First step in my 5 year journey

 Konbanwa~~

I got Oz in, who had clean toilet but decided to pee on my carpet....why god why? I was shattered

I slept pretty well despite how I was feeling last night

just woke up cold a couple of times really

Didnt want to go school, felt too nervous about biology lesson

We dropped Oz off who was not impressed with being dropped off

We got to school and printed my booklet off for my first lesson 

and I got going with work, mum sent me photos of Oz chewing her plants.....T^T

I had my lesson which Jack told me to go to like I needed telling!

I sat by myself and yeah it was fine. A LOT TO TAKE IN

I knew nothing! our first topic is cells. I have heard of words but not knowing the meaning and today was all about parts of the cell. I wrote a lot, paid attention, didnt doodle. But god its so much to take in. I suddenly panicked thinking "this is lesson one of a 3 year course then I sit an exam based on all this! how do I remember it all!?" I felt stupid and my GCSE seems miles out of reach. But its good to learn. I might just have to learn my own way and do some art or something because someone endless talking for an hour isnt how I learn. Its too much info. I tend to learn a sentence someone says not an hour worth.

I came back to the prep room office and crawled into a ball under my desk

jack was like "it couldnt have been that bad!?" I said "i know nothing Jack! and I have so much to remember!!" He went through it all and said he will happily go through bits with me. And to be honest some stuff he said did make it sink in and explain it better so I understood it.

Luke came in and told Jack I sat very nicely XD

so thats my first step taken in my 5 year journey. 3 years for a GCSE and 2 for an A-level

I got the rest of the day done with my 2 practicals and my list of jobs.

we collected Ozwald on the way home, came home for brew and fruit loaf. I noticed tho the heads off all my sunflowers have gone....they were there this morning now theyre gone. Im guessing its headless horseman squirrel style.

we did dinner and now I am doing my diary whilst food goes down then I would like to work out. I could feel stress building today and I would like to work that stress out and sleep tonight.

so work out, bath, Oz, anime. The usual

tomorrow it is friday then thats the first week done!

should be seeing mum too tomorrow.

oh I forgot to upload it i know its random but here is space duck I did for the science department last term. He was naked and yellow then I painted him. He didnt win anything XD