How personal can it get!?

Good Evening~

not so tired today so I will do a proper diary entry XD

Yesterday was fine

I worked with both the Dept head and the headmistress!

But I never feel nervous round them as I know them

so its alright.

I spent the morning sitting with a girl whilst she sat doing an exam

then the afternoon the class were doing art dedicated the the Queen's 90th birthday

I thought Id join in and I drew a dog against the Union Jack

the kids were amazed some just sat and watched me

I let a girl take home the image and she was thrilled :)

This morning I finished a book I was reading

kinda weird and dark i wasnt bothered about buying the next one

thats for sure, so Ive started another book~

I had a lazy morning of reading and playing on my 3DS

had my lunch and went to bed. sod the world!

When I got up I went for a short walk with mum

did some sewing, I wasnt sure what TO sew but then I remembered I had

collected a lot of labels so I decided to sew them together

and add another row to this random piece ive been making

its full of labels, fabric and ribbons that have writing on them

when I collect a load I stitch them together and then sew them

to the over all patch, its gotten quite big actually

god knows what i'll eventually do with it tho!

Mum baked a cake for Millie~ her first birthday

so I got to decorate it

It tastes yummy ^^

I had a doctors appointment about my blood test results, my daily stomach ache

my blood test was fine and didnt need repeating ^^

and as for my stomach ache *sigh* the reason I never went in the first place is

cus I knew he'd blame it on IBS so what did he say today? hmm wonder what it

was he fobbed me off with this time..ahh yes it was IBS

he says that cus its convenient and easy. he such a time waster

he gave me a diet to try, im yet to look at it. but maybe i will start it over the weekend

gonna do it for 2 weeks and if it makes no difference (which im guessing it wont) i shall go back.

I asked for some tablets to give me a period as its been a while since i had one

which is normal for me, but I just didnt want it to get me and ruin my day on the convention next weekend. So I asked him and he said

"now im gonna ask you, is there any chance your pregnant?"

I said "no"

doctor "how can you be sure?"

me "cus ive never, you know, taken part in that kinda thing"

doctor "your still a virgin?"

me "yes" - felt like saying 'and what of it bub!'

doctor "have you thought about dating? there are guys out there"

now i found that a lil insulting. I know exactly what hes thinking here

he's is thinking 'she has a sad life and just focuses on her health. 

if she had a relationship she

wouldnt be so focused on her health' that is exactly his thoughts i can read him like a book.

how does he know ive not had relationships? how does know i even want a guy? 

had he not thought i could be lesbian? (not that I am!!!!)

that guy is full of rudeness

so I said "i have been close with guys but Ive never taken it further"

doctor "fair enough, how come you havent had sex before?"

WHAT!!!!? how personal is that!!!?

so I said "because I havent had a boyfriend and im not into one-night-stands"

doctor "theres other ways to have sex than o-"

I interrupted "yes I know" 

so eventually I got what I needed but yeesh i wish hadnt bothered!!!!

I hate that guy >.> whats it to him

ive been ill, im re-building my life and a boyfriend hasnt been on the agenda is all

i could never see the point getting someone involved in my life when i had 

just myself to think of and get better i felt i wouldnt be giving them

my full attention, it wouldnt be fair on them

i wouldnt turn guys away now. but once people get to know they'd run for the hills XD

tonight Im gonna do some dance practice~

i uploaded a dance today actually~

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TOHM0CivBQs

Tomorrow is the weekend~

not sure what im doing tho, no doubt be a sado like usual and be by myself

maybe I am in need of a relationship?

another school day really

Tired

Had an alright day

just the usual at school really

came home slept

then went for a walk with mia

thats all really

Im just not in the mood 

Good thing that happened today

The headmistress told me i was doing good work

oyasumi nasai

Depressed about my ears

Konbanwa~

Mum woke me up, well she brought Pinks into my

room to wake me up. And you cant ignore that pig squeaking XD

Mum was out early so I said Id get up earlier too ><

After I did the usual pet routine, I danced and got a dance recorded ^^

Then I cleaned all 3 cages out~

Mum came home and we went to the shops to pick a few bits up

The only thing I picked up was some white powder for my face

came home and had lunch

then I went to bed as I do on a wednesday~

Since then Ive done a lil sewing, been on my laptop

and had dinner, nothing amazing. Its my day off ^^

Tonight I have yoga and im gonna wear my usual yoga outfit :D

Tomorrow I am going school. Gonna wear my new dungarees :)

Im quite depressed about my ears. I know I cant wear cheap earrings

they HAVE to be gold. My ears got very sore and crusty due to wearing earrings

for college, school, going out etc

so for the whole of the Easter holidays I put my gold ones in to heal my ears

but not to heal the earring hole up.

They healed so I had another go with cheap earrings, see how long I could last

I lasted 2 days and my ears are sore once again T^T so Ive put my gold ones back in

gold ones are so boring very very boring. Id rather not have my ears pierced if this

is all im gonna be stuck with.

So I came up with an idea. Buy gold or gold plated earring wire (the bit that goes through the hole)

and take my earrings apart and add the gold on. Hopefully then I could wear my cheap

funky earrings and not get in pain. So thats my idea anyway

but Im not sure if gold 'plated' will be enough or if i have to have full on gold.

full gold costs A LOT more as you can imagine

so im depressed about it all T^T

I had my ears pierced at age 14. mum wanted them done. to make me 'girly'

i brought a few cool earrings - cheap ones

and i had a bad reaction to them. so mum brought me gold ones

and i had kept the same pair in til i was 18/19 i started to get funky earrings

and enjoyed them, as the gold were so plain and dull. I wasnt into fashion back then

so it suited me to just keep that pair in. But it just hurts my ears 

hope she doesnt work us too hard at yoga

last week i couldnt walk....XD

I didn't do too bad with my homework after all

Good Day~

I had my usual routine of getting up

and getting pets out.

Luckily I could leave Tiffin out as my brother was staying home.

I headed off to college at 9am

I was a lil anxious just because I didnt want to fail really.

I didn't want 'special' help because my writing wasnt good.

I was the first to arrive to class ^^

Then everyone else came in. The class is even smaller now

2 people prefer not to come in to lesson and work from home

and 2 people just didnt turn up.

I expressed to the people on my table I was nervous as Im not confident

in my english skills. But they all said how well spoken i was

Speaking is different to writing...

Anyway we got our first bit of homework back

and I got 'Good Effort' so I thought that was alright. It would do.

Turns out a lot of people got the same so that made me feel better

the teacher said "everyone didnt reference it into your school days"

but we were never asked to. Teacher didnt mention it and it wasnt written down

so is it any surprise how all of us missed that out? Shes so scatterer brained.

She gave out 2 sheets. She said "read one so you can put the dates in order when these laws happened" I put my hand up "but all the dates are written on the sheet for us"

she said "some are" then some one else pipped up "no they are all written down"

so basically putting them order when they are written down for you was like a 5 year old task.

The other sheet we were suppose to use to help us find the dates wasnt even the correct work sheet!!! The one with the dates on said 'refer to page 29' she'd given us page 30

then she was reading out questions and she said "oh i wont ask you this one as there only half of it"

so basically i think all she does for our lessons is print something off and hope for the best

she doesnt organize or check. very scatter brained. I wouldnt be like if I was teaching.

we had break and I remembered i'd put a toffee lolly in my bag ^^

it was a lovely day so I stood outside opposite the smoker section and had my lolly

i walked back inside with my lolly in my mouth and the security guard gave me a werid look

and after i thought "wonder if he thinks is was a cigarette?" 

waiting to go back inside the classroom. Someone from my class came up to me

"do you smoke!?" I pulled the lolly from my mouth "nah its a lolly"

She said "i swear I just saw you smoking outside" I said "no it was my lolly"

She said "oh ok otherwise I would have had a smoke with you" - lovely

I said "I dont smoke or drink" at this point she looked at as if I had grown another head

The rest of lesson went alright. We did some work and I thought Id have to type it all

up when I got home. But no. the teacher gave us a sheet to say whilst we've been in lesson we

had covered like 5 units!! So why people wish to stay at home and work I have no idea cus

just by being in the room you can pass units! easy!

came home, had lunch, went to bed. I was exhausted and my body felt heavy.

Got up and went on my laptop and 3DS

now thinking of doing a bit of dancing :)

Not sure what I'm doing tomorrow

here's the little cases I made for mum

The blue one is to store medication in

the middle one t o put glasses in and to go in her bag

the other pink one is to put glasses in and to go where she sits

she loved em. I would have done a more fancy design but it was all she wanted

Im back and so are ted and martin

Good evening~

Man Im so tired....

I slept but today just took it outta me

I got up early and put on my new dress for school~

I was glad to be back at school

whilst I went to school, mum was returning Ted and Martin back to

the Head Mistress's home.

They have gone now. I enjoyed making them happy and giving them

such freedom and spoiling them rotten but I dont feel like

I actually enjoyed THEM if that makes sense

and they wont be coming back ether. They could smell my girls

so a lot of the time they fought so we had to separate them :/ 

But they enjoyed themselves I know they did

Head Mistress left us £20 for taking care of them

which mum gave to me!! I was surprised actually.

School was alright, now my teacher has left the year 6 have got

Head Mistress

Dept Head

Retired Teacher

all 3 of which were at the school when I was.....so it's a lil strange

Today we had the retired teacher

hes nice and all but I swear hes losing the plot. I few times it irritated me

as he'd say one thing, then another. almost like he forgot what he said first time

so im telling the kids one thing then he 'changes his mind' so they end up doing it wrong

or differently. One instance was "before your allowed out I want 8 sentences!"

so im encouraging the kids to do 8. about 6 mins later "you need to have done 6 sentences!"

im like -_______- i give up sometimes XD but he gave me a lot of encouragement

at the end of the day and offered to write me a reference should/when i need one!

I will be working with him on Mondays

Yet to find out my Thursday teacher. But I do feel lucky to watch different teaching styles

during break I stayed in with a girl who has broke her arm. I drew an anime boy and girl

course they were thrilled >< it wasnt even that good XD

Came home and just flopped on the sofa til dinner playing my 3DS I was shattered ><

Since then been on my computer catching up

tomorrow I am going to college :) 

As much as I want to go I am feeling anxious about it

I should be getting my homework/coursework back, marked, and its the first

piece ive ever given in. So im hoping it was alright ><

My nails from last night

I watched tutorial using sellotape

it worked but god was it dull and time consuming cutting up the sellotape strips

the kids liked them ^^

After writing about good things yesterday

I decided that I want to write about a good thing that

happens in my life each day

so todays good things~

I learned how to spell knackered properly :)

2 good things happened today~

Konbanwa Minna!

I woke up at 8:45am so not a bad time

I got up for my pets as usual, cleaned the boars out ready

to go home tomorrow. But I also cleaned downstairs

as mum and dad where coming home and mum stresses major

time if the house is a 'mess' even tho no one comes over XD

 First good thing of the day

After tidying up, I went on my laptop ready to start Itunes up

for sewing, my usual routine when sewing

Last night I put a bid on a Natsume figure. There was 2. 1 i liked better but was more money

so I bidded on the other one, but I couldnt even get to be the leading bidder. So this

made that one more expensive than the one I actually wanted. So I went back

to the one I liked and bidded. I became leading bidder and turned my laptop off

as the auction ended at like 4am

getting into bed i thought "im not gonna get it, I should have put more on it"

So when I checked my mail this morning I was shocked!

I had actually won it!!!! I cant tell you how much I was grinning

I know this is just a figure

but from the age of 17 I have always wanted a Natsume Yuujin Chou figure

but never ever saw one, I actually thought 'prehaps they dont exist'

I never gave up my search tho at conventions and online

so when I saw it my heart missed a beat. I hope it gets here safe ><

The other good thing that happened I checked my youtube account

as I havent done for a while, I just seem to upload videos and thats it.

I looked and I have 90 Subscribers and over 20,000 views!!!

When did that happen!? I was so surprised and happy

20,000 people have taken the time to watch me dance ^^

Thank you all~

I got sewing my jacket. Realized the zip I brought for it is too short

so I had to order another >.> that means more money and more waiting!

So I cant continue til the zip comes!!!

thats all there is left to do on it, the zip

So I left that, Helina came round she wanted some tassels sewn onto

her hot pants for her burlesque dance performance..yeah dont ask...

so I did that for her and she was grateful and I did a good job ^^

Mum and dad came home

it is dad's birthday so we gave him his gifts

he was 'pleased' with them. never shows any emotion but considering hes

using them we guessed he liked them.

since then ive watched anime, been for a walk with mum

and danced :) and did some college work actually

this came in the post yesterday~

it is a pattern to make those 2 outfits

I have always wanted to  work with a pattern but when ever i saw patterns

it was always to make garments i would never wear or have any use for

so when i spotted this online i brought it

got it for £3.50 normally £8+ so I got a bargin~

Tonight is Nail Night

so I will painting my nails like I do every sunday night

im having ago using sellotape this time!

tomorrow I will return to school

Ted and Martin will be leaving also

Millie's 1st Birthday!

Good evening~

Today is my little Minmin's 1st birthday!

Bless her shes our youngest pet and a bit of a runt

I can still remember the day i chose her

I love her so very much

I feel like I have deep connection with her some how

i will do anything for her

I love it when mum  brings her to me in bed

and she crawls all the way down my bed sheets and sits between my feet X3

shes so confident for a guinea pig and energetic I hope she stays that way

and I pray we have many many years today

shes so special

so I took some snaps of her~

We havent made a cake yet, think we may do it tomorrow as its my dad's birthday tomorrow

3 guinea pig birthdays in one week!!

Anyway i didnt get to sleep til gone 11pm 

i was shattered

I didnt wake til 9:30am so I was late getting pets out

I cleaned them and put them outside luckily

so they all got to go outside multiple times

i was making the most of the weather which has been usual random british weather

sunny whilst hailing who'd a thought

it had been sunny for over an hour so i decided to go for a walk

and when i did i got hailed on!! I was cold and wet >< not happy

picked it's bloody moment!!

I did some dancing this morning ^^

I have been sewing too as mum wanted 3 glasses cases making

basically look like pencil cases

so i wanted to get them done before she came home tomorrow

then I have been working on my hoodie which has had so many alterations

i hope it actually turns out ok!!!

and thats my day really

im gonna wrap dad's presents now and do some dancing

then sit with pets after my shower

tomorrow ive gotta get up and tidy the house before my parents come home!!