Konbanwa
I fed tiffin twice in the night
i was woken up at 8am to feed him again
the morning I just did some dancing actually for quite a while
but it was nice to have a good bit of exercise
I did some cross stitch, did some reading, and fell asleep for an hour or so
did some japanese for the first time in days
i went to the vets to pick up some more food for tiffin as i had ran out
of the syringe food.
then i havent done much else
i cant seem to get my head in gear its like all i can think about is tiffin
so its been a bit of wasted weekend really but it couldnt be helped
tiffin comes first.
dont know when i'll celebrate my birthday really or see my friends
tomorrow i have work and then i have the after noon free to do whatever
i hope i get something productive done i really do
i think im gonna get up in the night again for tiffin
im only working 4 hours so it shouldnt make me too tired tomorrow
tonight im gonna bleach my eyebrows as they have grown dark
and paint cherry blossom on my nails!
I fed tiffin once again through the night
he became a little bit stubborn when i was syringe feeding him
i took that as a sign of him feeling a bit better and stronger
i realized that i could pop tiny bits of food in his mouth and he seems
to eat them, its not much but at least its solid food and not liquid
In the morning I went to see him
he seemed more relaxed and his breathing wasnt as hard as it has been
he also had produced poos!! only a handful and very tiny but none the less they were there!
so that was a great sign
I continued to syringe feed him through the day and managed to
pop the odd bit of solid food in his mouth
he seems a bit more energetic and alert today
he still isnt eating independently
we had to go the vet today to pick up some more syringe food
we told them the situation and they said to bring him in tomorrow
if he still isnt eating independently
im not that sure what to say that cus all theyre gonna do is what im doing at home?
they didnt really say what they would do for him actually
so i'll see about that one
but fingers crossed he'll be eating by himself by then
tomorrow i am only working 8:30am til 12:15pm which is great!
as it means if tiffs does need syringe feeding then I can do that for him
also i can keep a closer eye on him
so glad im not working all day tomorrow!
i think i will get up at least once in the night tonight to feed him
so i believe he has turned a corner
he's not out of the woods yet but i feel we are winning
last month it took a week for him to be eating properly but we did get there
and i hope we get there again
today is certainly a much better day than yesterday
Evening
I didn't sleep well due to tending to tiffin in the night
but I got up at 8am
I washed my hair and got stuff ready for my hair cut and to meet with adam
i had my hair cut and felt so much better as i could see again!!!
I got home, got changed, slapped some make-up on and went out to meet adam
i went to pull up to wear I THOUGHT the cafe was...yeah I was wrong
but I asked my mum and brother and they thought it was there also!!
so i txt him to say i was gonna be late due to stupidity
i rang mum and got her to google where it was and i knew straight away XD
stupid me
and yeah i dont have internet on my phone ><
we sat and talked
he treated me to hot chocolate and cake
the cake was an orange Florentine first time ive ever had one and it was so nice
so moist and refreshing and the hot chocolate was really good also
you could see it all being made in front of you
i like independent cafes i never go to chain places
by 1pm i knew i was pushing my luck with the metre on my car
also i needed to get back to feed tiffin
i felt awful leaving him but adam understood i wasnt leaving cus of him it was
cus i had to get back for my prince~
i said id meet up with him again soon
he walked me to my car, i told him he didnt need to as i knew where my car was XD
then he gave me 2 hugs ^^
he treats me well
i have yet to tell him about my illnesses and my nervous breakdown and losing 2 years of my memory but i cant bring myself to talk about it right now
got home and fed tiffs some banana i had brought for him
i let him play outside he didnt do much but i think he liked being out in the sun :)
I went to bed for some much needed sleep
after i got up and fed tiffs
mum dyed my hair ^^ So my hair is all fixed for my birthday
speaking of my birthday
I was suppose to be going out tomorrow to a vintage fair with mia then out to lunch
but i need to be with tiffin so I am staying at home
I havent even invited my friends over as Im not in the mood to be happy smiley
i just want to be with tiffin and nurse him to health
my birthday doesnt matter. his life matters
so tonight i will be getting up again for his midnight feedings
gosh it sounds like i have baby!
I have no idea how mother's do it honestly
hats off to them cus its not easy it really isnt
put me off being a parent i can tell you that!
see how my prince is tomorrow
fingers crossed he is ok and no worse!
Tiffin's update
I syringe fed him at 12am and then again at 3am
the 3am feeding was mashed cucumber and i was really surprised to see
him voluntarily taking it! So that was a good sign
I got up at 8am and fed him
he hadnt eaten or drank or produced poos
so I've been mincing different foods down and alternating that with the
recovery food as that stuff constantly cant be nice and i like to think
real fruit and veg has some good vitamins for him
He managed to run round the garden when I went to get him in
which i was impressed at actually he even scaled the steps!
He chest sounds better today and i havent seen him do that awful coughing/sneezing
fit he has been doing over the weeks
so with any luck the anti-biotics are helping
its his stomach that is the greater focus i feel
he just wont eat or drink
the vets said that rabbits have this tenancy to just give up basically
but I dont want to give up yet
he was just the same last month
I plan on syringe feeding him through the night again tonight
as I believe it helps and i feel awful knowing he would go the whole night without food
He didn't go to the vets today as all they would do for him is give him fluids
and syringe feed him which is what i am doing and i feel he would rather be here
than get stressed at the vets
we rang them and kept them updated, they said to come in if he plummets and see how
he is in the morning and to let them know
tomorrow we've said that if he's the same as today that we will continue the treatment
but if he looks like he's gone backwards we may consider putting him to sleep...
Im hoping that wont be the case i just dont want to see him suffer you know?
and im not sure that if he is really bad about hospitalizing him, as would i just be prolonging
a losing battle? its so difficult to know
i like to believe im doing the right thing for him
so today he hasnt eaten or drank independently and hasnt produced poos
not producing poos is a worrying sign
all that comes out his bottom is like water
im sorry to be grim
but i guess if he's only getting mushed food and water then nothing is gonna form
he needs to hurry up and eat!! it is like the vets said they just give up
he would be so much better if he ate he really would
last month when we went through all this it took a week before we saw some
positive signs of recovery
and so far we're on day 3
anyway see how he is tomorrow
This morning I got up for tiffin
I went to go see him at 7:15am
i noticed nothing had been touched - food wise - it was all the same
he had gone the entire night without eating...
crap..
So i brought him inside and had a few more tears in front of mum
i was stressing as i had work at 8:30am til 12:15pm
but i knew tiffin needed to go to the vets ASAP but didnt want to let
my new job down
i started syringe feeding him this morning before work
my dad came walking through "you're gonna be late"
god i could have ripped his f***ing face off!!!!!
i was trying to syringe feed my sick bunny and all he's bothered about is
me being late for my job!!!!!
mum rang up and rang me during my shift to say that she was taking him
down by herself
god what id do without her!
so she left tiffin to be hospitalized
at 6:15pm I was allowed to pick him up
i had cried soooo much today honestly
just every time i talked about him tears ran down my face
upon seeing tiffin i felt instantly better
his little face :)
but he's not well
he was given the same 3 jabs he had yesterday
they had been syringe feeding him every 2 hours
his special anti-biotic had been delivered so he was able to have some
a nurse kindly showed us how to syringe feed him as id been having difficulty doing it
we came home with him
i gave him an hour to chill in his hutch
i brought him in cus i wanted him and to syringe feed him
i tried the nurse's way and it was a lot easier actually
and managed to get a fair bit down him
i let him into my room
he literally collapsed onto my carpet and laid there panting
he didnt look good
then he started doing poo which was just water if im honest with you
not good
bless him, he did look like he had stomach ache
so ive just cleared that up
the vet suggested feeding him every 2 hours through the night!!
wow, ive never done that before
and seeing the way he is tonight i think im gonna give it a shot
everyone sleeps like the dead in my house so no risk of waking anyone!
so thats me not getting much sleep tonight
but i will do what it takes to get my prince better
the vets said if he hasnt managed to eat anything by the morning (by himself)
to bring him in again...i really dont want him to be hospitalized again :(
but if he needs it he needs it
we're approaching the £1000 mark....
im so in debt to my parents and not just with money
my mum has helped no end with this she always takes me to and from the vets
and helps with his medication and maintenance of his cage etc
my morning at school was alright i held back tears a few times
when it came to telling the staff what was going off and i explained i was 3 mins late
due to trying to syringe feed tiffin
i said my mum will be phoning to let me know what was happening and the teacher
said it was fine and if i needed to leave i could!
but i like this job and i know the school wont want to have me back if i become
unreliable so i did my best and stayed even tho i probably looked like a zombie
and had a brain of mush
i got home and cried to mum and thanked her for taking tiffin by herself
we had lunch
i went to sleep for an hour shattered with a headache
got up and went to the shops with mum needed to kill time before i got tiffin
then i came home did some cross stitching and my car insurance which is due on my birthday!
im glad to have tiffin back but i want him back to full health
tonight i will get up regularly through the night to syringe feed him
i will do my best for him!
It's twin tail day~~~
Twin Tail day is 2nd February
and is 'celebrated' in Japan by girls tying their hair in twin pig tails
I have done this now for the last 3 years I think
and this year is no different
ta-da~~
It's a little hard to tell as I have low pigtails
one side I french plated the other just simply tied up
I dont tend to wear twin tails high like rabbit ears as im 24 and it looks daft on me
Today was school
I did some maths and english with a group of 3 year olds which was
nice and tomorrow im doing some maths again with them ^^
its nice that im trusted to do it
I cleaned up and did some observation work
told a few children off
came back home at lunch
had lunch and rested in bed for an hour
got up and went for a walk with mummy~
then i went on my laptop, started to clean my room
went to the vets
cam home and finished cleaning my room
we didnt go yoga this week due to having to take tiffin to the vets
here is my tragic update with tiffin
after recovering Tiffin from his stomach bug
his cough/cold still hadnt gone
so we took him back to the vets
(ive lost count how many times ive been to the vets this year!!)
Basically Tiffin was put onto anti-biotics for 10 days
this was to try and rid him of his cold/cough
cus honestly its awful seeing him like this
he had coughing/sneezing fits but doesnt bring anything up
and/or it sounds like he is going the throw up it really does sound like retching
but once again he doesn't bring anything up
last night i thought he was breathing harder than usual
but wasnt sure if he was just hot
this morning his breathing was laboured
he was off his food again and had got a messy bottom
not good as this all looks very familiar of 3rd January when this all started
so i rang the vets and got in later today luckily as i wanted to get him in ASAP
They examined him and were disappointed the 10 days of anti-biotics didnt help
so the vet told us,
basically tiffin has got like the equivalent to our human chest infections
well he hoped it is a chest infection. He said the worst case scenario is a tumour in his lungs
a tumour or mass could be growing and/or producing puss in his lungs and giving him an infection
if he does have a tumour then its basically then end as its pretty inoperable on an animal that small
which means putting him to sleep
the vet ordered in a special anti-biotic they use rarely which i need to pick up tomorrow
i will take tiffin with me tomorrow too as the vet wants to see him
this anti-biotic is suppose to rid him of his chest infection
if he is really sick tomorrow he will need to be hospitalized once again but im hoping he wont
be that bad tomorrow
he needs to take the special anti-biotic but if we dont see any improvement by a week
it means he has a tumour and i told you what a tumour means
so im damn praying that he has got a chest infection and that these anti-biotics work for him
cus god i cant lose him
i cant. i love him so much
he is like my baby
i dont know how id go on without him i really dont
so please keep him in your thoughts
it will be a very tense week hoping these special anti-biotics work and its a chest infection
and not a tumour/mass
Evening all~~~
I had such awesome dreams last night ^^
I dreamed that I could use powers through 2 little creatures/monsters
one was a bird/bat and the other was a dog/wolf
and loads of people had these creatures with powers in their academy
i blame it on playing pokemon right before bed as i was training rockruff (dog pokemon)
I got up for school good job dad woke me as i dont think i would
got up otherwise!
I arrived at school on time it was nice to see everyone
i was in the youngest class today so aged 4-5 years
not my favourite by a long shot but i dont mind at all~
i got to do some independent work with some children
i was bored during lunch
then after lunch the year 2 teacher asked me to come sit and play with a child for the lesson!
so that was a welcomed break~
i also held the school's guinea pigs!
i got home and relaxed with my prince
we sat in my room whilst i did some cross stitching
since then ive just been online and now im gonna dance and stretch
tomorrow im back at the nursery i was at yesterday so 3 year olds once again
but its nice and i like the experience
i want to hold their guinea pigs!!!
im trying to find some thing anime related to buy for my cousin
i want to buy her something with my first pay cheque :3
i hope i can find her something~
man my room needs a dust and a clean so im hoping to do that after school tomorrow
seeing as im only working til 12:15pm
last night i sorted my kindle out
i found some books too a lot were 99p
but i did pay out for my most expensive book £2.99! but it was supernatural set in japan
i had to have it!!
also the 6th book of this series i love (hellequin Chronicles) came out in november but it was pricey and i found it randomly last night reduced to £1!!
jozu was truly happy last night X3
it's february already isnt it!! scary!!
february or nigatsu is mine and my brother's birthday month :D
Konbanwa~~
I got up on time this morning
But I had awful stomach ache not sure why
school or should i say nursery was alright actually
i did a bit of one to one work
and we went outside in the cold only for a little while :)
and i just helped out and cleaned up
speaking of cleaning up.....
yesterday i noticed in the classroom was a bucket with 2 mops in it
the water was black as in i could not see the bottom despite it being about 5 inches deep
i thought 'that is a breeding ground for germs'
the clothes and the mops are just bad
seriously they need to invest in some new ones
so today i took it upon my self to empty the black liquid
cus i couldnt look at it anymore - im clean freak like my mother XD
oh my god
i so wish i hadnt
it awoke a terrible stomach churning smell
honestly i was almost dry heaving and ive smelt a lot of awful things in my time
example kid's sick and my dad's farts
it was awful and stunk the classroom out
luckily i had done this at the end of the day
but i felt like i couldnt get rid of the smell
it was all i could smell
i got outside thanks to the teacher letting me go early
and i gulped down air hoping it would get rid of the smell but no such luck
i got home, went into the kitchen, stripped to my underwear
threw my top and jeans in the washer for a 15min wash
i went upstairs sprayed my body with sprays
i just felt dirty
so silly isnt it? none of it got on me but i felt unclean
i take after my mum shes the same XD
but how the hell they had left that for that long i have no idea
it was just sick and unhygienic by far
in the afternoon i went for a short walk with mum cus i felt like i had cabin fever
then i cut out some fabric
looked online for ideas where to eat on my birthday and also ed wants to know what i want for my birthday but i have no idea i looked and looked til i got fed up and bored
so i told him to leave me. he goes to sudan with the army on the 8th so i dont want to trouble him anyway. and as for my birthday just looks like its gonna suck
i tried to meet up with mia but she was sad
the house she 'brought' the sellers have pulled out so she doesnt have the house anymore
she was gutted bless her and work sucks she says
so she didnt see me
so year im a bit fed up really
tomorrow im at my old primary school for the day :)
going to try my new dark blue eye liner
i never wear eye liner but wanted to give it a go
here are my nails this week
i went for a pink galaxy theme and i really like them :D
Good Day!!
I woke up at 6:40am because I thought I heard a noise
I decided to stay awake because I would be getting up in 20mins
good job I did as dad who usually wakes me slept in for about 10mins!
10 mins makes a big difference in the mornings!
So I got all dressed to go
I arrived at the school
looked just like my old primary school
the head teacher took me to the classroom
I would be a teaching assistant in the nursery room so with 3 year olds basically
i have never taught them so young! i was a little bit worried how they'd be
there was only 14!! i couldnt believe how small the class was
apparently 3 were off sick. But still 17 is a small class
so i was asked to do a couple of activities with the children
i managed it
and i was asked to teach 6 of them some maths! no pressure!
but it was all easy and fun the kids were brilliant to me
then at the end of the day which was 12pm i had to do a nursery rhyme with them
whilst the teacher dismissed the children to their parents
i hadnt done a friggin' nursery rhyme since i was like 5!!
even then i didnt know them as i couldnt ever grasp song lyrics (still cant)
so i had a book full of em and chose one i briefly remembered
then when they all went i had 15min to clean the classroom
the teacher had printed me out what we're doing all week and handed that to me to read
i came home had some lunch
then went to bed exhausted
my cold isnt too bad actually but im still done in!
then i went to karen's for a massage and my god did i ever need it!!!
i was crippled and after i felt flexible and taller!!
massage is truly amazing!
and it was good to see karen :D
tomorrow im back teaching 3 year olds~
thought id show my mum's new sausage dog plush dad brought her
we are yet to name him
but mum wanted a collar for him so i made him one
