I returned to work today

 Evening

I slept well last night, Jack said he even got up for 3 wees and it didnt disturb me!

I can't tell you how sick I felt so so sick this morning. My anxiety at school was so bad that I was going dizzy and had to keep sitting down as my legs felt weak

People didnt dive on me and let me come to them kinda thing

I went to see Lizi and gave her her present which she totally loved and she was so grateful and happy so that was totally worth doing ^^

I got lessons prepped, did my return to work form with Jack and took breaks

Once my 4 hours (which I was counting) was up I left

I felt exhausted

I came home and mummy was here having spent 2 hours dusting and cleaning ^^ shes amazing I very much appreciate her banishing covid from my house!

we had lunch then she left

I then did some painting which was nice but I just felt so drained so I went to bed for an hour

I did some more painting then I booked my dad's 60th birthday present online for mum but I did it whilst on the phone to mum

I sat in the garden with Oz for 20mins as it was sunny then Jack appeared.

we caught up, had dinner, had baths then I did an hour of yoga and he gamed now we gonna watch anime

tomorrow school again - half day again

but on the whole didnt go bad as I thought. But it confirmed to me that

1. I do not want that job anymore

2. I get £1100 per month Lizi gets £900 for the sake of £200, they can have the job. I want to be part time and have a LIFE