sheered truffs, gave her a proper short cut as shes getting too warm. She was so good whilst I did it, I think its because she knows I am relaxed when doing it and its to help her. She does not let mum do it but mum is on edge when doing it and I think animals pick up on that. Then we bathed all 3 of them so I bet truffle is lovely clean and soft now! I even trimmed her tummy fur just to try and keep her cooler.

Then I sat with a cup of tea and fruit loaf and then I grabbed a few bits from my old bedroom such as my sewing machine! shes finally over here! I feel reunited!!

mum dropped me home at 4pm and Jack was home

we sat for a lil while then I had a full sesh in the bathroom

eyebrow bleach

epilated

shaved

lazered

face pack

its hard being female ^^; 

of course its all for my sake no one elses

Jack had a shower after me, we had dinner then I thought "I have some time to draw"

but my brother rang for 80mins which is fine I like speaking to him. I just havent had a single minute to myself today! So now I am doing my diary and I have got to go have Oz inside for his evening sit and I have got to do some yoga as I havent done any exercise today I am exhausted but need to do something. So I said I would do yoga with Oz in my pyjamas

tomorrow

it will be nice not getting up at 6am

I plan to clean bathroom and clean Oz out and try do a bit of exercise before I go over to Jack's mum's house for dinner

think that will literally be the day!

but I have completed another week~