its gonna be a rough couple of days

 Evening

It's hot 

need I say more

Tomorrow its gonna be like 40c so more like 50c in the prep room. We will die. I am concerned about keeping my bunny cool. He is my priority and so far I have been totally on it in keeping him cool and hydrated. It's gonna be 25c at 5am in the morning....ouch....

so yeah I just gotta get on with it then come home to care for Oz. I hope my Jack copes when the sun hits the prep room TT^TT my poor Jack....

suppose to rain all day wednesday. we will all be wishing for wednesday to come

wish me luck 

it can't be 40c next week, it just cant be

 Evening

Man why is it so freakin' hot!? ahhhh no more please no more

and next week, I could not believe my eyes, its predicted to be 40c.....the hottest on UK record. No one will survive next week. There has already been some school closers, is mine on the list? eh no. course not. The school across the road from ours however has said they closed monday tuesday. Obviously they have it hotter over the field to us. Or more likely, they actually care about staff well being >.>

I will be going school. Jack told me I can work from home. But I only do that if I am not good. I am gonna go, if I die on monday I will have tuesday off sick. simple. cus whatever degree it is outside, stick 10 more for the prep room. we have asked for AC because we have chemicals that have lower boiling points (some as low at 38c) and so we need to safely store them. But when we asked we got the response of "no you cant have AC because you might use it when its not needed therefor costing us money" BS. they just dont care about us and dont wanna spend money on us. Someone will get poorly from the heat.

So school was ok and after school I went to a shop with mummy for just householdy things nothing great I was so tired tho as I needed a sleep but I dont get to go out with mummy much and it was also a lot cooler yesterday. today is 28c tho >.>

I didnt exercise yesterday as I literally had nothing more to give. Jack was home late due to crappy buses, the night went on and on I was still doing stuff at 8:20pm. I didnt fall asleep til gone 11:30pm

This morning, Jack got up early and did some gardening with Oz before it got too hot, I was in bed til 8:40am. We had breakfast together which was nice then we both got on with chores before it got too hot. I cleaned Oz out and cleaned the bathroom.

I did some painting and got red paint on my white sleeve. To say it is stained and ruined is an understatement. I am not happy

I went to bed after lunch as I needed sleep

did not expect to be asleep for 2 hours tho....my god I must have been tired. 

Then pretty much just chilled out and painted and stayed hydrated. Cant do much else as its boiling. I have kept Oz in and given him water and plants and anything he wants 

I did dinner and watered the garden. 

Think we are about to do our food shop its 6:20 so probably leave at 6:30pm and go spend some time in AC supermarkets~~

I might do some exercise when i get home or I might just dive in the bath I shall see

tomorrow it is suppose to be hell. I am unsure what we will do tomorrow......

Why is it so hot T^T

Slightly cooler today -_______-

 Evening

I slept pretty well last night even tho Jack wasnt in bed. I think it helped as it was cooler and so I didnt need to have the fan on. I find it hard to sleep with the fan on. Its too noisy and stuff. 

I felt tired this morning tho

School was still stuffy and humid despite it being a bit cooler

I got a lot done and had to trial a practical with head of biology which was unexpected and made me very nervous. It actually went fine. I got to talk to Julia's daughter again ^^ she talks to me and jack loads but barely speaks in front of her mum. So strange. Julia doesnt criticise. ever. My dad criticises everything I say or do, hence why I dont speak in front of him. Makes me wonder why she doesnt speak in front of Julia. Its sad. Her confidence is on the floor. So I make the effort to talk to her when i can ^^ 

I went home for lunch but got fuel on my way home >.> my car is so unwell. That gearbox is gonna break any time soon....I just know it....My dad knows and is gonna check the car out at the end of the month as its due an MOT then anyway but yeah I am half expecting to just die on me. I hope not as its been my best car EVER I love my car but its an automatic and doesnt like changing gears....

I saw mummy for lunch and she had kindly bought my Ozwald in. She had brought Jack a really heavy and dense sausage roll for his dinner, I will do him some chips with it.

I fell asleep for an hour then i got up and worked on Jack's birthday card cus I really need to do him one before we break up. I then made a cake ready to go in the oven. I had my dinner with Oz. 

Jack has been having a late session at school's warhammer club. As I think its the last session of the year? possibly? not sure. So hes not finishing til 5:30pm but he doesnt think he will get out til 6pm due to clearing up and putting the classroom to right. So when hes on the way home I will put my cake in the oven then get his dinner ready for him for when hes home as he will probably be hungry. He will probably be home just after 7pm I am guessing.

Im gonna get my exercise done whilst he is travelling so i can serve his dinner up when he arrives and go grab a bath~

Tomorrow

is friday!!! Woohoo! and I believe Jack has his friday gaming session. Ahhhh another day of less Jack-time for me T^T

I told people how special I am

 Evening

I got some sleep through the night but it was another hot one. Its going to be 34c on Monday T^T 34c and no house in the UK has AC and hardly any buildings ether have  AC. Its gonna be HELL.

I felt like i needed more sleep tho I have to say but I got up and put my BBQ sausage stew on. I had Oz in but took him outside for 20mins as it was cooler out there

School was lovely and humid sweet jesus that place is death

I happily told a few science teachers about my assessmenty thing yesterday I finished with "the whole thing made me fell very special" to which Luke and a physics teacher said "you are very special" together XD and head of physics commented that "thats one word for it" XD as im always calling him Autistic. To be honest my relationship with me makes me laugh as hes like 50 odd and very reserved and proper but somehow I have brought him down to my level, he actually plays with my humour and its good as I never see him like that with anyone else, even Jack, who works closely with him. Jack says I have been a bad influence on him XD

head of science also came to ask how I got on

I practiced a practical with  head of biology and I put her display up, its not finished yet

I came home and mum had arrived she went to bring loaf in, we had lunch then she left as she could see I was tired. I was just really tired. Turns out she went to sleep when she got home!! I am putting it down to the weather.

I got up and sat in the lounge on my laptop as Jack wanted me to make sure no more ants were coming and so far so good. Actually havent had an ant yet! Oz is still being kept inside so he cant play in the ant powder as we are not sure if it toxic to pets and not taking that chance.

I did a 30min work out then had a cold bath, I got cold!! I was so cold but it was good to bring my body temperature down. Jack came home and had the bath he was very grateful for. We had dinner and hes got 10mins to get to his brother's gaming session on time, he has already had the reminder text message....makes me determined to get him to gaming on time!

I will be by myself tonight but thats fine. i havent done any painting yet today so I will go do some painting. Oz can loaf in here I am sure. I cant face watering my garden tonight. I have done it every damn day this week -______- I also got bit on my leg whilst working out and that hurts when I walk on it. Best be better tomorrow

tomorrow

just school, nothing special, counting down the days as I think 26th is the last day!

Mia says the bridesmaid dresses have arrived

ADHD Autism meeting, I tick A LOT of boxes XD

 Evening

It took me til about 11pm to sleep, then I kept waking up cus its hot! Yup it was stupid hot....

this morning I got up with Jack and had breakfast with him and Oz. He left for school and I did jobs and and sat round with Oz til 8am then I did a half hour work out, thought I may as well before the heat really kicks off. I then had a cold shower which was nice and needed

I saw the psychiatric nurse with mum around 9:45am, I was so nervous. Why? we were only gonna be talking about me and how I think. It went on for 2 and half hours. Jeez. I wrote loads!!! I was so done. I can't believe I filled both the ADHD section AND the Autism section. I didnt realise how Autistic I am. I think cus I have always had my brother and seeing his autism and not being like that I kinda thought 'thats not me' but its such a broad spectrum I guess. The nurse seems to think I will get some sort of assessment if not both assessments XD yup I am THAT retarded XD I had to laugh through it cus if not i would just feel really different and crap. She told me to feel good about myself as I had learned how to get by in life and adapt to society the best I could with no help. How far I had come and my brain just works a bit different is all.

I had lunch with mummy then she left as I was so drained. I felt as mentally drained as if I had been work! So I had an hour on my bed with Hammington.

The humidity really rammed up in the afternoon, the sun wasnt out but yeesh the humidity was crazy. I was just sweating loads it was like being in a rain forest. Its really cloudy so its gonna be a warm night -______- Jack had been hot today bless him. I was cutting up stuff for stew so he wouldnt have to. He came home and made his lunch and did some washing up then we did dinner which was tasty.

Then he helped me with the last bit of my form which was just box ticking. I watered the garden and took Oz home who has been in 12 bloody hours and he still didnt want to go home! he is greedy and always wants more >.> he is practically a house bun. He hasnt been able to play out today due to the ant powder outside. We have had 2 flying ants in today thats all and there is a lot of dead ants outside ^^ its working but we are gonna leave it there at least another day so thats Oz in all day again tomorrow.

We will watch anime and play pokemon in bed that will be our evening. i have been doing my painting it is coming on its just slow

tomorrow

it is school ugh. Its gonna be hot. Also the lady who was interviewed yesterday for the other half of my job has turned the job down, cant blame her!

It was just a bad weekend

 Evening

I didnt do my diary at the weekend as I had a sucky weekend, I was in a bad mood and writing about it all would probably have angered me further. Yeah I felt actually angry at the weekend which is odd for me. It was like, if one more thing went wrong - I would have snapped and lost it. Thats how I felt

I woke up late on Saturday cus Id been up til 2am in pain, I had 30mins to get ready before mum came to pick me up. I had to give her girls a  hair cut then she gave me cake. i came home to find Jack cleaning the kitchen. We then cleaned the  house. It was hard work. We had ant trouble again, my frying pan handle snapped, I couldnt cook the dinner I had planned as I was down a frying pan, I was hot and bothered. I couldnt walk from one of my house to the other without sweating as the humidity is crazy in this country. I felt off and then had to go out food shopping which felt like a massive chore. 

Sunday I had woke up late again I think cus I was shattered. We went out for a new frying pan (the car at 11am said it was 33c), I cleaned the bathroom, I had to deal with the ants again. Just a lot of things felt like they were testing me at the weekend you know? I made Jack very aware of how I was feeling and I could tell he actually gave me space. He doesnt really sweat whereas I sweat for the both of us. Luckily i dont stink otherwise my life would be hell.

So last  night it was another humid  hot night and I woke up what felt like every 30mins man. I was ok getting up for school just anxious.

I met the lady who came to interview for my jobs other hours as I am part time now, she seemed very nice and around my mums kinda age. I wonder if she got the job? given shes our only applicant I bet she got it.

School, well we walked into the prep room at 7:50am I checked a thermometre, 30c.

yup 30c, it was gonna be a hell of day

I quickly got my jobs done then went to do any sitting down jobs I could do in the office, as the science office has air con and it was a dream. I was actually cold with goosebumps in there!! I wasnt complaining tho.

I then left for home where I sweated to death in my hot car

I got home and had lunch with mummy, I fell asleep very quickly on my bed for an hour

I did some painting, I killed some ants, just waiting for Jack to come home then I will do dinner, work out then cold bath. Cold cold bath

Tomorrow

Im seeing a psychiatric nurse to talk about ADHD and Autism and she is gonna help me fill out the mammoth form and hopefully this should get me an assessment for like 6 years time.

I am anxious about it and not looking forward to it as I have been putting this off for months now.

Still its better than going to hot school

Oz has our only fan to himself, keep the bunny cool bless him. He seems to be doing ok in the heat just because we are doing our best to keep him cool and safe.

I want rain.....

attack of ant 2022

 Evening

Man I could no way sleep last night. I hurt, I was hot, I could not get comfortable at all.

I went back to bed at 1:30am but still took me til past 2am to sleep

I just wanted to get the day done when i woke up for work

School was warm -______- so humid and hot its awful. Luckily I leave before the peak of the heat of the prep room. I did the jobs Jack asked of me, I briefly saw Lizi and I didnt get to do my display stuff. Well I got a lil bit of it done but not as much as I had in mind T^T

I came home and had lunch with mummy, whilst talking to mum after my food I noticed a flying ant in the living room, then an ant. I didnt think much of it as I knew it was flying ant day yesterday.

Last year we suffered a terrible thing. Upon flying ant day - when ants flee the nest, we discovered how many little holes were on the outside of our house, we had loads of ants pouring into our lounge. It was like something out of a horror movie. We did not want to experience such horror again so we filled the wall holes in a month or two ago

but today I decided to just look behind my sofa - where they all came in from last year

and much to my horror I discovered, the same thing was happening

mum said I was like a woman possessed XD i moved the sofa out the way and grabbed the hoover and was sucking up as many ants per second I could

I asked mum to go outside to see what we were faced with. Turns out the ants have dug through were the house and floor meets, and then crawled up the inside of the wall and coming out of a hole behind the radiator. Mum went to put ant powder down, I was spraying the ants I was sucking them up. Mum kindly emptied my hoover outside as it was full of live ants -______- its was horrible.

My face was flushed I was dripping with sweat, dripping. I felt itchy and hot, I hurt my back being on my hands and feet hoovering ants and being tense as hell.

I was so grateful of mum being there for back up 

She asked once that horror was over (after a boiled the kettle on creeps) if she should go

as originally i wanted to catch up with my sleep but I said to her the was no way I could sleep after that I was too wired to sleep

she stayed til 2:30pm then i did a workout and then laid in cold bath for 30mins and just chilled the hell out.

I got out the bath and jack came home, he went in the bath which I think he was grateful for

i filled him in with my afternoon, we said this summer holiday we will removed the radiator off the wall and patch up holes this side of the wall rather than the outside.

I can not go through that a 3rd time.

we had dinner and I trimmed Oz's fur on his tummy it was very cute and he just let me do it bless him.

I wrote out the shopping list, watered the garden really well

got to choose my pokemon I want to play on pearl with so Jack can catch them for me. I have got to write down what I want to do in the holidays and do 10mins of hobby time

where has the time gone today??

Not sure what we will do later as its so hot the lounge, the school behind us are having their summer BBQ so all we can hear is that. Ive been listening to their bouncy castle fan pump things droning since 3pm. ugh

tomorrow

I will clean Oz out, then mum is picking me up at 9:30am so I can go over to her house and play Sow Salon, the girls want a hair cut as its hot. Their claws may want doing too. Mum has baked a cake so I am more than happy to go over XD

I then want to dust my house as its really bothering me now, I need to clean the bathroom and do a food shop. Basically there will be zero Jo Time tomorrow but Sunday should be better, i hope

just no more ants, please