First day back, even Oz wasnt feeling it

 Evening~~

Could I sleep last night? when I actually needed sleep T^T I was awake til 12:30 with my thoughts going through loads of random crap >.> I got up for pain killers and stayed up til 1am

I came to bed and did sleep but had a dream I started a new course but was struggling to do it because of my dyslexia and was upset

I woke up at 6:15am to the sound of my alarm. Ugh an actual alarm >.> did not want to get up today. The only saving grace was wearing non-uniform

We got up and got the dinner on for this evening and got ready for school

when Jack got Oz up at 6:15am he said Oz had a right face on him like "what ungodly hour is this!?" he only gave Jack one lick whereas he usually get loads XD even Oz wasnt feeling it 

we dropped him off for bunny daycare

We went to work really not wanting to. Who wants to go back

I spent two hours in the morning talking the art technician as he art teacher was off with covid, and she didnt know what to do as she didnt feel she wanted to sit with all the teachers in the hall and catch covid, I told her I never go in and was waiting for occupational health to call me - who never did....

So I was tired from talking, it was free tea time so I got my tea and hurried to drink it as it was so noisy with all the staff there. I went to escape to Chris's room. He was working by himself and rather stressed but i am always welcomed there. Chris's office is a safe place. No science teachers tend to go down to his office for starters! I was sat there talking to him when a guy came in and gave me a good look then asked Chris if he was ok. Chris said he was and when the guy left he gave me a really pointed look I kinda thought "whats his problem?" and noticed he had a different school badge to mine and I thought "someone from another school, if cant be bothered to introduce himself I aint gonna bother introducing myself" and chris sighed when he went and was like "im gonna get a message in a minute" I said "how come?" he said "oh that was head of IT for the trust of schools, like my head head boss. Hes gonna be wondering why youre in my office, and at my desk no less" woops XD how was I to know!?

I worked til lunch then ate my lunch up in the office by myself as Jack and Julia were having school lunch which was on plates so they couldnt come up stairs but to be honest I was glad of the quiet as all day I had talked......so much socialising.....not used to it!

After lunch we had a department meeting and said to Jack I was running out of energy and thinking power and I needed organising so we did my to do list and he wrote on thursday "go to lesson" XD yes my first biology lesson is thursday! I did some more jobs and helped Jack then did computer work as I was knackered. It was just one thing after another. Like as soon as you go to do one of your jobs about 3 people come in talking to you or just wanting things cus your a technician!!!!!!!!! god my head was spinning. I couldnt want to finish.

Mum came to drop Oz over and stayed for a cup of tea and I had fruit loaf too as I needed treat~

I did dinner which wasnt hard as we put the pulled pork on this morning. After dinner we prepped from tomorrow's dinner as its a curry to put on in the morning 

Now I am doing my diary and gonna do some exercise then have a bath or shower. Jack is just having a quick game with the guys. I hope it helps him unwind a bit

we will sit with Oz and watch anime

school tomorrow

please god let me  sleep

but as first days go it wasnt too bad. Its just a lot sometimes

Its school tomorrow T^T freedom over

 Konbanwa~

My last day of freedom T^T

So last night I took a calms sleeping tablet but I cut the middle man out and just slept straight on top of my covers, didnt bother getting into the bed. Meant Jack couldnt cuddle me but I just knew Id be up otherwise. This gave me a better chance of sleeping

AND I SLEPT!!!

i actually bloody slept! Unbelievable 

I slept through til 8am in my dressing gown, I was so cosy ^^

I got up and Jack made me tea and fruit loaf for my breakfast

I did a bit of digital drawing this morning and made some biscuits to snack on

then at 10:30am I went over to my parents and sat with mum and dad with girls on my knee

told them about our plans for the garden and I asked my dad how much car tires are that no one wants he said theyre free! woop! If we can save money we damn well will! But they liked the ideas we have so I feel we have a goal now to work towards. Dad said he even has 3 tires to get rid of so he will pop them over at some point. I went to talk to my brother for a bit. Took another draw from my old bedroom and then I went home for my lunch at 12:20

After lunch I really wanted to sleep! But I need to sleep tonight so I have stayed awake today!

I feel ok after my covid jab I mean I am a bit tired but I am used to that. My arm is sore, hurts more than first injection anyway. Jack says he has a headache and hes been tired all day too. Hes done well as he mowed the grass today and came on a 40 min walk with me. 

I put my stuff away from my draw it mainly tat so I chucked a fair bit away to be honest.

then I dyed my eyelashes 

I also got all my stuff ready for tonight's pamper sesh

I have hair oil, face bubble pack thing, face sheet, fancy bath salts.

I want to feel pampered for school~

i also got my outfit out for tomorrow as its insec day so we can wear what we want

im going in a pink anime tshirt, pink tutu, pink tights, pink hair bow

Jo will be sugary cute X3

Jack ordered some membrane for the garden so I feel we are slowly making progress. It needs the rockery sorting next so we can start planting plants. Mum said she would plant things whilst we are at school which is nice of her.

We sat with Ozwald too who demanded treats then had a long wash. I cant believe he is shedding twice. His whole coat is being shedded for the second time this summer T^T it never ends.

I think I will do some drawing then go enjoy my bath pampering session then sit with Oz then watch anime with Jack before bed and get an early night

tomorrow

is my first day of school for this academic year

I will be starting my own academic year. As I will start my biology GCSE this week!

I dont wanna go back in a way cus its work and I have a taste for freedom. But its also finding the energy for work, looking well for people, talking to people, thinking about science constantly. Yeah its all very draining. I am hoping it will go ok tomorrow. I have pulled pork to put on in the morning as well. Dropping Oz off mum's for bunny daycare and I am sure he will come back shattered XD Just as I am sure I will be shattered

I hope I sleep again tonight I will sleep on top of covers again

Last Covid Jab

 Evening

We went to bed at like 10pm and Jack fell asleep pretty fast

I couldnt sleep tho. Despite not having a sleep in the day and doing an hour of exercise I just could not sleep so I got up, pain killers, etc til 1am

I slept pretty ok from there but I keep having to sleep in my dressing gown and on top of the covers I just find the bed too hard. Theres nothing wrong with that bed its just when my pain is having a flare up. I did this at mums on my single bed. Just happens occasions where I can't sleep in my own bed! Its sad tho as I like to be close to Jack T^T

This morning we got up for our weekly shop and picked up a cute bunny print cushion that was reduced to £6! My anxiety doesnt really exist anymore whilst shopping now its good :) taken long enough!

We got back and Jack unpacked, I brought Oz in and we had a cup of tea with him and I had some fruit loaf and Oz was just being cute

Jack helped me cut up my stuff for my soup and whilst that was cooking I cleaned the bathroom and was emailing someone on gumtree. Jack was outside with Oz gardening whilst Oz pretty much did everything he could do bother Jack XD nudging his bum, nudging his hands, sitting where he is working. Thats my Ozwald~ Likes you to know he is there

We had lunch and I told Jack I had been getting replies and then at 1:45pm we went to go meet someone in the next town to buy his wheelbarrow! Wheelbarrows new  are at least £100 we got this one - which is in great condition - for £25! So Jack feels better that we have one what with our plans for the garden :) we dropped it off home and I had a biscuit I made then we went for our second covid vaccination.

I was nervous, I had been saying all morning I was nervous and didnt want to go XD The guy who lets you over to a nurse saw how anxious I was and let Jack go with me. The nurse could tell how I was and I was taken into the same room as last time to lay down and have it done. I had 3 members of staff with me - over kill! XD I felt like such an attention seeker. I was told to count back from 20 but when the nurse touched my arm my counting went wrong I couldnt count! how embarrassing! Once jabbed Jack was taken to a seat somewhere to have his jab.

I took a bit of time to be able  to sit up. As I had worked my self up a bit. To say I was only laying down my cheeks were very warm. They got me some water and I did come round but I could tell I was dizzy and felt a bit faint. I knew I would be good for some fresh air

so we did make it to the car and Jack drove, I had the window down and came round a bit more

when we got home Jack made me a very sweet tea and gave me fruit loaf as I needed reviving!

I went straight on my bed as I was exhausted from my trauma XD Jack came to me an hour later saying we needed to do dinner. So I did dinner, we had that then I laid on my bed

Jack came to see me to see what was up and I said that my head was playing up. That I havent exercised to day, I have had fruit loaf + biscuits, how fat I will be, had ice cream twice this week. That crap you know. But he talked me through it and I felt a bit better. I did 15mins of yoga to help things too then had a really nice bath

Now just doing my diary and gonna get Oz in. Jack said he will sit with us and stuff so I have his company tonight anyway

God knows if I will sleep tho tonight ><

Tomorrow

ahhhh tomorrow....our last day of freedom.....so sad

I would like to see mum. I want to see her. I dont wanna go anywhere as I am not sure how I will feel after my jab and also its bank holidays so people will be everywhere.

I am glad I have had my jab tho. Takes 2 weeks to become fully effective. I am grateful. We are very fortunate here. And the nurses were lovely. I feel a bit better about it all now. I know I am not immune to covid but I feel better about it all 

we have garden plans!

 Evening

I went to bed, and cried

Thinking about life too much i.e. my health and I cried silently on Jack's chest. He noticed when he top was wet. So I talked about it but it wasnt anything like major but once the lid on my emotion jar is off sometimes its hard to put it back on. I bottle a lot up that jar always makes the most of being open! I couldnt sleep. Jack told me to wake him if I couldnt sleep. But I just needed to be alone to be honest. So I stayed up til 1am dosed up on pain killers. 

Woke up at 8am

Mum popped over with a delivery of her stuff she wants sewing/fixing then she left 

We went off to Tara's new house

unfortunately she wasnt in but I hadnt told her I was coming, not that she would have let us in, shes very covid-aware. But it was literally in the middle of no where. It was lovely but I couldnt live that far away from everything....her house looks lovely. I have no idea how much that must have cost her....cus its 4 bed in a lovely area. Shes outdone us anyway! I can't wait to see the inside. I left her present behind James's car. I then drove us home. Jack came along to keep me company

we came home and had a brew with Ozwald.

I then cleaned him out and then we talked gardens....I showed jack my painting from last night so he could picture it a bit more what I have in mind. Then I suggested tires as platers and showed photos of what other people have done and he was down for it all and feels happy with our plans theyre not horrendous. Yes they will need our time and effort but price wise it shouldnt cripple us! I need to run my plans past my parents as i like their input. then after that talk we had lunch

I went to bed after lunch but couldnt sleep so I got up. I wasnt tired and was just doing it to kill some of my day really. But I got up and did the sewing jobs that have been steadily mounting up but I got them all done and then I had a brew and fruit loaf by myself as Jack was gaming with friends

he came off it to my surprise and he went to do an hour of gardening and I did an hour of exercise. The video says it burns off 800 calories but I cant see me burning that much off. I had my weights attached. I am gaining muscles on the underneath part of my arm now! Jo is hench XD

I had a shower cus I was dripping my clothes were soaked. Jack had a shower then we did dinner which was good. I sat and did some more diamond painting then went out to Ozwald and watered some plants. Now doing diary and gonna get him in.

Tomorrow

food shop, clean bathroom and make soup then at 3:15pm we have our 2nd/last covid vaccination T^T

Trying to plan a garden

 Evening

We were in bed for 10pm last night and by 11:10 I was waking Jack up to say I couldnt sleep. He told me if I couldnt sleep to wake him otherwise he would be cross. I tried to wake him gently but had no luck that guy sleeps like the dead. But as I got out of bed he woke so he got up with me for a bit and I took yet more drugs....so sick of drugs lately. But I wonder if the massage had caught up with me. It felt like I was laying on concrete....

I eventually slept and woke up at 8am I got Oz up who had food dust all over his nose, his dish was almost empty. Someone has clearly already had breakfast XD

This morning I had another good headache but I wanted to make the most of the holiday, so we went for another 90min walk round some woods it was nice just hard work and I needed my inhaler several times. We got back and had lunch then I practically ran to bed and told Jack not to wake me. Mum was gonna come help Jack with the gardening.

I was woken....by my mum coming round the bedroom door with my stitch plushie I have had 16 years she said she is finally able to let him come over. She always relates that plush to me and to see it off my bed was gonna be hard for her she says. So I was woken with plush so no volcanoes went off or earthquakes. Jack didnt dare wake me XD

I sat with mum and had a brew and then we all went outside with Oz and gardened apart from me. Jo is banned. Oz does more gardening than me! How shameful is that! Im just there for company.....

we came in and had a brew and I had fruit loaf too~ mum went at 5pm and then we had baths and had dinner. Jack pretty much had to dash off for gaming. 

So I have been by myself

I decided that I would bite the bullet and look at gardens and such T^T its such a chore as I am so limited so what we can actually have as we need to be able to do it, afford it, buy it, lay it, etc 

not an easy task but I found some ideas and I even painted a sketch of what the garden could look like. As mum and Jack have been asking for a sketch. I just feel deflated by it all as I cant help with anything!! I only get to 'garden' by putting plants in and pruning them T^T 

I then ordered some skin care, looked at dances as I want to learn a hard dance for my 30th birthday. I want a challenge.

Then I had Oz in, and I gave him a good grooming, he had treats but kept nudging me for more >.> he is so greedy but he is finally starting to look thinner and I think its cus hes been outside so much with Jack gardening.

Now I am just waiting around for Jack to finish gaming. I might email my cousin back whilst I am waiting.

Tomorrow

mum is dropping off her work trousers she wants repairing and I need to drop Tara's present off and clean Oz out. Jack wants to clear all the weeds from the garden.

I almost dont feel like taking my medication tonight as literally what does it do? I end up needing more at like midnight >.> I hope I sleep I am so god damn tired.

mum sent me this a while ago of truffs trying to escape the carrying case. mum had left her 5seconds and saw that so got her phone out for a cute photo. Shes so feral and ADHD I love her

Tillie Truffle 2nd birthday + new mircrowave

Konbanwa~~

I went to bed at like 9pm last night X3 I was tired and Jack was gaming so why not!

My headache was pulsing against the pillow tho >.>

I was woken at 12:45am by Jack coming to bed, he was quiet but I am a light sleeper

I got up for a wee then slept til like 8am 

woke up to the sound of the grass cutters on the school field behind my house >.> it eventually woke Jack up much to my surprise!

I woke up to photos of the girls on my phone from mum which was sweet

as today after all is their 2nd birthday!!!!

Mum as you can tell made a fuss of them today and did some baking in their honour X3

This morning we went out to the shops and got ice cream and my god, biscoff flavour tasted and had the same texture (apart from being cold) as freshly made cookie dough!!! I needed more! We walked through the park back to the car and I needed my inhaler 3 times on that walk....my lungs were burning. I need to accept the fact that Jo is, indeed, asthmatic. I have said I need to carry an inhaler on the times I dont have Jack with me - he always carries one as that is the type of person Jack is. I saw some plants I liked at Wilkos - £4 for £6!! Bargain so we picked them up and had to carry them all the way to the car which wasnt easy

we drove to the next town for my bank

I paid off my £1000+ dept I had to Jack >< he was ok about it but I wasnt. I do not like being in dept but I just have no way of paying him unless I physically go into a bank which is a chore! So the woman there gave me the usual "do you not have the banking app?" "do you not have internet banking?" the same questions I get asked EVERY SINGLE TIME I go in there >.> and even Jack is getting annoyed by me not being in the 21st century. So there and then I set some stuff up >< Jack has helped me with it at home :) 

We came home for lunch which is obviously my fish soup which I had to heat up on the hob like a loser as god I miss my microwave T^T I went to bed as I hurt from my massage and headache

when I got up I sorted some stuff out in my new drawers finally!

At 4pm I went to mum's for a cup of tea, a birthday cup cake and of course a hold of the birthday girls! Who mum made me cut their claws, poor girls. Molly squeaked on EVERY claw.....but nice to see them. Truffs looking lovely with her short fur. Tillie constantly talking over me. Love them I hope they have many more happy healthy years with us

I heated my leftovers for dinner in mum's microwave XD Jack had oven pizza and txt me when it was almost done so I knew when to do my dinner and come home. Perfect sync~

We sat down watching the last fullmetal alchemist which was good actually. I approved of the ending. Think we are watching "what we do in the shadows" next to refresh us before the new season starts next month!

Then after dinner we headed off to currys to go fetch our new microwave!!! My god it looks so much more modern....I left it to Jack to sort whilst I had a bath as he is more than capable. My god I have missed my microwave and I am yet to use this one. But will after this diary~~

I am gonna get Oz out and then sit with Jack and watch Noragami when Oz has gone home~

Tomorrow

not 100% sure whats happening yet, but I am pretty sure gardening is happening XD 

broken microwave :'(

 Evening

So once again I did not sleep -_____- life is cruel

Jack fell asleep rapid and it was like 11pm and I knew I couldnt sleep and stayed up in the living room til 1am I had taken god knows how many tablets. I went to bed with my headache still pounding on the pillow and Jack still snoring but I somehow got to sleep

I woke up at 5am for a huge wee, went to bed then it 9:15am when i got up ><

I had a real bad headache like every noise in the house was amplified 

Told Jack I didnt want to go anywhere today that massage was enough

I had a lazy morning as I felt like death, but did some digital drawing

We had lunch and just as we had finished lunch mum came over and brought the girls who enjoyed the long grass and Oz enjoyed their company

I went for a massage, leaving mum and Jack to garden....i felt really bad doing that but they were fine

they just got on with the garden and Jack managed to get out like 8 stumps....he said he sweated loads and mum did some weeding

I on the other hand really enjoyed my massage nice being out of pain for that hour! Booked to go back during October half term~

I came home and made them both a cup of tea and I had tea with fruit loaf~

I made biscuits once mum had left and then had a very warm bath, not to make me dizzy but did make me pink~ I cut Jack's hair afterwards and he had the bath

We had dinner which was Thai stew, I havent made it in a while and I feel like I have perfected it, it tasted so good even Jack thought it was good and its his least favourite meal I make in the slow cooker. It was just so good!

I went to use the microwave and it sounded like it was powered by a tractor. I pressed stop and the fan came on, which is what it does when the microwave is HOT it had only been on 2 seconds, why did the fan come on? Me and Jack condemned it. I mean its heavily used and always has been heavily used for its 10+ years of life. Its done so well! We unplugged it. Jack has ordered another which we can pick up on friday so I have a couple of days without my microwave T^T

Jack is gonna game tonight and probably game til midnight or something. Means I can go to bed whenever I feel like it as I am so damn tired. I havent done any exercise today but I damn feel like I have after that massage! So I will do some drawing, have Oz inside and then go to bed~

Tomorrow I hope I am not too rough after my massage

think we are going out for ice cream, doing a walk and going to the bank as Jack sorted out finances today and I owe him like £1200....

I hope I can do everything I want to tomorrow. And that I freakin sleep.....

Big ass root and I slept

 Evening

I went to bed with a pounding headache, could feel my pulse on the pillow. Despite the sheer amount of drugs I took before bed ^^;

I slept

like all the way through the night, without waking for probably the first time in weeks! My god the difference when I wake up! I actually dont feel exhausted! I had a good 9 hours sleep and woke up at 7am with the same pounding headache I went to bed with...we both got and got ready to go to school. Sooner we got off the sooner we could leave school!

So we arrived at school at 8:50am we did 2 hours

I got there and didnt know how to organise myself and didnt have any structure and Jack went off to printing so I went up to art and got a couple of supplies and started doing some water colouring whilst i waited for Jack. He sorted me out tho, got me cutting up paper things and sorting a few bits out. I rang occupational health, we talked to Chris and did some computer work as well. Then left. It was a busy 2 hours but it was good to go in and do that. I am sure it will help with my anxiety next tuesday

We got home and brought Oz inside for some fuss, we had a cup of tea and snack with him. Monged out on instagram til lunch then after lunch I went to bed as my muscles were aching from my work out yesterday, I had a headache, stomach ache. Basically I wouldnt have minded being in coma at that point Id had enough!!!

When I woke up 2 hours later....I found Jack outside still gardening so I called him in for a cup of tea and I sat with that and fruit loaf then I did dusted the living room, bedroom, craft room and spare room after all that I went to cook a load of chicken and do the dinner

after dinner Jack came for a short walk with me, I had still got my headache so I felt I couldnt do the exercise I would have done :/ so just did a short walk

then had a shower and apilated and lazered~

Now I will do some digital drawing as I have been saying it for days now and still havent done any!!!

Tomorrow

not 100% sure what we are doing in the morning we are gonna see how we feel as we might go for ice cream somewhere. But at 1:30pm I have a massage :D

I need a massage after digging up roots last week XD heres one and the hole i had to dig for it

pumpkin candles and going work tomorrow

 Konbanwa~~~

Could I sleep last night? could I bob

I was up til 3am

I tried but my head was busy then of course I am aching so I got up for pain killers and they worked for what like 30mins? then back to aching so I got AGAIN and this time Jack woke up and I told him I was getting up for the second time but I am ok and I walked off thinking he would go back to sleep but he got up with me and we had a nice cup of tea and I took yet more pain killers. My stomach was rotting at this point but I fell asleep

Woke up at 9am feeling like hungover. I had a headache and didnt feel able to drive

Mum picked me up at 10am and we went to TK MAXX I got a couple of candles with pumpkins on and pimpkin spice flavour so I am gonna save them for october, I light candles every night as I find it soothing. Mum lights them a lot and I used to always hope she would light them when i lived at home so I guess having candles lit in the evening reminds me of home. I got a metal pumpkin  to put hot pans on and I got a cool long tie die hoodie with cherries in the centre ^^

we went back to mums for a cup of tea and the lunch then before I left I offered to cut truffs's fur and so we sat up the garden doing that and then mum said she would bath them too. So she had clean sows. I helped with that and got a txt from Jack wondering where I was and if I was ok bless him. He knows what time I have my afternoon nap and I was very late for it!

I came home and went to bed then got up and had fruit loaf and tea with him then I did some exercise for 30mins with my weights on, I got rather sweaty so had a shower afterwards 

Then I did the dinner which was noodles and it was goooooood Jack enjoyed it too~

then I went to finish tara's birthday card, sat out with jack and Oz whilst they gardened together, they had done some gardening this morning too whilst I went out with mum

then came in with Ozwald and Jack has joined us now after his shower

tomorrow

ugh tomorrow

going work, for no other reason than to help my anxiety for when I do have to go back next tuesday....so its just me and Jack for a couple of hours then we are coming home for lunch

not sure what I will do rest of the day really

want to be able to sleep tonight but just realised I never actually took my 4pm pain killers....

Sore face

 Evening

I couldnt sleep again last night I had to get up for pain killers. My mind was busy and I had stomach ache so I stayed up til 12:30 and came to bed. I slept through til 8am

We got up and and did our usual sunday shop

came home and unpacked, did laundry and had a brew 

Jack helped me with my soup god it made 9 portions I have never seen that soup pot so full....I couldnt fit everything in as the liquid was starting to come over XD 

I cleaned the bathroom also

Jack put the handles on my drawers and put them in place for me! finally I can have my craft room back! put when we pulled back the dust sheets it revealed that some paint had bled through and on to the carpet....our new expensive carpet.....

I started sweating and felt sick

Jack told me not to worry

I did have some Vanish carpet cleaned so sprayed it to death and had lunch

after lunch I went to assess and clean the carpet. Luckily out of all the colours used it was the least offensive as it was a light cream not the red or dark pink luckily! I started scrubbing and it did in fact come off! Much to my relief. My god we were lucky there

I went to lay on my bed for a bit and by a bit it ended up being 2 hour as I just felt exhausted and didnt really want to do anything - again

I did get up and Jack motivated me into going for a walk, which I was glad about in a way as I needed air, needed  to some exercise. So a good walk was welcomed

I had a shower when I came home as I have not stopped sweating all day and felt quite gross. Jack said I looked gross too XD

I was happy tho as I found some derma barrier cream in my skin care stocks. As I dont think I reported this on my diary but last week or so I started using a retinol cream for my face. I am not new to retinol or new to that brand. It smelt quite strong of chemical or alcohol I couldnt decide. But used it for a good week. And I had a big break out, dry patches and my skin was just in a bad way. Couldnt work out what I had done wrong then I worked out - I used that cream I hadnt tried before. 

Clearly doesnt agree with my skin. I have binned it. Usually I give products a second chance but this has really hurt my skin and I actually dont fancy using it again. So I have been trying rehydrate and heal my skin and it is a slow process. But finding this barrier cream today will give everything a massive boost.

The cream that wasnt good was Glamfox retinol + collagen 

my saviour is Skin+lab derma barrier cream

I use other products too but yeah

not good and probably wont use anything else by glamfox. I had tried one their products before and that was ok, nothing special. But staying away now.

You know your skin is bad when people feel the need to point it out >.> 

I made some biscuits and did the dinner

it kept raining on and off and we checked on Oz to make sure he wasnt just sitting in it and he was in his cage. Later when it rained for the 3rd time I thought I would go see where he was. In his cage. But wet? so when has he been out!? we've been sat in front of the patio we would have seen him! hes such a pudding hes probably been sat in a ball by the side of the house or something. Hes soaked anyway so I have brought him in to dry off. Hes in early but thats fine. I can do my own stuff later on.

I was gonna do tara a birthday card. I was gonna draw 30 bunnies as its her 30th

challenge!

Might be able to start it we shall see

tomorrow

mum has the day off so has asked to see me but we havent decided on what to do yet. I hope I sleep tonight tho.

Just a bit flat

 Evening

Despite Jack staying up late to game I did sleep but I was also drugged up~

I kinda sensed him coming to bed at midnight but not fully waking

I did wake up later for a wee but fell asleep again ^^

I got up at 8am

Jack helped me wash my hair before my hair cut

I went to have my hair cut and had a good inch cut off my hair and my fringe thinned out

So I felt better for a good trim, but just being 'social' in those 20mins was an ask for me

I got to mum's and put my happy face on for her

I stayed there 90 mins and had a brew and didnt have to do anything with the guineas! mum said they were happy eating their morning salad XD

I came home for lunch and brought back a package from mum's Jacks new jeans had arrived. Both brand new and including P&P cost me £10.19 well the tags on the jeans said £35 each!!! he tried them on and said they we comfy ^^ and they look good too~

We had lunch and then I went to clean Oz out, then I went to bed, I got up for fruit loaf and went to lay on my bed I just felt flat, I didnt want to do anything or talk to anyone I just wanted to be alone and not think

Jack found me at 4pm and made me a brew and brought Oz in for me

it did cheer me up a bit but I said I couldnt be arsed with anything or to make dinner

but somehow I picked myself up, did 20mins of yoga with Oz then had a shower and did dinner which was nice actually. I wanted to eat dinner in my pyjamas 

I managed to varnish my drawers so theyre done once theyre dry~

Then I went to do some art but was really wasnt feeling it so I found the diamond painting tara got me for my birthday and started doing more of that in the living room, Jack played beside on his switch hooked to the TV playing pokemon unite with Theo

Now I am gonna get Oz in as I think theyre finishing up soon anyway and its  going dark

I just havent felt myself all day. No spark in Jo today

but it might be back tomorrow. I hope. Hate days like these

tomorrow

food shop in the morning, bathroom to clean and art to hopefully do

absolutely spoiled from Japan

 Evening~

I went to bed with Jack at 11pm after watching the last episode of Inuyasha Final Act!!

I was happy with the ending actually. Felt the end of an era for me as I watched Inuyasha as a teenager now its done. But I know there is Yashahime to watch yet. I shall wait for it to come out on dvd

But I could not sleep, my mind was racing, luckily it was not food thoughts it was just a busy mind really so at midnight I got up for an hour and had pain killers etc and then I fell asleep for the night

Jack was up before me tho this morning

I suggested we go for a walk as my mum said she could come garden in the afternoon, she was baking this morning. So we walked for 1 hour 45 mins.....woah

I was dead....my muscles hurt from my exercises yesterday so I was glad I had got my exercise done for the day but walking that much with sore muscles was kinda hard but it was nice we havent done that walk in a long while. We came in and it was lunch time really

the door went and a big parcel came for me so that was very well timed, literally only a minute after got in. It was addressed to me from Miho in Japan!! she said it could be up to 3 weeks and it was only like a week!

I ate lunch and waited for mum to come, mum and Jack went outside to garden. I died on my bed I felt lazy doing so but I knew realistically I was of no help to anyone in my state.....

When I got up I made a tea for all 3 of us and tried some of the baked goods mum brought over but I didnt like them as she had used the rhubarb from my garden. I dont like rhubarb but wondered if it was one of those baked goods you cant taste the fruit in. wrong. one bite which I had to spit out. taste and texture was gross. I apologised to mum. the baked goods were intended for Jack but I wanted to try ><

I opened up my parcel and OH MY GOD she has sent me loads!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! over 20 items. I was shocked. It was like christmas. It never ended and all japanese and cute. I had been spoiled I was so happy!!! Her husband has sent Jack a little toy katana and Miho has made me a Molcar which I was secretly hoping for but I didnt want to pressure her into making me one but she had! mum leapt out her seat, took the molcar and loved it. She loves it little face and cheeks. I never saw it again. Mum has taken it home and put it on her guinea pig shrine apparently XD Im not surprised but it makes her happy, I can see it and know its safe. I have no clue where I am going to put the rest tho! like jesus there is a lot of stuff!!! I am so grateful. I am currently still trying to gather stuff to send to her. I plan on packing up the same box her stuff came in. I will fill that box! Its her 30th in November so as long as I have sent it by then I am good~

I rested for a bit then made my biscuits, did the dinner. After dinner I had a bath then I varnished my drawers, but the draw cases which are finished under my desk ready to receive each draw! Then I got Oz in and tried to sort through some of the stuff! he was very nosy checking it all out. I have put about half away I will do the rest another time

Im gonna look at garden ideas and then watch anime with Jack, as we have finished Inuyasha we are going to start Noragami! Need something with a bit of comedy in it. watching too many serious animes lately! 

then Jack will continue to game through the evening, I said he could. He decided against going out with the IT department today. he said he wasnt really in the mood. 

Tomorrow

got my hair cut at 10am, thank god as my fringe is so long and heavy! part of me is tempted to get the hair lobbed off and have a bob as I still cant tie it up due to pain but then I think "ive grown all this its taken me years" plus my friends will probably get married next year so I feel id want nice long hair for that.

then I will pop into mums for a cup of tea and then come home and varnish my drawers again, clean Oz out, do some drawing. Got stuff to do. Didnt get any drawing today anyway! Oz and his none stop gardening~

Hisuian Growlithe

 Evening~~~

I actually slept well last night, did get up for a wee at 1:30am but actually drifted back off to sleep! I got up before Jack and got Oz up too ^^

We had breakfast then Jack went outside to garden with Oz who is so damn cute, he thinks hes helping by chewing the weeds where Jack is working and stepping where he's working, nudging him as well. Its very sweet and I know Jack enjoys the company

I worked on my Hisuian Growlithe picture which I did get done, pokemon pics dont take long and I just whipped this one up. I did him as a shiny X3

Its ok gave me something different to draw for a change

Mum came over for a brew about 11:15am and stayed til midday

we had lunch then I went to lay on my bed for an hour 

I got up and varnished my drawers and did bits online, did a 45min 3mile 600+ calorie workout then got Ozwald in and had a brew with Jack and Oz then I had a bath 

we went to Harvey's for takeaway

the guys had burgers and fries, then ordered waffle for after. I had the free ice cream that comes with Jack's waffle ^^ he lets me take some of his waffle's toppings and put it in the ice cream and I love it as its just enough to keep me happy and not upset my stomach and hopefully my mind

I did a big work out in hopes that my mind wont be too mental on the ice cream front

I told Theo where I am starting to get muscle definition on my legs he said that part is my quads! so thats what it is called. He says I am doing well and other legs muscles will develop once the quads are more defined :3 Jo will be hench! XD I actually dont want to be muscly I want to be lean~

The guys did a lot of talk about warhammer which bored the pants off me but theyre wanting to start their own game together but god knows when they will actually start it. So they were character building and yeah it was boring. But apart from that I enjoyed it

we even left at 9pm which I was glad of as I was aching and wanted my pain killers and Ozwald

so now we are inside with the chunk 

we will watch anime after we have put Oz to bed

I want to watch the final episode of Inuyasha final act without interruptions! 

tomorrow

unsure what I am doing as of yet, need to speak to Jack about what he wants to do

he gardened this morning then had the rest of the day off as his body is aching and I am not bloody surprised! 

I can always work on something

I hope I sleep well again tonight :3

and today was another negative covid test~

another negative test and new growlithe

 Evening

I managed to get off to sleep ok~

woke up at 1:30am for a wee and I felt like I had been ran over, I hurt massively so I had to get up for pain killers and wait for them to kick in so I was up for an hour then I climbed into bed in my dressing gown. Woke up at 8:45am to an empty bed, and empty house....Jack?

He was outside gardening....I said morning and youve not even had morning coffee, turns out he had had coffee and breakfast and I had slept through it. Thats the thing if I have drugs in the night I get knocked out, the house could be on fire I wouldnt know. So he was just cracking on with gardening with Oz 

I felt rough as, so I said I didnt want to go out and it was cloudy and Jack just wanted to garden. So we didnt go out today we just stayed home. I spent my morning doing chores and putting my chinese hot pot on which i havent done before but wanted to test myself to make chinese food. I dont really like chinese food but wanted to try making it. 

I made lunch for Jack and I kept going out to him and Ozwald

we had lunch and I went to bed after taking a different pain killer which usually works but makes me zombie like. But I had had enough so I took it. I slept for an hour and woke up to the sound of my mums voice shouting oz outside as she had arrived with the girls. She had come to do some gardening with Jack so those two were outside gardening. Kills me that I cant help but I have been banned from helping as it is doing to much damage and pain to me

so I was just in my craft room varnishing my drawers.

we had a brew and mum left us, we had dinner which was actually a success! I had made a very chinese tasting hot pot! I didnt like it but Jack did. It will feed us on friday

I txt harvey and told him about our covid scare and how each test we've done has been negative and can we still go over for takeaway tomorrow as I want ice cream damn it, I said we could eat outside and hes fine about us going over. Cus jack was worrying that we shouldnt or harvey wouldnt want us over so i just thought to get it over with and actually explain and ask. SO yeh tomorrow is ice cream for Jo~

We had a bath then Jack went to game by himself, friends asked him to play but he just wanted to be alone which I found a bit odd as he usually prefers to play with others.

as for me I have been drawing the Hisui Growlithe as we watched the pokemon game announcement today together, we didnt watch it live as we did forget! but we watched it and I decided I wanted to do some art work for it! I hope it turns out ok

tomorrow

Jack has said he is gardening in the morning, then hes playing with a friend online in the afternoon as its rare for them to game then we are going over to Harvey's in the evening for takeaway ^^

I will probably be varnishing and drawing T^T

I just want a decent night's sleep!!!!!!!!!!!! might go do some yoga now as I havent done any exercise and feel a right slob I dont want my head telling me how fat and lazy I am at midnight

Covid Scare

 Evening

Last night we had a phone call from Jack's mum at 8pm, informing us that we hadn't got to go over to look after the cat and rabbit for the next 3 days as they were no longer going away. They were no longer going away as Jack's sister has just done a test and shes positive for covid.....the same sister I shared a sofa with just hours previously....great >.> I mean she seemed totally fine, she cleared her thought once but she was fine. She had just been informed by a friend of hers that she had covid so she did a test to see if she too was positive and she was. But I felt bad for Jack's youngest sister as it was her birthday and had 3 friends over, I hope nothing was passed on. Not only that but the day before the family had been down to birmingham to see Jack's nan.....shes vaccinated but still, I bet it was on Jack's mum mind.

So I rang my mum explaining I had been sat a metre away from Jack's sister but both me and Jack had sat next to the window which was open and not actually in personal contact with any family member. Personally I think we're ok. But Jack says to test ourselves for the next few days which is fine I am on board with doing that. Mum says not worry she isnt too bothered XD  I am sure we are ok but that has been the closest we've knowingly been to covid! 

Could not sleep last night. When we got into bed I noticed there was a massive black spider on the ceiling so Jack got out of bed and went to get the hover, whilst doing so the spider started dangling above me T^T I shouted for Jack to hurry and he did get it in time XD

I ached so so bad. It was painful everywhere. It feels like growing pains combined with aches from not working to doing an assault course in one day. EVERYTHING HURT

So I got up for pain killers and a cookie and just chilled out for a bit til 1am and slept on top on the bed in my dressing gown, woke up in the night as my legs were cold and I climbed into bed in the dressing gown, truly a Jo burrito XD

We both woke up at like 9am and I felt like road kill, was rather happy I hadnt got to go over to Jack's family's house. I did some drawing this morning managed to crack on and get the outline and eyes done :) its looking cute~

Jack spent the morning outside with Oz gardening, I kept going out to check on them but I couldnt face gardening, I really wanted to and I hated my body more for not allowing me to do what I wanted. But I kept going out and I made Jack lunch too which he was grateful of

we had lunch and I practically ran to  bed, as I was so damn tired and in pain

we did a covid test before lunch and all was well~

Jack woke me when I asked him to - our usual routine XD I went and did some more drawing and stuff online

Jack was gaming with Theo, mum came over at 4pm and we had a brew and I showed her the garden she was very impressed with how  much we have done. I told her I dont think we are ready for plants yet and she agreed, I think we have got to change the garden round a bit first before we start putting plants in.

I did dinner and then after dinner Jack went to do some more gardening bless him, I kept him company for a bit then did 40min of exercise which was mainly weights and strength work but it still made  my body scream in protest with aches and such. So I poured a hot bath that I ended up needing help getting out of as I was shaky and dizzy and rather pink! took me a while to recover from that, Jack had the bath after me put poured cold water in it XD

Now we are just inside with Oz who is tired from all the gardening as he is always there helping us 

tomorrow not sure what sure what we are doing, we may go out for the day or just stay home and garden etc. Depends on weather and on how achy we are! Mum says she will call round at some point

crippled but got another tree up XD

 Evening

So last night I was feeling vulnerable to my thoughts, Jack was gaming and I didnt want to bother him again so I went outside to Oz and I rang my mum for half hour whilst fussing Ozwald outside. It was good to talk to her, held back the tears a few times. Just very fragile yeseterday

I stayed out a further 15mins with Oz, I couldnt have him in as he had been playing where we had been digging up the earth therefor he had paws caked with mud, there was no way I was bringing him in! 

So I put him home with his treat, came inside and literally 5mins later tears flowed steadily down my face. I didnt want to be alone so I went to get Jack who immediately left his game with Harvey and Theo when he saw I was upset. He cuddled me on the sofa and we sat watching Inuyasha with hot chocolate

I was ok but got to bed and tears flowed again. Honestly poor Jack had a wet shirt by the end of it!

I was laying there worrying about the night, thinking id just take more pain killers - not normally an issue I just blank my feelings and get on with it, whereas last night I was hating the fact I was on medication, needing medication, hating my life etc

He cuddled me and we kinda drifted off to sleep like that

I woke up at 1am for a wee but slept from there

We had an easy morning and set off at 9:30am to Jack's mum's for his sisters birthday

I drove, got stressed due to road closers so therefor I had no idea where the hell I was going!!! But we got there and I was aching like mad. I ache big style from pulling that tree up yesterday T^T

We stayed for almost 3 hours, we had tea and cake and his sister really liked the card I did for her and her present of korean snacks - which was my idea ^^

We came home for lunch then I went to lay down for an hour as I felt like crying I was in that much pain. When I woke up I went outside to help Jack. we have cleared more land. I went to the centre of our garden where there is a tree stump long long dead and some plants and a hella lot of weeds. I got the tree stump up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it took minutes as well much to my surprise as I thought it would have mega roots. It is dead but has the circumference of a dinner plate so I was pleased with that. Jack told me to stop at this point

I am now struggling to bend up and down and my muscles and joints hurt. I have truly overdone it ^^; I should leave these things alone but I want to help Jack and I want to do the garden ><

We came in and I ran a very hot bath, felt dizzy XD but it was good and then I sat with the massager and did some what revive me. 

I did the dinner which was a slightly different pasta dish.

Then I had a quick 10mins on the bed, got up and did some more on my digital drawing

getting there.

I wanted to varnish my drawers but its still wet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ugh

Tomorrow

for the next 3 days we have got to go to Jack's mum's to go let the rabbits out and feed the cat whilst theyre away so that will be a bit of chore but we've tried to think of things to do

so tomorrow we were gonna go for a 7mile walk round Jack's mum's but its not a good forecast so that may be wednesday and tomorrow we just do the shops round his mum's. We shall see.

stupid thing to do

 Evening

So last night Jack went out, I had my Ozwald in for a good hour then I pretty much went to bed as I had a bad headache, tired and nothing to stay up for really so was in bed for 9:50pm~

I woke up to the sound of Jack coming in which was 2:45am....wow Jack XD I listened for about 5mins to make sure he was ok then fell asleep til 7:30am and needed a wee so I got up. Jack was awake! So I made him his hangover breakfast of marinated bacon with melted cheese on top in bread~ and a coffee, actimel and chocolate covered coffee beans. He was sated. 

He said he hadnt drink that much and didnt feel too bad

I drove us to the supermarket, we got two streets away from the house and I was driving along when a car was doing a turn and decided to pull out onto my road without looking. I got hit....I felt sick. I heard the noise and I thought "my dad is gonna kill me" me and the 17 year old looking driver got out and we assessed damage. My car had received no damage....like nothing had happened. No painted work missing or dent. My heart was hammering and the driver apologised and asked if I was ok. I looked at his car and there was a huge scuff on his car, how did mine receive nothing? I said "its fine" Jack and I both got in the car and drove off. He asked if I was ok. I said my stomach has just flipped, I needed to get away and pretend none of that happened. I didnt think that driver was gonna stop to look tho so I was already swirving into the other side of the road and good job I did as it would have been miles worse. Not sure if I am gonna tell any family members yet tho just one of those stupid things to happen

but going round the supermarket I felt he was more hungover than he was letting on. His stomach was off which is a sign that Jack's body hasnt appreciated the alcohol. So I had my suspicions. He later said "thinking about it, think I had 10 drinks".....yeah that sounds right. Not that Im bothered what or how much he drinks. I let him get on with it. As long as hes safe and having a nice time :)

by 12pm I had done food shop for the week, made biscuits, cleaned the bathroom, made soup for the week my god what a total pro. I got loads done and my soup is better this week too~ I went to bed for an hour after lunch

when I got up Jack was gaming with harvey and theo

I went to go varnish my drawers but realised some of it is still wet!!!!!!!!!!!!  How can it be wet days later. But I did throw a fair bit of paint at it XD

So as I couldnt do that I thought I would go out and do some gardening. I started doing some weeding then saw the tree stump that Jack said wasn't gonna budge or come out

challenge accepted

i spent about 45mins getting that out

I had sweat dripping on the floor from my face

I dug a deep hole and got the tree stump loose and the last root I had to saw off as it goes under our neighbours fence so I didnt want to cause damage. I was so satisfied getting this tree out that I went to get Jack and he was impressed but also concerned. Not sure why he was concerned.

an hour later I felt like I had been hit by a car. I thought

"what have I done?"

"why did I have dig like mad for an hour!?"

"I cant exercise as I feel like death"

"I am fat and cant exercise"

"I wont be able to sleep tonight cus of aches and thoughts"

I started to get worked up....Jack was still gaming and I hugged his legs and hid my tears but I think he knew something was up as I tend to leave him when gaming but I just needed to not be alone with my thoughts. He came straight off his game without even seeing my tears

we went on the sofa and he made everything ok. Told me to go get a warm bath and sit with the massager and just do nothing. That I had done enough exercise today just by digging. So I did feel better, got a bath, sat with massager and I did chill out.

did dinner, had Ozwald in and now just doing my diary. Got to do some digital drawing.

I hope I sleep tonight, my god do I hope I sleep

tomorrow

we are popping over to Jack's mum's in the morning as its his youngest sisters birthday she will be 16 and I said it would be nice to go see her. Then we will come home for lunch and just do whatever. We've said Im not doing any more digging or weeding, only planting and pruning ^^;

Jo is bridesmaid, and Jack's club foot

 Evening

I slept much better, took a sleeping tablet and made Jack wear more than his boxers to bed so he wouldnt be constantly trying to get his temperature right with the duvet >.> so yeah I did sleep a hella lot better!

I woke up at 6am needing a wee but thought "forget it" so when I woke up at 7:45am man did I hafta go!

I went for a walk with Mia at 9:30am which was nice as I havent seen her since her engagement! and the whole 90min walk was about marriage....which was tiring after a bit but I had foreseen such a thing would happen so knew to expect it

I came back exhausted and in need of tea and a biscuit

I sat round and rested for a bit then we had lunch then I dived into bed

Didnt do a great deal when i was up, I cleaned Oz out and did some more digital drawing

Then I had tea and fruit loaf with Jack, but I thought he would need to get over to Harvey's cus of the night out and despite Jack asking on 3 occasions this week "when shall I come over" Harvey didnt know but at 4:45pm he text saying "is 8pm ok?" so I didnt need to have had a bath at 4pm and got dinner ready early..men honestly. cant they organise anything!? and none of them know where theyre going tonight! Its harvey's birthday so I hope he gets first pick.

we had dinner then I went over to my parents house cus if I waited til after I had dropped Jack off (original plan) there would be no time so I did it in reverse order

it was good to see mum and my brother. My dad can never say anything nice or he just sits there monging out. I have no idea why he even sits round us. 

I came back to take Jack to Harveys, he drove and we parked up in a carpark near Harveys as its easy place to swap over drivers. I noticed once Jack had gone he had left his wallet in the door.....so I then drove to Harveys and Jack was about 3 metres away from harveys house. I pipped my horn and did my window and passed his wallet. He didnt even realise he hadnt got it. I said "you ow me, massively" 

he is more trouble than hes worth and I was sure to tell him this also then pulled away XD

I hope he has a nice night. He says hes not gonna drink too much as hes got his trapped nerve back. Did it today whilst gardening. He had it during first lock down were he can move his leg but not pick his foot up so he sounds like he has a club foot. It took about a year for the nerve to heal....so I am gutted the same thing has happened again he seems more chill about it than me. But he has fallen over already once today so he doesnt want to drink a lot and end up tripping over big style

what am I gonna do with him,

I came home and got Oz in, he helped me make Jack's nest for tonight. Jack insists on sleeping on the sofa tonight. So I have made it comfy for him.

Not sure what I will do tonight. its 8:50pm now. Cant say I am fussed about staying up. Got nothing to stay up for. Might try sleep early. got the whole bed to myself~~~

It was confirmed today that I am, indeed, Mia's bridesmaid 

along with her older sister and cousin

Jo is bridesmaid..............massively honoured and anxious XD 

did some gardening, the start of my picture

 Evening

So last night, I could not sleep

I mean I had slept for a while during the day but I did push myself to work out, took extra pain killers before bed. Couldnt sleep as I ached, I was also having 'fat' thoughts. And also.....Jack.....wished for his death during the night. He was just tossing over like every 10mins and snoring, chewing on his teeth and just generally breathing. I was getting so annoyed by it all. I tried coming to bed twice but just wanted to murder him or overdose. 3rd time I went to bed at 2:45am and slept

I had had a biscuit, 2 slices of fruit loaf. I was hungry man. But felt greedy for eating but it had been 7 hours since I last ate anything

Woke up at 8:45am and got up as I knew mum wanted to drop off her heart monitor thing. Did not want to get up and was shocked to see Jack STILL asleep! I left him before I smothered him with a pillow XD

I went with mum around 10am to drop off her heart monitor we were so fast~

came home and had a brew with mummy and Jack I also ate a biscuit as today I have just consumed biscuits and fruit loaf XD doesnt do the fat thoughts any good tho T^T but I gotta have some treats!

the 3 of went outside to do some gardening for a good hour. Man did I ACHE after that

we were just literally weeding. Nothing we can do to the garden or the drive til the sheer amount of weeds have gone. We are getting there. 4 bags have been filled. Like 100 litre bags. A lot of weeds...

the best thing was that mum found a caterpillar I mean I assume it was a caterpillar it was the size and width of my little finger....IT WAS HUGE and stuck to my gardening gloves like velcro, it had some sticky feet! it was black with a white tummy. Maybe it could have been a dragonfly in the making? not sure

Mum went home for lunch and we had hours then I practically ran to bed to sleep. I was shattered and aching. So had an hour in bed then got up and didnt do too much, mainly looked at art on my phone and then had a brew and fruit loaf by myself as Jack was gaming with Theo.

Then at 4pm I decided to do my work out, did an hour of grow with Jo. Sweated so damn much! it was good tho but by 40mins I had had enough just wanted it to end. I could keep going I just didnt want to. But did it. However before I started Jack came downstairs and announced he was gonna do some more weeding....I said "where's theo gone?" he said "still online" I said "wait, youve left gaming to garden?....." he said "well you're working hard I felt like I should do something"

I about fell over is shock. This never happens. He normally games til dinner. I can workout all I want and he wont do anything. So I did find this very odd Jack behaviour to say the least. He was out there the whole hour I worked out. Then I had a bath and he had it after me. We did dinner and then he went to go play dungeons and dragons. I made a start on next week's meal plans and shopping list.

now I should be digitally drawing >< I know I should. Even if I just do a bit its better than nothing I guess.

God I hope I sleep tonight tho T^T I will just launch Jack through a small window, at speed, if he keeps me awake. He says "you should wake me!" Im like "I try! and sometimes you speak so I dont know if youre actually awake or not!!"

tomorrow~

saturday~ not got anything planned

Jack is going out drinking as it is Harvey's 29th Birthday tomorrow, a fellow 92' baby~

So I will be home alone all night but thats fine

we will probably do some gardening in the day I imagine. I said I would see mum when Jack goes out. I will take him over to Harveys

this is how far I am with my first drawing for Mia....not far at all T^T