literally felt every hour today

 Evening

OH MY GOD I SLEPT

like a friggin' achievement 

I felt so much better for actual sleep too

This morning I wasnt sure what to wear, so I put on my thinner tights in the hopes that it would warm up. It did not. I have been cold all day -______-

I have felt EVERY HOUR of this day

how can time go so slow!?

the day was never ending like just people wanting stuff left right and centre, like a constant conveyor belt of staff wanting crap I feel like I am forever sorting people out and their lives!!! Ugh!!! I can tell I am back. I did have a 20min lay down at lunch cus I was like dead

We have a helper in, shes an ex-student from last year doing a gap year so we have her 3 hours a week the rest shes gonna help in lesson :3 shes really nice I dont mind her. The only person I have ever met who was totally home schooled tho. I would HATE to have not gone school

At home time we picked Oz up and came home for brew and fruit loaf as I was starving!!!!!

Mum said Oz hadnt done anything all day......wish I had done nothing all day I was knackered

what I thought was gonna be an easy dinner needed more work and I needed to make more biscuits....

we had dinner and I had stomach ache for almost an hour afterwards. Life is not fair. I had been cold all day, ached, stomach ache and just, I just had no more to give so I didnt exercise as it was too late by time stomach ache passed. So I had a nice bath then went to get Oz in

WHO DECIDED TO WEE ON THE CARPET!!!

like are you trying to stressing me out further!? I felt like crying. I cleaned the carpet and took him home as he didnt deserve to stay in after that. He knows better and even had a clean toilet tonight. No excuse for what he did.

I had a biscuit and it gave me stomach ache so I have stomach ache to go to bed with

yup not happy

want to overdose and not wake up basically

trying to think positively tho as I have my first Biology lesson tomorrow! at around 10am. Bit nervous but I want to do this.

I hope I sleep tonight. Body and mind is shattered but done no exercise and got stomach ache and endless thoughts about how fat I am. So I am not holding out a lot of hope