Manchester Ikimasu~

Ohayou Gozaimasu Minna

Today's the day!!!

Im going to manchester!!!!!

I could scream im so excited!

Altho the journey is causing me some anxiety

i will just be glad to get there I think

Im gonna try sleep the journey away~

I will be back Monday Evening

Then I will be working Tuesday til Saturday

I will be truly dead, so please dont expect much

from me in the way of dances, im just

not going to have the time or energy im afraid!

But I will bring back plenty of photos :)

Im going with 5 of my friends so theyres a good group of us

Mia - Rob  &    Helina - Clinton   &   Dom

Mia and Rob have been to Manchester loads so

I dont have any worries about becoming lost

My only worry is tho...my Prince

leaving Tiffin with a poorly eye is hard

my family has got to give him his medication over the weekend

theyre not confident but i hope they manage

i know tiffin isnt going to be a happy bunny this weekend

I HAVE NEVER LEFT HIM BEFORE!!!

oh tiffin i feel like im leaving my actual baby behind XD

He will be fine im sure, and I know the guineas will be fine

guineas are far easier than bunnies~

Anyway Im going off to finish the rest of my packing

and getting myself presentable :)

I'll blog when Im back in the mean time I drew you

all a very pretty picture and uploaded a dance

(I wont have internet access hence no updates over the weekend)

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OTXOkAwXBl4&feature=youtu.be

Im going tomorrow!!!

Good Evening~

This time tomorrow I'll be in Manchester!!!!!!!
both nervous and excited ><
I have just been for a walk with mia and helina talking
about tomorrow and things

My manager called at 9:20am this morning
i was just getting dressed would you believe
so i ended up talking to her over the phone for 20mins
in my pants and t-shirt =.=
i didnt tell her that XD

I got a lot of my packing done today 
just got the final pieces to pack tomorrow like hair stuff
and make-up bag y'know

I had yoga last night and bloody hell did she test us
it was a small class and she used that to her advantage 
she has us up the walls, man that is tough work supporting your whole body
and she had us holding strong positions for what felt like eternity!!
She was talking to the class but looking at me whilst saying
"you have all gotten so strong you should see the difference
to when you first started" i thought I know i am stronger and its a nice feeling
but she gives me what i like to call "special treatment" as I have
hyper-mobility syndrome my joints are too flexible there for im using
my joints and not my muscles so my muscles become weaker
so she put straps round me, just me, when we do certain positions
as she can see my muscles arent working and i need to strengthen them
i feel like trouble to her, i dont ever ask her for her to give me extra help
she just does it, and enjoys it im here only "pupil or whatever" that has
hyper-mobility syndrome so i suppose it gives her a different challenge

my legs bloody killed after yoga i thought "im gonna hurt tomorrow"
when i woke up i got up and thought "im ok i got off lightly"
but then going down the stairs, jesus the pain XD

my plant in my room i watered it today
i came back from a lovely massage making me flexible once again
to find my windowsill had a lake on it =.=
so much for a pot the stupid thing has come undone in the corners
so i had all brown soil water to clean up >.>
ive put the pot and plant in the garden now

i gave tiffin his medicine he was not impressed
and mum had ago giving it to him but i can tell shes not confident
i get the meds straight in his mouth no messing but mum
was hesitant and got it round his mouth not in it
im sure they will be ok over the weekend

right well im gonna go sit with my pets now
i shall blog and upload a dance tomorrow
here's a picture i was drawing
a chibi of the character im cosplaying as on saturday~

   

Tiffin and his poorly eye

Konbanwa~

I slept bad again!!! Ugh am I cursed this week!?
and unfortunately mum had to wake me because I had a doctors appt at 8:50am
I moaned at her half asleep about not wanting to get up
i didnt even do that when i was teenager! XD 
alwell I got up as I need to check Tiffin's eye anyway

Last night we realized he had a sore eye, I had bathed it
and looked in it but I couldnt see anything
this morning it had been weeping and the fur round his eye was wrong
so i picked him up and bathed his eye on the sofa
i had another look but still couldnt see anything
so i rang the vets up and luckily they managed to fit him in today
4:20pm was his appt

at the doctors i had the lovely task of saying i have stupid thoughts in my head
what i thought everyone got day to day was apparently wrong
i told my doctor this and he said "no more medication if we can help it
your on a lot for someone your age, it should go with time
when you start to enjoy life more and get out into the world you
will have more important things to think about than yourself and your weight"
which i liked to believe is true and i was glad i was dosed up with anymore
medication, he offered CBT but i dont feel like talking to anyone yet
im not that mental and it was nice to hear from a doctor that im not mental
my only fear is the day i cant fight it and i go along with the thoughts
he weighed me and i had lost weight

i got home and did my time sheet for work
and wrote down everything i am doing next week and where
i am working 5 days a week as of tuesday - saturday!!!
so as soon as I get home from Manchester im working
which is fine to the "normal" person but im not normal
it normally takes me a week to recover from my holiday
this time i wont get anytime to recover and be expected to
work more hours and more days than i ever have before
i can tell you i am very nervous about how my body will handle this
i will do my best
in that 5 days tho i will earn more than i have all this month
so i suppose it has its good points~

tiffin at the vets, he was such a good boy honestly
i was so proud of him, not a single growl
the vet started to say his tear duck was blocked, and because of his
breed - netherland dwarf - their tear ducks are tiny and are prone to blocking
she was on about knocking him out and flushing them clean
i suddenly felt more panicked and sick then i already did
the thought of him needing an op and i was going away
i dont think i would have gone on holiday!
anyway instead she gave us eye drops, anti-biotic, anti-inflammatory 
to give him once a day for a week

we took him home and i left him chill out in his cage
then after 45mins i got him out and gave him his medication
he wasnt too bad taking it actually i thought he would kick off
so my family have got to administrate his medication
saturday & sunday, they are not looking forward to it!
im sure he will be a good boy tho :)

anyway im off to yoga
tomorrow i have a massage and my god do i need it!

 

what dull day

Evening~

I didn't sleep again
its really annoying i was tired too
dont know why im not sleeping :/

I woke up feeling like id been ran over in my sleep
i hurt and ache everywhere and just feel exhausted
i hate days like this, days when my illness is on top form
it sucks and is boring like hell

so i dont feel like i have achieved much today
I did get a few jobs done tho
I chose what outfits i'm gonna wear whilst i am away
which took a good hour, as i was choosing down to what accessories to take with me
I wrote down a list of things to take with me which i keep adding to XD
I prepared my make-up bag as i can never zip the bugger up
so i emptied it off things i know im not gonna need so i can shut it now
and chose which fake eye lashes to take ;)

I got an email through with what work i have when i come back
i just hope i will be well enough to do the work
i can feel a lot anxiety building up but ive just gotta take one day at a time~

I slept for 4 hours today would you believe?
2  hours i fell asleep then i woke up and couldnt be bothered to get up
i was comfy and didnt want to move so i just drifted in and out of sleep
til 4 hours had passed and i thought "i better get up" didnt do much tho

tomorrow I have doctors appointment at 8:50am
i dont want to go =.= its about my mental state
ive gotta talk about whats in my head and i dont know how i feel about doing that
i guess i'll just get on with it i just hope the doc takes me seriously
but not too seriously that he locks me into a looney bin XD

tiffin's eye is red :( just this last hour his eye is red
i think he's been scratching it so much its been bleeding
im so sad my heart feels crushed i hope hes ok
ive tried to clean his eye, i thought i saw something in it
but he was getting that stressed and hot we had to let him go outside
i'm gonna have another look later 
if its the same in the morning he will be going vets i pray it doesnt come to that tho

yeah so a cruddy day for me :/ 
i hope tomorrow will be a better day~
i uploaded a dance i did last week
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m1qC-qsozwA

My Neko Watch

Good Day

Ahh~ today I ache and feel wary
maybe yesterday took it out of me
but if thats how i am after half a day out of walking
around a city, how am i gonna be at Manchester!?
i can already feel my anxiety building 
I just dont like letting people down
but my friends know the score so if i need to rest
at the hotel im sure they will be fine with it
i wont be tho i will be beating myself up mentally
i hope im strong enough for this weekend!

I did manage to make a strap for my watch

It was easy to do
hardest part was choosing the fabric!
im really pleased with it tho ^^
Going to wear it for work :D

at 12:30 I had a hair cut appointment
the lady there who usually sweeps up, was doing a woman's hair
and sitting there i thought "you dont usually do hair" Ive seen her wash hair
but never style & cut hair, all the times ive been going and i never
knew she could actually do hair! she called me over
and cut my hair I could actually see! haha my fringe was so long
the style isnt how i usually get it cut, my hairdresser knows
how I like it ^^ but I was just grateful they fit me and cut it before the weekend

I then fell asleep for a couple of hours
i hate days like this, days im stripped of my strength and energy
but im sure i'll bounce back tomorrow :)

I have been drawing the rest of the day
getting close to finishing my picture
it will be uploaded on friday~

tomorrow i am going to get on with some
jobs that need doing!!
*a list of things to take manchester
*time sheet for work
*choose outfits to take away with me

I was thinking today, i have never left tiffin before
i dont want to leave him!! my gorgeous little prince
but i know mum will look after him

right thats me for today~

Vintage Fair Ikimashita~

Konbanwa 

Last night I woke up a few times due to a neighbour having 
a party to all hours of the morning, i mean how selfish is that? ahaha XD
I was having dreams about blood too which made me wake up
what's with all the bad dreams lately!?

Anyway mum woke me up which i was glad of
as i had to get ready to go out with mia
we were going to the vintage fair in the city - Albert Hall
Ive never been to the Albert Hall before I didnt even know where it was XD

So I got myself ready and attempted the best vintage look i could do

what do you think? not too bad is it? i tried anyway ><

she picked me up and we went and it was great!
so much to look round its like one big charity shop! <3
there was an upstairs and downstairs, many people dressed up
we got a complement from someone about ours looks ^^
there was a few cute things i would have loved to have brought
but i was saving my money for next weekend~

I did pick up this watch
the lady had loads of watches for sale but i couldnt choose
i think too much choice
ive been wanting a watch for work, i only have the nurse watch which is
always on my lab coat, and what with wearing a t-shirt for work now
instead of the lab coat for summer i wanted something else
all i own is necklace pocket watches and theyre not practical for work
so i brought this one simply because its a cat face X3
Tomorrow I am going to change the strap as I hate it
the lady had for sale these watches - the face was on a strap of material
and you tie it round your wrist, great idea i was gonna buy one
but the watch faces were so old, gold and dull and boring
so i thought "i'll do my own" ^^

mia got her hair professionally done by these 2 ladies
it took about 15mins and she was transformed! it was amazing
she received many complements from passerbys whilst she was
on the hairdresser's chair, thats my mia ^^
she was in love with her hair after that i mean it is good isnt it
i did a before and after shot for her

she brought me a piece of cake and tea, my reward
for doing her dress the other day
it was so good i cant tell you how good it was =3=

we left then and went round 2 charity shops
we were in the center of the city and we chose yet more
second hand stuff to look round XD
I got a pair of joggers for £1!!!!!!! with squirrels on! theyre practically new to!
my bargin of the day

then she dropped me off home and i have rested for a lil while
but we didnt get home til 4
my dad had brought a jacket for work
he wanted it altering so ive sat and warily done that  

now i want to rest to my heart's content
i washed my face well, i get worried that i'll get a bad face from wearing make-up ><

 

My hair was dyed~ such a relief

Obandesu yo~

Today I slept well >3<
and mum waited to have breakfast with me outside
with all the pets, i like sitting eating outside with Tiffin round my legs ^^
from sitting out so much, i have got a tan this year!
last year I didnt go in the sun much so i never tanned
and so all year i looked quite sickly and pale
i was determined to not look sick anymore!

Mum had spare time this morning so she dyed my hair!!!!
I was so happy and so relieved
usually she dyes it after its been cut = less hair to dye
but my hair cut is monday and she has a busy week and im leaving friday
so we decided to do it today
ahhh~ it so much fresher, shinier and softer =3= im happy
just needs cutting  now and i will be tidy enough to face the world XD
at least my hair wont look too bad for vintage fair tomorrow
speaking of which i have practiced with my hair but i suck
after at looking at even more videos today i still couldnt get it right
i'll have 1 more attempt tomorrow before mia is over!

I went for a walk by myself round the neighbourhood
i got quite hot actually but i felt better for having a stretch out
then I have pretty much been drawing today
working on a picture before i leave for manchester
yet more Chibi!


what do you think? Chibi Jozu~

tomorrow Im off to the vintage fair
I will be sure to take photos!
I took this photo today of my girls!