Buns have gone home

 Evening

I couldnt get off to sleep last night, Jo hurt too much. We got up for extra pain killers and a biscuit. I slept after that but when I woke up at 7am I HAD TO GET UP. I felt like Id been in an accident....

So we had a relaxed morning before shopping

however, my anxiety was through the roof. Like real bad. I felt like I had done something wrong so I was trying to think 'what have I done?' like Jack was gonna find out something bad I had done. I felt like something bad was gonna happen, like what? 

Jack offered to go shopping for me as he can now since he can drive. But he said he would be mega stressed doing that. I didnt want to stress him out so I said I would be fine.

Going round the shop was awful, I could have cried. I couldnt breathe, I had to use my new inhaler twice. My heart was pounding and I was breathless

We got home after the shop

Jack made me and told me to SIT as in 'Jo stay and dont move' as I am fidget arse and dont sit for long.

He made me tea, fruit loaf, got Oz in, put the buns out, put the shopping away

ahhhh he is so good ^^

But yeah I was like death

my heart was pounding, my body felt like it was vibrating, my hands were so shaky and I felt anxious. I also obviously had bad back ache from my massage. So all in all I felt poorly.

I literally downed my tea and went to bed.

I got up for lunch and went back to bed

I just couldnt do anything

I felt poorly

but what was up?

the only thing that was different was my new inhaler I started last night

so I went into the recycling dustbin for the box and instructions to read 'possible side effects'

on there 1 in 10 people

breathlessness 

trembling

sense of doom

anxiety

palpitations

and I think 2 others that I didnt have

sooooo my new inhaler is to blame??

I rang my mum and talked to her. She said steroids can have funny affects on people as granny sometimes had reactions to them. And my inhaler is a steroid for the lungs 

she told me not to use it and ring the nurse

as much as I think, "yeah it was probably inhaler" I also wonder if the powerful massage has just made my other conditions worse and its made me like this. As I can suffer in those ways and massage always gets me next day.

I managed to finish my picture I have been working on. And I put it on my redbubble too. I only had about 10mins of work to finish so even tho it was an ask for me to do it, it was a quick achievement 

I did dinner which I was grateful it was simple

after dinner Jack's sister and step dad came for the buns. They had a good tan! The buns have gone home and Oz has the garage to himself again. Jack's sister was very grateful tho and was happy to see them. I mean if I was being reunited with Oz I would have had him out, fussing his face off in my arms and inhaling his scent, but each to their own ^^; she brought me a bowl made of a coconut and Jack some alcohol  

I drew Angewomon for a friend who turns 30 this friday so I am gonna pencil crayon that in tomorrow

I had a bath after that

then spoke to Jack about my inhaler. I told him I was tempted to have 1 more dose of my inhaler just to see if it definitely that which is making me poorly. As I really like the inhaler!!! Its PINK, it counts down its uses left, it doesnt have a taste and yeah I am actually impressed with it as I wasnt getting on with my previous ones. So I took one more puff 10mins ago. See how I go tonight I guess as I have picked up from my horrendous morning.

tomorrow

I asked Mia if I can see her in the morning but I havent heard from her yet

Jack has his online interview at midday so I need to be quiet then. He is gonna be on my laptop doing it. So I will be in the lounge doing something.