first day back T^T

 Evening

I struggling to sleep last night. But I did eventually sleep. It was hard to sleep with tummy ache. 

This morning, yup that anxiety was there and strong. I could not get off the toilet......

School

I felt like spirit had instantly been zapped the moment I passed reception. ugh teachers.....

I got to the prep room and was swarmed with teachers

its kinda like when you bring a bag of bread to a pond and the ducks come over. Its like that. Teachers see a technician and flock.

I felt very overwhelmed 

people

noise

it was too much and I had such a strong need to flee the school

but then 8:30 happened and they all left for the hall including Jack and Julia

I was left alone with my jobsheet and head phones. I calmed down, I caught my breath.

I got my jobs done, in the quiet. It was an alright day to be honest

then I came home and had jobs to do, mum showed up, Oz kept legging it out the room. Hes a bugger. Mum stayed and helped me with car stuff. She was no actual help but nice to have the company whilst doing it.

We just need to get up early to tax the car online.

I did get £17 back on my insurance tho! how does that work? how is my newer car less to insure than that banger!?

She left and then I did 55mins of yoga, I felt much better for it. I think I had been quite tense today to say the least. I made Jack's lunch too as I thought he would struggle for time tonight what with gaming but turns out gaming isnt on. Wish I had known! rushed round for nothing. But I am kinda glad if I am honest. 

I got my clothes ready for tomorrow, watched some youtube videos, added my new art work on instagram and redbubble

https://www.redbubble.com/i/sticker/QQTwins-by-LunatiqueDesign/122198397.EJUG5

my next art work SHOULD be halloween. However I have zero ideas right now. None. So unlike me. Usually I have a halloween idea and cant wait to bloody do it but I just cant think what to do. I have plenty of other art pieces to get on with but I should halloween first so its done on time.

I got my new boots in the post. Listed as 'new' and 'never been worn' clearly have been worn. They were only £20 but not the point. So I emailed photos over and the person said she was  selling on behalf of her daughter so didnt realise and gave me £10 refund! I was happy with that. I wasnt expecting anything but I wanted to point out she wasnt being fair to people.

We had dinner. dinner = tummy ache

so now I have tummy ache til tomorrow morning. I didnt eat all my dinner just cus I was getting pains whilst eating.

I also have another purple lump 'down there' had one a few weeks back which was like a big ass blood blister. Got another! saw a red lump yesterday and I just thought it was an ingrowing hair, didnt think much of it. But this evening when I got undressed....how have not seen that all of today!! it was dark purple the size of a pea. Freaking huge. it BLED my god did that mother bleed. No puss. Just endless blood like its attached to vein. I felt sick.

so thats sore with a plaster on. I usually dont bother with plasters, ever. However where it is, its trying to heal and there for fuses with my pants....so each time I go toilet I rip the scab off by pulling my pants down. yeah....not nice.

I am gonna have a hot chocolate and watch RWBY we have 2 episodes left!

tomorrow

school

but whats more, is its new car day! he's on the car awaiting me~

we need to get up early to tax it online, and also to get to a fuel station before work. he's on vapours here