Made it to 6 months!

Evening

Yesterday marked the milestone that me and jack have made it to 6 months 
6 months without killing one another!
i hope he sticks around for another 6 month ><

I stayed over at jack's last night

I went over to see him around 3pm
we went to his mum's house for his sister's birthday
we were there til like 8pm when jack decided to fetch my shoes
as his younger sister was getting out family photo albums XD
ahhh ive seen cute little pictures of jack
i like seeing people my age younger as you can tell a 90's child
i like see what toys and clothes they had as i usually had the same XD
so yeah to say he was keen to leave was an understatement 
and he now wants to see photos of me as a kid or any photos for that matter
he has seen nothing of my past and i plan on keeping it that way!

we picked up food on the way back and had that when we got to his place
to find theo james and brandon there ready to start the night out
as it was a rainy day we opted out of the suit and dress code thing
later harvey joined us and we played some random german card game of brandons
i didnt find it enjoyable but then i dont enjoy board or card games
we went out and jack brought me a non-alcoholic drink
theo saw me drinking it and took it off me thinking it was alcohol XD
think everyone is a bit scarred from me that night
we had a drink in a bar then headed for a club....

i have never been to a club before and nor do i want to repeat such experiences
it was awful like just awful
so loud and full of people
i coped at first
but after midnight i just couldnt hold it together any longer
i felt mental to say the least
any longer in that place and i think i would have changed  as i couldnt hack anymore
jack took me outside for air but it didnt help so we went home
i felt so bad and stupid taking him away from it all even tho i never actually asked to go home
and i said i could go by myself but he said he hates clubs anyhow

on the way home my head was a total mess
i had had enough
every little sound i was alert to and yeah i just wanted to change and not feel or think
jack made me look at him and told me i could do it and get home as myself
and i did
we pretty much went to bed after we got home
i was shattered

in the morning as usual it takes some time to motivate jack
but good job i did as we had to go meet his dad and his family
we met up and went to a chinese 
im not particularly fond of chinese but managed a bit to eat
it was his dad, step mum, 17 year old step sister and 8 year old half brother
half brother didnt have an issue with and his step sister was kinda ok
his dad was nice actually
but im guessing his step mum didnt like me as she never once spoke to me
and when i looked at her she looked away
ive shown my face now and proved to his dad that jack is not gay
and i pretty much am  not in a rush to spend time with them again
definitely prefer his mum's side which he does too

we came away and i went home
id had enough of noise, people.
i just needed time alone
in the end i went to sleep 
id had enough
i pleased ozwald before i went to sleep bless him he was happy to see me
mum has bathed the pigs so theyre soft too
cus my god they stunk like farm yard pigs

i got up and went for a walk
then had a shower and dinner now here doing diary
im gonna sit with oz and go to bed
not sure how i will sleep
i have come to conclusion that upping my pain relief has not helped and that i need to reduce it back to how it was as its messing with my antidepressant far too much
im going pain clinic on monday so i will see what they say

tomorrow id like to start the jacket as i pretty much have all i need :3

Off the hook

Evening~~~~~~~

Didnt sleep too bad
I went straight to bed with the tablet on really
and found it helped I didnt need to get up during the night

In the morning I spoke to mum and basically got off the hook
with going to the hospital as we both think it will be a waste of time
so i rang the hospital and cancelled that
i rang the doctors to see if/when id be due a tetanus booster
turns out ive had 5 during my life time!! i couldnt believe id had that many
3 as a baby, 1 as toddler and 1 at age 15
so the lady said i was covered for life
no injection for me :3

i did some dancing
i didnt get as far as i wanted as it was hard to see the dance at parts
so it takes far longer to work out the moves and how they flow
i need much more practice too
i went for a shower and was at work for 11am
i did some tidying up and some other bits
then i sat and painted
no one was around at all so it was so peaceful just listening to my ipod and painting
i got a fair bit done too

i came home and had lunch this was 3pm
then i went to bed as i just wanted to
i went for a walk after dinner 
and that was my day really

tomorrow
i was meeting jack's dad for the first time but its been cancelled
so that is one less thing to do tomorrow which is rather handy
as we have his younger sister's birthday meal
then im dressing up in my black dress for a night out
so should be a nice day and im looking forward to seeing jack too
dont know what time we are meeting up
im gonna dance hopefully in the morning
might do my nails tonight too

Designing steam punk hoodie

Evening~~

I didn't sleep great
It took ages to get off then I woke up at 4am taking the
tablet to bed with me and fell asleep listening to a concert
i woke up at 9:30 -____- far too late for my liking
I had breakfast and wanted to dance or to go to work
as it was pouring it down but mum wanted to go out
not that we needed anything
I did manage to get the blanket fabric im gonna use to make this jacket
i went for a light bluey/grey

I got home and had some lunch and went to bed
id had enough of feeling like crap
I got up and attempted a bit of dancing 
then showered and sat with Oz with a brew

I got a phone call from the hospital i ended up in a couple of weeks ago
they said i could come to the neurology department tomorrow to get checked out
on what happened to me
i cant be arsed but i know if anything else happens it looks bad on my part that
i didnt get the help offered 
so im going hospital tomorrow at 1:30pm
jack offered to come and the hospital did say that the witness would be great as they can tell us exactly what went off but i said he'd already given me an account of what happened
i dont need him involved as he has a friend from sweden staying over at his
and his friend hasnt come all this way for me to steal jack from him
it isnt fair
so i will go alone
i dont want to go tho
speaking of jack's friend, my god he and the rest of the guild they play with must think highly of jack as they pitched together and got a computer complete with monitor and keyboard shipped over to jack! and a pair of pink cat ear head phones! my god some money worth and like christmas to jack it truly is. so that was really nice of them. to say he has never met them before

i have been designing my hoodie
and ive gone for a different approach this time
i have gone for a steam punk kinda look
so ive been ordering cogs and stuff online which has been different 
im ready to make it i just need the stuff to come in the post 

i did some painting as well
just stuff to pass the time

it is 8pm and just stopped raining
it actually hasnt stopped raining allllll day
so im tempted to get out for a walk for some fresh air

tomorrow i was gonna go into work as i didnt go today
but this hospital appointment has now taken the day from me
so im gonna dance hard in the morning then set off for the city centre and go do that deed
so not looking forward to that i do have to say
and im sure i am fine anyway
i have no idea what is involved tomorrow
just got to bring a list of my medication 
wish me luck

a black dress

Evening~~~

Yesterday I did quite a bit really

I did a whole hour of dancing
learning a dance I have wanted to learn for like a whole year!
Monogatari's Re:born
i showered and had some more cereal then jack was texting me
hes been missing me and wanted to see me so I thought id make the effort 
and go see him

we actually went on something that resembled a date XD
we havent done anything much together for a while really
so we went mini golf and i lost but still fun
then we went for ice cream
oh my god mine was good but made me cold and i felt sick after it XD
we brought pick n mix as well
i havent done pick n mix for probably over 15 years
but jack is a pro at it XD so he let me pick the majority of it as he aint picky
whereas im not a fan of sweets, i will eat chocolates but not sweets

i was gonna go home and he asked if i would stay over
he had missed me and said it would be friday til i could see him again
so i agreed
he came home with me to pick up my stuff and we went for a walk in the woods near me
then we called in a shop and picked up soup and bread and ate that when we got in
whilst listening to theo as he told us grim sex stories XD
theo showed me photos of them all from friday night in their black tie gear
they all looked really good actually
then said on this friday that theyre going out into the city at night for drinks whilst dressed in black tie and if i wanted to come, but i have to wear a dress
jack has never seen me in a dress and i would have to ether wear a long dress or cocktail
i was falling asleep on the sofa at around 11pm
so tired
so we went to bed but i didnt sleep great and woke up with crippling back ache
literally reaching out for pain killers 

i was at jacks til midday we hadnt done anything
he takes a while to motivate out of bed
i came home to an empty house and did a bit of dancing
i felt better for moving but i still ached
then i went for a much needed shower 

i went tk maxx with mum
i didnt need anything but found a skirt reduced to £1.70 they cost more from a charity shop!
then i looked at dresses, i mean i do have a long one i could wear for friday with the guys but i kinda just thought id see what was in the clearance 
and i did come across a dress, not my usual style i have to say
as it shows more skin than im used to but its hardly indecent im just not used to showing any skin
so i took it in the changing room with mum and got her opinion and she said how amazing and fitted it looked on me, i on the other hand felt like a duck out of water
as i know this sounds weird coming from a 27 year old female, but it was a woman's outfit, and i dont wear womanly clothes so i felt like an impostor, like i shouldnt be wearing that kinda thing
but mum assured me i looked good in it
its a black off the shoulder dress and was suppose to be $119 i got it for £7
its amazing quality i have to say as its lined in silk  
it is a nice dress im just gonna feel so weird wearing it
i dont wear dresses often and certainly not a womanly dress
but yeah good find and buy, its size 6 i didnt know i could still fit in size 6 :/ 

i came home and sat with Oz and a brew
who has apparently been sulking since i left yesterday
honestly
like torn between him and jack
then i went to bed
ive been in pain all day and id had enough quite frankly

i tried to do some design work when i got up
but im still not 100% certain i want to make a jacket yet
or what i would make it out of  
so not sure what to do on that one

tomorrow
its suppose to rain like allllll day
a part of me is tempted to go into work for a bit
but mum has the day off and i dont know if she will want to spend any time together
everyone wants jo's company >< 
i will see tho
id like to do some dancing if i can tho

i did some drawing of senko-san yesterday

finally done the bloody outline
took ages and its suppose to be chibi but its slowly got more and more detailed -___-

Ponyta Painting

Evening

I could actually sleep on my healing ear a bit
I did fall asleep once again listening to a concert on the tablet on the sofa
my head was too noisy
its weird being in a silent room at night but being able to hear all that goes on my head
to anyone else the room would be quiet
to me i just hear endless conversation, thoughts, feelings, desires
its really annoying!
so to drown it all out I put the tablet on
and yeah im so damn tired i end up falling asleep
I woke up and crawled to bed as the concert had finished and i woke up i think

it was like 9:30am when i woke up this morning! D: shocking!
I dont think Jack got much sleep as theo had a 35 year old woman from last weekend over
and they were very noisy in bed....yeah poor jack
so glad i wasnt over last night!

i got up and saw my dad was washing his van so i thought id wash my car after him
mum thought she'd do the same
so we team worked
and it rained like really rained so i got soaked
but i needed a shower anyway it still wasnt nice tho

i sat finished my ponyta painting as i realised i only really had the eye to do
so here we are finished!

i think it looks alright i just hope tara likes it
her birthday is a month today so ive got to store it for a month >< 
my brother thought it was good when he walked by it

i fell asleep for a bit
then went for a walk which was nice
then i did some drawing on my laptop which has been a bit of a chore to do
but i think its because i havent done it for a while and have got out of doing it
hopefully i can get back into it

tomorrow not sure what i am doing yet
see what i feel like doing
i would like to spend some quality time dancing in the morning tho
i have goals to achieve damn it!

Start of Ponyta

Evening

Look who woke up on the sofa this morning XD
yup I went down stairs at 5am as I had to eat something otherwise
i felt like id be sick
and i fell asleep it would seem listening to a Predia Concert
guess I was too tired to crawl back to bed
I didnt get off to sleep til gone 2am tho
luckily no embarrassing text messages came my way

I got up for a hair cut
i just had a tidy up really as i want it longer but you have to have it cut for strength and health
then i came home and went to bed!

my day has pretty much consisted of sleep and painting
that it
its been horrid outside, full on winds and raining
so i cant say ive wanted to go out really
and i had a week's worth of sleep to catch up on too

i heard from jack
he was ok
said he got to his room at 2am but was throwing up into the sink so didnt sleep til 4am
he says hes ok and got home safe
no one pulled any woman as there werent too many woman there he said
but i did have a text on my phone at 11pm when i went to bed
"having a cigar looking down at the working class"
i laughed and was glad i wasnt there to see that scene -____- wearing a suit goes to his head i think

ive gotten pretty far with the ponyta painting

just got eyes to do and any other further detailing i want to do
i have a gold pen i brought for this painting but im unsure whether to use it on 
the background or the flames
not bad considering i suck at horses 
i hope it looks good enough to give to tara for her birthday
probably get it finished tomorrow or in the night XD

so its been a quiet day for me
my mind is anything but quiet tho as i have done no exercise or any movements really
so of course that makes me mega massive 
i do ache from not doing anything but at 8:30pm im unsure what i can do really

my ear piercing is itchy i think cus its healing
its looking good tho and the pain is less
ive had it a week now
its also a week today i was rushed to hospital >< 
this week has gone quick!

not sure what im doing tomorrow 
guess it depends on how i am feeling 
i could see jack but i will see
although if i dont see him tomorrow i dont think i can see him til friday
not sure if he will cope with that XD

Gyaru Make Up

Konbanwa~~

I couldnt sleep again really
so im tired
i felt a lil crippled after yoga
did some dancing this morning which helped loosen me up
then i had a shower
and~~~~ got to work!

I had an attempt at becoming a Gyaru!
It took me I think I was probably at it an hour in total so thats hair + make up
i enjoyed it tho and i didnt bother watching any more tutorials i just went off memory
from what id learned
and here is what we came up with~~

Jo has a tan!!
my god it felt awful having a face FULL of make up
and just wearing foundation was yucky too
mum couldnt believe it and said i wasnt going out the house like that XD
I took a few photos anyway but these two are the best really

i sent it to my brother and he said id done a good job
i sent it to Ed and he said "wow...weird"
i sent it to Jack and said "I look like my cousin!"
he said "i wouldnt want to meet your cousin, Theo says you look like a different person"
then he said "Theo wants to know what your cousin looks like"....
so I told them who to look for on my facebook
weird them checking out my cousin XD
but jack says im more attractive than my cousin but then hes bound to say that
but it was nice to share the photo with him

i took the make up off
and my god i know im pale but revealing it like that was strange
my skin is like white XD
my brother says i make paper look tanned XD
it felt better to get it all off my face tho i have to say
but what make up should i attempt next i wonder!
it was only a bit of fun :3

i went out to a home shop with mum
then i came in and went to bed for half hour
heard from jack he had made it down to sandhurst with the guys for james's graduation
so yeah theyre at a black tie due and have cheap drinks available
he has prewarned me of embarrassing txt messages coming my way in the early hours of the morning.... hes coming home tomorrow some time in the evening
so im not gonna see him cus i aint nursing that hangover
but im glad hes able to have a good time with the guys as i ruined his birthday last weekend going to hospital and stuff
my arm is still bruised where i had the line put in my vein >.>

i had dinner then looked at things i can have in my new piercing when its healed
i brought a couple of rings to try as theyre only £2 but i cant change it yet
then i sat down and did some painting of the ponyta
i got the body shading done, background done, inner ear done
next will be the outline i think and then the fire mane i think i will do the eye last
i have a gold pen to do gold swirls in the background as i think it will blend with the fire mane well but we shall see. i can see it in my head but creating it is another thing

tomorrow i have a hair cut at 9:30am
pink has stayed some what in my hair
and then i plan to paint for most of the day really