I'm signed off sick again

 Evening

A lot happened.

I hit a wall

I cried out my life to Jack and mum

we have decided I need to accept I have disability that impacts my life. I need to put myself and my health first. I need to look after myself

I need to go part time

I will no longer be working full time

I can't bare to give this up but I also can't keep wrecking myself

I have spoke to the doctor and hes wrote me a sick note

Jack spent hours applying for a government job at the weekend which pays much better than his current job. He had to take online exams and everything! we hope he will at least get an interview after all that damn effort!

I saw my family whilst he was finishing his tests as its my brother's birthday so he opened his stuff and he really liked them. I went to the opticians for the first time in 5 years - convinced Id be walking out with glasses but I was my eyesight is totally fine. So it is sheer tiredness, thats why sometimes I cant read stuff. figures.

But yeah Jack is applying to jobs, I am signed off sick this week so I can recover. I want to be able to walk again normally. I need to recover my broken mind.

Mia came to see the house for the first time today ^^ she really liked it and said we have the best bathroom out of everyone she knows XD she stayed a couple of hours. I was shattered afterwards but it was good to see her finally. Mum had lunch with me, I went bed an hour and then looked at furniture online and also windows and doors.

I then got the dinner ready as I could do it all myself it was only salad.

Jack came home and was grateful of the food

we had a bath and yeah probably just watch anime and go bed

tomorrow 

id like to do some art as I was too tired today, I did a little bit yesterday but not much.

I am thinking of maybe repotting Mr.coconut plant but I shall see. I need to give him longer in that pot really. But his leaves are going brown and im trying not to panic. I have fed it tonight tho for the first time so maybe it might pick up. It wouldnt do it many favours to repot it again after only 2 weeks.

here is the plant Julia gave me, I repotted it and brought it a fancy pot

I will see mum for lunch again no doubt. Mum and Jack feel better if I have been checked up on during the day >.>