returning to school 2021

 Konbanwa~~

I woke up at 7:45am and went to go get Ozwald out, Jack surprised me by getting up with me on his last lay in before school! I did a bit of dancing after breakfast and then had a shower. Dad came round at 9:15am on the dot with his electrician friend who looked over our electrics and was surprised how bad they were XD he has said that him and his son will come and do our electrics tomorrow which is amazing news as it needs doing.

Me and jack then left to do our weekly food shop

the shop was dead it really was, jack drove back

after we unpacked we sealed up a window outside, then made the soup for the week, had lunch, I cleaned Oz as well. Then once we had eaten lunch I grabbed to tools dad had left us and went to go start removing our bathroom tiles. To discover that who ever had done our crappy budge bathroom had literally tiled over the previous 1980 bathroom -____- so we have 2 layers of sodding tiles to get rid of!!! 

I watched jack take over and was doing it stupidly slow, i said "im going for a walk" when I left it started to rain so I called in my parents house and had a massive rant about my bathroom and how long its gonna take. Dad got up, went to work for a power tool and then went to a hardware store for a part for the power tool then he turned up at our house with this power tool taking chunks out these tiles, tiles were flinging everywhere 0.0 sweet baby jesus the mess, and dust T^T so much mess

but jack had a go with the power tool and said it was the manliness he had ever felt XD i could tell he was enjoying himself. He got a fair bit done too. but we had to clear up as jack needed to shower, and have dinner and then go do his online gaming.

I made his lunch for school and I made dinner as I wasnt allowed to take tiles off. Everyone worried about my joints doing such hard work >.> so i thought i would be the useful house wife XD

then I just did some jobs really whilst Jack gamed and of course played with Ozwald who was excited as ever to come inside. 

Jack has finished up early and said we can watch Inuyasha :D something that i thought wouldnt happen so I am gonna go watch that with him and go to bed

tomorrow 

i return to school after a long absense. I am worried I am anxious but yeah i gotta get on with it i guess. i should be ok. Its insec day so no kids in and might not be many staff members in too. non-uniform anyway. it also is the first rabbit daycare for Ozwald. He will need to get into the routine of going over to mum's in the morning for the day. We then need to sort out when me and jack can shower at mums as we wont be able to use or even have a shower here. ahhhh more stress

A new bathroom next week!?

 Evening

So I went to bed by myself last night, it does suck a bit going to bed by myself but i get on with it. I did drop off fairly quickly. But woke up at 3am aching which sucked. I went to get up for pain killers and Jack was somehow awake so he got up with me which was good of him. We weren't up too long and went back to bed. I woke up at 8:20am and got my Ozwald out.

This morning I had breakfast by myself, again

honestly I had more company back at mum's house!

I gave up waiting for jack to wake up so I did some dancing whilst he was still in bed. Its so strange but I struggle to remember some of the dances i have done hundreds of times. But I still had 20mins of dancing which got me sweaty. I had a shower and then Jack woke up, it was 9:50am by this point.

I said to him "we have that bathroom meeting at 10:30am, so you best be functioning by then"

I went on my laptop whilst he sorted himself out. Then we had the bathroom meeting

it was just about an hour and a half long which was an hour too long for my liking. I struggled to sit and was really aching. Not only that my head was very loud as I was getting more and more annoyed with this designer. I had warned Jack that there is a lot of arrogance in the design industry and he is also a salesman. God he must have thought we were real idiots. telling us he was doing us a deal. He then said "we are transparent, theres no pressure, were not like that" however. he asked for the full payment TODAY i said "i need to go away and think about this and also talk it over with jack and my parents" to which he came back with "how long do you need?" rude. he also said "this offer is only available today. no pressure. really? it really got my back up. Thinking i am an idiot.

not only that but our final quote was £7500....what happened to 'most bathrooms are between £5000-£7000' jesus christ. I wasn not paying that! our bathroom is tiny!!! I could understand if we had chosen the top end stuff and had a giant bathroom but thats not the case.

so as soon as the call ended I got up and went for pain killers 

jack who had been fine the whole meeting unlike me who was being a difficult customer, said "I dont think thats too bad, means you can have a bath and we dont have to do anything"

i was almost too shocked for words

yes it meant we didnt have to source a plumper, electrician, tiler etc but £7500!? really!?

how could he be such an idiot!?

i said "no jack just no. That guy was an arse hole thinking he was doing us a favour. makes me actually sick. i am not giving them my business or money"

we had lunch but I felt really wound up by it all.

I grabbed my winter gear and jack was like "where you off to?" i said "just going to see mum" he said "want me to come?" i said "no its fine" i took off. At this point all i wanted was my sanctuary, my single bed. my safety net.

i headed off home and mum was surprised to see me. I told her how livid i was with everything. she agreed about how much salesmen suck and that they are just doing a job but i wasnt gonna pay that. She said "matt is suppose to be coming over to look at our bathroom today" i was like "oh ok then" dad had already said he would give us their appointment with matt. and literally 10mins after mum told me matt was coming did matt turn up. He assessed my parents bathroom and agreed to come look at my bathroom so i got my shoes on once again and came home with my parents and matt.

Jack wasnt expecting any of this, nether was i. so matt talked to me what could be done. and i told him what the guy at wickes had said and matt was like "no thats not possible" cus some stuff we didnt have the right boiler for or our electrics would need to be changed. I told matt what i wanted whilst dad was there and jack and mum sat talking in the living room. jack was a bit stressed out by it all to be honest. Matt said he could do all we wanted. That I needed to give him guidance on what i wanted and to pick tiles. that easy. he would do the rest! whats more is that he is starting on tuesday!!!!! flipping tuesday!!! none of this waiting 16 week business with wickes. and he said to pay when he is finished! 

amazing. hes done mum and dad's upstairs bathroom so i trust him with my house key and such as he is the son of dad's friend. so yeah all a bit strange how it is has worked out.

i have no idea what it is gonna cost us. but matt is trust worthy, anal, OCD, and likes to get things right, hes also available now.

They all left and I went for a walk with mum, in the snow I might add, to go put flowers on granny's grave. I then started to walk home with mum. I told her I have been stressing about school. My heart goes out of the rhythm when I think too much about school. I have also scratched my legs to the point of bleeding and they were doing so well as well T^T

she said "if you need to go to the doctors for more time off Jo then thats what you need to do"

im just scared of being ill again. So I was tearing up a bit.

I got home and didnt bother going through to jack really. I let him come to me. He hasnt done anything all day. I have been sorting everything out. I talked to him about stuff tho and got upset. Its just school I am stressing about really. 

we had dinner and then I cut Jack's hair for him, after my stomach had subsided that it

i said to him "what does it look like if you shave your beard without the guard?" he said "i havent dont that in years, I just look younger" we looked at each other he said "do you want me to do it?" i said "i dont know, im scared! but then it will grow back in days" we also decided cutting his hair and cutting his beard short was a good shout considering we wouldnt have a bathroom for a couple of weeks.

whilst he showered I sat with my Ozwald in the living room

after Oz had 45mins running around I took him home and me and jack looked online at tiles. something that is hard to do but all the tile shops are closed due to us being in tier 4 so some shops are not open. however we did find a tile we both really liked. but it is not a colour we were originally gonna go for! its like purple/red but we both like it! so i emailed it across to matt to see if he thinks were making a mistake or if we can pull this off!

i might do a bit of drawing now then jack says he will watch inuyasha with me, actually spending some time with me! i am honoured. 

tomorrow I am up cus I might do some dancing, shower and then at 9:15am dad is coming over with an electrician to come look at our fuse box as that needs changing before tuesday! our fuse box is 40 years old and isnt safe basically. then me and jack are doing our shop for the week. i havent got anything planned from there. i would be going round tile shops but we cant.

so i will probably find something to keep myself busy with so I am not worrying about school

i cant believe that this time next week we could have a very different looking bathroom!

stayed up til 1am to see the year in

 Evening

So last  night I ended up staying up til 1am

we obviously stayed up talking to Jack's friends until midnight, were the 5 of them counted down together on video call, I just cuddled Jack. Jack had had a fair bit to drink, as they were all drinking. We saw a few fireworks from our window but fireworks do nothing for me, all I think about when I see/hear them "all those pets, wild animals and I hope my pets are ok" so many animals get stressed out for our enjoyment at looking at pretty lights in the sky. I said to Jack "is it Jo time?" as he had been on the video call for 3 hours. He said "yeah lets watch Inuyasha" which I was glad about as I needed some winding down time as his friends make me laugh. He left the room to go get his pyjamas on and I noticed his phone was ringing, it was his younger sister so I answered it and it went straight to video and it was his two sisters screaming "happy new year" to me XD so full of energy even at that time of day 0.0 so we spoke to them then his mum and step dad. Then we finally watched just 1 episode of Inuyasha as we were both dead

I woke up at 8:20am and got out of bed for my Ozwald, leaving Jack in bed

I read stuff on my tablet then watched dances on youtube, by 9:30am I thought "Im waking him, hangover or no hangover" so I went and climbed into bed, waking him. He didnt look too death like

I made him a mocha and 2 slices of fruit loaf and brought it into the living room for him, he was grateful. I said "Harvey and Theo wake up to a hangover, you wake up to Jo making you breakfast to help your hangover" he said "i know, i am so lucky to have you" ^^ he said he wasnt too bad tho actually. 

We showered together ^^ we havent done that before, we have had a bath together at his flat like twice but this time we tried showering ^^ even then I feel pretty innocent as I am just washing myself and jack washes himself, I was perving on him, we had a few cuddles ^^ but nothing sexual, which is nice. You can enjoy close moments like that without being filthy animals

once we were dry my mum txt to say she had kindly ironed out the curtains and could she bring them over to escape dad's company for a bit. So she came over and we hung our curtains up in the living room. Finally after a month we have sodding curtains. They look good actually and will make the room much warmer. we lost so much heat from those patio doors.

I told mum I wanted to have my lunch so to be on her way XD

me and jack had lunch then we went for a walk. These cold walks are really tiring me out. I just cant bare to give in and not go on walks. I like getting out and being outside but my body hates it. Really makes it tire very quickly and aches. It is so sad. I would like to keep going but when its really cold in January and february I might have to exercise indoors -_____-

when i got home it took me like a good hour to warm up I was just no good to anyone. Its like my body gets cold and shuts down. i go sleepy and cold. Jack left me to warm up and gamed with Harvey and Theo. But did join me to a hot drink with Oz

then I came upstairs to draw on my laptop whilst he gamed, i worked on my Hammington picture

its coming along, took me ages to sort the eyes, just didnt want to be cross eyed!

then I said to Jack that we needed to do dinner as we were having cake and custard at mums later so we made dinner, grabbed Ozwald and went over to my parents. Oz had more of welcome than i did and he got more affection -_____- cake and custard was bloody good tho but my stomach felt like it had been punched when I had eaten it. Good tho. I packed the remainder of my clothes. we came home for 8pm cus I cant leave Oz there too long in case he wants toilet.

got back and Jack went and gamed with Harvey and Theo, telling me he wasnt gonna watch Inuyasha with me tonight, which is fair enough. I put my clothes away then decided to look for birthday presents for my mum as her birthday is on 26th January. I have brought her a guinea mug and a guinea pig scarf. I have also ordered some pea flakes for the girls to try and I will put those in the guinea mug. I also have a bottle of wine I picked up this week that has a actual pig on the label and its called "the shy pig" so i have gone for a theme with her birthday.

Now its 9:50pm and I am tired, I want to continue drawing but I am just too tired I think and I have done some on it.

Oh at midnight last night I gave jack this picture I drew ages ago

its a page from the manga we both like Inu x Boku and I used fine liner, acrylic and water colour. I gave him to commemorate starting the year living together. He had tears in his eyes ^^ and told me he loves me and is very lucky to have me. Today he has hammered a nail into his study wall and put it up :)

tomorrow

not sure what I am doing if i am honest

we have an online appointment with our bathroom designer at 10:30am :/ just want to get it done and out the way to be honest. He is expecting us to put a deposit down but he can think again. I need more time to think. Interesting to see his design tho. On the other hand, my mum and dad should be having over a plumper/bathroom guy who did my parents upstairs bathroom several years ago and he is coming to assess their downstairs bathroom. Dad has told me that if the guy is happy then he will give us their appointment. so we end up with a new bathroom not my parents. But depends if the guy is happy to do that. and if he shows up as he was suppose to come before christmas and didnt so i am not holding my breath on this. apart from bathroom crap i have no plans.  

Last day of 2020

 Evening

Last night it took a while once again to get to sleep, think I was up til midnight. It's just tummy ache and trying to get to sleep with stomach ache. I even dreamed of having stomach ache and woke up with it as well :/ I was up at 7:20am for Ozwald of course. 

He was playing outside til midday despite the fact that it was minus degrees outside. The ground was solid but didnt stop him from eating frozen plants. He just didnt stop!

I felt quite crap this morning if I am honest. just drained of life. so after breakfast I went back to bed. Got up and went for a shower to freshen up and try and start the day, it was only 10am at this point anyway. Me and Jack sat and chose what we would like for the bathroom and then emailed the designer. Then we started making a vegetable soup. Whilst it was cooking I dusted a few rooms and Jack hoovered up everywhere so it was good to get that done. Then we sat down to have soup which was good and didnt give me crippling stomach ache. 

We went for a walk but it was very cold. We just went around here and i was struggling, i think just because it was so damn cold! I told jack that I was tired and he suggested I go to bed again when I get in as i will probably be up til midnight anyway. So thats what I did, I returned to my bed! I woke up at 4:15pm, Jack had been gaming whilst I had been asleep and remained gaming. I got Oz in for a fuss but he was just feral like he had been all day! cute tho X3 I told Jack we were setting off to mum's around 5:30pm my god I dont think he finished gaming until the moment I came to him and said "I am starting my car up!" good grief like he doesnt get any time to game! addicted 

we went to mum and dad's and i helped mum make the pizza french sticks and I told her I can eat it I just cant eat a big piece of it, felt like I ate a childs size portion in the end. We sat and watched "big fat quiz of the year" with them and I spent some time with my brother who clearly misses me ^^

I packed up the remainder of my clothes as I now have the wardrobe to put them in! the weird thing is when i got back to the house to unpack, I only seem to have 2 of my work tops :/ where are the other two? they must still be back in my old wardrobe but I dont know why I couldnt see them. I still need to bring over my pyjamas and my tights.

we got back at 9pm and I had Oz out who was full of energy for whatever reason. Just full of beans today! Which is lovely, I just cant keep up with him!  Jack had a video call with his friends from school and Oz featured in the video call X3 I took him home in the end tho. Jack is still talking to his friends, I have spent time with them talking but i have my diary to do and theres only 45mins left of this year!

This time last year we were walking as a group to the city centre to watch the fire work display from the council house of Nottingham, something I had never done but not fussed about doing again. So cramped together which this year would never happen! Its sad that no one has been able to have a new years party. I feel like there are gonna be so many parties to make up for how crap this year has been.

So what have I achieved during 2020?

I had wanted to maybe go travelling before I had settled down with a house, to keep working full time, to still be with Jack, to keep with my art and Japanese, to have better health and to have my family and pets.

Well at the start of 2020 me and jack started planning out our journey to japan. We wrote a lot out and I did a lot of research. Corona virus had started to say hello, and when we came to booking our holiday Jack had a complete melt down and was worried sick about the virus and going away. We were originally gonna go away during april. I said that if he wasnt happy about it, we would go. simple. Good job we didnt book anything as the world went into lock down and we wouldnt have been able to go anywhere! With so much free time off work, we decided to look at houses cus why not. Jack's rent ended in april and he could only get another 6 months cheaply before his awful landlord wanted more money for that dump so we thought "lets move!" and we looked for houses and found this unloved bungalow. Moving out has only really happened to me in the last 2 weeks is it? so I havent actually moved out for very long at all, I havent even moved out and been at work yet! I am handling things ok at the moment but when i return to work I suppose we will have to see how I cope.

I wasnt ready or prepared to move out to be honest. I did have it in my mind that jack would sign on for another year worth of rent not 6 months. So it has been a lot to do and take in. But its starting to feel more right and like home now anyway. I am very pleased we have moved out and that we managed to get onto the property ladder whilst the market had taken a bit of a plunge cus of the virus. The market went stale and housing lost its value. Literally a month after our offer had been accepted the market went mad and housing prices rose. Not only had we managed to get in during a good period for us we also got £20,000 less on the asking price. And its a bungalow so we can be here forever! its so quiet and flat and I am starting to feel like this is my home, and making it my home more and more.

I know I could never be trusted to live by myself which is why i have the amazing Jack by my side and we still make such a good team ^^ we havent had any falling outs or arguements, we've cried together a few times through venting but thats been it. I feel we always come up stronger and I cant imagine life without my nerd. Still wonder how we get on so well at times but yeah hes here for life ^^

as for art and japanese, I have been doing duolingo all year still so I have made effort with that. and its probably the only japanese i have been doing. Art, I have gone through fits and stages of my digital art but i feel i have done a lot crafts and traditional art this year, simply for the house. so thats been nice. And I hope to continue.

Working, I have had more time off than anyone else in the science department I feel. But I was assessed at work and its on file that I need regular breaks otherwise I push myself to fainting point, so I am allowed regular breaks, to stretch and to not work alone. I was gutted that at the end of this term I ended up being signed off work but i think that only happened cus i was moving out and it was too much, i hope it doesnt come to that again.

my family and pets are all doing well ^^

But what do I want of 2021? Now that its here I am unsure what I actually want? in a way I cant believe the year is over. I feel we didnt get to experience 2020 fully. Its gone stupidly quick cus we've spent it wrapped up in our bubbles.

its hard to say what i want in 2021 seeing I am unsure what state the world will be in :/ 

well I know a few things;

to keep working full time

to be able to look after myself in my home and working life

to get my craft room up and running and to do all my craft work from my own home

to keep up with my art and crafts and japanese - its important to find time for myself

to not get snowed under with life and put too much on myself

to put myself first, ask for help, not be hard on myself, and bloody look after myself more

I think these are all things that given what ever state the world is in - I can still attempt!

I dont want to put too much on myself given this will be my first full year of living away from my family home and standing on my own too feet. Well of course I have Jack by my side and hopefully Oz with me the whole year :D

I do want to take more time for myself and take better care of myself too. Not sure how I will do this yet but it is something I have the whole year to do.

Tomorrow

we have no plans really, maybe seeing my family for the sponge and custard we still havent had. I would love to dance if i have the energy to do so! and do some drawing as I didnt do any today sadly. Just too tired and did other things. theres only 30mins of 2020 left. Happy new year nya~

No kitchen yet but new tv cabinet

 Evening

So last night I ended up watching Angerme Live 2017 dvd with Oz, after I put him to bed and did my diary and stuff I decided to wait up for Jack cus yeah I wasnt really that tired. so he finished gaming at 10:15pm he was surprised to see me still awake and functioning. We sat and watched two episodes of Inuyasha then went to bed but I still took a while to get to sleep. Woke up in the night cus I was like "what the hell is that noise?" Jack was on his back snoring but its not even like proper snoring its just heavy breathing but weird. Jack is weird XD

I woke up at 7:15am and of course got up cus I was crippled and my Oz wants to play

I sat in the living room whilst he played outside, keeping an eye on him. I looked up and he was sat on the wall, laying flat down, ears flat down. I thought 'quite an odd position for him to be in' so I went out to him and he didnt move or acknowledge me in the slightest I stared at him suddenly thinking 'oh my god has he died!? had he had a heart attack!?' I didnt want to touch him if he was dead - not a memory i could live with. but I looked at his side and noticed he was in fact breathing. So I picked him up and he immediately tried to get off me - not Oz behaviour. So I worked out what had happened. Something had clearly spooked him. The only thing I can think of is that a cat must have walked on the fence where I couldnt see or even a dog walker on the path along the side of the house but I am going for the cat option as cats freak Oz out. I brought him inside, talking to him as believe it or not my voice sooths Oz XD Jack woke up to me talking to Oz at 8:45am and I told him what had happened. Oz had breakfast with us but was still very much on guard. I took him home with carrot to chill out

I got ready to face the day, me and Jack just popped to 3 shops for a few bits nothing much, nothing even needed but kinda something to do. Everywhere was dead it was a bit strange as I thought people would be hitting the sales but I guess it was only 10am. After that we went for a walk along the river and the ground was solid it was sooo frozen there was a puddle that was probably 100m long and 10m wide.....i went running up to it like a child. I knew it obviously wasnt frozen solid enough to support my weight but I applied pressure to the perimeter simply to make and hear the cracks it was really satisfying to say the least Jack said "come on before you get muddy" i said "fine last one then" sticking my tongue out. well that served me as the last time i applied pressure with my foot it went through the ice!!! My foot went straight through to the muddle freezing puddle under the ice I dont know how i didnt get a wet foot, i must have been very very fast pulling away, it did make me yelp out - it made me jump damn it =>.<= Jack laughed >.> 

I was really quite numb after that rather bracing walk. Jack drove back :)

we had a cup of tea and lunch I had fruit loaf and he had pot noodle -___- bloody stunk 

I rested on my bed for a bit but knew I couldnt go to sleep as the bathroom guy - richard - was coming at 2:30pm. My mum rang me an hour before he came over to tell me not to be pushed into anything I dont want to be pushed into.

The guy came over - into our house - without a mask. And it should be seen as 'normal' but in this day and climate it feels quite weird. sad really. he talked to us about what could be done and how the procedure to getting a new bathroom happens. He was here almost 90mins and said "you have an appointment in store on saturday, i will have it designed by then i shall just go measure up" we sat in the living room but heard richard's phone go off. He came in and said "Nottingham is in Tier 4 now, so that means our in store meetings are off. I will have to do it all online with you" which is fine and saves me a journey!  it means we cant physically see the toilet and taps etc we would like but he said once the store opens up we can come view and even change our order. It sounded all ok. But he said that I need to pay part of the deposit on saturday despite the work not being able to be started til march/april time. I felt this was a bit pushy. I would have 3 days to part with up to maybe £6000 and i would see the design for the first time on saturday and be expected to make a decision there and then whether or not to go ahead with it. So he can sod that. I need to come away and think. 

He left and I text my mum to say the guy had gone, she was on a walk in the neighbourhood with dad and said she would pop in so they did for a good hour and we talked bathrooms. cant say I feel any better about any of it to be honest! but jack told me not to worry about any of it and to just see what price they even quote us for first.

We made dinner a bit earlier as I hungry, we made sweet potato wedges and chicken and had cobs. so wholesome dinner cooked from scratch. I did eat mine quickly but it was cus i was so hungry. But I didnt have tummy ache even tho food had poisoned me all day i seem to have escaped with dinner. Jack went for a shower and i went upstairs to go start drawing. Then my mouth pooled with saliva and thought "am I gonna be sick?" so i ran to the bathroom - where jack was showering - i shouted "sorry jack!!" and was just spitting into the toilet. Luckily wasnt sick. havent been sick since i was 16 and i am still up holding that record. Jack was like "you ok!?" i said "yeah just not sure if i am gonna be sick or not i am so sorry" he was fine and continued showering, I never looked at him once. which he found weird he was like "all we've done, been through, seen each other naked and you cant look at me in the shower!? we've even bathed together Jo" I thought 'all valid points but it felt like i should give him some privacy some how' I laid on the sofa in a ball when I was sure i was keeping my guts in. Jack brought Oz in for a hop round but he didnt do much think he was tired bunny.

Took Oz home and then went upstairs to look at book cases for the spare room but ended up finding a tv cabinet locally, so I have emailed them to see if i can have it and go pick it up sometime :)

It is dark wood like the rest of our furniture in the living room but has the added bonus of keeping the cables locked away. Oz seems to have taken a liking sitting in front of the tv which nice but sometimes he goes behind the tv where the cables are and it frightens me to death so if I can hide the cables from him that would be amazing for all involved! the guy selling this cabinet also has this really odd looking piece of furniture that I think is traditionally put inside kitchens but I am wondering if I can make use of it in my craft room. So I might have a look at it when I pick my cabinet up. If I wanted it I would need to come back with dad's van as no way would it fit in my car.

So might be picking up a 'new' tv cabinet, ours came with the house and is just black glass. 

not sure what else we are doing tomorrow really apart from going over to mum's for food in the evening. 

honestly its 9pm and I still havent done any drawing!

it snowed and 3rd night in a row i go to bed alone

 Konbanwa~~~

I once again went to bed by myself. Jack did watch a couple of episodes of Inuyasha with me then I went to bed. It took a while to get to sleep as my mind was quite busy with one thing and another

This morning I woke up at 6am and needed to get up, for a wee and a stretch and once I was up I was  kinda awake, so I walked through to the kitchen and I noticed in the light of the street lamp that it was snowing....0.0 actual snow

I sat around for a bit then went to Oz at 7am I think I woke him up tho as he was very startled when i went to him! I let him out but it was a bit sleety at this point but Oz still went out for a bit. I did 35mins of yoga cus my god I was stiff and I havent done any yoga for several days now >< 

by the point of me finishing my routine Jack got up, simply cus he woke up and decided to come and see where I was. He said he had come to bed at 12:30pm

I said to him "I know its too dark to see but it is actually snowing!"

I got ready to go to the shops, I decided to drive as I wasnt sure what the roads were like and didnt want to give jack that stress. 

We got there fine tho and the shop was really dead. We were back home for 10am

I told mum we were home so she could come over and paint the hutch whenever. That we werent seeing Harvey and theo for a walk as its too cold and wet. she said she would come after lunch

we put the shopping away and the bathroom designer rang us up despite being told we were gonna be rung up at 7:30pm so i wasnt expecting it! I spoke to the guy -- richard -- on the phone whilst jack did whatever. he just introduced himself and told me that its a 12 week waiting list to have a bathroom fitted, that it could cost between £5000 - £7000. He asked me if i wanted to proceed and I said that I did. He then said he was coming over at 2:30pm tomorrow. I was originally told I would have to go to the store but apparently not, he's coming here! So yeah

I told jack and he was like "how can he guess the price given that he has no idea what size our bathroom is and what spec of bathroom we even want. I cant see it costing THAT much"

very valid point. I have no idea why he was able to quote us that. Cus that is a bit steep if I am honest but we shall see. We even went with Wickes cus of their offers on and that its not like high end stuff its kinda just normal average family home value. Hate to see how much bespoke high end stuff is

I went to bed as I had had enough of being in pain with my stomach. I brought some yogurt bacteria drink things to give a go. So I had one when I came in.

When I woke up jack made me eat lunch >.> just simple fruit loaf gave me stomach pains T^T

so I was once again back on the bed with heat packs on my stomach. I rang mum to see when she was coming over. and she said just 10mins

so when she came over we went into the garage where Oz was in his hutch. Mum had brought wood paint so she could paint the 'new' hutch which was at the other end of the garage. I lifted the roof/lid of the hutch and my god there must have been 100 rabbit poos in it....OZWALD!!! I said "you dirty beast! right shown me up in front of mum" so I was there sweeping out all these poos so mum could paint it. I kept her company whilst she did as I was cleaning out Oz's hutch. hardly any poos in there - i wonder why >.> the git

mum stayed for a cup of tea with Jack and Oz and me but I wasnt having a tea as I had stomach ache and didnt want to have anything. She left and me and Jack went for a little walk

since then we looked at bathrooms and I wrote down what specifications we have and any questions we can put to this richard. Then we went and made dinner we had noodles I enjoyed it but my stomach of course hated me for it. Now I am just doing my diary whilst Jack games with dungeon and dragon nerds. Its usually on a thursday night but this thursday is new years eve so they moved it

i said "another night I go to bed by myself then" he did feel guilt but I am not overly bothered. its not like its every night. just 3rd night in a row!

so its now 7:10pm and I am wondering what to do with my time, I might go and dance in the living room I would like to do some dance practice cus I have bits to learn or re-learn. I have the living room to myself and the stupid chandelier has gone too! I might do that, see Oz and then do some drawing then go bed.

Tomorrow 

apart from this richard guy coming over at 2:30pm we dont actually have any plans! so i might have a bit of an easier day tomorrow! 

New bathroom on the horizon!

 Evening

I went to bed by myself last night after Jack had watched 1 episode of Inuyasha with me

I still enjoyed myself. But does feel a bit strange getting into bed without him.

I soon fell asleep tho as I was shattered. I woke up a bit when Jack came to bed but soon dropped off to sleep. I woke up at 7:45am and got up without jack as I knew he must have come to bed late. I let Oz out and had a cup of tea. I havent actually given him anymore dry food since hes been here! he just eats loads of weeds outside, so whilst I drank my tea in silence I watched him graze from the patio doors

I wanted to get on with my morning, I wanted to dance and I knew my parents were coming over so I woke Jack up at 9:15am as that meant I had given him an extra 90mins in bed - I felt this was fair

He was reluctant to get up >.> turns out he went to bed at 1am -_____- 

this morning I danced for 15mins which isnt the usual amount I liked but I need to build myself up again and no do myself in. Also I struggle on that carpet its a lot less grippy than the one at mums and also that stupid chandelier I am also frightened of hitting. I went for a shower and Jack hoovered, he finished just as my parents arrived.

My dad was so good,  he spent like almost 3 hours with Jack putting up the wardrobes. He also took down that stupid chandelier ^^ the wardrobes look good, that room looks so different now it is unreal. We have storage space now so I can bring my clothes over! Mum and dad left and me and Jack had a late lunch cus it just took longer than anyone thought to put that wardrobe up. Dad was determined to get the job done today. Whilst he worked me and mum had gone for a cold walk in 1c coldness, then warmed up with Oz with a brew. She enjoyed seeing him ^^

she has invited me and Jack over for pizza and a buffet on news years eve :)

Me and Jack cleaned the patio doors as they were so grimy and dull and black in places so now they look almost new! they have come up amazingly. We sat and did our meal plan and shopping list. Then I talked to him about getting our bathroom re-done. We both knew that a company called Wickes is having a bathroom sale on til i think 11th January. I said to him "is it ok for me to ring for an appointment?" he said "yeah thats fine" so I did. just got up the courage and rang up right away!

and we have 3 appointments with them this week! good job we're doing this during our time off! 

so tomorrow our designer is ringing me to introduce himself and to tell us what we need for our second appointment and just to see what kinda thing we are after. Thats at 7:30pm

then we have another appointment the next day which is face to face i believe at the store thats at 2:30pm and this designer will show us what we can have for our bathroom and basically get an idea of what he needs to do for us. I think theres the possibility of of a 3D image of our bathroom. This meeting can take up to 90mins i was told

then on the saturday at 10:30am we meet with the designer in store again and we see our bathroom designed on a screen! I was told that even when we get this far we dont have to go with them we can turn this down. But I think they can do literally all of it so that would be fantastic as I need as little stress as possible. 

I felt so proud of myself for sorting all this out ^^ So Jo will now spend this week looking at bathrooms @.@ I asked jack how much of an input he wants. we came to the agreement that he will check my ideas and see if he likes them. designing and planning is not something he is good at XD

I then had awful stomach pains and had to spend some time on the toilet --____--

I fell asleep for a little while as I felt so cruddy

we had dinner when I woke up and now I am just finishing my diary so I can sit with Oz, put him home and watch some Inuyasha with Jack then I will go bed and he will game once again with Harvey and Theo.

Tomorrow we are going shopping early in the morning, sorting out the wardrobes in the spare room, like jack's clothes as mine arent here yet. and hopefully I might be able to do some drawing tomorrow as I havent found any time for myself lately but I have been achieving other things

not happy about how bad my stomach is tho

Hopefully we will get a new bathroom soon tho :D