a much happier, better day

 Evening

So after melt downs yesterday I decided, with Jack, that I would have another day working from home. And I think knowing that, made me sleep! I slept through the night!!

So i didnt feel like a total corpse when I woke up. Jack said I looked better and I did feel a bit better within myself but I still was not ready to face school. I put the curry stew on and took Jack to school

I came home and slept for 90 mins 

I got up and had a cup of tea and a biscuit then, as it was so sunny

I decided to go for an hour's walk, thinking it would do me some good - mentally 

on my way back I called into mum's for 20mins then she came over with me and we had lunch here then she left me. I did some jobs round the house then I sat doing some actual work! I wasnt stressing about working as I NEEDED to look after myself. I know I will do some work during the christmas holidays, so ether way - the work will get done. I was determined to rest and and see the rest of the week through

I brought Oz in but left him to loaf in the living room whilst I worked on my drawing 

I got quite a bit done anyway. Here is some of what I have done~

jack came home and we decided to have a bath before dinner then we had dinner which was thai curry stew and it was so good! Probably the best one I have made so far!!

Now Jack is just clearing up and then I think we will have the final trim of Oz's bum bless him. Take him home then watch anime then play pokemon in bed. Have an early night

tomorrow

I do plan on going to school

I want to go in and make it through the day. No tears

I want to go to my biology lesson too. 

I have 1 rat dissection lesson which Jack is sorting. I am gonna take headphones and make sure I can not hear the awful sound of their paws being nailed down to a board. Its vile. Its sick.

Its Julia's daughter's class. I can't imagine shes going to do it. Shes already worrying about it. I have no idea why we do it, so many kids hate it.

I hate it.

then I will only have half a day left!!

I do feel a bit better within myself today. more rested and happier.