mummy brought me home

 evening

I actually slept really well. I didnt even notice Jack come to bed at 10:30.

I still felt absolutely drained and tired this morning

Jack then told me he got a phone call at 10pm from his step dad saying Jack's mum had been taken into hospital. She gets awful migraines, is medicated and sometimes so bad its like shes had a stroke. Of course shes had all sorts of tests over the years. I think yesterday she had had a pretty bad attack at work and couldnt move or something so her work phoned for an ambulance. She had to stay in last night and when I text her this morning she was still waiting for an MRI. Bless her. We will need to see her when shes out. I could tell Jack seemed worried.

On the way to school I was mega shaky and anxious. Anxiety through the roof. Why? what am I even anxious about? who knows!

The whole morning it didnt pass and I didnt feel that well to be honest. I was getting my morning done but at 11am I rang my mum saying I didnt feel great and didnt trust myself to drive. She came to pick me up when i finished work which was so kind of her I cant tell you how grateful I was

she had lunch with me and told me I looked better than what I did when I came out of school as she said I was white when I left school. She didnt stay long as all I wanted was my bed. My eyelids had been dark reddy pink all day.

I went to bed for an hour, woke up, didnt want to get up so I had a further half  hour

these naps are what are getting me through the day I am sure

I sat and had a brew and watched youtuve videos then I did a 30min workout, which wasnt hard I picked an easy one. Then I had a bath, Jack came home and I made a cake whilst he was in the bath. Im just cooking our food. We will watch Welcome to the demon school whilst eating - almost finished season 2 I LOVE IT

then hobby time I guess

My brother came to see me on his bicycle yesterday whilst I was painting in my craft room which was nice he was just stood outside the window whilst i painted and talked. 

Tomorrow is school

god i hope I can do those 4 hours