Evening
I am currently half dressed up in my halloween costume XD
So last night I was up til 1am by myself, trying to deal with self harm thoughts, it was awful and relentless. In the end I crawled into the bed rather than on the outside of it and cuddled up to my Jack and hoped all my thoughts would go and that I would sleep soon
I did eventually fall asleep and woke up at 8:30am feeling hung over. I had taken 3 times as much pain killers I am suppose to. But I was getting desperate to just conk out. So I felt a bit rotten this morning
However I got on with my day
I cleaned Oz out and cleaned the bathroom - I have seriously had enough of cleaning this week!
Then I had a cup of tea with jack and then I dropped him off at the bus stop and I went to mum's. Jack was meeting Theo in town for a film and food. Mum was dying my hair for me. My red eyebrows dont look so out of place now my hair is red! She did a good job as always
After she had done that, I tackled a problem that I knew was approaching on 7th November....my phone contract is up! But as its in dad's name (I pay it tho) I was thinking it was gonna be a awful job to do as I would need him. As it goes, I didnt need him! I could look on my app on my phone and it said I could upgrade and picked which package I wanted. So I had 2 I liked I got my brother to look at them both but he recommended a Samsung Galaxy instead which was a pound more a month but if its gonna last me 2 years I dont mind and extra pound. My new contract is £13 a month for 2 years. My new phone will be delivered on Tuesday. Unlimited txts and calls and all that crap. I kinda pick phones on how good the camera is XD gotta get them pet pics! - thats all my phone is full of!
after that I grabbed my fabric boxes and brought them home. It had been nice to spend time with mum and I had lunch with her also.
I came home and let Oz out then flopped on my bed.
I am sick to death of being tired but its cus I havent slept properly in weeks
I rested for a bit then made myself tea and fruit loaf as Jack wasnt here to do it for me T^T
He did however come home with a very very very cute pumpkin plush I am so happy with it! and our new slow cooker! - its red :3
I did us both dinner and then I flopped on the bed, having a moan that I was tired, have a headache and got to go look well for people in the cold. Jack was like "we dont have to go!" I want to go I just wish I had the damn energy for it.
So he is just getting out the shower and I have been putting make up on. Actual make up! first time in 2 years. Only a bit of eye shadow tho XD nothing major as I dont want it on my face! But I have made some effort at least
I am going as a dead Japanese school girl! but with a 1000 layers on underneath as it is an outdoor halloween party so Im gonna freeze to death. Can already see your breath out there! its 7:45pm and we said we would aim for 8pm and stay for an hour or 2
come home and get Ozwald in and thaw out with hot chocolate
tomorrow
my last day off school
how has it come to that already TT^TT
shopping in the morning and soup to make then I have the day free~
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